A soft knock was barely heard over the loud ringing of memories that were rushing through Bosco's mind. Letting out a shaky breath he finally heard Faith's knock only this time with a worried voice to go along with it.
"Boz, you okay? You've been in there along time"
"Yeah" was all Bosco could manage to get out at the moment and even that came out fairly hoarse sounding.
Faith couldn't make herself believe his answer so she tried the door knob so she could find out for herself.
"Bosco unlock the door." Faith said becoming more worried when she realized that if something was wrong she wouldn't even be able to get him.
Bosco lifted his head up and stared into the mirror. Becoming more relaxed and more focused now he realized just how pale he looked.
"Boz!" Faith yelled and Bosco remembered that Faith was still outside the door.
Bosco unlocked the door and walked out of the washroom making eye contact with Faith for only a second quickly looking away when he saw the concern in her eyes. Faith stood where she was in shock when she saw how pale he was when he came out. Snapping out of it she quickly followed Bosco back down the hall when she saw him turn into his room.
Bosco looked up when he felt her stare. "Did you move the bag of prescriptions?" Bosco grabbed the top of the dresser for support. Faith walked over to him and took a hold of his arm to guide him over to the couch.
Once Faith had Bosco seated she asked, "Do you need something for the pain?"
Bosco lent his head on the back of the couch and closed his eyes. "Please"
"Okay" Faith walked to the kitchen which was where she had put the medications. On her way back with 2 pills and a glass of water she asked, "Do you want something to eat, you haven't had any solid foods for like 2 weeks your starting to waste away." Faith sat beside Bosco and placed the pills in his hand along with glass of water in the other.
"No" Bosco said quietly before popping the pills in his mouth and downing them with water. "I think if I eat anything I'll throw it back up, but you can help yourself. I don't know if I have much though."
Faith put a hand on his forehead and then his cheek feeling that he was quite warm but remembered that the doctor said that the body's temperature rises after having a panic attack. Even though he wouldn't admit he had one she knew he did. "Trust me you don't. I cleaned up the place while you sleeping and I checked to see if you did have anything."
Bosco opened his eyes and looked around the floor. "I was wondering why I didn't trip over anything on the walk in here. Thanks."
Faith sat back on the couch beside him. "Don't you ever go shopping for food?"
"Not really." Bosco laughed lightly and took another drink of water "It's not like I have a family to feed or something. I just go from here to work."
Bosco turned his head towards Faith and Faith caught his gaze. "You never did tell me the whole story about what happened between you and Fred"
Turning her body slightly around to face Bosco. "Well it was building up over the last month or so. Ever since I told him I was going back to work, and the night after you found out about your brother I came home to an empty apartment. I spoke to him the night before the wake and he told me that he met someone else, and that's the end of that."
"I'm sorry. Didn't ever really think he was that much of a bastard." Bosco looked back up at the ceiling. "I'm sorry I played a big part of that. I never meant for you to get hurt."
"Bosco. What do you mean you played a part in it you had nothing to do with it."
Bosco let a out a sarcastic laugh "I didn't play a part in it? Oh come on Faith. I got you shot, you said he left because you went back to work. You wouldn't of had to go 'back' to work if I didn't do that"
"Yeah, but you didn't force him into another relationship behind my back."
Faith watched him shake his head back and forth saying no "Its just a line. He probably just said it to end it. Guys use it all the time, hell I'm pretty sure I've used it a few times in order to break it off."
"You think so?"
Bosco rolled his head back over to face her. "Definitely. I'm sure he wants you to go crawling back to him right now, realizing just how stupid he really is for leaving you behind."
Faith smiled largely at his comment feeling so much more better about the situation. "Thanks Bosco. That was sweet of you to say. He isn't getting this back this that's for sure" Faith said pointing to herself proudly. Bosco smiled and Faith let out one of her famous laughs.
By the time 10:00 rolled around Bosco nearly fell asleep on the couch along with Faith until she forced him on his feet and helped him to his room. Bosco laid back on the bed and under the covers.
"You comfy?" Faith asked looking down at Bosco.
"Yup" Bosco said half asleep.
Faith smiled and said "Okay. I'll be on the couch if you need me." She was about to walk back when his voice stopped her.
"If you mean to stay up then ok, but if its to sleep your more than welcomed to sleep on the bed where it's a little more comfortable. I don't take up that much room."
Faith stood at the doorframe and was grateful that Bosco didn't see her blush a little "You sure I don't want to roll over and hurt you."
"It'll be fine." He felt the bed move as Faith got in. "Then you can tell Fred that you slept with me."
"I'd love to see the look on his face" Faith said as she closed her eyes and fell asleep next to Bosco.
Faith woke up the next morning to the soft feeling of Bosco's chest rising and falling when she realized that at some point during the night she managed to drape her arm over Bosco's torso and slept against his side most of the night. Bosco was sleeping with his head turned the other direction. Faith rolled over and got up off the bed noticing the time she realized that they would have to get ready for the funeral soon. Kneeling down beside the bed so she could see Bosco's face she brushed her hand along his cheek.
