Tonight and the rest of my life

Chapter 12

The group stood inside the room rather crowding Heaven. It hurt them, equally if not more then others to see her like that even after they had all seen her many times in the last 2 weeks. Her long beautiful hair all tucked back behind her head, she was pale and sickly. Tubes in her arms and all over the place. Spike stuck to the door with Kitty who clung to his hand. Kitty had called Orion that morning and he stood next to her bed tears slipping down his face. The fact that he couldnt cure a natural illness was killing him on the inside.

"Who would have done this?" Willow asked the group.

"When I find out they wont get to far before I tear them into pieces." Angel growled.

"Shes in so much pain." Orion said running his hand along her face leaving a soft golden trail.

The room fell silent. All they could do was stare, what would someone do in a situation like this. What could one say? Orion and Kitty had to stand there and see their sister deteriorate. Spike had to watch his lover fade away before his eyes and the rest of them had to watch their friend, their fellow scooby's health worsen.

"Why wont you call him?" Kitty said from the door.

Orion stared down at his sister then at his other sister and he nodded. He left the room in a golden glow as he had done many times before that. They all went back to their staring. Angel stood next to her bed and he did something that no one had guessed he would have done and what probably broke them down even more. He fell to his knees and buried his face in his hands and cried. He hadnt cried since the day they had found out she wasnt going to be holding on for to long.

Orion returned a few moments later in white light instead of his normal glow. He wasnt alone, he was with a tall man with broad shoulders and deep rich hair like Heavens. He looked at Heaven and at Orion then across the room to Kitty who stood dumbstruck.

"I can not do this, son. It is against my rights as a god." The man they assumed was Heaven's father said.

"You are a father before you are a god." Orion was red with fury.

The man looked at his daughter again the whole room was silent except for the hard breathing of Willow who had stopped crying. He looked back at Orion then touched his daughter on her heart. He pressed down and a white light emitted from his hand. Heaven gasped as her father dissappeared.

"Bloody hell." Spike said looking around at the other shocked faces.

Heaven laid in the hospital bed staring up at the ceiling for a minute then she looked around. Confusion written all over her face. She turned her head to see Orion who was smiling widely showing his pearly white teeth but for once not trying to get a date.

"You okay?" Orion said touching her forehead.

"Did you heal me?" Heaven asked him coughing.

"No, he did." Orion smiled at his sister.

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Heaven sat up in her hospital bed. Kitty sat on the edge of the bed eating her jell-o and laughing about something Xander had said. She still felt week and although the hospital wasnt going to let her out till tomorow or maybe the next day she was still happy. The whole gang had crowded into the small hospital room and although Buffy's mom was in the hospital herself Dawn and Buffy still found time to come see Heaven.

"So, how is all that processed food?" Tara asked with a big smile.

"I dont know I'm not all that hungry." Heaven said with a equally large smile.

"You need to eat." Angel said coming into the room, he had been with Buffy and Dawn.

"How is Buffy's mom?" Heaven asked dissmissing the order.

"Shes going through some tests. Shes about to go for a cat skan." Angel said standing over Heaven.

"Heaven, I know you are still fragile but you have been under for two weeks now and hoping that your memory is still fresh do you have any idea who may have done this to you?" Giles asked her as he cleaned his glasses.

"No, but I've got a good idea." Heaven said smiling.

"Glory." Spike said sauntering into the room and leaning against the door jam.

"Yeah." Heaven said staring at him.

"Hey, who wants to go get something to eat?" Xander said jumping up.

"I do!" Kitty said smiling.

"Yeah lets make a trip of it." Angel said smiling at Heaven.

Angel, Xander, Kitty, Giles and Tara left the room leaving Spike and Heaven alone. Spike smiled at her and took the seat next to her bed.

"I dont feel like sitting and being helpless anymore. If Glory knew I was awake she would be in here and I would be so screwed." Heaven said pulling her legs out from under the covers.

Buffy had brought her clean clothes when she had woken up. Soft sleep shorts and a black t-shirt of Spikes that she slept in sometimes.

"Dont tempt me Heaven." Spike said with a smile.

Heaven threw her legs over the side of the bed and jumped off of it. She teetered slightly then caught herself and stood straight up. Spike stood too and pushed back her hair.

"See I'm good to go." Heaven said hugging him.

"I forgot how short you are. Are you any taller then Buffy?" Spike said laughing.

Heaven turned to the door when she felt Glory's presence. Glory smiled at her and cocked her head to the side as if she was checking out Spike. Heaven pushed Spike out of the way to be face to face with Glory.

"I thought that was going to keep you down long enough for me to at least get rid of the slayer. Guess I was wrong. I assumed ole Daddy wasnt going to help you this time." Glory said shaking her head. "You would think a god would look like less of white trash dont you?"

