Standing at the doorframe the next morning of Bosco's room Faith was asking his doctor a bunch of questions trying to make sense of what it was that happened to Bosco the night before.
"So you don't know what happened for sure?" She asks keeping her eyes on Bosco's unconscious form.
The doctor took in a deep breath "Well, I'm still leaning towards it being a panic attack. I know he has a history of them."
"And you had to put him back on the vent?"
"He stopped breathing. Giving his current condition and the attack mixed together he just couldn't get up the strength to breath on his own." The doctor looked at Faith before turning to go. "When he becomes conscious we'll see about taking him off the vent. I'll be back in a while"
"Yeah okay, thanks." Faith says and walked in the room.
Faith sat beside Bosco using her eyes to scan over his body she couldn't help but feel like they went back a few days when she was sitting beside an unconscious Bosco on a ventilator. She took hold of his hand and sat there waiting for him to awaken.
Hours went by and Bosco remained unconscious with Faith at his side the whole time. His doctor decided to try and take him off the ventilator even though he was still unconscious. Faith stood at the foot of the bed and watched as he pulled he tube out of Bosco's throat. The doctor stood by for a few minutes to make sure that he would breathe on his own. Bosco almost immediately started to breathe on his own, the doctor took that as a good sign and said he'd be back to check on him later.
Keeping her hand linked with his Faith looked up when she saw a figure walk into the room.
"Hey" Faith says acknowledging Swersky's entrance.
Swersky walked up to the foot of the bed "I heard what happened last night. He doing any better?"
"He's unconscious but at least he's breathing on his own now."
"I thought he was over the panic attacks." Swersky says putting his hands on his hips.
Faith looks up "Well they said there's always a possibility for relapses. He thinks with everything that happened, had probably caused it."
"Is this the first or has he been having them all along?"
Faith looked down into Bosco's face and for the first time she realized that she doesn't know this man that is laying beside her anymore. She hasn't known him for along time. She held his hand up to her face and rubbed it between her hands. "I don't know."
When Swersky left, Faith sat beside Bosco trying to figure when it was that they stopped being close. She remembered the times when she couldn't even go through a shift without hearing every last detail of his night before, as much she didn't want to hear some of the details, she loved the closeness and how it comfortable he could be around her. Maybe it stopped when she didn't tell him about her cancer and made him feel like she didn't trust him enough to be able to open up to him. Maybe it was when she told him that she was sick of him and sick his of ways. Faith shook her head at those thoughts 'no, it had to of been when he had came to her and she closed the door while telling him to go away for good'. Just remembering that horrible moment brings back tears to her eyes regretting every second of that conversation. She could never take back those words. Faith thought about what would of happened if the situation had been reversed. She didn't have to think to hard though because the situation was reversed a few times in the past like when she lied to him about the abortion. She remembered the hurt in his eyes when they were in the RMP and he stopped blocking the traffic behind them, the only difference is that Bosco never quit on her. Bosco even told her once that she was a quitter, realizing the truth in that Faith rested her head on his arm and cried.
"I'm sorry Bosco. I made the biggest mistake the day I turned you away. I'm so sorry" Faith cried out keeping her head on his arm.
"I forgive you" The voice was so gentle Faith thought she had imagined it. She shot her head up to see Bosco's beautiful gray blue eyes looking down at her. "But you have to forgive me…because I made the biggest mistake the day I lied to you."
Faith choked out a laugh through her tears and got up from her position and embraced him in a hug the best she could without hurting him and gave him a friendly kiss on his cheek and whispered in his ear "Okay, I forgive you."
Faith sat back down but this time on the edge of the bed keeping her eyes locked onto his and whispered "No more lies, or secrets." Faith smiled when she saw a small smile creep across his face. Bosco lifted his arm and placed his hand on her cheek using his thumb to wipe away her tears that stained her cheeks and whispered.
"No more tears."
"So you don't know what happened for sure?" She asks keeping her eyes on Bosco's unconscious form.
The doctor took in a deep breath "Well, I'm still leaning towards it being a panic attack. I know he has a history of them."
"And you had to put him back on the vent?"
"He stopped breathing. Giving his current condition and the attack mixed together he just couldn't get up the strength to breath on his own." The doctor looked at Faith before turning to go. "When he becomes conscious we'll see about taking him off the vent. I'll be back in a while"
"Yeah okay, thanks." Faith says and walked in the room.
Faith sat beside Bosco using her eyes to scan over his body she couldn't help but feel like they went back a few days when she was sitting beside an unconscious Bosco on a ventilator. She took hold of his hand and sat there waiting for him to awaken.
Hours went by and Bosco remained unconscious with Faith at his side the whole time. His doctor decided to try and take him off the ventilator even though he was still unconscious. Faith stood at the foot of the bed and watched as he pulled he tube out of Bosco's throat. The doctor stood by for a few minutes to make sure that he would breathe on his own. Bosco almost immediately started to breathe on his own, the doctor took that as a good sign and said he'd be back to check on him later.
Keeping her hand linked with his Faith looked up when she saw a figure walk into the room.
"Hey" Faith says acknowledging Swersky's entrance.
Swersky walked up to the foot of the bed "I heard what happened last night. He doing any better?"
"He's unconscious but at least he's breathing on his own now."
"I thought he was over the panic attacks." Swersky says putting his hands on his hips.
Faith looks up "Well they said there's always a possibility for relapses. He thinks with everything that happened, had probably caused it."
"Is this the first or has he been having them all along?"
Faith looked down into Bosco's face and for the first time she realized that she doesn't know this man that is laying beside her anymore. She hasn't known him for along time. She held his hand up to her face and rubbed it between her hands. "I don't know."
When Swersky left, Faith sat beside Bosco trying to figure when it was that they stopped being close. She remembered the times when she couldn't even go through a shift without hearing every last detail of his night before, as much she didn't want to hear some of the details, she loved the closeness and how it comfortable he could be around her. Maybe it stopped when she didn't tell him about her cancer and made him feel like she didn't trust him enough to be able to open up to him. Maybe it was when she told him that she was sick of him and sick his of ways. Faith shook her head at those thoughts 'no, it had to of been when he had came to her and she closed the door while telling him to go away for good'. Just remembering that horrible moment brings back tears to her eyes regretting every second of that conversation. She could never take back those words. Faith thought about what would of happened if the situation had been reversed. She didn't have to think to hard though because the situation was reversed a few times in the past like when she lied to him about the abortion. She remembered the hurt in his eyes when they were in the RMP and he stopped blocking the traffic behind them, the only difference is that Bosco never quit on her. Bosco even told her once that she was a quitter, realizing the truth in that Faith rested her head on his arm and cried.
"I'm sorry Bosco. I made the biggest mistake the day I turned you away. I'm so sorry" Faith cried out keeping her head on his arm.
"I forgive you" The voice was so gentle Faith thought she had imagined it. She shot her head up to see Bosco's beautiful gray blue eyes looking down at her. "But you have to forgive me…because I made the biggest mistake the day I lied to you."
Faith choked out a laugh through her tears and got up from her position and embraced him in a hug the best she could without hurting him and gave him a friendly kiss on his cheek and whispered in his ear "Okay, I forgive you."
Faith sat back down but this time on the edge of the bed keeping her eyes locked onto his and whispered "No more lies, or secrets." Faith smiled when she saw a small smile creep across his face. Bosco lifted his arm and placed his hand on her cheek using his thumb to wipe away her tears that stained her cheeks and whispered.
"No more tears."