Tonight and the rest of my life
Chapter 15
Heaven pulled herself out of the shock to take on one of the demons. Buffy kicked butt like she normally did but her hair was scraggly and her clothes were dirty. Heaven shoved her fist into the demon infront of her, she felt her hand cut through the demons thick layer of skin and slam into his intestine. He fell with a thud and Heaven looked around. They were all down and she had only killed two of them, oh that was definitely Buffy.
"Buffy that damn thing worked?" Heaven asked leaning against a trashcan behind her.
Buffy looked around then at Heaven. She turned and ran, Heaven ran after her but when she got out of the alley she lost her. So she ran for the house, she ran in through the door as Willow was adding the skin. It banged loudly but Heavens bang was going to be just a little bit louder. She picked up the table by the door and slammed it on the ground.
"How could you do that to a person? You have brought back someone who didn't want to be here!" Heaven screamed so loud it strained her vocal chords.
"Heaven pet calm down." Spike said touching her arm she pushed him off.
"Her hands were bleeding, do you know what that means? DO YOU?" Heaven was crying now.
"She had to dig herself out?" Tara asked her eyes wide in terror.
Dawn and Kitty came into the hallway from the kitchen were cellar was. They looked at the broken table and Heaven covering her face crying. Tara began to cry and Willow had to hold her. " Damn what did you do? Now I have to fix this." Spike hissed at Xander.
"Yeah go fix it Spike." Heaven growled going back out the front door.
Angel was coming up the walk with a smile on his face.
"They all just fell over and died. It was kind of cool to watch." Angel saw the look on Heavens face and immediately changed his mood.
"Don't ask me. I can't lie to you and that's all I would want to do right now Angel." Heaven said walking past him down the sidewalk.
She walked down the street staring at the wreckage. Her eyes fogged and she flashed back to her sixteenth birthday, she had spent it in a coffin. Heaven had died three times in her life and she had only been buried once. But she ended up digging her self out of her own grave, she remembered the dirt falling on her when she finally pushed the heavy coffin lid open. The bloody hands, the tears of fear and anguish. The absolute pain it felt pushing herself through dirt that was packed and set for almost two weeks.
She opened her eyes when she felt the stare of another person on her. Heaven was shocked, completely. Buffy had a glow that even a god stripped of her power would see. But no normal person super natural or not could see it but a god or an Angel. She had the glow, the glow that enveloped her and protected her. She had been pulled out of Heaven, not some insane hell dimension like they had all assumed.
Heaven stood watching as Buffy turned and left. She didn't have to run Heaven wasn't going to chase her. She just stood in the street staring at Buffy as she disappeared into the night. She didn't want to hear Heaven saying things she probably wouldn't understand anyway and Heaven didn't want to talk when she knew Buffy wouldn't or couldn't care.
Heaven sat on her front porch as the sun rose in the sky. Buffy had come back with Dawn late in the night and everyone had crowded her and scared her but she was sure she would be okay soon. Heaven had given them her guestroom for the night and as long as they needed. She didn't have to see Kitty and Dawn off to school because it was a Saturday. But she was sure that Spike was mad at her. Right then she could hardly care.
It was just her and the beautiful warm day outside. She kept having to force herself to remember that Buffy was back and what they were going to do about that. Just shove Buffy back into the slot that no one had noticed she had left. Buffy's death was a secret to a lot of people not just the demonic world but other people too so that wouldn't be too hard.
Heaven ran a hand through her soft hair and pulled it into a ponytail at the back and tied a hair tie around it then stood up and turned back around to look at her house.
"Did you even sleep last night?" Xander asked her standing at the open door.
"Why are you air conditioning the neighborhood?" Heaven asked coldly.
"Heaven are you going to stay mad at me?" Xander asked as she brushed past him.
"Most likely." Heaven said going into the kitchen where Willow was on the phone with Giles.
"Why? I'm sorry okay? Shes back that's all that matters." Xander cried throwing his hands up in the air.
"Xander it is not your place in the world to give life!" Heaven cried throwing down a napkin she had picked up.
