Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Buffy or Angel characters, they belong
to Joss and David.
Love, Loss and Change
Angelus' Cave
After a few moments Claire and Angelus came out of their daze. Angelus turned to Drusilla in his game face and snarled, "You could have killed me you stupid bitch." Dru coward in the corner while Angelus stalked towards her. "For that I think that you should be punished." He smacked her across the face and she became unconscious. He turned to Claire and put his human mask back on. "I'm going to punish her for this, so I may be gone a while." Claire looked at him and smiled. "That's ok I think I might explore a bit if that's ok." She asked giving her best puppy dog eyes. He chuckled and replied, "Ok, as long as you don't try and escape." "I won't, I promise." Angelus walked back to Drusilla slung her over his shoulder and took her to his torture room. No-one would touch him or Claire for that matter without having to endure a world of pain at his hand. When Angelus had taken Drusilla away Claire decided to explore wherever she was while she got the chance. She went out the same door as Angelus, she looked left and then right it was a long passage way, to the left there were a few doors and at the end a set of stairs. To the right there was a short corridor with a door at the end. Claire walked down the right hand corridor, at the end she stopped and carefully opened the door. Inside it was a cave, candles lit up the room, in the centre there was a small hot tub like pool. She touched her hand in the water and seen it was just the right temperature. She quickly took off the shirt she was wearing and climbed into the pool. It was quite deep in went up to her neck, the centre was the deepest part around the outside there were two seats facing across from each other they were made of smooth stone and the backs curved slightly so you could lean back. Claire spent 10 minutes lounging in the pool, before she felt a presence enter the room. She slowly turned around and seen it was Angelus. He had already started taking off his clothes to join her. When he had taken off his clothes he slipped into the pool and sat on the chair opposite her. "Why did you let me come out of the cage and explore, when you knew that I could escape?" she had been wondering about it since he left this morning. "I don't know." It was true Angelus didn't have a clue as to why he left the keys or to why he left her to run around the cave. "Mmm" she was quite puzzled herself as to why she didn't escape given the two chances. "I'll tell you what I do know." He said in a seductive tone. "We're both here naked in a pool, all alone." She nodded and moved closer, she was now straddling his waist. He whispered in her ear in the same tone, "I could think of a few things to pass the time." He moved his hands up her back and around her waist and over her breasts. She pulled his head to hers and kissed him passionately, and continued to move her hands over his body.
Outside Willies
They had just stopped running from the vamps and Spike couldn't sense them so that was ok. They had just begun to follow Drusilla's sent when it stopped. Spike looked at the ground and seen a man hole, he opened it and jumped down followed by Kelly. The sent continued down here, they kept walking till the sent stopped at a door. They tried it but it was locked so Spike kicked it down. When they stepped in it was amazing it was a cave at the front but as you went further in you seen it had been turned into a house rooms had been put in carpets furniture, and everything you expect to find in a house. At the foot of the stairs the two big guards who had came in with Dru, were standing. The guards looked at Spike and Kelly and smiled, they charged at the other two. Spike and Kelly pulled out their stakes and staked the vamps as they charged. They wiped the dust off them and Spike picked up Claire's sent. They walked up the stairs and walked along the corridor Claire did until they came to the door. They tried it but it was locked.
