Michelle-Note: Ok...the song at the end of this is a little known B-side of a song that no one's probably ever heard, and the chances of it being played at any prom anywhere in the world is like...none, but...I can do what I want, and I thought it was appropriate, so pretend, ok? PRETEND!
"Twitty, get that glass away from her." Louis commanded, and my glass was taken away from me. I guess he really thought I would hurt people. I couldn't hurt people. I was all talk. He should know that. I wasn't very harmless to him, but I didn't physically hurt him. I would never physically hurt anyone.
"Alright, everybody listen up." The DJ said, "We're gonna play some slow songs until it's time to go, so get with that special someone."
"That's my cue." Louis said, getting up.
"Me and Allison are gonna sit it out for the first song." Twitty told him.
"Alright." He went off to join his girl, whoever she was. She met him halfway. Then they vanished into the people
Allison arrived with a drink for her and Twitty, and sat on his lap. They giggled, and I remained as I was. I didn't expect them to talk to me, or offer me a drink or anything. They were in their own little world when they were together. I wished that I had someone to be in a little world with, separate from everyone else. Louis and I never had that, but he and Twitty did. I wouldn't surprise me if he were in love with his best friend all that time. The song started to play. I blocked it out. It was some stupid love song. Love is stupid. You can't love certain people openly without other people thinking there's something wrong with you and make dumb ass comments. What was the point of even loving?
"Ugh..." I groaned out loud, unintentionally, and put my head back on the table. I was giving myself a migraine. I was thinking such stupid random things.
"Tawny?" Allison said, sounding a little concerned.
"Uh huh." I acknowledge that I heard her, but didn't make an effort to look at her. I didn't feel like moving. I wanted to be a statue or something. Never having to move, or think, or worry about anything. Then someone could physically break me into pieces.
"Are you okay?"
"Don't bother her, honey..." Twitty whispered. I could still hear him.
"Oh..." Her voice trailed off, "I'm sorry."
She was nice, she was always nice. I couldn't even manage to be mean to her at all. I would look at her funny once in a while, and that was it. I couldn't be mean to Ren either. Why'd I have to think about her so much? I wanted to go to sleep, and make the night end a little faster, and momentarily forget about how screwed up life is, in general.
"Oh shit...Tawny...she's coming over here-" Twitty said forcefully, but quietly, stopping abruptly.
"Who..." I sat up, and saw Ren standing on the opposite side of the table. I should have known that was who he was talking about.
"Hi, Ren..." He sputtered, "Allison and me...err...I and Allison...err...um...us...we were just going to go dance, right Allison?"
"Oh...um. Yes, yes we were." She said, sitting her drink down and hopping off of him. They scurried away leaving me alone with her. Twitty shot back a concerned glace, before vanishing into the people just as Louis had done.
"Tawny..." She stood up, and rubbed her hands together in front of her nervously. She had cleaned herself up and fixed her makeup.
I just glared at her, while trying not to cry.
"I...I...uh...broke up with Jason."
I said nothing. I glanced back to where he had been sitting. He was gone.
"I came over here...to tell you..."
I shook my head, and snapped, "Why?"
"Let me finish."
I rolled my eyes, "Yeah. Sure. Go right ahead. Make me cry. Unlike you, I don't care what people think about me."
"Tawny, I love you." She blurted out.
"What?"
"I love you." She repeated. A few people looked at her, and she continued to stand there.
"But..." I thought she must be talking to someone else, or I was hallucinating.
"Tawny, I love you."
What do I do now? I just sat. I couldn't think of anything else, and had no idea what I should say.
She sighed, "Say something, and don't say it's too late, or that you changed your mind..."
"I...uh...What am I supposed to say?"
She shrugged, "Look...I don't know."
I smiled, "You just didn't know something again."
"I know that." She laughed a little, "Um...wanna dance?"
"Err..." I started to get up, unsurely, wondering if this was some good deed to clear her conscience or something. I just couldn't seem to trust anyone, and believe their motives were good, could I? In reality most peoples' actually aren't, or so it seemed to me. I remained standing on my side of the table, and made no effort to go to her.
"Come on." She commanded.
I stayed in my place and looked at her, "Ren, you're not like doing this...for...um..."
She moaned, and walked over to me, and remained a few feet away. "I'm sorry. Do you want me to beg for forgiveness?"
I raised an eyebrow. I was starting to feel better. "Now that you mention it...yes. Grovel, now."
"You don't actually expect me to do that, do you?" She reached out and took my hand.
