The room had once again grown quiet, with only myself and Bosco left. The sound of the ventilator is the only thing cutting the silence. I lifted his hand off the bed holding it in my own I carefully hold it to my cheek, using my other hand to caress his forearm. Looking at his face I couldn't help but let a tear fall from my eye and started to quietly talk to him hoping that he would finally open his eyes.
"Boz, you have to open your eyes. Please. I need to let you know that I'm sorry" I pause for a moment as some more tears fell. "I…I want to make up for loss time. I have some things I need to talk to you about."
Seeing no reaction I squeezed my eyes closed and pressed his hand into my tear soaked cheek. "Boz, please"
"Please" I whisper again barely audible. Suddenly I felt a slight twitch against my cheek and hand. I open my eyes immediately and he moves his fingers slightly as if he was trying to grasp my hand. Although his eyes were still closed I knew he was with me.
"Bosco?" I say as my eyes search his face. I can see him slowly starting to open his eyes "its ok Boz. You're Okay, open your eyes I'm here"
Bosco then cracked his eyes open, although I could barely see his eyes it was the beautiful sight I've ever seen. I hit the nurses button to let them know he was awake.
"Hey Boz" I say squeezing his hand and he weakly tried to squeeze back. His eyes looked dazed and confused on what was going on. He kept his eyes locked on me and then suddenly tried to open his mouth to say something.
"Shh. Don't try to talk. You have a ventilator tube down your throat to help you breathe." Bosco nodded in understanding and then closed his eyes wincing in pain.
"Boz you okay?" he looked back up at me and tried to say something again. I placed my hand the top of his head trying to get him to relax. "Are you pain? Just nod yes or no." I tell him before he attempts to talk again.
Bosco nods his yes. "Okay. Just relax I have a nurse coming" I tell him looking down in his eyes smiling hoping to comfort him.
Minutes went by and a nurse still hadn't come by, at first I let it go because Bosco had appeared to have fallen asleep. When he had awaken again nearly 15 minutes later he had became more agitated and was slowly squirming around with in the bed. Fearing that he would hurt himself and because I couldn't do anything myself to help, I quickly left the room to drag a nurse in there.
"Hey! I've paging for a nurse to come check on my partner. He's awake and is very uncomfortable" I say slamming my hands down on the nurses desk in order to get their attention.
"Oh, I'm sorry. We must not of heard the page, we're under staffed today." The nurse at the computer says looking up for a spilt second not looking amused by my way of getting her attention.
"Well can somebody come and give him something for the pain" I tell her a little quieter not wanting to risk a longer wait on it.
"I'll be there in a minute" she tells me while continuing what is was that she was doing. I look back at her for a second and then turn around in a huff back down to Bosco to make sure that he was alright by himself.
"Hey Officer Yokas!" I turn around to meet the voice. 'oh great. I thought the nurse would be my biggest problem today' I thought as I saw Cruz jogging up to me.
"How's Bosco doing? He awake?" She asks looking at me then down the hall.
"Yeah he's awake but…"
"Good because we need to talk him, he might be able to help on this" Cruz says and motioning to her officers to go to his room. I take a step towards her and grab her sleeve to turn her around.
"Whoa, before you go jumping the gun, yet again. Bosco just woke up for one and for two he's in no condition to talk he's still on the ventilator, and you barging in there is just going to upset him." I tell her firmly.
"Look, I'm not in the mood to get into it with you, alright. This guy killed people, cops included. We need get him now not later, and besides I made promise to him that I would bring the bastard down that killed his brother."
"What you think I don't want that to happen, because I do. I also care about his current condition and that's what we need focus on right now and I'm not about to let you go in there and get him upset!" I say trying not to yell to loudly.
"Fine. Call me when they have him off the ventilator"
Watching her walk back down the other way I shake my head and think 'God what is it I can't get a break anymore'.
Walking back to Bosco's room I see a nurse walk out and turn up a corridor in the hallway. 'Good I don't need another rude encounter' I think smiling to myself.
Going back to my seat I smile when I see Bosco looking more comfortable and following me with his eyes. "Hey, you feeling better now" I say taking his hand while he nods yes.
"Good, cause that just took a lot out of me to get her in here. I even had the opportunity to yell at Cruz." I laugh softly when I see that he can't help but attempt to smile at that comment. When silence once again took over I could see in his eyes that he wanted to ask me something. Knowing its what I was dreading to tell him I had a feeling its what he wanted to know.
"You're probably wondering about your mom aren't you" I watch him nod and I look at him with sympathy. Not wanting to see the emotional pain in his eyes again I look away but he gently squeezes my hand and I look into his eyes.
"She's not good Boz. She has a very serious head injury and umm…" I stop when I see the tears well up in his eyes "she's not going to recover. The doctor is going to come in and get your permission to cut her off life support. I'm sorry."
Bosco shuts his eyes and the tears that built up in them slide down his face. Using my thumb to wipe them away I lean over and put my forehead against his. "Bosco, I'm so sorry."