The Hot Pool
Claire and Angelus and just had sex again, Claire was lounging back on Angelus' lap while he made circles on her stomach. They were just relaxing until they heard the door being knocked down they turned to look and seen that Spike and Kelly were standing in the door way. Kelly smiled at Claire and mouthed, "Score." To her Claire smiled back at her friend. While Spike just stared, then looked angry and started walking when he felt a strong grip on his shoulder he thought it was Kelly and was going to just tell her to piss off. He turned around and was looking at Dennis, Spike just moved to let Dennis walk past. "Well guys looks like you caught us just about at it." Angelus smirked. Dennis did not look amused. He walked over to the tub took Claire's hand and pulled her out, the second he did he zapped clothes on her. He hugged her asked; "Are you ok?" she nodded. Dennis turned his attention back to Angelus, "Well, I'm sorry to say Angelus but it's time for you to leave. Even though you probably are more fun than Angel. But you kill people and well we can't let that happen so bye." Angelus turned to Claire and gave her a genuine smile before Dennis started chanting. Claire smiled back and watched as Angelus turned back to Angel. Once it was complete everyone stood there, Dennis took Angel out of the pool and put clothes on him. Claire walked over to Angel, but he just looked away. He didn't dare look her in the eye. *What the hell was she thinking freely letting that maniac bite her and have sex with her.* Claire turned and looked at him; she could see he was extremely angry and hurt. "What the hell did you think you were doing?" Angel shouted at her. "Living my life Angel is it a fucking crime? I was having fun, but I guess you don't know what that is do you. To busy brooding and going on about how bad it is for you," she mimicked his voice. "Look at me oh no I committed so many murders and now have a concisions what will I do. Oh no Claire what if I loose my soul.' Well I'll tell you what would have happened you would have had fun. But no, good souled Angel does NOT do fun. God if you even had a moment of true happiness with your new soul I'd be amazed." Angel stared daggers at her before replying to her taunts. "You don't know what the hell your talking about and don't even say oh I was in your brain, yeah you WERE but your not now you don't have to suffer it every day do you? Why did you not answer my question although everyone's already seen it? But Dennis has tried to cover it hasn't he, that was good of you Dennis but I made so I remember." Claire laughed. "Funny Angel I actually remember letting ANGELUS bite me not YOU. Oh and your question what did I think I was doing what do you think, you were there after all. But those who haven't seen." Claire pulled down the t-shirt and showed them the bite mark. "Happy now everyone knows?" Spike looked at it before storming out. "Yeah happy everyone knows you throw yourself at every vampire, person or thing that would look twice at you." That was it he had crossed the line she punched him in the face and he went flying across the room. "It's a shame you have to get yourself thrown at every wall you see you bastard." Claire shouted before she ran out into the night. She ran as far away as she could get before she collapsed from tiredness. She just fell at a heap in front of a tree and cried.
Streets
Spike had left at the site of the bite mark. Angelus was a sick bastard and Claire let him bite her. Hell when they walked in they had just done it. He really couldn't believe Claire his slayer would go to someone like Angelus.
Angel had just stormed out of the cave he had found that there was a large bleeding cut coming from his head and that he had a bruised face and broken nose. He was extremely pissed at Claire, to think she would even look at Angelus made him sick.
Under A Tree
Claire had ran far away from Angel and anything he had to say. She had grown to like Angelus sort of in the time they had spent together. At least he would have some fun; Angel had changed a lot since they were together a few years ago. She didn't know everything that had happened to him but when she looked into his eyes she could see the pain and suffering he went through. She was still crying she had definitely blown things with Spike now. *what the hell is the point in trying to be with them anyway, because as soon as Buffy opens her eyes they'll be running back to her. One day Buffy will come to LA find Spike and take him away from me.* Claire started crying even more when she felt a hand on her shoulder and strong arms pick her up. She would always now who those muscles belonged to... Dennis. Her best friend she would always be able to count on him. Once Claire was in Dennis' arms she was teleported back to his apartment. Claire sat on the couch eating ice-cream and crying into Dennis and Kelly's shoulders. After a few hours of crying they fell asleep. Claire woke up a few minutes after Kelly and Dennis fell asleep. She looked over at the clock beside the T.V it read, 17:03. It wasn't dark yet but she needed to get out. She quietly moved out of Dennis' embrace, she grabbed her trainers and denim jeans, a t-shirt and her denim jacket and left. The second Claire left the house she knew where she had to go, she started walking towards the Hyperion, knowing they would be there. When Claire walked into the Hyperion, she was met with a full force hug from Cordy. *Angel must not have told them about me and Angelus.