When He Was Mine

By: Maggz

Disclaimer: InuYasha and Co. © Rumiko Takahashi

Chapter 17

I was awakened by a gentle soft kiss on my lips, and I opened my eyes and saw InuYasha. I slid my arms around his neck and kissed him back, firmly. He pulled back and smiled at me. "Let's get inside... c'mon.", he said and he opened the door of the car and pulled me out on his side to the sidewalk. We stood in front of a row of apartment houses. All looked basically the same, the street mostly dark except for the lights hanging from the lamp posts by each apartment.

I looked up at him as he started to pull me with him toward an apartment and I hung back a bit. "What is it, Kagome?", he asked me and stopped, turning toward me. "Where are we, InuYasha, whose house? who?", I asked. I felt very uneasy going with InuYasha to a stranger's house just so we could sleep together once more. "Don't worry, Kagome. It's my friend's place. I've been staying here since last week, since I knew we'd be doing the studio work. It's OK, he's not here, he travels alot and won't be back til next month... trust me... I wouldn't have brought you here like THAT..", he said and leaned down to kiss me. "Now, are you coming inside with me? or don't you trust me anymore?", he asked me, joking. But he must've noticed something in my eyes because he stopped again and looked deeply into them. "We're talking when we get inside... you look like shit... something went down at your house and you're telling me what it is...", he said and with that he pulled me behind him once more down a set of steps and to the apartment's front door where he fished for a key in his pocket.

He unlocked the door and pulled me in, his hand fumbling for a light switch and finding one and letting the light flood the room. He set the key on the table and turned to look at me...

"You think I'm using you, don't you?", he asked at once and I looked down at the floor, afraid of what he'd see in my eyes. "Look at me, Kagome. Is that what it is? You got home, you started thinking about us, how fast it all happened, losing your virginity to me... something that I know you held dear and maybe... ahhhh... yes, that's it, isn't it? your damned sister KIKYO... She said something to you, something to undermine your confidence, something about me... Because if I know her then she knows you slept with me; and she knows, doesn't she? She said something horrible to you that made you doubt me, doubt yourself? is that it or is there more?", he said.

He hadn't made a move toward me yet and I wrapped my arms around my upper body and looked everywhere but at him. "Look at me and say what needs to be said in order for you to be the same girl that I had with me at that damned cabin... the girl that was sexy and happy and so full of life and love... please, tell me what happened to that girl that I took back home today?", he begged. "I don't know, InuYasha...", I said at last and I didn't. I was always a different girl in my own house, with my family, and not neccessarily a happy one. But that wasn't InuYasha's worry, it was mine. And I needed to dig myself up out of the pit I'd put myself in with my family's help. What InuYasha needed, wanted, was a self-confident, happy, upbeat girl... and if I wanted him then I'd better get my ass in gear.

"Let me help you, then...', he said and walked toward me. Finally I looked at him, lifted my eyes to him and he pulled me tight against him as he stroked down the length of my hair and then to my back. "I wish I knew how I could make you see what you have locked so deep inside yourself... And damn it, Kagome. I don't even KNOW you THAT well, just what I sense and what you've let me see in the little time we've spent together. I very much like what I see and what I know about you. I want to be with you, I want more than just your damned body...", he whispered against my ear.

"Do you?", I asked quietly and he pulled back, his hands on my shoulders. "Fuck! what is that supposed to mean?", he asked. "You think I used you, is that it? I asked you that before. I want to know, is that it?", he asked and his eyes grew wide, his breathing hard. "If you used me then I used you too, InuYasha, because I don't regret a bit of it. I wanted you again, that's why I came with you tonight... yeah, I want to know you better, find out more about the 'real' InuYasha Hara but I'd be lying to you if I told you I didn't need your body, want you to make love to me again..", I said and looked him straight in the face.

"Then what's the problem?", he asked. "There is none, not really..", I answered. "Not if you make love to me right now, you can make it all go away...", I said softly. He turned silently and pulled me by my hand down a carpeted hallway to a bedroom on the right. He walked to the bed and turned on a lamp and I saw that he had in fact made this apartment his home for just awhile. His shoes, his clothing, his watch, it all lay in various places about the room. He pulled off his jacket and threw it into the chair by the door then slid off his trainers. When he started to unbutton his shirt, slowly… his eyes on his own hands the whole time... I just stood there and watched him. He looked up at me as he pulled the last button thru the hole and I felt my stomach quiver, my knees grow weak with want for him.

His shirt hung open around his chest and he walked over to me, never letting his eyes leave my face. "You want me to make love to you again, is that it? you want my hands all over your wonderful body, pulling thru that beautiful head of hair...", he said and he reached a hand behind my head, bringing his body very close to mine, and pulled the elastic out of my hair, taking down the pony tail and flinging the elastic aside. "Want me to touch you, Kagome? Kiss you?", he asked as his mouth moved nearer and nearer my own, just the barest hint of a kiss on the corner of my mouth.

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He was sweating, still over me and I unhooked one leg from his shoulder and moved to unhook the other. "What are you doing ta me?", he moaned as he rolled to my side and pulled me along with him so that I lay on top of him now. "Doing? Nothing...", I smiled innocently and he reached up and squeezed my nipple hard. "I would have killed Kouga AND you if I had ever thought he was doing you... I mean it. I knew you were worth waiting for... knew it...", he said and I looked down into his eyes.

"And what was that you were saying about NOT just wanting my body?", I said.

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