"Boz, you need to wake up now, okay."
As soon as they were ready Faith called for a cab and they made their way down to wait for it. First to arrive at the funeral home Bosco and Faith both walked in down to where the caskets were. As they made their way Bosco slowed his pace down to a near stop when he realized that he hadn't even been in the same room with his mother in a little more than to weeks and he was about to face the casket that she will forever lay in.
"Bosco?" Faith said worriedly when she noticed that he wasn't with her anymore.
"I can't" Bosco said quietly.
Faith walked back close to his side "You can't what?"
"Go in there."
Faith smiled sadly and put her arm around Bosco. "Sure you can. I'm right here beside you."
Bosco just shook his head no and stood his ground. "I…"
"Come on take a seat for a moment" Faith guided him to the cushioned bench against the wall and took hold of his hand while sitting next to him.
Faith kept her complete attention on Bosco as he stared down at the carpeted floor.
"You okay?" She asked softly.
Bosco cleared his throat when he felt his threatened tears rise "Uh … At that hideout. When I found Mikey. I asked him if he wanted to have Ma pick out the 'box' he was going to be buried in and if he wanted her to have to go his funeral. Then he said that it wouldn't matter because I would be there for her" A tear escaped from his eye before he could continue. "I wasn't there for her. I can't go in there because it would be just like every other time that I am with them, disappointing them, failing them."
Faith wrapped her arms around him "It's going to be okay. You did what you could"
They sat there for a few more moments before Faith finally broke the silence. "You think you're ready now. People are going to start showing up soon."
Bosco nodded in agreement and slowly stood up with Faith's guidance and walk through the doors to where the caskets were held.
Most of the third watch showed up at the wake some stayed longer than others and some just came by to show their respects and left with in ten minutes of time. Cruz and Swersky came by later on during the wake hoping that Anthony Boscorelli may have made a small appearance but he was still no where to be found.
By the time they were ready to go to the cemetery only Sully, Davis, Sasha, Cruz and Swersky were the only people left from the third watch there.
Faith walked up to Bosco who was still sitting in one of the chairs. "You ready?" Bosco nodded and Faith held out her hand for him, Bosco took hold of it as he stood up.
The seven officers stood out on the grassy hill feeling the warm air gently blow against them as they listened to the priest perform the ceremony. Through the peaceful quietness in the atmosphere surrounding them one of Donald Mann's men went unnoticed as he sat in a car not far from where the ceremony was being held. The musical jingle of a cell phone rang in the car.
"Do you see him?"
"Yes"
"Good. Stay with him."
The phone clicked off and he started the engine when he saw the ceremony had ended and they were making they're way out.
"Boz, you okay? You've been in there along time"
"Yeah" was all Bosco could manage to get out at the moment and even that came out fairly hoarse sounding.
Faith couldn't make herself believe his answer so she tried the door knob so she could find out for herself.
"Bosco unlock the door." Faith said becoming more worried when she realized that if something was wrong she wouldn't even be able to get him.
Bosco lifted his head up and stared into the mirror. Becoming more relaxed and more focused now he realized just how pale he looked.
"Boz!" Faith yelled and Bosco remembered that Faith was still outside the door.
Bosco unlocked the door and walked out of the washroom making eye contact with Faith for only a second quickly looking away when he saw the concern in her eyes. Faith stood where she was in shock when she saw how pale he was when he came out. Snapping out of it she quickly followed Bosco back down the hall when she saw him turn into his room.
Bosco looked up when he felt her stare. "Did you move the bag of prescriptions?" Bosco grabbed the top of the dresser for support. Faith walked over to him and took a hold of his arm to guide him over to the couch.
Once Faith had Bosco seated she asked, "Do you need something for the pain?"
Bosco lent his head on the back of the couch and closed his eyes. "Please"
"Okay" Faith walked to the kitchen which was where she had put the medications. On her way back with 2 pills and a glass of water she asked, "Do you want something to eat, you haven't had any solid foods for like 2 weeks your starting to waste away." Faith sat beside Bosco and placed the pills in his hand along with glass of water in the other.
"No" Bosco said quietly before popping the pills in his mouth and downing them with water. "I think if I eat anything I'll throw it back up, but you can help yourself. I don't know if I have much though."
Faith put a hand on his forehead and then his cheek feeling that he was quite warm but remembered that the doctor said that the body's temperature rises after having a panic attack. Even though he wouldn't admit he had one she knew he did. "Trust me you don't. I cleaned up the place while you sleeping and I checked to see if you did have anything."
Bosco opened his eyes and looked around the floor. "I was wondering why I didn't trip over anything on the walk in here. Thanks."
Faith sat back on the couch beside him. "Don't you ever go shopping for food?"
"Not really." Bosco laughed lightly and took another drink of water "It's not like I have a family to feed or something. I just go from here to work."
Bosco turned his head towards Faith and Faith caught his gaze. "You never did tell me the whole story about what happened between you and Fred"
Turning her body slightly around to face Bosco. "Well it was building up over the last month or so. Ever since I told him I was going back to work, and the night after you found out about your brother I came home to an empty apartment. I spoke to him the night before the wake and he told me that he met someone else, and that's the end of that."
