Making Our Future
By: FayeValentine00 (Sarah-chan)
Chapter 5
***Haru's POV***
Watching the face of Kagura and Tohru as Yuki and Kyo were driven out of site, tore the heart from my chest. I'd lost love in the past so I knew what emotions they were going through. That'd made holding Kagura back even harder then I'd ever imagined.
Once I was sure that Kagura wasn't going to fight us any longer, I nodded to Momiji, allowing him to go tend to Tohru, who'd collapsed onto the ground. I could hear her heavy sobs as clearly as if they were my own.
He quickly dried her eyes and took her away so that I was free to tend to Kagura alone. Her gaze hadn't left the spot where Hatori's car had disappeared from sight. She didn't seem aware of anything else around her. She'd become a shell of a person and I couldn't stand to see her like that.
"Kagura. ... Kagura." I tried to reach her with words but it didn't work. If I didn't know better, I'd have thought that she couldn't hear me.
The silence was killing me. I couldn't let her just stand there any longer, no matter what she thought that she wanted. I stepped in front of her, trying to force her to look at me but that didn't work either. Her stare went straight through me so I grabbed her firmly by the arms and shook her firmly.
"Dammit Kagura! Listen to me!"
Still, she didn't move or blink and I finally lost my calm. My open palm made contact with her soft cheek with a solid smack.
Her hand instantly came to cover her now red cheek and fresh tears formed in her eyes. "Haru..."
"I'm sorry." I breathed a sigh of relief, knowing that now that I had Kagura speaking, she'd overcome her first big hurdle but I also knew that she'd have a lot more to deal with before she'd be okay.
"Haru... What ... What should I do?" She met my eyes questioningly in an uncharacteristic whisper. When the first tear slid down her cheek, my heart leapt into my throat and I knew I couldn't leave her like this. In her current state of mind, she'd be likely to do anything.
I took a step forward and wrapped my arms around her. Kagura had always been extremely excitable and emotional. It was true that sometimes she went overboard but I'd take that silly girl any day over this virtual statue who stood before me now.
"Kyo ... I'm so tired. ... Please forgive me."
At first I had no clue what she was talking about until her entire body went limp in my arms and I quickly caught her so she wouldn't fall. Sheer exhaustion had overcome her and I couldn't help but feel relieved. Sleep would do Kagura good, whether she believed it or not.
***Momiji's POV***
Tohru followed me back to Shigure's house without saying a word. I wanted so badly to make some kind of statement or joke to make her happy again but I knew better then most that some feelings couldn't be fixed by something as simple as words.
When we got to the house, she mumbled something about going upstairs to change and then moved out of sight before I could do anything to stop her. Not knowing what else to do, I went to the kitchen to make some tea. Maybe that would help to calm her nerves.
Almost 30 minutes passed before I finally became a bit concerned. Tohru still hadn't come downstairs and I hadn't hear any sounds for a long time either. Finally my curiosity got the better of me and I went upstairs to find out what was going on.
"Tohru? ... Tohru?" I knocked lightly on her door but when there was no answer, I gently slid the door open and peeked inside to make sure everything was alright.
I found her laying across her bed, still wearing the kimono from the ceremony. She must have fallen asleep from pure emotional overload. I was about to turn around and leave the room until something in her arms caught my eye. I took a step forward to examine the object and a moment later I realized what it was.
Tohru had fallen asleep clutching an old red hat to her chest. Her hands held onto it tightly as though she thought that it too might be taken away from her just like Yuki had. I'd remembered seeing it in her room in the past but never really paid any attention to it. Now, seeing how she clenched it so dearly to her chest, it made me wonder exactly what that hat meant.
***Yuki's POV***
When we pulled out of the school parking lot, I let out a sigh of relief. Kagura's screams were still echoing in my head and Tohru's tear-filled eyes were still clear in my mind. I'd thought that leaving would have been easier since I'd already promised Tohru and myself that I'd come back home but now is when the hard part would come.