"What you don't want her back? Is that it? Stealing your spotlight?" Xander asked angrily.
"How dare you." Heaven hissed. "I love Buffy."
Heaven left the room in a huff stomping all the way out and up the stairs. She went into her room and began to pace. She threw up a vase and froze it in mid air holding it there.
"What are you doing?" Spike asked sitting up in bed.
"It relaxes me." Heaven said staring at the vase, she was feeling relaxed already.
Xander's door slammed and the vase broke in the air. The pieces fell to the ground and Heaven rolled her eyes.
"What's going on Heaven? Why won't you tell me anything anymore? I don't know a bleeding thing that happens unless I ask someone else." Spike said leaning up on his arms.
"Fine wanna know? Xander, Anya, Willow and Tara resurrected Buffy and left her in her COFFIN. Xander thinks I'm upset because Buffy's back and she is stealing my spotlight! NO! Do you want to know why I'm mad Spike? Because Buffy was in heaven. She was up there with the big guy and they yanked her out of it!" Heaven said angrily.
"How were they suppose to know that?" Spike asked Heaven throwing the covers off of him and picking up his pants off of the floor.
"I don't know it's just not fair." Heaven said shaking her head.
"So, let Buffy deal with it on her own. If she needs you she will come to you." Spike said rubbing his hand over her arm.
"I know. I guess." Heaven said looking up at him.
"Go talk to Xander." Spike said kissing her forehead.
"Fine if you wanna be all smart." Heaven said leaving the room.
She raised her hand to knock on the door when she heard Anya tell Xander to go talk to her. The door opened and Heaven smiled so did Xander. He hugged her and everything was okay until the next big fiasco. Which was right that moment.
"Heaven can I talk to you, alone." Dawn said coming to Heaven.
"Yeah of course." Heaven said eyeing Xander then following Dawn down the stairs and into the living room.
"Okay," Dawn said nervously ringing her hands together. "I am worried about Kitty."
"Why?" Heaven said leaning back against the dining table.
"Shes been seeing this guy, Vince. He is older then her, by like four years." Dawn cringed when she saw the look on Heavens face.
"What?" Heaven barked.
"And I think he hits her." Dawn said pulling back a little as she saw the anger in Heavens eyes.
Heaven looked at Dawn. She felt bad instantly, Dawn was worried about her friend and Heaven was about to bit her head off. She hugged Dawn and left her standing in the living room. She took the stairs two at a time and banged Kitty's bedroom door open. She was laying on the bed on the phone laughing.
"Off the phone. Now." Heaven said gripping the door.
"Hey I have to go. Love you too." Kitty said hanging up the phone and sitting up.
"What's going on Kitty? Wanna talk?" Heaven said feeling the splinters from the door driving into her hand.
"No." Kitty said plainly rolling her eyes.
"Talk to me Kitty." Heaven said noticing that Kitty was wearing makeup.
"Get out of my room." Kitty said clinching her teeth.
"You live under MY roof. This room belongs to me and Xander." Heaven said part of the door snapped under her hand.
"Xander!" Kitty yelled, Xander came down the hall and popped his head in the room. "Tell Heaven to get out of my room."
"Don't you dare try to pit me and Xander against each other." Heaven said angrily.
"GET OUT!" Kitty screamed.
"Come on Heaven." Xander said putting his hand on her arm.
She turned and stalked out of the room. But she wasn't angry, she was upset. Her sister couldn't even tell her anything. She was wearing makeup and dating and Heaven didn't even know about it.
"Heaven calm down it's not that big of a deal." Xander said walking her down the hall.
Heaven kept her mouth shut she would rather not tell Xander because he would go in there and forbid her from leaving her room for years. Heaven just spent the rest of the day watching the door.
"Buffy do you have any fours?" Heaven asked sitting on Spikes lap with a full hand of cards.
"Go fish." Buffy said, Angel looked over her shoulder at her hand.
Heaven took four cards before she found a four. Xander laughed at her he also looked over Anya's shoulder to see her cards.