I looked down, at our hands, then looked back up at her, "You're holding my hand, and there are people around to see it."
"Tawny, I don't care." She laced our fingers, "Now...before this damned social gathering is over, I want you to come dance with me."
"Are you asking me to dance with you?" I couldn't help but smile.
"No, I'm telling you too." She tugged on my arm, gently. I shook my shoes off and kicked them under the table.
I pointed to her, "You...wanna dance with...me...in front of all these people?"
"Why're you being difficult?!" She drug me out to the dance floor. Slowly, she slipped her hand away from mine, and moved them to my hips.
Carefully, and still grinning like a giddy maniac, I reached up and rested my arms on her shoulders. She nudged me closer to her, then kissed me. She kissed me in front of everyone. I couldn't open my eyes to see if there was anyone looking at us oddly, and I wouldn't have care if there had been. I put my hands into the sides of her neck and deepened the kiss. I did it. I had broken down the wall, the great barrier.
When the kiss was finally broken by my need for air, she pressed her forehead against mine and I stared into her eyes. Another song started to play, and we stood in the midst of the people, not dancing, not doing anything, just looking into one another's eyes. The song was "Breaking Glass" by Geri Halliwell, and I wondered why on earth they were playing it at prom. It wasn't even a very slow song, and I doubted that anyone there had ever heard it. I also doubted that anyone was paying much attention or cared. I held onto Ren, and listened to the lyrics. How appropriate they were for the moment, and for the night.
Someone told me
You're never gonna win
Fool's paradise is
Where I've always been
So I told myself
I've got a heart of stone
Not that strong I said
Can't do it all alone
Tell me your dreams
And I'll tell you what they mean
Cus we live, we love, we learn
You can't touch me
And you can't hold me
Loving me through your window pane
But I can reach you
I can see you
Trying to hide your love away
We can be breaking glass together
Someone told me
You gotta let it go
A little weakness is
Strength don't you know
So I tell myself
Feelin' it today
I won't lose
To the pain of yesterday
Tell me your dreams
And I'll tell you what they mean
Cus we live, we love, we learn
You can't touch me
And you can't hold me
Loving me through your window pane
But I can reach you
I can see you
Trying to hide your love away
We can be breaking glass together
Together, together
I love the sound of breaking glass
I love the sound of breaking glass
I love the sound of breaking glass
Of breaking glass
You can't touch me
You can't hold me
I can reach you
I can see you
"Twitty, get that glass away from her." Louis commanded, and my glass was taken away from me. I guess he really thought I would hurt people. I couldn't hurt people. I was all talk. He should know that. I wasn't very harmless to him, but I didn't physically hurt him. I would never physically hurt anyone.
"Alright, everybody listen up." The DJ said, "We're gonna play some slow songs until it's time to go, so get with that special someone."
"That's my cue." Louis said, getting up.
"Me and Allison are gonna sit it out for the first song." Twitty told him.
"Alright." He went off to join his girl, whoever she was. She met him halfway. Then they vanished into the people
Allison arrived with a drink for her and Twitty, and sat on his lap. They giggled, and I remained as I was. I didn't expect them to talk to me, or offer me a drink or anything. They were in their own little world when they were together. I wished that I had someone to be in a little world with, separate from everyone else. Louis and I never had that, but he and Twitty did. I wouldn't surprise me if he were in love with his best friend all that time. The song started to play. I blocked it out. It was some stupid love song. Love is stupid. You can't love certain people openly without other people thinking there's something wrong with you and make dumb ass comments. What was the point of even loving?
"Ugh..." I groaned out loud, unintentionally, and put my head back on the table. I was giving myself a migraine. I was thinking such stupid random things.
"Tawny?" Allison said, sounding a little concerned.
"Uh huh." I acknowledge that I heard her, but didn't make an effort to look at her. I didn't feel like moving. I wanted to be a statue or something. Never having to move, or think, or worry about anything. Then someone could physically break me into pieces.
"Are you okay?"
"Don't bother her, honey..." Twitty whispered. I could still hear him.
"Oh..." Her voice trailed off, "I'm sorry."
She was nice, she was always nice. I couldn't even manage to be mean to her at all. I would look at her funny once in a while, and that was it. I couldn't be mean to Ren either. Why'd I have to think about her so much? I wanted to go to sleep, and make the night end a little faster, and momentarily forget about how screwed up life is, in general.
"Oh shit...Tawny...she's coming over here-" Twitty said forcefully, but quietly, stopping abruptly.
