Tonight and the rest of my life
Chapter 11
Xander sat on the sofa with the remote in his hand and his mouth wide open. He let out a laugh then quickly silenced himself when he saw that she was hardly kiding. She fell down on the sofa next to him and he hugged her, holding her in his arms while she moped.
"I cant love him, Xander." Heaven said.
"Why not?" Xander asked her. "Besides the fact that he is evil."
"Kitty. Where is Kitty anyway?" Heaven said sitting up.
"They went to Buffy's house. I stuck around to wait for you for the trip to the Bronze and I didnt know where to look for you so I stayed. I was told to hook up with you then we head on over there." Xander said still looking concerned.
"I know you hate him Xand so it doesnt even matter." Heaven said pulling her legs up into a tuck.
Xander wrapped his arms around her and hugged her hard. She could feel his mixed emotions, he wasnt sure if he was glad or if he was upset with her.
"You know what I think I'm just going to stick around here. Take a bath, eat some icecream and sleep some. I dont really want to go be happy with normal people." Heaven said rubbing her arms and smiling at Xander.
"Alright, but if you need anything you know where I will be. You know I'm always here for you right?" Xander said smiling at her.
"I know Xander." Heaven smiled at him.
"Have fun sleeping and eating. That does sound fun." Xander said grabbing his coat.
Heaven headed up the stairs after Xander left, she went into her room and changed into her nice soft silky pajamas. She went back down the stairs and flopped onto the sofa and turned on the tv. She was exhausted and she was going be starting her knew job the next day.
"What in the bleeding hell," Spike paused to slam the door. "Gives you the right to run out on me?"
Heaven rolled over making her back face him. She was feeling worse then ever and talking was much too hard at that moment.
"Dont you turn your back on me!" Spike growled.
Heaven felt a wave of nausea and although she had little strenght she fell off of the sofa and crawled to the kitchen and vomited in the trashcan. She fell back on the floor and stared up at the ceiling. It blurred as she closed her eyes.
"Heaven," Spike was shaking her. "Heaven get up love."
"Noo..." Heaven mumbled.
Spike lifted her up in his arms and carried her back to the living room and laid her on the sofa. He felt her forehead and then reached for the phone.
"Giles, yeah this is Spike." Spike said into the phone. "I know you hate me but Heavens sick. Shes burning up and she vomited in the bin. I just saw her a few hours ago and she was fine. Good thanks."
Spike left the room and got her a glass of water then attempted to prop her up and make her drink. Her head flopped back and her eyes rolled back in her head showing yellowish eyeballs instead of white. Spike shook her and made her lift her head back up but her eyes closed and she flopped against him. It felt like hours before Giles came in.
"Shes bleeding at the mouth." Giles said frantically.
"I am a vampire. Think I didnt notice?" Spike said rudely still holding her hand.
"We have to get her to a doctor. Shes still breathing." Giles grabbed the phone off of the hook as Heaven leaned over the side of the sofa and began to vomit again.
Giles dialed 911 and as the ambulance pulled up so did the rest of the scooby gang. They ran in ahead of the ambulance to see what was going on. Heavens breath was now coming in gasps and they were fewer and further between.
"Giles! Whats going on?" Buffy asked running inside and seeing Heaven slumped over.
"Buffy, make sure that Kitty stays with your mother and Dawn. Then meet us at the hospital. Spike you go in the ambulance and I will follow in my car." Giles said as the paramedics came in with a stretcher.
Heaven was put onto the stretcher and the last thing she saw before she blacked out was Spikes concerned face above her.
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Buffy and Willow sat in the waiting room in the new plush sofa that was one of four that were faced in a square. Spike and Angel had skipped off a few minutes before because Spike couldnt stay calm and Angel needed to take him outside to get fresh air. Xander, Anya, Tara and Giles had gone to get snacks leaving Willow and Buffy alone.
They hadnt gotten a word from the doctor and they had been there for nearly three hours. The sun would be up in a few hours and it was obvious that Angel and Spike wanted to stick around for this. Giles, Tara, Anya and Xander came back loaded down with snacks and goodies.
"Do you think shes going to be okay?" Xander asked taking a bite out of a milky way.
"Of course, shes immortal right?" Tara replied.
"Hopefully she isnt in any pain." Anya said shaking her head. "Thats how immortals die you know. They dont die of natural things like bleeding to death or anything. They die from the pain."
"Has anyone talked to Kitty?" Willow asked looking at Buffy.