* she gave Cordy a quick hug back before asking where Angel was, Cordy was just about to answer when Angel said, "He's right here." Angel's tone was harsh but it was what she expected, she looked into his eyes but avoided all eye contact. "Cordy, can you and the others maybe go somewhere else because Claire and I have to talk." Cordelia nodded and went off to get the others. Angel looked Claire in the eyes and seen she was sad and concerned, but when she looked back into his she seen there were clouded so she couldn't read them. Angel spoke first, "Why are you here? I'm guessing it's not a social call." Claire ignored his question, "Why won't you look me in the eyes?" she asked her eyes never leaving his she let all her emotions shine through her eyes not hiding anything from him. Angel chuckled but it never reached his eyes. "What do you think I'm doing just now." He questioned. "Don't play dumb Angel; you've clouded your eyes so I can't see what your real emotions are." Claire replied back, still not breaking the eye contact. "Well maybe I don't want you to see my emotions, okay." Claire was hurt by what he said and she made no attempt to hide it. "I'm not hiding my emotions from you so why do you have to hide yours from me?" She took a step forward so they were only a few feet apart. When he looked at her he unclouded his eyes but just for second, but long enough for Claire to see the hurt the anger the sadness. She felt quite guilty because part of that hurt was because of her. Angel seen the guilt settle in her eyes along with the hurt, sadness, anger, pain and fear. Angel kept eyes hooded from her until she took the final step. The cloud hiding his emotions was lifted and she seen all of the emotions pass before them. In his chocolate eyes she could see sadness, of course there were other things but it was definite sadness that filled most of his orbs. She was now inches from him she lifted her hand up and touched the bruise she had made on his face. "I'm sorry." She whispered without his vampire hearing he would not have heard it. She said the words it reached her eyes but the damage was done, he couldn't as easily forgive for this. Sure it was her life but it was Angelus, he was evil, and she knew how much it would hurt him. Angel removed her hand from his face and took a step back from her. Claire's heart broke all over again all the feelings of when he left her before came back to her. Angel's eyes were still unclouded, but Claire's weren't. She had clouded them and replaced the hurt and sadness with anger. "Fine Angel, whatever I don't really fucking care anymore. You know it is MY life and I will do whatever and whoever I fucking want ok. If you can't forgive for that then well it is your fucking problem but I don't feel like crying over you anymore. So I'm done, you can either forgive me for what I did. Because I know it hurt you, I didn't mean to ok. But if you don't want to forgive me the stay out of my face about it." When she looked into his eyes she nearly broke down, he had made up his mind and it was not the answer she was hoping for. "Well I don't like ultimatums, and I don't think I can't for give you like," he snapped his fingers, "that. So I don't think it's going to work friendship or anything else. You hurt me and now you're expecting me to just forgive you well, I'm sort it's not that simple." Claire let her emotions show involuntarily for a moment but quickly covered up. "Nothing is ever fucking simple with you. First I meet you we end up having fun, something you didn't think you could do without Buffy. But then I learn oh you still love her, then I learn you have an evil demon inside you and well after that you left. Sorry but that isn't simple and now I make one mistake and that ain't simple either. Well at least to you these things aren't simple but to me they are. First you love Buffy the thing you do is," she said it slowly, "move on. Evil demon thing no sex not a problem, but now you can have sex happiness whatever. You leaving well that's another simple thing, I meant fuck all to you so you couldn't be assed and left me. See pretty simple when you think about it Angel." Angel looked at her a moment before speaking, "It isn't that simple you know that." Claire snorted at him. "Yeah everything is so fucking difficult, well I think the only difficult thing for you there is the get over Buffy bit. Because I've just explained the rest." Angel started to get angry, "Look none of the stuff you fucking said is simple it is complicated and you know it." Claire replied in a sarcastic tone, "No Angel, I'm sorry I don't think I do maybe you'd like to explain it to me." "Stop fucking treating this as a joke it's not you shagged Angelus and let him bite you. You know what happened with me and Buffy and you know why I left you." Claire replied getting angry as well, "Actually I know about everything except why you left me, well I do sort of, because you didn't care about me and because when you got a chance to go to Buffy, well off you went. Oh yeah and I'm not treating it as a joke just so you know." "Fuck this I don't have to listen to this I'm going out." With that Angel; stormed out to brood. Claire sat just about on the verge of tears letting her walls fall down when Spike walked in, "Hey pet, mmm I have to tell you a few things." Claire's walls went back up and anger shone out of her eyes but inside she was so happy to see him. "What?" she replied in an angry tone hiding her real emotions because she knew if she let her walls done she would break down. Spike searched her eyes he could read easily and she usually let him she wasn't one for keeping her emotions bottled up, but when she did she was pretty good at it. He could still tell when she was hiding it, and he knew she was. He had part of the shouting match her and the poof were having. "Well pet, I'm sorry for one." She let her walls down for a few seconds and a tear threatened to fall. "Sorry for how I reacted the other day and for how I reacted today it was uncalled for. Mmm also I think that..." *^Just say it you idiot^* *No fucking way look at the mood she's in if we tell her she'll just throw it in our face and then that will be the end of it.