A/N: well chap 4 I hope everyone likes it, oh by the way, there are two parts to it

well sorry about the delay of updates, but I was suspended and yeah, couldn't access the internet.

And a lot of stuff has been happening in my life… sigh. Found out my cousin died in Iraq… my sister's battalion whatever thingy was sent to Iraq… I miss my family so much now.

Anyways, you'll be surprised, im gonna screw up the chain of arguments in this chapter. Hehe.

Ok just a little spoiler, this is going to be Rikku's part of the problem, the next part will be Yuna's. so stayed tuned.

Please this chapter gets rough on the edges! If you are offended by profanity, please do not read, or, read at your own risk.


Carve The Soul
By: i0pk

Chapter 4: If I Ain't Got You (Part 1)

"Tidus…I love you…" Rikku whispered deeply into his ear. "I care for you… and I want you to know I will never let you go." They silent cricket chirpings, dark misty cold as can be outside. Rikku lay on top of Tidus' body completely naked. Her green swirls scanned his beautifully structured face, his lips slowly mumbling Yuna's name.

'I can't believe he still whispers her name in his sleep…what's up with me?' Rikku closed her eyes, slowly, and cautiously, she sealed the distance between her lips and his own.

The chemistry began erupting… the passion between the two was unquestionable, Rikku's hunger for his taste was then satisfied, Tidus' still not fully awake, embraced this comfort, passionately returning the favor of the kiss.

"Mmm…Rikku…" The sleepy Tidus mumbled, his lips still locked in Rikku's, the sound of her name made Rikku silently squeal with joy. She decided to do the brave thing by beginning to explore more of his body, hoping to show Tidus what a women can really give him. Quietly as a mouse, she slipped off his shirt, and toppling it among her piles of clothing, and slowly wrapping herself and Tidus' bodies in a tight bond within the light satin blankets.

A smile played on both Rikku and Tidus lips, showing signs of pleasure. Breathing in his sweet scent, she became intoxicated in the sheer smell of Tidus nightly cologne, his so called 'pimp juice' as he liked to claim.

Shutting her eyes to be unexpectedly taken by slumber, forcefully trying her hardest to keep her eyelids open. With unsuccessful attempts, Rikku drifted to sleep…

Clang, Bang, CLANG!

Rikku steadily woke to the sight of a very angry Yuna and a much upset and confused Tidus in his boxers.

"So this is what you do when I'm tucked in and happily dreaming of you?! You go and sleep with my cousin! YOU of all people! My 'one' and only, the one I've spent two years crying over?! And when I finally get the chance to spend time with you again, you just seem to blow me away just like that? Look I'm sorry for ignoring you, when you returned, I was unsure about us! But this is just too far!" Yuna was beginning to become reddish with anger, and slapped Tidus hard across the face.

Tidus was tired of this, and couldn't handle it anymore, and did what he immediately regretted.
"Too far?! What in the world are you talking about?! I have no fucking idea how Rikku seemed to magically appear in my bed…nude! And what about you and Brother, hm? Huh? Explain that Miss bitch!" Tidus snapped back. " Oh my god Yuna I didn't mean to say that!"

"Oh so now I'm a bitch huh?!" Yuna screamed.

"Yuna no! Please I did not mean it like that!" Tidus confessed, "I'm sorry, Yuna please, forgive me, I apologize!" Tidus fell to his knees, begging for forgiveness. Tears poured from his eyes as he could tell that things were going terribly wrong for the both of them.

All the while, Rikku began to creep her way out of the hut, hoping to grab some fresh air, and celebrate her accomplishments. Staring up at the blue bluish sky, the chilly, yet warm air, calmed down her nerves, and raised her morale of victory over Yuna, with Tidus as the prize.

'I just hope that after this, the two settle their differences and don't hate each others gut for this. Hehe, as long as I get Tidus, it's all good. But…what if they don't forgive each-No no Rikku, don't think like that, things will be ok between the two, just different. He'll be in love with me, rather than Yunie.

"Aye yo Rikku girl, whatsup with Yuna and Tidus? Relation problem eh?" Wakka said, completely taking Rikku by surprise.

"Well, er, yeah that's it! I have no idea what happened, but the two are in there yelling their heads off"

"Heh, no matta ya? They always seem to get along eh? Don't worry your little head off there. They always get through everything!" Wakka said proudly. "Come, let's eavesdrop for a bit ya? Give it two minutes and they'll start making up."

The two of them walked towards the hut, where loud clanking noises were heard probably throughout the village.

Unusually the calm ambiance of the isle was not in play, the whole surrounding of the island seemed to be dark and gloomy, but hidden by natures natural beauty on the island. Getting closer, Rikku and Wakka began eavesdropping on Tidus and Yuna, and peeked inside a open window.

"Well consider us over then if you just can't seem to handle a girl that gets mad at her man, for cheating, I'm sure you can find a girl that will allow you to cheat on her… at the goddamned whore store!"

Tidus slumped to the floor, as if he were defeated by her cruel words. His fists were closed in a firm, yet soft grasp, and slammed them onto the now cold hard floor on which his feelings were laid upon.

"Yuna…I, I don't know what to say-. "

"Good! Then keep your damn mouth shut!" Yuna shouted, totally interrupting Tidus and surprising herself at such a tone, "You don't know how good you had it Tidus… sometimes I wonder why you won't just, grow up." Yuna finally said, in a quiet whisper.

Yuna raced out of the hut and headed straight to the next boat to Luca, which coincidently was just about to depart as soon as Yuna arrived to the port.