"Oh poor Kitty." Tara said rubbing her eyes for a second.
Spike and Angel came back into the waiting room Spike looked calmer. Angel was a wreck on the inside, he knew she was immortal but what if there was some twisted loophole. Everyone was thinking it, if she was immortal then why hadnt she pulled out of it yet?
"Any word yet?" Angel asked looking down the hall.
"No such luck." Willow said giving into a half smile.
"So we just have to wait some more? Im tired of bloody waiting!" Spike was loosing it again.
"Spike, chill, Heaven would not want you acting like this." Buffy was holding onto her last string of hope.
"Yeah." Spike fell down into a chair.
"Doctor." Giles said jumping off of the plush sofa.
"Mr." He flipped up a paper on his clip board. "Giles?"
"Yes, I'm Mr. Giles." Giles said.
"Mr. Giles, Heaven had contracted Yellow fever. She has ingested a large amount of it. I am sorry Mr. Giles but she will not survive with the amount of the virus that is in her system. She is also hemorrhaging too greatly to be caught up with. I am sorry Mr. Giles, there is nothing we can do. It would be best to go home. You will recieve a call when she... passes." The doctor said nodding and leaving again.
Buffy grabbed Willow who bent over crying. Buffy pulled Willow into her arms and the two girls cried hard with loud lasting sobs. Tara came and sat next to Willow taking her in her arms as Angel kneeled next to Buffy holding her and crying himself.
Spike fell down and covered his face his back heaving with each sob. Giles stood still staring at the swinging doors of the emergency room. Xander cried out and Anya cradled his head against her as he cried. Anya let the tears slip down her face freely.
"Nothing they can do?" Giles repeated it.
The only sound that could be heard in the room was the sobs and Spikes constant cursing.
"Thats it? They say shes going to die and we are suppose to go home and act normal? Be normal?" Angel said holding Buffy.
"This is the farthest from normal I have ever felt." Xander had sat up and was now holdin Anya in his arms.
"You all should go home. There is nothing we can do for her now." Giles said still staring at the doors.
"What about you?" Buffy said not moving.
"I'll stay. I can call when it happens." A tear slipped down his face, but wasnt seen by the others.
The gang was about to leave when Dawn came running down the hall towards them. Kitty was behind her.
"Mom, its mom she passed out at the house and they came and got her. What are you guys doing here?" Dawn looked around confused.
"Is she okay?" Buffy asked wiping the tears from her eyes.
"Yeah." Dawn said looking around.
"Wheres Heaven?" Kitty said sending Willow to let out a choked sob.
Spike pushed himself off of the floor and into the chair covering his face. Kitty looked around her eyes tearing up. She turned to Giles who shook his head and turned around to look at her. She shook her head violently.
"Spike, tell him their wrong." Kitty surprised them all.
"Sorry, love. Their right." Spike said looking up at her.
"No! I just got her back." Kitty was trying to make herself believe it wasnt true.
Spike stood and walked to Kitty looking down at her slightly because she was tall for her age. She hugged him around the waist sobbing that no one know's Heaven like he does.
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"Shes in a coma?" Buffy asked Giles as he came into Heavens house tired and haggard.
It was nearly eleven o'clock in the morning and Giles had stayed in the hospital til they had moved Heaven to a room where she had constant care. She had slipped into a coma some time in the night while she was in ICU awaiting her death.
"What does that mean?" Spike asked from the sofa, he couldnt move on account of having a sleeping Kitty laid on him.
"That shes going to become a vegatable if she doesnt pull out of this." Giles said slumping into a chair.
"Where is she?" Angel asked pacing slightly.
"In a room in the recovery ward." Giles said smiling kindly at Willow as she brought him a cup of steaming coffee.
"You need to shower and shave and change while we go to see her." Buffy said nodding in aggreement with herself.
"We got you a change of clothes from your house hoping you would come here first." Tara said picking up the small pile of folded clothes off of the coffee table.
"Thank you all. Shes not out of the woods. Being in a coma is better then her being..." Giles broke off and picked up the clothes off of the coffee table.
Spike slipped out from under Kitty softly replacing his lap with a pillow. Buffy closed her eyes hard then opened them again as the rest of the group left to go into the kitchen. Guess it wasnt just a bad dream.
"Break fast or lunch?" Willow said smiling as they all came into the kitchen.
"Lunch Wil." Buffy said hugging her.
"Lunch, who wants grilled cheese?" Willow offered holding up the frying pan.