"My turn." Willow said looking at her hand. "Tara do you have any nines?"
"Yes." Tara said handing Willow a nine.
"This game is so childish." Spike said leaning back against the sofa.
"It's fun." Tara said with a smile.
"Not without kittens." Spike said in his normal moody tone.
"Kittens?" Willow asked.
"They play poker with kittens instead of money." Heaven said smiling.
"Kittens? How's Kitty?" Angel asked looking at Xander and Heaven.
"I don't know she hasn't been down in a while." Xander said suspiciously.
"Neither has Dawn." Buffy said standing up.
Heaven stood and so did Xander. Heaven and Xander were attempting to be her parents in some way for her to at least have a father figure that wasn't a vampire. Just a construction worker. Buffy banged on the door, Angel came up behind her.
There was no answer. Buffy banged again then tried the door, it was locked. Heaven kicked at it and the door popped open. Heaven looked around, tons of clothes littered the floor and the window was open. She nearly fainted but Xander grabbed her arm.
Buffy didn't waste any time she turned from the room and shot down the stairs with Xander, Heaven and Angel behind her. The group was standing in the living room now.
"When we were kids where did we go if we snuck out?" Xander asked looking at all them.
"The grave yard." Buffy said putting her hand on the keys next to the door.
"What about that place? That make out point place." Willow said.
"Good start." Buffy said leading the group out of the door.
Heaven drove her car and Xander drove his. The got to the make out point to see a rental car squealing to a stop and two boys standing outside going to their car.
Heaven pulled the car to a stop when she saw who came out of the rental car. She jumped out of the car.
"How did you know?!" Heaven cried to Giles who was coming for the two boys.
"I heard screaming when I was driving by." Giles stared at Buffy as she got out of the car.
"I can smell Kitty and Dawn all over here." Angel said charging as well.
"On them." Spike said pointing to the two older boys.
"Hey! Cool your jets lady." The boy with the long hair said as Heaven grabbed him by the front of his shirt.
"Where are Kitty and Dawn?" Heaven said angrily.
"Who?" The other boy with short blonde hair said while Buffy pinned him against his car.
"Where are they?" Heaven yelled.
"In the woods. They ran away from us." He was lying.
Heaven dropped him and grabbed Spikes hand they ran into the woods.
"I can smell blood. It's strong." Spike said shaking his head.
They only had to run for a few more minutes till they found Dawn. She was leaning over someone that hardly looked like a person anymore they had been beaten so badly. Heaven fell to her knees and keeled over vomiting. Angel and Buffy ran infront of them and Buffy took Dawn into her arms. The rest of the group came through the clearing. Xander stopped to look, he saw Heaven clinging to Spike for dear life and covering her face. Giles covered his eyes and Willow let out a sob. Dawn was crying and Buffy was rocking her in her arms. Buffy spotted a bat near by soaked in blood.
A golden glow informed them that Orion had felt her pain.
"Heaven?" Orion said looking at his sister then infront of him. "I can't feel her."
Spike covered her face from looking at Kitty. Tears slipped down his face. Orion got on his knees next to his very young sister. He was crying and trying to wipe away the tears. He put his hands over her and the glow showed but there was no change. She just laid still and silent.
"It's me. It's me." Heaven was sobbing.
Buffy was crying now too. She had seen so many things in her life, she had dug herself out of her own grave but never had she seen anything so horrible. She knew it wasn't super natural it was just wrong. Heaven cried harder as Orion left in the golden light. Angel was crying too, I don't think there was a person in those woods that wasn't crying. Tara and Willow were on the ground sobbing. Giles was crying, his hand covering his face. Anya held Xander while he cried her own face covered in tears.
The police showed up ten minutes later. They put Heavens responsibilities and love into a black bag she had become use to. She was taken in for questioning along with the rest of the scooby gang, she did all of this numbly. Spike carried her and held her. When they came back into the house Heaven went straight to her room without a word.
"What now?" Angel asked looking at Giles.
"We grieve." Giles said sitting down on the sofa and looking at Buffy.
