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Making Our Future
By: FayeValentine00 (Sarah-chan)
Chapter 16
***Tohru's POV***
I ran up the stairs and into my room as fast as I could. As I entered the room, I flipped on my radio before forcefully throwing myself onto the bed. Tear flowed down my cheeks like waterfalls and my breaths came out in long, choking sobs.
The only thing that'd kept me sane this last month had been the knowledge that Yuki was going to be returning to me. Whenever I felt lonely or out of place here in Shigure's house, all I'd had to do was think of Yuki's return and I'd know that everything would be okay but now everything had changed. Where did that leave me?
"Mom, help me." I cried out the words when no other solution came to mind. How could I have been so naive? I should know by now that life does not work the way that you want it to. It seemed like every time I'd found something special in my life, it'd been ripped away. Maybe this was my destiny. Maybe God was trying to tell me that I wasn't worthy of having someone close to me.
The music on the radio began to pick up the beat and I heard the song Evolution by Ayume Hamasaki start to play. Although I usually liked the song, but now was not the time. I just didn't have the strength to get up and turn it off. Instead, I buried my head under my pillow to block out the noise until I nodded off into a dreamless slumber.
***Yuki's POV***
Tonight was my first night in Akito's private house. I'd been forced to move into the room next to his but as soon as I'd gotten inside, I'd locked the door so no one would bother me. At least for now, it seemed to be working.
I laid back on my bed, staring up at the ceiling but my mind was elsewhere. By know I was sure that Tohru must have found out what had happened and I prayed, to any god that might be listening, that she see took it well. I missed her so badly that it hurt. She was the only on who'd ever accepted me completely, regardless of my faults and flaws. Coming home everyday to her smiling face and wonderful cooking had made my cursed existence seem bearable but now that she wasn't with me anymore and I was back inside the prison of the main house, I was forced to realize how much better off Tohru was going to be without me.
She deserved better than the life that I could give her. She didn't need to have to worry about the family accepting her or watching her every move. She shouldn't have to concern herself with Akito and his unstable personality. Although it broke my heart to even think it, maybe it was better this way. Maybe Tohru would be able to marry a normal man and live happily without any of the worries that accompanied being a member of the Sohma family.
A tear rolled down the side of my face, landing on the pillow beneath my head. My heart was shattered at the thought of giving up the only girl I'd ever loved but I had to think of the reality of the situation. Tohru deserved better than what I had to offer and the sooner we both realized that, the better.
In frustration, my arm shot out and punched the wall beside the bed but it didn't change anything. I still knew what had to be done.
***Kyo's POV***
Once Kagura had fallen asleep in my arms, I watched her for a while as a thousand different thoughts and emotions passed through my head. Part of me was happy to be home. I'd really missed Kagura a lot while I'd been gone since I hadn't even truly realized my feelings about her until the morning of the graduation ceremony. While imprisoned, I'd been forced to realize that I'd taken her love and endless devotion for granted. I guess I'd always figured that she'd be there but isolation had a way of changing your view on many different things.
Another part of me felt regret. I'd been the one to give up and allow Akito to do with me as he pleased, while Yuki'd always keep his 'never give up' attitude tat he'd adopted from Tohru. Now, as soon as he'd found out about Kagura's pregnancy, he'd completely changed his mind. Yuki was a damn fool! It'd be a lie to say that I didn't appreciated what he'd done but why did he have to do it like this?! I could have found a way to get free on my own. Why did he have to make a stupid decision like this? Didn't he realize that he was killing Tohru emotionally in the process of trying to protect us?! What the hell had he'd been thinking?!
I felt anger start to rise up in my chest so I carefully worked myself free of Kagura's embrace before tucking her in and making my way down to the bathroom. The whole house seemed deserted. I could hear soft music coming from Tohru's room but that was the only sign of life left. Once I washed myself thoroughly, I soaked in the bath for a long while, trying to figure out what to do next.
Deep down, I knew I had to do something. Although I knew Kagura would never let me hear the end of it, I was convinced that the SOMETHING had to be helping Yuki break free from Akito. My whole life I'd hated the underhanded mouse and had blamed him for everything from the curse to drinking the last bit of milk in the milk carton. He'd always been the easiest person to blame anytime something didn't go the way I'd wanted but now I was forced to think of Yuki differently.
The Yuki I'd known was spoiled and selfish. He didn't care about anything but himself and wouldn't do anything unless it benefited him. That's how I'd always pictured my gray haired cousin but, in light of todays events, I was forced to wonder why would someone like that give up their freedom just to protect someone who he'd always considered his sworn enemy. It made no sense and all the questions just seemed to make my head spin.
I needed to talk to Tohru and make sure that she was alright. I'd been so busy with Kagura that I'd tried not to worry about it but now that things had calmed down a bit, I knew that it was time. I dried myself, got dress and headed up the stairs to speak to the girl who'd made all the Sohma's actually begin to feel like a family. I felt responsible for her tears and I only hoped that she'd let me in.