Chapter 11
Xander sat on the sofa with the remote in his hand and his mouth wide open. He let out a laugh then quickly silenced himself when he saw that she was hardly kiding. She fell down on the sofa next to him and he hugged her, holding her in his arms while she moped.
"I cant love him, Xander." Heaven said.
"Why not?" Xander asked her. "Besides the fact that he is evil."
"Kitty. Where is Kitty anyway?" Heaven said sitting up.
"They went to Buffy's house. I stuck around to wait for you for the trip to the Bronze and I didnt know where to look for you so I stayed. I was told to hook up with you then we head on over there." Xander said still looking concerned.
"I know you hate him Xand so it doesnt even matter." Heaven said pulling her legs up into a tuck.
Xander wrapped his arms around her and hugged her hard. She could feel his mixed emotions, he wasnt sure if he was glad or if he was upset with her.
"You know what I think I'm just going to stick around here. Take a bath, eat some icecream and sleep some. I dont really want to go be happy with normal people." Heaven said rubbing her arms and smiling at Xander.
"Alright, but if you need anything you know where I will be. You know I'm always here for you right?" Xander said smiling at her.
"I know Xander." Heaven smiled at him.
"Have fun sleeping and eating. That does sound fun." Xander said grabbing his coat.
Heaven headed up the stairs after Xander left, she went into her room and changed into her nice soft silky pajamas. She went back down the stairs and flopped onto the sofa and turned on the tv. She was exhausted and she was going be starting her knew job the next day.
"What in the bleeding hell," Spike paused to slam the door. "Gives you the right to run out on me?"
Heaven rolled over making her back face him. She was feeling worse then ever and talking was much too hard at that moment.
"Dont you turn your back on me!" Spike growled.
Heaven felt a wave of nausea and although she had little strenght she fell off of the sofa and crawled to the kitchen and vomited in the trashcan. She fell back on the floor and stared up at the ceiling. It blurred as she closed her eyes.
"Heaven," Spike was shaking her. "Heaven get up love."
"Noo..." Heaven mumbled.
Spike lifted her up in his arms and carried her back to the living room and laid her on the sofa. He felt her forehead and then reached for the phone.
"Giles, yeah this is Spike." Spike said into the phone. "I know you hate me but Heavens sick. Shes burning up and she vomited in the bin. I just saw her a few hours ago and she was fine. Good thanks."
Spike left the room and got her a glass of water then attempted to prop her up and make her drink. Her head flopped back and her eyes rolled back in her head showing yellowish eyeballs instead of white. Spike shook her and made her lift her head back up but her eyes closed and she flopped against him. It felt like hours before Giles came in.
"Shes bleeding at the mouth." Giles said frantically.
"I am a vampire. Think I didnt notice?" Spike said rudely still holding her hand.
"We have to get her to a doctor. Shes still breathing." Giles grabbed the phone off of the hook as Heaven leaned over the side of the sofa and began to vomit again.
Giles dialed 911 and as the ambulance pulled up so did the rest of the scooby gang. They ran in ahead of the ambulance to see what was going on. Heavens breath was now coming in gasps and they were fewer and further between.
"Giles! Whats going on?" Buffy asked running inside and seeing Heaven slumped over.
"Buffy, make sure that Kitty stays with your mother and Dawn. Then meet us at the hospital. Spike you go in the ambulance and I will follow in my car." Giles said as the paramedics came in with a stretcher.
Heaven was put onto the stretcher and the last thing she saw before she blacked out was Spikes concerned face above her.
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Buffy and Willow sat in the waiting room in the new plush sofa that was one of four that were faced in a square. Spike and Angel had skipped off a few minutes before because Spike couldnt stay calm and Angel needed to take him outside to get fresh air. Xander, Anya, Tara and Giles had gone to get snacks leaving Willow and Buffy alone.
They hadnt gotten a word from the doctor and they had been there for nearly three hours. The sun would be up in a few hours and it was obvious that Angel and Spike wanted to stick around for this. Giles, Tara, Anya and Xander came back loaded down with snacks and goodies.
"Do you think shes going to be okay?" Xander asked taking a bite out of a milky way.
"Of course, shes immortal right?" Tara replied.
"Hopefully she isnt in any pain." Anya said shaking her head. "Thats how immortals die you know. They dont die of natural things like bleeding to death or anything. They die from the pain."
"Has anyone talked to Kitty?" Willow asked looking at Buffy.
