DISCLAIMER::: I do not own any characters and if I did, then I wouldn't hesitate to make it slash and since I do not own any characters, sadly they belong to J.K Rowling, so do not even try to sue me or I would not be held accountable for my actions.

SUMMARY: Harry defeats Voldemort and somewhat goes into a morbid depression and falls >in love with Draco, whom is not at Hogwarts anymore. Draco is running away from his fears and does not want to face them again.


Chapter 5: My Reason


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Draco woke up early in the morning. He felt like he been to hell and back. His cheeks was bruised by Potter and his chest was hurting because he tried to stab himself. Draco instantly jumped up from his bed. He was alive. That wasn't suppose to happen. He looked at the red part of his temple and he touched it. It hurted and Draco clenched his teeth. He got out of the bed and started rummaging through his stuff. He had swords, dagger and knives all over the place. He would finish the job that he started last night. When he found what he was looking for. Draco hopped back onto the bed he closed his eyes and prepared himself for the pain. But luck wasn't with him again as Potter tackled him onto the bed, trying to wrestle the knife away. Draco was still weak from last night and he lost the battled. Potter threw the knife somewhere and laid with his full body weight on Draco.

"Why do you keep doing that?" Potter raspy said by his ears
. "Because I want to Potter." Draco said as he tried to push him off. Potter got up only to sit on his knees which were on either side of Draco's hips.

"So you just want to die, without knowing that there'e people out there that loves you." Potter said. Draco started to laugh.




"Good one Potter, no one would miss me, least of all love me." Draco tried to get out from under him. "Get off me."


"They're people who would miss you, Malfoy. And they do of course love you, believe it or not." Draco glared.

"Name three Potter and I'll try not to commit suicide today."

"That a promise?"

"I always keep my word." Malfoy replied. And Potter truly smiled at him and Draco was caught off gaurd by it.

"Well the first is Pansy." Draco snorted but Potter continued. "The second is Snape and.

. "I win you lose, so get off."

Potter leaned closer to Draco and Draco could only lean back into the bed. "And the third is me." Draco could only stare stupidly at him and Harry leaned forward to kiss him. It was a new feeling Draco felt. He never kissed any of his partners and he was sure they could never had gotten this kind of effect from him. Draco closed his eyes and respond to Harry's kiss and their tongue hungriely battled for dominance and of course Potter won this little battle. Draco felt a tear slide down his cheek and he roughly pushed Harry off and ran into the bathroom. He locked the door and slid to the floor.

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Harry stared stupidly as Draco pushed him off. The first minute they were madly kissing and the next he was lying at the edge of the bed. Harry got up and kicked the knife under the bed. He walked to the locked door and knocked on it, Draco didn't answer. Harry got his wand out and quickly muttered 'Alohomora'. The door opened and Draco was sitting on the floor with his legs pulled up to his chest and his arm wrapped protectivly around his knees with his head being cradled by his arms.


"Draco.."Harry quietly whispered. Draco didn't move. Harry sat in front of him and gently lifted his head up. Harry was surprised at the sight. He caught Draco Malfoy being utterly vunerable. His grey eyes had tears around it. Malfoy closed his eyes and looked away. "Malfoy look at me." Harry commanded but Draco didn't respond. Harry continued to talk.

"You're my reason to live, Draco." Harry whispered. "My parents are dead, but I continued to survive, because I look forward to the future."

"Why are you here Potter?"

"Harry." Harry said. "If you're going to call me a name, then it better be Harry." Draco looked at him and there was tears sliding down his cheeks. "And I'm here because I knew I would find you some day."

"Get out." Draco said. "No." Harry stubbornly responded.

"GET OUT!" Draco screamed, Harry winced but he continued to stay in place. "Fine, then I will." Draco got up to leave but Harry grabbed his wrist and pulled him back into his chest. Draco struggled and Harry quietly thanked anyone that made Draco stab himself, otherwise he wouldn't be where he is now. "Let me go."


Harry captured Draco's mouth and that caused the blond to fizzle like a cat, but Harry was after all a Gryffindor and he wasn't going to let his prey go, not when he spent most of his time thinking about him. He pushed Draco against the wall and ravishly kissed the boy, Harry smirked as Draco started to respond. Draco broke their kiss, they needed to breath after all and Harry cursed oxygen the first time in his life.


"Come back to Hogwarts." Harry said. Draco looked at him through his tear-stained eyes. "Please, Draco. Don't make me beg."

"I don't want to go back." Draco whispered. "There's too many memories that I want to forget, namely you." Water started to come out of his eyes and Harry gently rubbed the tears away with his thumb.





"I'm sorry about your parents, Draco." Harry whispered and he felt Draco stiffen. Harry hugged him and marveled at the smooth skin of the boy he loved. "I won't leave you Draco. We'll be alone together." Harry felt Draco's arms slowly slide around him and they just hugged each other in the bathroom.


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AN::::::::I am still putting the rest of the story into chapters....