Nearly 7 hours later, the commotion in the ER finally died down and only half of the ESU team reminds for extra security. Bosco has been out surgery for the last twenty minutes but was not allowed visitors because they were having some problems keeping him stable. I'm left anxiously pacing the waiting room on the floor of the ICU praying that a nurse would at least come and let me look at him for a few moments of time. I just wanted to look at him, it feels like forever since I've seen him, I've actually convinced myself that I've forgotten what he looks like. Every minute that goes by is making my stomach feel tighter with anxiety. Every shadow that goes by makes me jump and my heart races thinking that it would be a nurse giving me the Ok to see him. I don't know if it's the facing him that's making me nervous or the wait that's making me wonder if I'll ever get to see him.
A soft knock on the door caused me to spin so fast I thought I was going to fall over.
"Faith? You Okay" Davis asks.
"Yeah. Yeah I just thought you might be one of the nurses."
"Oh. They still haven't come to say its ok." he asked with a concerned look on his face.
"No." I say with the same concern. "Where's Sasha? She go home?"
"Nah, she went to grab some coffee for us."
Just as he finished that statement Sasha opened the door. "Hey. Anything?" she asked while handing out the coffees. I shook my head no "Thanks".
When I was about three sips into my coffee I noticed a nurse walking up to the door of the waiting room. I nervously stand up as she opens the door. "I'll take you to see him now". Running my hand through my hair I look back at Davis and Sasha and then back towards the nurse who must of caught what I was getting at. "I'll let all three of you if promise to be quiet, but only one can stay the night."
Following the nurse down the lengthy hall it felt forever before we got to the door of his room. The nurse stopped in front of the door and turned to face us. "It may seem frightening at first, but everything that you see is only helping him" The nurse smiled walked away.
I walk in immediately knowing that if I were to stand there in longer I would end up with second thoughts of doing so. Before I even turn around the curtain I can the soft sounds of the ventilator and the beeps of the monitor. "God" I whisper as I finally look at him. Davis is behind me and places a hand my shoulder. I start to cry softly at the scene in front me. A thin sheet only covers him up to just under ribs, the rest of his torso is wrapped in a bandage and there are small spots of blood on the bandage. I move around the bed so I can see his face more clearly. His eyes were closed and face was pale, his thin lips were even pale and were wrapped around the ventilator tube. I gently brush my hand along his forehead and down is jaw line. Leaning in from my seat I take hold of his hand and whisper in his ear "I'm here Boz. I'm not leaving." I tighten my grasp on his hand to ensure that fact.
Sasha and Davis said there goodbyes about an hour ago and said that they would come around tomorrow. Lying my head on the bed by his side I can only find myself falling asleep for a few seconds and then jerk awake at the slightest noise. After about a half hour of putting up with that annoying sleep routine I sit back in my chair and rub my hands over my face "ah, I'm going to drive myself nuts" I say to myself. Leaning back on the chair I rest my head against the wall hoping I'll get some sleep, but just my luck a nurse walks in and my eyes shoot open yet again.
She smiles and whispers "Hi".
I look at her and force a smile "How's he doing?"
"Well, he's stable now and that's what need to keep up". She says while checking the monitors and writing things down. Before she walks out the door she turns to look at me "Can I get you a pillow or something"
"Yeah, that would be great. Thank You"
She nodded and was soon back with a pillow. I thank her again and move my chair up closer to the bed. Carefully I place the pillow by his side and take his hand again, with one last look at his sleeping form I drift off to a peaceful sleep myself.
"I'll be right back" I whisper to him. Before I leave I look down at him hoping for some kind of movement or acknowledgement, but he didn't even flinch.
Just as I was walking out of the room I could see in the distance 4 familiar faces walking towards me. Knowing that Lieu probably wanted to talk to me I decided to stay where I was.
"Hey Lieu, what's going on" I ask with worry as I hear him sternly talking to the security officer about him not leaving Bosco's door.
"Faith. I need to talk to you" he says motioning me to follow him down the hall. I look at Sully, Davis, and Sasha in confusion. They look at me in concern as if they know what is going on.
The door to the waiting room clicked closed and the tension in the room filled as I heard Swersky take a breathe. "We got some information from the driver of the car that went through the wake. Uh, he's saying that Donald Mann wants revenge on Boscorelli and that he's determined to make sure that he dies."
" Oh god" I mutter below my breath "Well what's being done about this then"
"I've got a security officer guarding his door 24/7. Until we can get some more information there's not a lot that we can do. This guy says that he has probably left the state."
"Son of a bitch"
"And if he did, its going to make him a lot more difficult to catch." Swersky says becoming more frustrated "What's Boscorelli's condition"
"All they're saying is that he's stable. He's not conscious or anything. I don't know how long he will be on the ventilator"
"Alright well keep me posted if anything changes I've got to get back to the house." I look at him and smile and nod.
"So he's pretty bad then, huh" Sully says.
"Yeah you want to see him. I was going to go back down there"
"Yeah sure Faith."
Sitting down next to him I take hold of his hand look into his face. I see the weakness and how alone he looks and for the first time in just over a year I realize what he meant by that 'I'm the only one'. I can only pray that I'll get that chance to let him know that too.