I'd lived in fear of Akito my entire life. He'd always made a point of beating people into submission but he'd always said that I was special. I was the mouse of the junnishi and because of that, I received 'special treatment.' Dark memories of that room where Akito had loved to lock me into and evoke his wrath, filled my head but I pushed those memories away. I had to get over my past and fears or there'd be know way to get back to Tohru. I knew that was the truth but, then again, Akito knew it too and he wouldn't be willing to let me forget my fears that easily.
The ride to the main house was short and quiet so before I was ready, we passed through the front gates. I glanced around the different buildings but absolutely no one was outside which struck me as odd considering the vast number of people who lived within those walls. The I realized that it must've been Akito's doing. He must have ordered them all to stay away so that no one could interrupt his plans.
Kyo sat very still in his seat, his hands balled into fists at his side. He had a distant haunted look in his eyes and I knew that he was probably still hearing Kagura's frantic screams in his head. Although I didn't want to admit it, I felt really bad for Kyo. The stupid cat had finally made himself a home at Shigure's house and now he was being ripped away from it, just as I was.
When the car stopped, Shigure and Hatori go out to go and fetch Akito, leaving Kyo and I alone for several minutes.
"Hey, stupid cat. Aren't you even going to fight?"
"Shut up. You don't understand." He mumbled softly without even glancing over at me.
"I don't understand?!" That statement really pissed me off and I could feel my blood pressure start to rise. "What I DO understand is that there is a girl back there who is beside herself in grief over you and you don't even care!"
Maybe that was not the best thing I could have said to my cousin but it did get the kind of reaction that I'd been hoping for.
"Damn mouse! I said shut up! You don't know anything. She doesn't know it but I'm doing it for her! Kagura's a damn fool! She doesn't even realize that Akito would do anything to get back at me if I tried to defy him and that includes hurting her!" By the time Kyo was done venting his face had turned bright red in anger but he body seemed a bit more relaxed now that he'd gotten some of it our of his system.
"You really love her, don't you?" I couldn't help the tone of surprise in my voice.
"So what!"
"You really are stupid, aren't you?"
"What the hell are you talking about?!"
I felt a smirk spread across my face at his anger but had to hold back my laughter at his foolishness. "You're stupid. Don't fool yourself, Kyo. If you loved her, you'd do anything to get back to her. You wouldn't fool yourself into thinking that you're protecting her by not fighting. That just makes you a coward."
"I said shut up, dammit! SHUT UP!" Kyo's eyes were blazing in anger and I knew that Akito would be coming any moment but at least I'd now given the idiot something to think about so I just shrugged my shoulders nonchalantly.
"Whatever."
***Kyo's POV***
That damn Yuki! He pissed me off so badly but what made it even worse was that I knew he was right. I was a coward, I always had been. All I'd even done in my life is run away. Whenever anything happened that I thought I couldn't handle, I'd fled. This was no different.
I'd lost a bet with Akito. Yes. I'd always known my destiny was to be lock away. Yes. The thing that made me a coward was that I wouldn't be able to bare it if Kagura was punished over me and because of that, I'd given up. Akito had never allowed any of the junnishi to have relationships and I knew that ours would not be any different. If he'd found out, there was going to be hell to pay, but if I left now and let myself be imprisoned, Akito would never find out and Kagura would be safe.
As long as I could live knowing that she was okay, then I could bare whatever this man, who thought he was God, tried to do. That was my belief and that's what I'd have to keep on believing until something happened to change it.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw them coming. Akito, Shigure and Hatori. Akito wore a sick smile on his face and told me he was ready to have some fun at our expense. As for Shigure and Hatori, that disturbed looked I'd seen earlier had never left their eyes and a part of me hoped that that meant they wouldn't let Akito go too far. He had the rest of his life to torture us, so why do it all in one day?
I let out a depressed sigh at the thought but then opened my door and climbed out of the car to face whatever Akito had planned. If I couldn't escape my destiny, I'd just have to face it like a man.