* "that I," the next bit he said so quietly that she barely heard it. "Love you." A few minutes past before Claire spoke. "Well, that can't be true because you love Buffy, so you know... and also I've moved on so why don't you just go find Buffy and live her life with her." After she said the Spike was taken back he felt like someone had put a knife through his heart. It hurt so much he felt angry with her for lashing out and hurt with what she said. After Claire had spoke she got up quickly because she knew if she stayed her walls would fall and she would tell Spike how she really felt. Her heart and her head were at a constant battle since he said the words. *I can't tell him, he'll just hurt me, and he can't really love me because he loves Buffy and he always fucking will.* *^Well he should know and I think that really does love us and I'm the heart and haven't you heard of following your heart.^* *Yeah look where that got me with Angel.* Claire had run out into the night she ran for what felt like forever. She stopped just outside a club she could here the music being played.
Today is gonna be the day
That their gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
After Claire had spoken Spike had left he went to the nearest pub and got drunk he ordered drink after drink and got so drunk he could remember his name.
Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Angel had left after his argument with Claire he had went out killed a few demons and vampires but it wasn't enough he was still angry and upset with Claire. He eventually had enough and went back to the Hyperion (for what Cordy would call a brood-fest)
Today was gonna be the day?
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now
Claire still sat there and listened to the Oasis song, she was upset her walls had totally fallen down and all she could do was cry, she cried because she hurt Spike and Angel and she cried because she just messed up everything special.
And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an
You're my wonderwall
Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
Love, Loss and Change
Angelus' Cave
After a few moments Claire and Angelus came out of their daze. Angelus turned to Drusilla in his game face and snarled, "You could have killed me you stupid bitch." Dru coward in the corner while Angelus stalked towards her. "For that I think that you should be punished." He smacked her across the face and she became unconscious. He turned to Claire and put his human mask back on. "I'm going to punish her for this, so I may be gone a while." Claire looked at him and smiled. "That's ok I think I might explore a bit if that's ok." She asked giving her best puppy dog eyes. He chuckled and replied, "Ok, as long as you don't try and escape." "I won't, I promise." Angelus walked back to Drusilla slung her over his shoulder and took her to his torture room. No-one would touch him or Claire for that matter without having to endure a world of pain at his hand. When Angelus had taken Drusilla away Claire decided to explore wherever she was while she got the chance. She went out the same door as Angelus, she looked left and then right it was a long passage way, to the left there were a few doors and at the end a set of stairs. To the right there was a short corridor with a door at the end. Claire walked down the right hand corridor, at the end she stopped and carefully opened the door. Inside it was a cave, candles lit up the room, in the centre there was a small hot tub like pool. She touched her hand in the water and seen it was just the right temperature. She quickly took off the shirt she was wearing and climbed into the pool. It was quite deep in went up to her neck, the centre was the deepest part around the outside there were two seats facing across from each other they were made of smooth stone and the backs curved slightly so you could lean back. Claire spent 10 minutes lounging in the pool, before she felt a presence enter the room. She slowly turned around and seen it was Angelus. He had already started taking off his clothes to join her. When he had taken off his clothes he slipped into the pool and sat on the chair opposite her. "Why did you let me come out of the cage and explore, when you knew that I could escape?" she had been wondering about it since he left this morning. "I don't know." It was true Angelus didn't have a clue as to why he left the keys or to why he left her to run around the cave. "Mmm" she was quite puzzled herself as to why she didn't escape given the two chances. "I'll tell you what I do know." He said in a seductive tone. "We're both here naked in a pool, all alone." She nodded and moved closer, she was now straddling his waist. He whispered in her ear in the same tone, "I could think of a few things to pass the time." He moved his hands up her back and around her waist and over her breasts. She pulled his head to hers and kissed him passionately, and continued to move her hands over his body.