"Oh poor Kitty." Tara said rubbing her eyes for a second.
Spike and Angel came back into the waiting room Spike looked calmer. Angel was a wreck on the inside, he knew she was immortal but what if there was some twisted loophole. Everyone was thinking it, if she was immortal then why hadnt she pulled out of it yet?
"Any word yet?" Angel asked looking down the hall.
"No such luck." Willow said giving into a half smile.
"So we just have to wait some more? Im tired of bloody waiting!" Spike was loosing it again.
"Spike, chill, Heaven would not want you acting like this." Buffy was holding onto her last string of hope.
"Yeah." Spike fell down into a chair.
"Doctor." Giles said jumping off of the plush sofa.
"Mr." He flipped up a paper on his clip board. "Giles?"
"Yes, I'm Mr. Giles." Giles said.
"Mr. Giles, Heaven had contracted Yellow fever. She has ingested a large amount of it. I am sorry Mr. Giles but she will not survive with the amount of the virus that is in her system. She is also hemorrhaging too greatly to be caught up with. I am sorry Mr. Giles, there is nothing we can do. It would be best to go home. You will recieve a call when she... passes." The doctor said nodding and leaving again.
Buffy grabbed Willow who bent over crying. Buffy pulled Willow into her arms and the two girls cried hard with loud lasting sobs. Tara came and sat next to Willow taking her in her arms as Angel kneeled next to Buffy holding her and crying himself.
Spike fell down and covered his face his back heaving with each sob. Giles stood still staring at the swinging doors of the emergency room. Xander cried out and Anya cradled his head against her as he cried. Anya let the tears slip down her face freely.
"Nothing they can do?" Giles repeated it.
The only sound that could be heard in the room was the sobs and Spikes constant cursing.
"Thats it? They say shes going to die and we are suppose to go home and act normal? Be normal?" Angel said holding Buffy.
"This is the farthest from normal I have ever felt." Xander had sat up and was now holdin Anya in his arms.
"You all should go home. There is nothing we can do for her now." Giles said still staring at the doors.
"What about you?" Buffy said not moving.
"I'll stay. I can call when it happens." A tear slipped down his face, but wasnt seen by the others.
The gang was about to leave when Dawn came running down the hall towards them. Kitty was behind her.
"Mom, its mom she passed out at the house and they came and got her. What are you guys doing here?" Dawn looked around confused.
"Is she okay?" Buffy asked wiping the tears from her eyes.
"Yeah." Dawn said looking around.
"Wheres Heaven?" Kitty said sending Willow to let out a choked sob.
Spike pushed himself off of the floor and into the chair covering his face. Kitty looked around her eyes tearing up. She turned to Giles who shook his head and turned around to look at her. She shook her head violently.
"Spike, tell him their wrong." Kitty surprised them all.
"Sorry, love. Their right." Spike said looking up at her.
"No! I just got her back." Kitty was trying to make herself believe it wasnt true.
Spike stood and walked to Kitty looking down at her slightly because she was tall for her age. She hugged him around the waist sobbing that no one know's Heaven like he does.
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"Shes in a coma?" Buffy asked Giles as he came into Heavens house tired and haggard.
It was nearly eleven o'clock in the morning and Giles had stayed in the hospital til they had moved Heaven to a room where she had constant care. She had slipped into a coma some time in the night while she was in ICU awaiting her death.
"What does that mean?" Spike asked from the sofa, he couldnt move on account of having a sleeping Kitty laid on him.
"That shes going to become a vegatable if she doesnt pull out of this." Giles said slumping into a chair.
"Where is she?" Angel asked pacing slightly.
"In a room in the recovery ward." Giles said smiling kindly at Willow as she brought him a cup of steaming coffee.
"You need to shower and shave and change while we go to see her." Buffy said nodding in aggreement with herself.
"We got you a change of clothes from your house hoping you would come here first." Tara said picking up the small pile of folded clothes off of the coffee table.
"Thank you all. Shes not out of the woods. Being in a coma is better then her being..." Giles broke off and picked up the clothes off of the coffee table.
Spike slipped out from under Kitty softly replacing his lap with a pillow. Buffy closed her eyes hard then opened them again as the rest of the group left to go into the kitchen. Guess it wasnt just a bad dream.
"Break fast or lunch?" Willow said smiling as they all came into the kitchen.
"Lunch Wil." Buffy said hugging her.
"Lunch, who wants grilled cheese?" Willow offered holding up the frying pan.