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I hope you are still enjoying it! This is really fun to write. I just hope it is not too angsty! ^_^
*HUG*
Sarah-chan
(*hands Crow a tissue, just in case she needs it*)
By: FayeValentine00 (Sarah-chan)
Chapter 5
***Haru's POV***
Watching the face of Kagura and Tohru as Yuki and Kyo were driven out of site, tore the heart from my chest. I'd lost love in the past so I knew what emotions they were going through. That'd made holding Kagura back even harder then I'd ever imagined.
Once I was sure that Kagura wasn't going to fight us any longer, I nodded to Momiji, allowing him to go tend to Tohru, who'd collapsed onto the ground. I could hear her heavy sobs as clearly as if they were my own.
He quickly dried her eyes and took her away so that I was free to tend to Kagura alone. Her gaze hadn't left the spot where Hatori's car had disappeared from sight. She didn't seem aware of anything else around her. She'd become a shell of a person and I couldn't stand to see her like that.
"Kagura. ... Kagura." I tried to reach her with words but it didn't work. If I didn't know better, I'd have thought that she couldn't hear me.
The silence was killing me. I couldn't let her just stand there any longer, no matter what she thought that she wanted. I stepped in front of her, trying to force her to look at me but that didn't work either. Her stare went straight through me so I grabbed her firmly by the arms and shook her firmly.
"Dammit Kagura! Listen to me!"
Still, she didn't move or blink and I finally lost my calm. My open palm made contact with her soft cheek with a solid smack.
Her hand instantly came to cover her now red cheek and fresh tears formed in her eyes. "Haru..."
"I'm sorry." I breathed a sigh of relief, knowing that now that I had Kagura speaking, she'd overcome her first big hurdle but I also knew that she'd have a lot more to deal with before she'd be okay.
"Haru... What ... What should I do?" She met my eyes questioningly in an uncharacteristic whisper. When the first tear slid down her cheek, my heart leapt into my throat and I knew I couldn't leave her like this. In her current state of mind, she'd be likely to do anything.
I took a step forward and wrapped my arms around her. Kagura had always been extremely excitable and emotional. It was true that sometimes she went overboard but I'd take that silly girl any day over this virtual statue who stood before me now.
"Kyo ... I'm so tired. ... Please forgive me."
At first I had no clue what she was talking about until her entire body went limp in my arms and I quickly caught her so she wouldn't fall. Sheer exhaustion had overcome her and I couldn't help but feel relieved. Sleep would do Kagura good, whether she believed it or not.
***Momiji's POV***
Tohru followed me back to Shigure's house without saying a word. I wanted so badly to make some kind of statement or joke to make her happy again but I knew better then most that some feelings couldn't be fixed by something as simple as words.
When we got to the house, she mumbled something about going upstairs to change and then moved out of sight before I could do anything to stop her. Not knowing what else to do, I went to the kitchen to make some tea. Maybe that would help to calm her nerves.
Almost 30 minutes passed before I finally became a bit concerned. Tohru still hadn't come downstairs and I hadn't hear any sounds for a long time either. Finally my curiosity got the better of me and I went upstairs to find out what was going on.
"Tohru? ... Tohru?" I knocked lightly on her door but when there was no answer, I gently slid the door open and peeked inside to make sure everything was alright.
I found her laying across her bed, still wearing the kimono from the ceremony. She must have fallen asleep from pure emotional overload. I was about to turn around and leave the room until something in her arms caught my eye. I took a step forward to examine the object and a moment later I realized what it was.
Tohru had fallen asleep clutching an old red hat to her chest. Her hands held onto it tightly as though she thought that it too might be taken away from her just like Yuki had. I'd remembered seeing it in her room in the past but never really paid any attention to it. Now, seeing how she clenched it so dearly to her chest, it made me wonder exactly what that hat meant.
***Yuki's POV***
When we pulled out of the school parking lot, I let out a sigh of relief. Kagura's screams were still echoing in my head and Tohru's tear-filled eyes were still clear in my mind. I'd thought that leaving would have been easier since I'd already promised Tohru and myself that I'd come back home but now is when the hard part would come.