Outside Willies
They had just stopped running from the vamps and Spike couldn't sense them so that was ok. They had just begun to follow Drusilla's sent when it stopped. Spike looked at the ground and seen a man hole, he opened it and jumped down followed by Kelly. The sent continued down here, they kept walking till the sent stopped at a door. They tried it but it was locked so Spike kicked it down. When they stepped in it was amazing it was a cave at the front but as you went further in you seen it had been turned into a house rooms had been put in carpets furniture, and everything you expect to find in a house. At the foot of the stairs the two big guards who had came in with Dru, were standing. The guards looked at Spike and Kelly and smiled, they charged at the other two. Spike and Kelly pulled out their stakes and staked the vamps as they charged. They wiped the dust off them and Spike picked up Claire's sent. They walked up the stairs and walked along the corridor Claire did until they came to the door. They tried it but it was locked.
The Hot Pool
Claire and Angelus and just had sex again, Claire was lounging back on Angelus' lap while he made circles on her stomach. They were just relaxing until they heard the door being knocked down they turned to look and seen that Spike and Kelly were standing in the door way. Kelly smiled at Claire and mouthed, "Score." To her Claire smiled back at her friend. While Spike just stared, then looked angry and started walking when he felt a strong grip on his shoulder he thought it was Kelly and was going to just tell her to piss off. He turned around and was looking at Dennis, Spike just moved to let Dennis walk past. "Well guys looks like you caught us just about at it." Angelus smirked. Dennis did not look amused. He walked over to the tub took Claire's hand and pulled her out, the second he did he zapped clothes on her. He hugged her asked; "Are you ok?" she nodded. Dennis turned his attention back to Angelus, "Well, I'm sorry to say Angelus but it's time for you to leave. Even though you probably are more fun than Angel. But you kill people and well we can't let that happen so bye." Angelus turned to Claire and gave her a genuine smile before Dennis started chanting. Claire smiled back and watched as Angelus turned back to Angel. Once it was complete everyone stood there, Dennis took Angel out of the pool and put clothes on him. Claire walked over to Angel, but he just looked away. He didn't dare look her in the eye. *What the hell was she thinking freely letting that maniac bite her and have sex with her.* Claire turned and looked at him; she could see he was extremely angry and hurt. "What the hell did you think you were doing?" Angel shouted at her. "Living my life Angel is it a fucking crime? I was having fun, but I guess you don't know what that is do you. To busy brooding and going on about how bad it is for you," she mimicked his voice. "Look at me oh no I committed so many murders and now have a concisions what will I do. Oh no Claire what if I loose my soul.' Well I'll tell you what would have happened you would have had fun. But no, good souled Angel does NOT do fun. God if you even had a moment of true happiness with your new soul I'd be amazed." Angel stared daggers at her before replying to her taunts. "You don't know what the hell your talking about and don't even say oh I was in your brain, yeah you WERE but your not now you don't have to suffer it every day do you? Why did you not answer my question although everyone's already seen it? But Dennis has tried to cover it hasn't he, that was good of you Dennis but I made so I remember." Claire laughed. "Funny Angel I actually remember letting ANGELUS bite me not YOU. Oh and your question what did I think I was doing what do you think, you were there after all. But those who haven't seen." Claire pulled down the t-shirt and showed them the bite mark. "Happy now everyone knows?" Spike looked at it before storming out. "Yeah happy everyone knows you throw yourself at every vampire, person or thing that would look twice at you." That was it he had crossed the line she punched him in the face and he went flying across the room. "It's a shame you have to get yourself thrown at every wall you see you bastard." Claire shouted before she ran out into the night. She ran as far away as she could get before she collapsed from tiredness. She just fell at a heap in front of a tree and cried.
Streets
Spike had left at the site of the bite mark. Angelus was a sick bastard and Claire let him bite her. Hell when they walked in they had just done it. He really couldn't believe Claire his slayer would go to someone like Angelus.