"Yeah I would." Heaven said looking Glory up and down.

"Oh well your week so I'll just kill you now." Glory said swinging at her.

"You wish." Heaven lifted up her right leg taking Glory in the face.

Glory grabbed Heaven by her hair and pulled her out into the hallway where Heaven spun out of Glory's grasp and with a backflip she was right in Glory's way again. She kicked Glory in the stomach sending her flying through the hall into the wall. Glor pulled herself out of the shape of a person she had made in the wall and charged at Heaven again. Heaven did another backflip and kicked Glory square in the chin.

"Bitch." Glory screamed and jumped up.

Heaven smiled and dodged the cart that Glory threw at her. Heaven threw her hands up infront of her and froze Glory. Glory quickly shook out of it and charged at Heaven again giving Heaven enough time to jump over Glory making Glory run into the wall directly behind her. Glory pulled herself together and fled the hospital.

"Heaven! What the hell do you think your doing?" Angel yelled coming down the hall with the entire scooby gang behind him.

"Uh I thought I was doing this world a favor by kicking the ass of the one thing stronger then Buffy." Heaven said putting her hands on her hips.

"Well, dont do it again. Your sick you need to rest." Angel said pushing her into her room.

"Bloody hell Heaven. If your sick and your that strong..." Spike said as Heaven sat back in her bed pulling her tiny legs up into a tuck.

"I am not sick. Did you see that? I can still use my powers." Heaven said smiling.

"You shouldnt be." Angel said.

"Okay dad." Heaven said jokingly.

Buffy bit her lip in the corner looking at Heaven. Heaven felt it, she was afraid, afraid of what Heaven could become if she let herself turn to the lure of evil.

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Heaven sat on the sofa next to Spike watching some stupid horror movie that Willow had rented. Xander and Anya were in the large chair all cuddly. Willow and Tara were laying on the floor whispering and giggling and Buffy and Angel were siting on the loveseat watching the movie. Dawn and Kitty were at the summers house and Giles was attempting to go out on a date with some woman who came into the Magic Box last week and left her number on the counter.

Heaven slipped her arm around Spikes wasboard abs and looked up at him. He was too into the horror movie to notice her. She was still thinking on the day he had asked her to marry him but he seemed other wise occupied lately. Trying to make her feel like she was home again. Willow, Tara and Buffy had moved in while Heaven was out since Kitty needed a guardian and for Buffy it was right down the street from her mother.

Tara laughed loudly as Xander made a face that made fun of one of the monsters on the movie. Heaven smiled she missed this, missed sitting on the sofa with her vampire boyfriend and her friends watching stupid movies and making fun on them.

"Xander get the phone." Buffy said pointing to the phone next to his head that was ringing.

Heaven felt a wave of nausea as she closed her eyes. She was sent into a vision. Crying, lots of crying, Buffy's mom was laying on the floor in the dark. She was dead.

"Dawn, calm down. Whats going on?" Xander said hitting the power button on the tv.

"Whats wrong?" Buffy jumped off of the love seat.

"We will be right there Dawn. Just go in the other room." Xander said hanging up the phone.

"Whats wrong?" Buffy demanded.

"Less talking more getting to your house pronto." Xander said grabbing his jacket and running out the front door.

Heaven and Spike jumped up with Angel, Tara, Willow and Anya behind them. Buffy was definatly the first one to her house because she was running. The gang ran into the house behind Buffy. Heaven fell to her knees and took Kitty in her arms who was crying and curled up in the corner.

Heaven covered Kitty's face and looked at Joyces body, she was laid out on the floor with Dawn laying on the floor next to her crying. Buffy took Dawn into her arms as well and told Xander to call 911.

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Everyone stood in the lobby of the morgue hugging. Heaven and Buffy hugged holding each other Willow and Xander hugged around them so it was just one group hug. The doctor came into the room and the hugging ended. Heaven left the room saying she had to go the bathroom. She walked out of the hospital into the cool of the night. The moment she stepped outside the rain begain. It always happened that way, it would rain till Heaven felt good again. But she didnt want the rain to stop.

"Is it me?" She asked the sky. "Did I do this? Everyone I touch I kill them. This is my fault."

She covered her face and leaned over her back heaving with sobs. Sobs that were kept inside for days like this, when all else fails cry like a baby and alter the whole weather system. She looked ahead of her to see Glory.

"Everywhere I go. I cant escape this can I?" Heaven asked her shaking her head.

"No." Glory said coming down the path towards her in what looked like scrubs. "But your right Heaven. You do kill everything you touch. I want my key Heaven, hand it over and I wont make the death count higher."

"You have to kill me before you get the key. And killing me seems to be your weak point." Heaven said as a loud clap of thunder rolled over the area.