"I'm sorry. Didn't ever really think he was that much of a bastard." Bosco looked back up at the ceiling. "I'm sorry I played a big part of that. I never meant for you to get hurt."
"Bosco. What do you mean you played a part in it you had nothing to do with it."
Bosco let a out a sarcastic laugh "I didn't play a part in it? Oh come on Faith. I got you shot, you said he left because you went back to work. You wouldn't of had to go 'back' to work if I didn't do that"
"Yeah, but you didn't force him into another relationship behind my back."
Faith watched him shake his head back and forth saying no "Its just a line. He probably just said it to end it. Guys use it all the time, hell I'm pretty sure I've used it a few times in order to break it off."
"You think so?"
Bosco rolled his head back over to face her. "Definitely. I'm sure he wants you to go crawling back to him right now, realizing just how stupid he really is for leaving you behind."
Faith smiled largely at his comment feeling so much more better about the situation. "Thanks Bosco. That was sweet of you to say. He isn't getting this back this that's for sure" Faith said pointing to herself proudly. Bosco smiled and Faith let out one of her famous laughs.
By the time 10:00 rolled around Bosco nearly fell asleep on the couch along with Faith until she forced him on his feet and helped him to his room. Bosco laid back on the bed and under the covers.
"You comfy?" Faith asked looking down at Bosco.
"Yup" Bosco said half asleep.
Faith smiled and said "Okay. I'll be on the couch if you need me." She was about to walk back when his voice stopped her.
"If you mean to stay up then ok, but if its to sleep your more than welcomed to sleep on the bed where it's a little more comfortable. I don't take up that much room."
Faith stood at the doorframe and was grateful that Bosco didn't see her blush a little "You sure I don't want to roll over and hurt you."
"It'll be fine." He felt the bed move as Faith got in. "Then you can tell Fred that you slept with me."
"I'd love to see the look on his face" Faith said as she closed her eyes and fell asleep next to Bosco.
Faith woke up the next morning to the soft feeling of Bosco's chest rising and falling when she realized that at some point during the night she managed to drape her arm over Bosco's torso and slept against his side most of the night. Bosco was sleeping with his head turned the other direction. Faith rolled over and got up off the bed noticing the time she realized that they would have to get ready for the funeral soon. Kneeling down beside the bed so she could see Bosco's face she brushed her hand along his cheek.
"Boz, you need to wake up now, okay."
As soon as they were ready Faith called for a cab and they made their way down to wait for it. First to arrive at the funeral home Bosco and Faith both walked in down to where the caskets were. As they made their way Bosco slowed his pace down to a near stop when he realized that he hadn't even been in the same room with his mother in a little more than to weeks and he was about to face the casket that she will forever lay in.
"Bosco?" Faith said worriedly when she noticed that he wasn't with her anymore.
"I can't" Bosco said quietly.
Faith walked back close to his side "You can't what?"
"Go in there."
Faith smiled sadly and put her arm around Bosco. "Sure you can. I'm right here beside you."
Bosco just shook his head no and stood his ground. "I…"
"Come on take a seat for a moment" Faith guided him to the cushioned bench against the wall and took hold of his hand while sitting next to him.
Faith kept her complete attention on Bosco as he stared down at the carpeted floor.
"You okay?" She asked softly.
Bosco cleared his throat when he felt his threatened tears rise "Uh … At that hideout. When I found Mikey. I asked him if he wanted to have Ma pick out the 'box' he was going to be buried in and if he wanted her to have to go his funeral. Then he said that it wouldn't matter because I would be there for her" A tear escaped from his eye before he could continue. "I wasn't there for her. I can't go in there because it would be just like every other time that I am with them, disappointing them, failing them."
Faith wrapped her arms around him "It's going to be okay. You did what you could"
They sat there for a few more moments before Faith finally broke the silence. "You think you're ready now. People are going to start showing up soon."
Bosco nodded in agreement and slowly stood up with Faith's guidance and walk through the doors to where the caskets were held.
Most of the third watch showed up at the wake some stayed longer than others and some just came by to show their respects and left with in ten minutes of time. Cruz and Swersky came by later on during the wake hoping that Anthony Boscorelli may have made a small appearance but he was still no where to be found.
By the time they were ready to go to the cemetery only Sully, Davis, Sasha, Cruz and Swersky were the only people left from the third watch there.
Faith walked up to Bosco who was still sitting in one of the chairs. "You ready?" Bosco nodded and Faith held out her hand for him, Bosco took hold of it as he stood up.
The seven officers stood out on the grassy hill feeling the warm air gently blow against them as they listened to the priest perform the ceremony. Through the peaceful quietness in the atmosphere surrounding them one of Donald Mann's men went unnoticed as he sat in a car not far from where the ceremony was being held. The musical jingle of a cell phone rang in the car.
"Do you see him?"
"Yes"
"Good. Stay with him."
The phone clicked off and he started the engine when he saw the ceremony had ended and they were making they're way out.