Angel had just stormed out of the cave he had found that there was a large bleeding cut coming from his head and that he had a bruised face and broken nose. He was extremely pissed at Claire, to think she would even look at Angelus made him sick.
Under A Tree
Claire had ran far away from Angel and anything he had to say. She had grown to like Angelus sort of in the time they had spent together. At least he would have some fun; Angel had changed a lot since they were together a few years ago. She didn't know everything that had happened to him but when she looked into his eyes she could see the pain and suffering he went through. She was still crying she had definitely blown things with Spike now. *what the hell is the point in trying to be with them anyway, because as soon as Buffy opens her eyes they'll be running back to her. One day Buffy will come to LA find Spike and take him away from me.* Claire started crying even more when she felt a hand on her shoulder and strong arms pick her up. She would always now who those muscles belonged to... Dennis. Her best friend she would always be able to count on him. Once Claire was in Dennis' arms she was teleported back to his apartment. Claire sat on the couch eating ice-cream and crying into Dennis and Kelly's shoulders. After a few hours of crying they fell asleep. Claire woke up a few minutes after Kelly and Dennis fell asleep. She looked over at the clock beside the T.V it read, 17:03. It wasn't dark yet but she needed to get out. She quietly moved out of Dennis' embrace, she grabbed her trainers and denim jeans, a t-shirt and her denim jacket and left. The second Claire left the house she knew where she had to go, she started walking towards the Hyperion, knowing they would be there. When Claire walked into the Hyperion, she was met with a full force hug from Cordy. *Angel must not have told them about me and Angelus.* she gave Cordy a quick hug back before asking where Angel was, Cordy was just about to answer when Angel said, "He's right here." Angel's tone was harsh but it was what she expected, she looked into his eyes but avoided all eye contact. "Cordy, can you and the others maybe go somewhere else because Claire and I have to talk." Cordelia nodded and went off to get the others. Angel looked Claire in the eyes and seen she was sad and concerned, but when she looked back into his she seen there were clouded so she couldn't read them. Angel spoke first, "Why are you here? I'm guessing it's not a social call." Claire ignored his question, "Why won't you look me in the eyes?" she asked her eyes never leaving his she let all her emotions shine through her eyes not hiding anything from him. Angel chuckled but it never reached his eyes. "What do you think I'm doing just now." He questioned. "Don't play dumb Angel; you've clouded your eyes so I can't see what your real emotions are." Claire replied back, still not breaking the eye contact. "Well maybe I don't want you to see my emotions, okay." Claire was hurt by what he said and she made no attempt to hide it. "I'm not hiding my emotions from you so why do you have to hide yours from me?" She took a step forward so they were only a few feet apart. When he looked at her he unclouded his eyes but just for second, but long enough for Claire to see the hurt the anger the sadness. She felt quite guilty because part of that hurt was because of her. Angel seen the guilt settle in her eyes along with the hurt, sadness, anger, pain and fear. Angel kept eyes hooded from her until she took the final step. The cloud hiding his emotions was lifted and she seen all of the emotions pass before them. In his chocolate eyes she could see sadness, of course there were other things but it was definite sadness that filled most of his orbs. She was now inches from him she lifted her hand up and touched the bruise she had made on his face. "I'm sorry." She whispered without his vampire hearing he would not have heard it. She said the words it reached her eyes but the damage was done, he couldn't as easily forgive for this. Sure it was her life but it was Angelus, he was evil, and she knew how much it would hurt him. Angel removed her hand from his face and took a step back from her. Claire's heart broke all over again all the feelings of when he left her before came back to her. Angel's eyes were still unclouded, but Claire's weren't. She had clouded them and replaced the hurt and sadness with anger. "Fine Angel, whatever I don't really fucking care anymore. You know it is MY life and I will do whatever and whoever I fucking want ok. If you can't forgive for that then well it is your fucking problem but I don't feel like crying over you anymore. So I'm done, you can either forgive me for what I did. Because I know it hurt you, I didn't mean to ok. But if you don't want to forgive me the stay out of my face about it." When she looked into his eyes she nearly broke down, he had made up his mind and it was not the answer she was hoping for. "Well I don't like ultimatums, and I don't think I can't for give you like," he snapped his fingers, "that. So I don't think it's going to work friendship or anything else. You hurt me and now you're expecting me to just forgive you well, I'm sort it's not that simple." Claire let her emotions show