Chapter 15
Heaven pulled herself out of the shock to take on one of the demons. Buffy kicked butt like she normally did but her hair was scraggly and her clothes were dirty. Heaven shoved her fist into the demon infront of her, she felt her hand cut through the demons thick layer of skin and slam into his intestine. He fell with a thud and Heaven looked around. They were all down and she had only killed two of them, oh that was definitely Buffy.
"Buffy that damn thing worked?" Heaven asked leaning against a trashcan behind her.
Buffy looked around then at Heaven. She turned and ran, Heaven ran after her but when she got out of the alley she lost her. So she ran for the house, she ran in through the door as Willow was adding the skin. It banged loudly but Heavens bang was going to be just a little bit louder. She picked up the table by the door and slammed it on the ground.
"How could you do that to a person? You have brought back someone who didn't want to be here!" Heaven screamed so loud it strained her vocal chords.
"Heaven pet calm down." Spike said touching her arm she pushed him off.
"Her hands were bleeding, do you know what that means? DO YOU?" Heaven was crying now.
"She had to dig herself out?" Tara asked her eyes wide in terror.
Dawn and Kitty came into the hallway from the kitchen were cellar was. They looked at the broken table and Heaven covering her face crying. Tara began to cry and Willow had to hold her. " Damn what did you do? Now I have to fix this." Spike hissed at Xander.
"Yeah go fix it Spike." Heaven growled going back out the front door.
Angel was coming up the walk with a smile on his face.
"They all just fell over and died. It was kind of cool to watch." Angel saw the look on Heavens face and immediately changed his mood.
"Don't ask me. I can't lie to you and that's all I would want to do right now Angel." Heaven said walking past him down the sidewalk.
She walked down the street staring at the wreckage. Her eyes fogged and she flashed back to her sixteenth birthday, she had spent it in a coffin. Heaven had died three times in her life and she had only been buried once. But she ended up digging her self out of her own grave, she remembered the dirt falling on her when she finally pushed the heavy coffin lid open. The bloody hands, the tears of fear and anguish. The absolute pain it felt pushing herself through dirt that was packed and set for almost two weeks.
She opened her eyes when she felt the stare of another person on her. Heaven was shocked, completely. Buffy had a glow that even a god stripped of her power would see. But no normal person super natural or not could see it but a god or an Angel. She had the glow, the glow that enveloped her and protected her. She had been pulled out of Heaven, not some insane hell dimension like they had all assumed.
Heaven stood watching as Buffy turned and left. She didn't have to run Heaven wasn't going to chase her. She just stood in the street staring at Buffy as she disappeared into the night. She didn't want to hear Heaven saying things she probably wouldn't understand anyway and Heaven didn't want to talk when she knew Buffy wouldn't or couldn't care.
Heaven sat on her front porch as the sun rose in the sky. Buffy had come back with Dawn late in the night and everyone had crowded her and scared her but she was sure she would be okay soon. Heaven had given them her guestroom for the night and as long as they needed. She didn't have to see Kitty and Dawn off to school because it was a Saturday. But she was sure that Spike was mad at her. Right then she could hardly care.
It was just her and the beautiful warm day outside. She kept having to force herself to remember that Buffy was back and what they were going to do about that. Just shove Buffy back into the slot that no one had noticed she had left. Buffy's death was a secret to a lot of people not just the demonic world but other people too so that wouldn't be too hard.
Heaven ran a hand through her soft hair and pulled it into a ponytail at the back and tied a hair tie around it then stood up and turned back around to look at her house.
"Did you even sleep last night?" Xander asked her standing at the open door.
"Why are you air conditioning the neighborhood?" Heaven asked coldly.
"Heaven are you going to stay mad at me?" Xander asked as she brushed past him.
"Most likely." Heaven said going into the kitchen where Willow was on the phone with Giles.
"Why? I'm sorry okay? Shes back that's all that matters." Xander cried throwing his hands up in the air.
"Xander it is not your place in the world to give life!" Heaven cried throwing down a napkin she had picked up.