***Torhu's POV***
***knock, knock, knock***
I woke up to the sound of a soft knock on my bedroom door so I removed the pillow from my head and tried to wipe the tear stains from my face before I got up. I quickly switched off the radio before opening the door and when I did, I found a freshly bathed Kyo looking down on me in concern.
"Come in." I spoke softly and stepped aside, allowing him to enter before closing the door behind us. Kyo sat on the edge of the bed so I sat on the ground near where his feet touched the floor.
Both of us seemed to be avoiding eye contact but after several minutes of uncomfortable silence, I heard him speak softly.
"I'm sorry." He sighed deeply and when I looked up, I saw him running his hand through his hair. "I didn't know Yuki would do this."
"It's not your fault." The words flowed to my lips with little thought but it seemed the sleep had helped me make sense of the situation because as I tried to comfort Kyo, I found myself feeling comforted as well. "Yuki did the right thing. Kagura needs you right now more than anything else. You're going to be a father. ... You deserve the chance to be with Kagura and make your family."
He turned to me with surprise on his face. "But you and Yuki---"
I dropped my gaze involuntarily, allowing my bangs to cover my eyes. I didn't want Kyo to know how badly I was hurting. I'd told the truth while I'd said that Yuki had done the right thing but that reality left me crushed, feeling empty and useless.
"Tohru..." Kyo said my name softly and lightly ran his hand over my tangled hair.
"I miss him, Kyo." I spoke, my voice finally cracking with emotion but no tears came. I think I'd used all of them. I sighed heavily and laid my head against the side of his leg, allow him to comfort in the best way Kyo could.
"I know. ..." His voice trailed off for a long time as his hand continued to stroke my hair but when he did finally speak again, he seemed a bit more hopeful. "Hey. Look up."
I did as I was told and when I saw him looking down at me with a smile, I was confused.
"I promise you that we'll find a way to get Yuki back, okay?"
"Really?" A small spark of hope began to burn once more, deep within my soul.
"Really."
"Okay."
***Shigure's POV***
I'd gone back to my study and called Hatori as soon as the coast was clear.
"Ha-san, What's going on over there?"
"Yuki's finished moving in over at Akito's home but..." His voice trailed off for a moment before he continued. "Akito's unhappy."
"Why?"
"It seems that Yuki has locked his door and won't open it for anyone."
"Have you spoken to him?" I asked softly, hoping not to be overheard.
"No. Come over tomorrow and pay Akito a visit. Maybe of you distract him, I'll be free to see Yuki."
"Okay."
I hung up the phone with a sigh. Everything in the Sohma family seemed to be spinning but where would it stop?....
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Did you like it? I hope so. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!
Sarah
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Making Our Future
By: FayeValentine00 (Sarah-chan)
Chapter 16
***Tohru's POV***
I ran up the stairs and into my room as fast as I could. As I entered the room, I flipped on my radio before forcefully throwing myself onto the bed. Tear flowed down my cheeks like waterfalls and my breaths came out in long, choking sobs.
The only thing that'd kept me sane this last month had been the knowledge that Yuki was going to be returning to me. Whenever I felt lonely or out of place here in Shigure's house, all I'd had to do was think of Yuki's return and I'd know that everything would be okay but now everything had changed. Where did that leave me?
"Mom, help me." I cried out the words when no other solution came to mind. How could I have been so naive? I should know by now that life does not work the way that you want it to. It seemed like every time I'd found something special in my life, it'd been ripped away. Maybe this was my destiny. Maybe God was trying to tell me that I wasn't worthy of having someone close to me.
The music on the radio began to pick up the beat and I heard the song Evolution by Ayume Hamasaki start to play. Although I usually liked the song, but now was not the time. I just didn't have the strength to get up and turn it off. Instead, I buried my head under my pillow to block out the noise until I nodded off into a dreamless slumber.
***Yuki's POV***
Tonight was my first night in Akito's private house. I'd been forced to move into the room next to his but as soon as I'd gotten inside, I'd locked the door so no one would bother me. At least for now, it seemed to be working.
I laid back on my bed, staring up at the ceiling but my mind was elsewhere. By know I was sure that Tohru must have found out what had happened and I prayed, to any god that might be listening, that she see took it well. I missed her so badly that it hurt. She was the only on who'd ever accepted me completely, regardless of my faults and flaws. Coming home everyday to her smiling face and wonderful cooking had made my cursed existence seem bearable but now that she wasn't with me anymore and I was back inside the prison of the main house, I was forced to realize how much better off Tohru was going to be without me.
She deserved better than the life that I could give her. She didn't need to have to worry about the family accepting her or watching her every move. She shouldn't have to concern herself with Akito and his unstable personality. Although it broke my heart to even think it, maybe it was better this way. Maybe Tohru would be able to marry a normal man and live happily without any of the worries that accompanied being a member of the Sohma family.
A tear rolled down the side of my face, landing on the pillow beneath my head. My heart was shattered at the thought of giving up the only girl I'd ever loved but I had to think of the reality of the situation. Tohru deserved better than what I had to offer and the sooner we both realized that, the better.
In frustration, my arm shot out and punched the wall beside the bed but it didn't change anything. I still knew what had to be done.