I sit back in the chair and watch as more tears stream down his face. Watching him cry brings tears to my own eyes and I wipe them away and rub his hand "Its okay, its alright".
"Boz, you have to open your eyes. Please. I need to let you know that I'm sorry" I pause for a moment as some more tears fell. "I…I want to make up for loss time. I have some things I need to talk to you about."
Seeing no reaction I squeezed my eyes closed and pressed his hand into my tear soaked cheek. "Boz, please"
"Please" I whisper again barely audible. Suddenly I felt a slight twitch against my cheek and hand. I open my eyes immediately and he moves his fingers slightly as if he was trying to grasp my hand. Although his eyes were still closed I knew he was with me.
"Bosco?" I say as my eyes search his face. I can see him slowly starting to open his eyes "its ok Boz. You're Okay, open your eyes I'm here"
Bosco then cracked his eyes open, although I could barely see his eyes it was the beautiful sight I've ever seen. I hit the nurses button to let them know he was awake.
"Hey Boz" I say squeezing his hand and he weakly tried to squeeze back. His eyes looked dazed and confused on what was going on. He kept his eyes locked on me and then suddenly tried to open his mouth to say something.
"Shh. Don't try to talk. You have a ventilator tube down your throat to help you breathe." Bosco nodded in understanding and then closed his eyes wincing in pain.
"Boz you okay?" he looked back up at me and tried to say something again. I placed my hand the top of his head trying to get him to relax. "Are you pain? Just nod yes or no." I tell him before he attempts to talk again.
Bosco nods his yes. "Okay. Just relax I have a nurse coming" I tell him looking down in his eyes smiling hoping to comfort him.
Minutes went by and a nurse still hadn't come by, at first I let it go because Bosco had appeared to have fallen asleep. When he had awaken again nearly 15 minutes later he had became more agitated and was slowly squirming around with in the bed. Fearing that he would hurt himself and because I couldn't do anything myself to help, I quickly left the room to drag a nurse in there.
"Hey! I've paging for a nurse to come check on my partner. He's awake and is very uncomfortable" I say slamming my hands down on the nurses desk in order to get their attention.
"Oh, I'm sorry. We must not of heard the page, we're under staffed today." The nurse at the computer says looking up for a spilt second not looking amused by my way of getting her attention.
"Well can somebody come and give him something for the pain" I tell her a little quieter not wanting to risk a longer wait on it.
"I'll be there in a minute" she tells me while continuing what is was that she was doing. I look back at her for a second and then turn around in a huff back down to Bosco to make sure that he was alright by himself.
"Hey Officer Yokas!" I turn around to meet the voice. 'oh great. I thought the nurse would be my biggest problem today' I thought as I saw Cruz jogging up to me.
"How's Bosco doing? He awake?" She asks looking at me then down the hall.
"Yeah he's awake but…"
"Good because we need to talk him, he might be able to help on this" Cruz says and motioning to her officers to go to his room. I take a step towards her and grab her sleeve to turn her around.
"Whoa, before you go jumping the gun, yet again. Bosco just woke up for one and for two he's in no condition to talk he's still on the ventilator, and you barging in there is just going to upset him." I tell her firmly.
"Look, I'm not in the mood to get into it with you, alright. This guy killed people, cops included. We need get him now not later, and besides I made promise to him that I would bring the bastard down that killed his brother."
"What you think I don't want that to happen, because I do. I also care about his current condition and that's what we need focus on right now and I'm not about to let you go in there and get him upset!" I say trying not to yell to loudly.
"Fine. Call me when they have him off the ventilator"
Watching her walk back down the other way I shake my head and think 'God what is it I can't get a break anymore'.
Walking back to Bosco's room I see a nurse walk out and turn up a corridor in the hallway. 'Good I don't need another rude encounter' I think smiling to myself.
Going back to my seat I smile when I see Bosco looking more comfortable and following me with his eyes. "Hey, you feeling better now" I say taking his hand while he nods yes.
"Good, cause that just took a lot out of me to get her in here. I even had the opportunity to yell at Cruz." I laugh softly when I see that he can't help but attempt to smile at that comment. When silence once again took over I could see in his eyes that he wanted to ask me something. Knowing its what I was dreading to tell him I had a feeling its what he wanted to know.
"You're probably wondering about your mom aren't you" I watch him nod and I look at him with sympathy. Not wanting to see the emotional pain in his eyes again I look away but he gently squeezes my hand and I look into his eyes.
"She's not good Boz. She has a very serious head injury and umm…" I stop when I see the tears well up in his eyes "she's not going to recover. The doctor is going to come in and get your permission to cut her off life support. I'm sorry."
Bosco shuts his eyes and the tears that built up in them slide down his face. Using my thumb to wipe them away I lean over and put my forehead against his. "Bosco, I'm so sorry."
I sit back in the chair and watch as more tears stream down his face. Watching him cry brings tears to my own eyes and I wipe them away and rub his hand "Its okay, its alright".