involuntarily for a moment but quickly covered up. "Nothing is ever fucking simple with you. First I meet you we end up having fun, something you didn't think you could do without Buffy. But then I learn oh you still love her, then I learn you have an evil demon inside you and well after that you left. Sorry but that isn't simple and now I make one mistake and that ain't simple either. Well at least to you these things aren't simple but to me they are. First you love Buffy the thing you do is," she said it slowly, "move on. Evil demon thing no sex not a problem, but now you can have sex happiness whatever. You leaving well that's another simple thing, I meant fuck all to you so you couldn't be assed and left me. See pretty simple when you think about it Angel." Angel looked at her a moment before speaking, "It isn't that simple you know that." Claire snorted at him. "Yeah everything is so fucking difficult, well I think the only difficult thing for you there is the get over Buffy bit. Because I've just explained the rest." Angel started to get angry, "Look none of the stuff you fucking said is simple it is complicated and you know it." Claire replied in a sarcastic tone, "No Angel, I'm sorry I don't think I do maybe you'd like to explain it to me." "Stop fucking treating this as a joke it's not you shagged Angelus and let him bite you. You know what happened with me and Buffy and you know why I left you." Claire replied getting angry as well, "Actually I know about everything except why you left me, well I do sort of, because you didn't care about me and because when you got a chance to go to Buffy, well off you went. Oh yeah and I'm not treating it as a joke just so you know." "Fuck this I don't have to listen to this I'm going out." With that Angel; stormed out to brood. Claire sat just about on the verge of tears letting her walls fall down when Spike walked in, "Hey pet, mmm I have to tell you a few things." Claire's walls went back up and anger shone out of her eyes but inside she was so happy to see him. "What?" she replied in an angry tone hiding her real emotions because she knew if she let her walls done she would break down. Spike searched her eyes he could read easily and she usually let him she wasn't one for keeping her emotions bottled up, but when she did she was pretty good at it. He could still tell when she was hiding it, and he knew she was. He had part of the shouting match her and the poof were having. "Well pet, I'm sorry for one." She let her walls down for a few seconds and a tear threatened to fall. "Sorry for how I reacted the other day and for how I reacted today it was uncalled for. Mmm also I think that..." *^Just say it you idiot^* *No fucking way look at the mood she's in if we tell her she'll just throw it in our face and then that will be the end of it.* "that I," the next bit he said so quietly that she barely heard it. "Love you." A few minutes past before Claire spoke. "Well, that can't be true because you love Buffy, so you know... and also I've moved on so why don't you just go find Buffy and live her life with her." After she said the Spike was taken back he felt like someone had put a knife through his heart. It hurt so much he felt angry with her for lashing out and hurt with what she said. After Claire had spoke she got up quickly because she knew if she stayed her walls would fall and she would tell Spike how she really felt. Her heart and her head were at a constant battle since he said the words. *I can't tell him, he'll just hurt me, and he can't really love me because he loves Buffy and he always fucking will.* *^Well he should know and I think that really does love us and I'm the heart and haven't you heard of following your heart.^* *Yeah look where that got me with Angel.* Claire had run out into the night she ran for what felt like forever. She stopped just outside a club she could here the music being played.
Today is gonna be the day
That their gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now
After Claire had spoken Spike had left he went to the nearest pub and got drunk he ordered drink after drink and got so drunk he could remember his name.
Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now
And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
Angel had left after his argument with Claire he had went out killed a few demons and vampires but it wasn't enough he was still angry and upset with Claire. He eventually had enough and went back to the Hyperion (for what Cordy would call a brood-fest)
Today was gonna be the day?
But they'll never throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you're not to do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now
Claire still sat there and listened to the Oasis song, she was upset her walls had totally fallen down and all she could do was cry, she cried because she hurt Spike and Angel and she cried because she just messed up everything special.
And all the roads that lead to you were winding
And all the lights that light the way are blinding
There are many things that I would like to say to you
I don't know how
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after an
You're my wonderwall
Said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me
You're gonna be the one that saves me