"Who..." I sat up, and saw Ren standing on the opposite side of the table. I should have known that was who he was talking about.
"Hi, Ren..." He sputtered, "Allison and me...err...I and Allison...err...um...us...we were just going to go dance, right Allison?"
"Oh...um. Yes, yes we were." She said, sitting her drink down and hopping off of him. They scurried away leaving me alone with her. Twitty shot back a concerned glace, before vanishing into the people just as Louis had done.
"Tawny..." She stood up, and rubbed her hands together in front of her nervously. She had cleaned herself up and fixed her makeup.
I just glared at her, while trying not to cry.
"I...I...uh...broke up with Jason."
I said nothing. I glanced back to where he had been sitting. He was gone.
"I came over here...to tell you..."
I shook my head, and snapped, "Why?"
"Let me finish."
I rolled my eyes, "Yeah. Sure. Go right ahead. Make me cry. Unlike you, I don't care what people think about me."
"Tawny, I love you." She blurted out.
"What?"
"I love you." She repeated. A few people looked at her, and she continued to stand there.
"But..." I thought she must be talking to someone else, or I was hallucinating.
"Tawny, I love you."
What do I do now? I just sat. I couldn't think of anything else, and had no idea what I should say.
She sighed, "Say something, and don't say it's too late, or that you changed your mind..."
"I...uh...What am I supposed to say?"
She shrugged, "Look...I don't know."
I smiled, "You just didn't know something again."
"I know that." She laughed a little, "Um...wanna dance?"
"Err..." I started to get up, unsurely, wondering if this was some good deed to clear her conscience or something. I just couldn't seem to trust anyone, and believe their motives were good, could I? In reality most peoples' actually aren't, or so it seemed to me. I remained standing on my side of the table, and made no effort to go to her.
"Come on." She commanded.
I stayed in my place and looked at her, "Ren, you're not like doing this...for...um..."
She moaned, and walked over to me, and remained a few feet away. "I'm sorry. Do you want me to beg for forgiveness?"
I raised an eyebrow. I was starting to feel better. "Now that you mention it...yes. Grovel, now."
"You don't actually expect me to do that, do you?" She reached out and took my hand.
I looked down, at our hands, then looked back up at her, "You're holding my hand, and there are people around to see it."
"Tawny, I don't care." She laced our fingers, "Now...before this damned social gathering is over, I want you to come dance with me."
"Are you asking me to dance with you?" I couldn't help but smile.
"No, I'm telling you too." She tugged on my arm, gently. I shook my shoes off and kicked them under the table.
I pointed to her, "You...wanna dance with...me...in front of all these people?"
"Why're you being difficult?!" She drug me out to the dance floor. Slowly, she slipped her hand away from mine, and moved them to my hips.
Carefully, and still grinning like a giddy maniac, I reached up and rested my arms on her shoulders. She nudged me closer to her, then kissed me. She kissed me in front of everyone. I couldn't open my eyes to see if there was anyone looking at us oddly, and I wouldn't have care if there had been. I put my hands into the sides of her neck and deepened the kiss. I did it. I had broken down the wall, the great barrier.
When the kiss was finally broken by my need for air, she pressed her forehead against mine and I stared into her eyes. Another song started to play, and we stood in the midst of the people, not dancing, not doing anything, just looking into one another's eyes. The song was "Breaking Glass" by Geri Halliwell, and I wondered why on earth they were playing it at prom. It wasn't even a very slow song, and I doubted that anyone there had ever heard it. I also doubted that anyone was paying much attention or cared. I held onto Ren, and listened to the lyrics. How appropriate they were for the moment, and for the night.
Someone told me
You're never gonna win
Fool's paradise is
Where I've always been
So I told myself
I've got a heart of stone
Not that strong I said
Can't do it all alone
Tell me your dreams
And I'll tell you what they mean
Cus we live, we love, we learn
You can't touch me
And you can't hold me
Loving me through your window pane
But I can reach you
I can see you
Trying to hide your love away
We can be breaking glass together
Someone told me
You gotta let it go
A little weakness is
Strength don't you know
So I tell myself
Feelin' it today
I won't lose
To the pain of yesterday
Tell me your dreams
And I'll tell you what they mean
Cus we live, we love, we learn
You can't touch me
And you can't hold me
Loving me through your window pane
But I can reach you
I can see you
Trying to hide your love away
We can be breaking glass together
Together, together
I love the sound of breaking glass
I love the sound of breaking glass
I love the sound of breaking glass
Of breaking glass
You can't touch me
You can't hold me
I can reach you
I can see you