"What you don't want her back? Is that it? Stealing your spotlight?" Xander asked angrily.
"How dare you." Heaven hissed. "I love Buffy."
Heaven left the room in a huff stomping all the way out and up the stairs. She went into her room and began to pace. She threw up a vase and froze it in mid air holding it there.
"What are you doing?" Spike asked sitting up in bed.
"It relaxes me." Heaven said staring at the vase, she was feeling relaxed already.
Xander's door slammed and the vase broke in the air. The pieces fell to the ground and Heaven rolled her eyes.
"What's going on Heaven? Why won't you tell me anything anymore? I don't know a bleeding thing that happens unless I ask someone else." Spike said leaning up on his arms.
"Fine wanna know? Xander, Anya, Willow and Tara resurrected Buffy and left her in her COFFIN. Xander thinks I'm upset because Buffy's back and she is stealing my spotlight! NO! Do you want to know why I'm mad Spike? Because Buffy was in heaven. She was up there with the big guy and they yanked her out of it!" Heaven said angrily.
"How were they suppose to know that?" Spike asked Heaven throwing the covers off of him and picking up his pants off of the floor.
"I don't know it's just not fair." Heaven said shaking her head.
"So, let Buffy deal with it on her own. If she needs you she will come to you." Spike said rubbing his hand over her arm.
"I know. I guess." Heaven said looking up at him.
"Go talk to Xander." Spike said kissing her forehead.
"Fine if you wanna be all smart." Heaven said leaving the room.
She raised her hand to knock on the door when she heard Anya tell Xander to go talk to her. The door opened and Heaven smiled so did Xander. He hugged her and everything was okay until the next big fiasco. Which was right that moment.
"Heaven can I talk to you, alone." Dawn said coming to Heaven.
"Yeah of course." Heaven said eyeing Xander then following Dawn down the stairs and into the living room.
"Okay," Dawn said nervously ringing her hands together. "I am worried about Kitty."
"Why?" Heaven said leaning back against the dining table.
"Shes been seeing this guy, Vince. He is older then her, by like four years." Dawn cringed when she saw the look on Heavens face.
"What?" Heaven barked.
"And I think he hits her." Dawn said pulling back a little as she saw the anger in Heavens eyes.
Heaven looked at Dawn. She felt bad instantly, Dawn was worried about her friend and Heaven was about to bit her head off. She hugged Dawn and left her standing in the living room. She took the stairs two at a time and banged Kitty's bedroom door open. She was laying on the bed on the phone laughing.
"Off the phone. Now." Heaven said gripping the door.
"Hey I have to go. Love you too." Kitty said hanging up the phone and sitting up.
"What's going on Kitty? Wanna talk?" Heaven said feeling the splinters from the door driving into her hand.
"No." Kitty said plainly rolling her eyes.
"Talk to me Kitty." Heaven said noticing that Kitty was wearing makeup.
"Get out of my room." Kitty said clinching her teeth.
"You live under MY roof. This room belongs to me and Xander." Heaven said part of the door snapped under her hand.
"Xander!" Kitty yelled, Xander came down the hall and popped his head in the room. "Tell Heaven to get out of my room."
"Don't you dare try to pit me and Xander against each other." Heaven said angrily.
"GET OUT!" Kitty screamed.
"Come on Heaven." Xander said putting his hand on her arm.
She turned and stalked out of the room. But she wasn't angry, she was upset. Her sister couldn't even tell her anything. She was wearing makeup and dating and Heaven didn't even know about it.
"Heaven calm down it's not that big of a deal." Xander said walking her down the hall.
Heaven kept her mouth shut she would rather not tell Xander because he would go in there and forbid her from leaving her room for years. Heaven just spent the rest of the day watching the door.
"Buffy do you have any fours?" Heaven asked sitting on Spikes lap with a full hand of cards.
"Go fish." Buffy said, Angel looked over her shoulder at her hand.
Heaven took four cards before she found a four. Xander laughed at her he also looked over Anya's shoulder to see her cards.