Tidus quickly thought of a forgiveness gift. He made a dash to his cabin and pulled out a small darkish box. As soon as he grabbed the box, he rushed over to the docks, but not before grabbing a handful of flowers along the path.

"See Rikku? Everything's just fine now, they're gonna kiss and make up ya? Then blah blah, marriage, blah blah, and so-so." Rikku began to panic at the sight. But decided it would be to suspicious if she happened to just be there.

'Damnit Yuna! Leave already! Please! I hope Tidus realizes along the way there that there's only one girl in his life that will care for him! And that's me!'

Villagers stared questioningly at the sight of their High Summoner crying her eyes out, and ten seconds later, the sight of Tidus running his fastest with flowers in his hand and a proposal ring in the other.

A young boy pointed to the direction in which Tidus and Yuna were heading and asked his mother, "Mommy… why is the High Summoner running away from Sir Tidus?"

"Baby… just make sure if that happens to you in public, remember not to come home." his mother replied monotonously.

"Why mommy? Then what just happened is bad?"

"Shut up Billy, and yes, yes it's terrible… a little too terrible for eyes too young even at your age."

Just as the boat was about to leave the pier, Yuna caught a glimpse of Tidus running after the boat, holding flowers in one hand, and a small black box in the other, held quite tightly.

Tidus ran to the wooden pier, until his knees gave out, unable to move, Tidus whistled his loudest yet, a loud, but sincere whistle, which was soon followed by his shout. "YUNA PLEASE FORGIVE ME! I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH TO LET YOU GO! I CAN'T GO ON WITHOUT YOU!" Tidus lost his breath, and planned to catch it. "Yuna, I'm sorry."

Watching Tidus fall to his knees whistling his heart out made Yuna's heart cry out, making her desperately want to jump off and embrace her only one, the only one she always has the heart to forgive. Yuna gave one last goodbye at her former home, and to her now former lover.

Rikku watched from a distance at what a tragedy she had caused. The separation of two tightly bonded, probably star crossed lovers.

'Oh goshers… I feel just so terrible, I broke two hearts, just so I can go and repair one, wait, what if Tidus is to well bent over Yuna that he wont notice me- NO, Rikku, don't think like that. Tidus needs comfort, and I'll go supply some, oh yes, I'll go supply some comfort.'

Wakka stared in bewilderment at the departure of Yuna, and the heartbroken Tidus crying face first on the pier. The sun was just about to begin setting, setting in the 'lovers mood'.

"Oh man, what a big dope I am, I can't believe that just happened ya? I mean, it's Yuna and Tidus man, they never ever fight like this." Wakka said to Rikku, "I have a feeling though, ya know? I got to thinkin'."

"Maybe Yuna girl will come back ya? Just like the movies me and Lu watch all the time. Or maybe… naw, those two will be fine. I think we should go now Rikku, before Tidus finds out we're spying on him."

Rikku simply nodded and headed back to her airship, despite the fact that she would much rather stay and spy on her secret lover more.

Tidus remained at the pier until sundown, reminding himself of that fateful day at Zanarkand, at the campfire, alongside everyone. The day before he disappeared for two long years. Clutching his platinum blonde hair in his hands, he stood up, still grabbing onto his hair, and headed back to Wakka's hut, where both Tidus and Yuna argued their hearts away.

'Yuna, please don't forget me, wherever you go, I'm still so sorry for what I've said, and I'll consider what you've said… It's time for me to grow up, and let go of the past, let go of you… and move on, just like what a grown up would do. Just what you would want me to do.'

Rikku stared into the hut, barely able to control her weeping, watching there, and the barrier between her and him prevented Rikku from comforting her love in despair.

Not wanting to enter inside, Rikku continued painfully watching her love pick up pieces of the broken pictures of Tidus and Yuna together at the reunion, the only time she saw Tidus happy, with the exception of what happened at the beach between Yuna and him the other day.

Rikku disengaged herself from the sight of Tidus picking up lost memories, and began thinking of her decision on breaking up two perfectly fitted people.

'Maybe it was wrong of me to split them apart like that, will Tidus continue speaking with me, after he has seen my naked body cuddling close to his?'

"AH! I'm so sick and tired of thinking about the consequences!" Rikku pouted, "Gosh why can't I just enjoy what I received now?!"

'Because I hurt two people I truly care about to get my selfish needs…NO! I won't allow myself to play tricks on my decision! I won't!'

"Is, uh somebody out there? - sniff- Hello?" Tidus' weak voice came bursting out from the huts' entrance. Rikku remained silent, in the dark starry night, she shadowed in well. A cool breeze blew around the village, and a spark began to start up, the normal routine of the island. A religious thing, saying a fire at night will keep fiends away.

Thinking it was starting to become safe in her current situation, Rikku walked as calm as possible towards the bonfire. Sitting there feeling the warmth of the heat, she was joined by a few other villagers.

"Hey girls, did ya'll hear about Lady Yuna running out on Sir Tidus' proposal?" one of the village girls said.

"No, no, no, that's not what happened Roselyn! I heard that Sir Tidus tried to break up with Lady Yuna politely! And now that they did, he's all free for me!" another girl replied.

"Nu-uh! He's mine!"

"No mine!" Rikku began to get annoyed by this and left to the ship, feeling restless, Rikku decided to sleep on her job well-done.

'Tomorrow… Tidus is all mine.'
WHEW! WHAT A UPDATE! WOW. I was surprised to see that I wrote more than usual, except for 'You Are The One' that story has to be long, as for I put in a lot more detail in that story.

Anyways, I hope all of you fans out there enjoyed my 4th installment of this story, and yes I will update soon, it will not take 5 months to do so. So stayed tuned fans =). And PLEASE REVIEW!