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Name: Learning to Trust
Rating: R
Summary: Hermoine has liked Draco for a while but he has hurt her and she cant forgive him yet. But, when they are made head boy and head girl and are forced to live together, they need to start paying more attention to each other. Can Draco realize his mistakes and can Hermoine forgive him before it is too late and their last year at Hogwarts and probably their last year to make up is over?
words in italics represent thoughts /words in between slashes/ represent song lyrics
before i get started writing my next couple of chapters i want to send some shout outs to:
KEEP REVIEWING GUYS!!!!!!!!!! "numb" by linken park is the featured song in this chapter so if u listen to it while reading this it will help you get a better idea of how hermoine is feeling...
i ran into my room and threw myself onto my bed, clothes and all.
"granger!!! open the door!!!" malfoy shouted, pounding on the door.
"FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE" i screamed. i rolled off the bed and quickly set up my c.d. player. i popped in a c.d. and played the first track. it was "numb" by linken park. i loved this song, it was like my anthem. my sanctuary, it described exactly how i felt. i lay back on my bed and listened to it.
/I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless lost under the surface
don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)/
i turned up my c.d. player the loudest it could go for the chorus so that malfoy would be able to hear it, placing a silencing spell at the same time on our dorms so no one else would be able to hear it and i wouldn't get into trouble.
/I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you/
i quickly turned down the volume and shouted, "can you hear it malfoy?"
FLASHBACK (normal POV)
it was late one night, towards the end of hermoine's sixth year at hogwarts. she still had her bushy hair and was still in her bookworm phase. there was an end-of-year celebration at the end of one of the corridors, and ron and harry had convinced her to join them as exams were over and what was there to lose? once there they had slowly convinced hermoine to have a beer and after she had had the first one, she needed no more coaxing. after having 4 or 5 beers, hermoine granger was very, very drunk.
"im going bed..... bed- beddy bi........" she slurred to ron and harry before staggering away.
"hermoine, wait!" shouted harry who had only had 1 beer although he was planning on having more later, but hermoine didnt hear him. once in the hall she saw malfoy leaning against a wall, his arm around pansy parkinson, surrounded by slytherin cronies.
"drakie!" hermoine squealed excitedly.
"gimme kissy!!" malfoy looked at hermoine in distaste.
"go away mudblood, go back to your books. you're not mature enough to drink." malfoy sneered as pansy and everyone around them hooted with laughter. hermoine looked around confused, still drunk.
"nnnnoooooooooooooooooooooo. i want kiss. gimme kiss," she begged.
"fuck off you piece of dirt," pansy said. "as if draco would ever kiss you."
BACK IN THE PRESENT (normal POV)
/I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you/
hermoines eyes filled with tears as she remembered what happened next.
FLASHBACK (normal POV) "pppppllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaasssssssssseeeeeeeeee? one kissy?" hermoine pleaded
"get away mudblood i thought i made that clear before," malfoy said, raising his voice.
"but i love you drakie," hermoine squeaked going towards malfoy and attemping to kiss him.
"GET AWAY MUDBLOOD!" malfoy roared, slapping hermoine and pushing her away. hermoine fell backwards onto the floor, hitting her head, as everyone around her laughed. hermoine started to cry, not fully understanding what was happening.
"HERMOINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" ginny screamed, suddenly running towards her. ginny had come along for the party although being the mature one in her family, had not had anything to drink and her mind was working clearly. she ran to hermoine and picked her up, slinging on of hermoines arms over her shoulders. she started to walk away, half dragging hermoine.
"yea thats right, old peasant weasly always comes to the rescue. go on, mudblood. go away and never EVER come near me again!" malfoy shouted as ginny looked over her shoulder shooting death glares at malfoy.
BACK IN THE PRESENT (normal POV)
/And I know I may end up failing too
But I know You were just like me with someone disappointed in you/
tears leaked out of hermoines eyes and ran across her face as she remembered how hurt and humiliating that night had been. she and ginny had reached a silent agreement to never discuss it and, being the good friend she was, ginny never told ron or harry what happened that night. hermoine had never drank anything since then.
/I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you/
the tears started coming faster and faster out of hermoines eyes until she was blinded by them and couldnt see anything clearly.
/I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you/
suddenly, the pain and humiliation was almost too much to bear.
"I HATE YOU DRACO MALFOY!" hermoine screamed as loud as she could. "I HATE YOU I HATE YOU YOU MISERABLE SON OF A BITCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH YOU HURT ME THAT NIGHT. GO FUCK YOURSELF GO TO HELL I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" she stood on top of her bed and screamed over and over again as loud as she could until she had no more energy she fell onto her sheets, sobbing until she could sob no more.
ok im really sorry if that was confusing and i know it was mostly lyrics or whatever but its important you know what malfoy did to hermoine to fully understand why she hates him. ummmmmmmmm yea thats about it remember if you were actually listening to "numb" while you were reading this then you probably have a better idea of how mad hermoine was. thats about it. REVIEW PLEASE to find out what happens next.............................. luv always any