***Kyo's POV***
Once Kagura had fallen asleep in my arms, I watched her for a while as a thousand different thoughts and emotions passed through my head. Part of me was happy to be home. I'd really missed Kagura a lot while I'd been gone since I hadn't even truly realized my feelings about her until the morning of the graduation ceremony. While imprisoned, I'd been forced to realize that I'd taken her love and endless devotion for granted. I guess I'd always figured that she'd be there but isolation had a way of changing your view on many different things.
Another part of me felt regret. I'd been the one to give up and allow Akito to do with me as he pleased, while Yuki'd always keep his 'never give up' attitude tat he'd adopted from Tohru. Now, as soon as he'd found out about Kagura's pregnancy, he'd completely changed his mind. Yuki was a damn fool! It'd be a lie to say that I didn't appreciated what he'd done but why did he have to do it like this?! I could have found a way to get free on my own. Why did he have to make a stupid decision like this? Didn't he realize that he was killing Tohru emotionally in the process of trying to protect us?! What the hell had he'd been thinking?!
I felt anger start to rise up in my chest so I carefully worked myself free of Kagura's embrace before tucking her in and making my way down to the bathroom. The whole house seemed deserted. I could hear soft music coming from Tohru's room but that was the only sign of life left. Once I washed myself thoroughly, I soaked in the bath for a long while, trying to figure out what to do next.
Deep down, I knew I had to do something. Although I knew Kagura would never let me hear the end of it, I was convinced that the SOMETHING had to be helping Yuki break free from Akito. My whole life I'd hated the underhanded mouse and had blamed him for everything from the curse to drinking the last bit of milk in the milk carton. He'd always been the easiest person to blame anytime something didn't go the way I'd wanted but now I was forced to think of Yuki differently.
The Yuki I'd known was spoiled and selfish. He didn't care about anything but himself and wouldn't do anything unless it benefited him. That's how I'd always pictured my gray haired cousin but, in light of todays events, I was forced to wonder why would someone like that give up their freedom just to protect someone who he'd always considered his sworn enemy. It made no sense and all the questions just seemed to make my head spin.
I needed to talk to Tohru and make sure that she was alright. I'd been so busy with Kagura that I'd tried not to worry about it but now that things had calmed down a bit, I knew that it was time. I dried myself, got dress and headed up the stairs to speak to the girl who'd made all the Sohma's actually begin to feel like a family. I felt responsible for her tears and I only hoped that she'd let me in.
***Torhu's POV***
***knock, knock, knock***
I woke up to the sound of a soft knock on my bedroom door so I removed the pillow from my head and tried to wipe the tear stains from my face before I got up. I quickly switched off the radio before opening the door and when I did, I found a freshly bathed Kyo looking down on me in concern.
"Come in." I spoke softly and stepped aside, allowing him to enter before closing the door behind us. Kyo sat on the edge of the bed so I sat on the ground near where his feet touched the floor.
Both of us seemed to be avoiding eye contact but after several minutes of uncomfortable silence, I heard him speak softly.
"I'm sorry." He sighed deeply and when I looked up, I saw him running his hand through his hair. "I didn't know Yuki would do this."
"It's not your fault." The words flowed to my lips with little thought but it seemed the sleep had helped me make sense of the situation because as I tried to comfort Kyo, I found myself feeling comforted as well. "Yuki did the right thing. Kagura needs you right now more than anything else. You're going to be a father. ... You deserve the chance to be with Kagura and make your family."
He turned to me with surprise on his face. "But you and Yuki---"
I dropped my gaze involuntarily, allowing my bangs to cover my eyes. I didn't want Kyo to know how badly I was hurting. I'd told the truth while I'd said that Yuki had done the right thing but that reality left me crushed, feeling empty and useless.
"Tohru..." Kyo said my name softly and lightly ran his hand over my tangled hair.
"I miss him, Kyo." I spoke, my voice finally cracking with emotion but no tears came. I think I'd used all of them. I sighed heavily and laid my head against the side of his leg, allow him to comfort in the best way Kyo could.
"I know. ..." His voice trailed off for a long time as his hand continued to stroke my hair but when he did finally speak again, he seemed a bit more hopeful. "Hey. Look up."
I did as I was told and when I saw him looking down at me with a smile, I was confused.
"I promise you that we'll find a way to get Yuki back, okay?"
"Really?" A small spark of hope began to burn once more, deep within my soul.
"Really."
"Okay."
***Shigure's POV***
I'd gone back to my study and called Hatori as soon as the coast was clear.
"Ha-san, What's going on over there?"
"Yuki's finished moving in over at Akito's home but..." His voice trailed off for a moment before he continued. "Akito's unhappy."
"Why?"
"It seems that Yuki has locked his door and won't open it for anyone."
"Have you spoken to him?" I asked softly, hoping not to be overheard.
"No. Come over tomorrow and pay Akito a visit. Maybe of you distract him, I'll be free to see Yuki."
"Okay."
I hung up the phone with a sigh. Everything in the Sohma family seemed to be spinning but where would it stop?....
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Did you like it? I hope so. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!
Sarah