I'd lived in fear of Akito my entire life. He'd always made a point of beating people into submission but he'd always said that I was special. I was the mouse of the junnishi and because of that, I received 'special treatment.' Dark memories of that room where Akito had loved to lock me into and evoke his wrath, filled my head but I pushed those memories away. I had to get over my past and fears or there'd be know way to get back to Tohru. I knew that was the truth but, then again, Akito knew it too and he wouldn't be willing to let me forget my fears that easily.
The ride to the main house was short and quiet so before I was ready, we passed through the front gates. I glanced around the different buildings but absolutely no one was outside which struck me as odd considering the vast number of people who lived within those walls. The I realized that it must've been Akito's doing. He must have ordered them all to stay away so that no one could interrupt his plans.
Kyo sat very still in his seat, his hands balled into fists at his side. He had a distant haunted look in his eyes and I knew that he was probably still hearing Kagura's frantic screams in his head. Although I didn't want to admit it, I felt really bad for Kyo. The stupid cat had finally made himself a home at Shigure's house and now he was being ripped away from it, just as I was.
When the car stopped, Shigure and Hatori go out to go and fetch Akito, leaving Kyo and I alone for several minutes.
"Hey, stupid cat. Aren't you even going to fight?"
"Shut up. You don't understand." He mumbled softly without even glancing over at me.
"I don't understand?!" That statement really pissed me off and I could feel my blood pressure start to rise. "What I DO understand is that there is a girl back there who is beside herself in grief over you and you don't even care!"
Maybe that was not the best thing I could have said to my cousin but it did get the kind of reaction that I'd been hoping for.
"Damn mouse! I said shut up! You don't know anything. She doesn't know it but I'm doing it for her! Kagura's a damn fool! She doesn't even realize that Akito would do anything to get back at me if I tried to defy him and that includes hurting her!" By the time Kyo was done venting his face had turned bright red in anger but he body seemed a bit more relaxed now that he'd gotten some of it our of his system.
"You really love her, don't you?" I couldn't help the tone of surprise in my voice.
"So what!"
"You really are stupid, aren't you?"
"What the hell are you talking about?!"
I felt a smirk spread across my face at his anger but had to hold back my laughter at his foolishness. "You're stupid. Don't fool yourself, Kyo. If you loved her, you'd do anything to get back to her. You wouldn't fool yourself into thinking that you're protecting her by not fighting. That just makes you a coward."
"I said shut up, dammit! SHUT UP!" Kyo's eyes were blazing in anger and I knew that Akito would be coming any moment but at least I'd now given the idiot something to think about so I just shrugged my shoulders nonchalantly.
"Whatever."
***Kyo's POV***
That damn Yuki! He pissed me off so badly but what made it even worse was that I knew he was right. I was a coward, I always had been. All I'd even done in my life is run away. Whenever anything happened that I thought I couldn't handle, I'd fled. This was no different.
I'd lost a bet with Akito. Yes. I'd always known my destiny was to be lock away. Yes. The thing that made me a coward was that I wouldn't be able to bare it if Kagura was punished over me and because of that, I'd given up. Akito had never allowed any of the junnishi to have relationships and I knew that ours would not be any different. If he'd found out, there was going to be hell to pay, but if I left now and let myself be imprisoned, Akito would never find out and Kagura would be safe.
As long as I could live knowing that she was okay, then I could bare whatever this man, who thought he was God, tried to do. That was my belief and that's what I'd have to keep on believing until something happened to change it.
Out of the corner of my eye I saw them coming. Akito, Shigure and Hatori. Akito wore a sick smile on his face and told me he was ready to have some fun at our expense. As for Shigure and Hatori, that disturbed looked I'd seen earlier had never left their eyes and a part of me hoped that that meant they wouldn't let Akito go too far. He had the rest of his life to torture us, so why do it all in one day?
I let out a depressed sigh at the thought but then opened my door and climbed out of the car to face whatever Akito had planned. If I couldn't escape my destiny, I'd just have to face it like a man.
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I hope you are still enjoying it! This is really fun to write. I just hope it is not too angsty! ^_^
*HUG*
Sarah-chan
(*hands Crow a tissue, just in case she needs it*)