"My turn." Willow said looking at her hand. "Tara do you have any nines?"
"Yes." Tara said handing Willow a nine.
"This game is so childish." Spike said leaning back against the sofa.
"It's fun." Tara said with a smile.
"Not without kittens." Spike said in his normal moody tone.
"Kittens?" Willow asked.
"They play poker with kittens instead of money." Heaven said smiling.
"Kittens? How's Kitty?" Angel asked looking at Xander and Heaven.
"I don't know she hasn't been down in a while." Xander said suspiciously.
"Neither has Dawn." Buffy said standing up.
Heaven stood and so did Xander. Heaven and Xander were attempting to be her parents in some way for her to at least have a father figure that wasn't a vampire. Just a construction worker. Buffy banged on the door, Angel came up behind her.
There was no answer. Buffy banged again then tried the door, it was locked. Heaven kicked at it and the door popped open. Heaven looked around, tons of clothes littered the floor and the window was open. She nearly fainted but Xander grabbed her arm.
Buffy didn't waste any time she turned from the room and shot down the stairs with Xander, Heaven and Angel behind her. The group was standing in the living room now.
"When we were kids where did we go if we snuck out?" Xander asked looking at all them.
"The grave yard." Buffy said putting her hand on the keys next to the door.
"What about that place? That make out point place." Willow said.
"Good start." Buffy said leading the group out of the door.
Heaven drove her car and Xander drove his. The got to the make out point to see a rental car squealing to a stop and two boys standing outside going to their car.
Heaven pulled the car to a stop when she saw who came out of the rental car. She jumped out of the car.
"How did you know?!" Heaven cried to Giles who was coming for the two boys.
"I heard screaming when I was driving by." Giles stared at Buffy as she got out of the car.
"I can smell Kitty and Dawn all over here." Angel said charging as well.
"On them." Spike said pointing to the two older boys.
"Hey! Cool your jets lady." The boy with the long hair said as Heaven grabbed him by the front of his shirt.
"Where are Kitty and Dawn?" Heaven said angrily.
"Who?" The other boy with short blonde hair said while Buffy pinned him against his car.
"Where are they?" Heaven yelled.
"In the woods. They ran away from us." He was lying.
Heaven dropped him and grabbed Spikes hand they ran into the woods.
"I can smell blood. It's strong." Spike said shaking his head.
They only had to run for a few more minutes till they found Dawn. She was leaning over someone that hardly looked like a person anymore they had been beaten so badly. Heaven fell to her knees and keeled over vomiting. Angel and Buffy ran infront of them and Buffy took Dawn into her arms. The rest of the group came through the clearing. Xander stopped to look, he saw Heaven clinging to Spike for dear life and covering her face. Giles covered his eyes and Willow let out a sob. Dawn was crying and Buffy was rocking her in her arms. Buffy spotted a bat near by soaked in blood.
A golden glow informed them that Orion had felt her pain.
"Heaven?" Orion said looking at his sister then infront of him. "I can't feel her."
Spike covered her face from looking at Kitty. Tears slipped down his face. Orion got on his knees next to his very young sister. He was crying and trying to wipe away the tears. He put his hands over her and the glow showed but there was no change. She just laid still and silent.
"It's me. It's me." Heaven was sobbing.
Buffy was crying now too. She had seen so many things in her life, she had dug herself out of her own grave but never had she seen anything so horrible. She knew it wasn't super natural it was just wrong. Heaven cried harder as Orion left in the golden light. Angel was crying too, I don't think there was a person in those woods that wasn't crying. Tara and Willow were on the ground sobbing. Giles was crying, his hand covering his face. Anya held Xander while he cried her own face covered in tears.
The police showed up ten minutes later. They put Heavens responsibilities and love into a black bag she had become use to. She was taken in for questioning along with the rest of the scooby gang, she did all of this numbly. Spike carried her and held her. When they came back into the house Heaven went straight to her room without a word.
"What now?" Angel asked looking at Giles.
"We grieve." Giles said sitting down on the sofa and looking at Buffy.