"I can kill you Heaven." Glory said turning around and walking away.

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Heaven stood infront of her closet with her hair up in a towel and a towel wrapped around her. She stared at the clothes in her closet, pink, blue, orange, yellow. Black, she pulled out a a black top, a knee length black skirt and a black jacket that ended near the end of the skirt. She hung it up on her door and sat infront of her vanity mirror. She blow dried her hair and began to do her make up. She dressed and left her room, she was numb from head to toe and everything she did didnt feel normal.

"Hey." Willow said she was sitting at the breakfast table alone.

"You know Willow, I've lost a lot of people. My own mother... But it wasnt this confusing." Heaven said sitting next to her.

Willow took Heavens hand and they sat quietly till Tara came into the kitchen with Kitty. They both looked as tired and upset as Willow and Heaven did. The drive was unbearable, the silence in the car. They were early to the funeral but it was good that they were Buffy, Dawn, Xander, Anya and Giles stood aside the coffin that had been prepared for the burial.

The group stood together. They had weathered so much pain and hurt, this was going to top it. Although no one spoke a word they all knew what the other one was thinking, going through the things that they had gone through together it made the gap of silence filled with a knowledge.

The burial was the hardest part, Heaven kept a tight grip on Kitty's hand and Xanders arm remained around Heaven's shoulders the whole time. Anya cried softly without sobs just tears, Willow covered her face on Tara's shoulder. Giles stood like a rock with tears lining his eyelids. Dawn and Buffy held each other with their arms around each other. The other people came and cried for Joyce Summers, the loss of a mother and a friend. They stared at the two girls without a mother with looks of sorrow and regret. Those poor girls, they would think, what would they do without a mother? So much to think on.

Heaven felt Xanders arm tighten as they watched Joyce's coffin go down into the earth. Kitty coverd her face in Heavens shoulder and Xander leaned over and kissed the top of Heavens head then kissed Anya. Heaven closed her eyes and the tears slipped down her face. The sky began to cloud and before it could rain Heaven opened her eyes and wiped the tears away. The clouds stayed the rest of the funeral but they didnt let a rain drop fall.

"You ready to go?" Xander asked Heaven.

The whole place had cleared but the scooby gang stayed. All of them clinging to one another, Heaven was ready to go home and cry till she couldnt cry anymore but she wasnt ready to leave Buffy. The group left together, they pulled into Heaven's drive way. Buffy and Dawn werent ready to go home, Heavens home was big enough for all of them.

"Who wants chinese? I can go pick it up." Xander said smiling.

"I think chinese sounds great." Heaven said looking down at the floor.

The sun had gone down hours ago and Angel had come to the house. He and Buffy had gone for a walk and they hadnt been home yet so Xander ordered for them. Heaven trudged up the stairs and into her room where she changed into exersize pants and a tank top. She sat on the side of the bed and covered her face.

Spike came into the room and sat next to her putting his arm around her. She put her head against his chest and cried. He pulled her onto his lap and she cried harder putting her arms around his neck and pressing the side of her cheek against his. He ran his hands through her hair and turned to kiss her. Heaven kissed him back and after she pulled his jacket off and threw it on the floor they fell backwards onto the bed.

"Heaven?" The door creaked open and Heaven sat up to see Kitty in the doorway.

"Yeah." Heaven said standing up.

"Xander's back with the food." Kitty said blushing slightly.

"Thanks Kit." Heaven said standing up.

Heaven followed Kitty out of the room. Buffy and Angel were coming through the front door when she came down the stairs with Spike behind her.

"Hey, we ordered Chinese food for you guys." Heaven said smiling slightly.

"Thanks." Buffy said trying to force a smile.

"Dont strain yourself Buff." Spike said passing them and going into the kitchen.

Heaven smiled as they both went into the kitchen. Suddenly she was sent into a wave of a premonition and hit the floor on her knees hard. She closed her eyes and the images were so clear to her, like they rarely were.

She saw Angel in the kitchen, he was clining to the kitchen counter and howling in pain as a red light flowed through him. The red light ends and Angel leaves his body, Angelus takes over. Grabbing his nearest victim, Willow.

Heaven was shot out of the vision by a howl from the kitchen. It was Angel. She pushed herself off of the floor and ran into the kitchen making sure that they were all against the wall with Heaven and Spike infront of them and Angel howled in pain and Buffy tried to get to him. He stopped howling and turned to them with a smirk. Heaven gasped, she felt his rage and his malice building up inside of him.

"Get out of here you monster." Heaven hissed.

"Damn, thought I might get some fun out of it first. Better go meet this Glory chick. Thank her for bringing back the old Angel." Angel said and with a cackling laugh he left the kitchen and went out the back door into the night.