When He Was Mine
By: Maggz
Disclaimer: InuYasha and Co. © Rumiko Takahashi
Chapter 23
I have no idea how long I sat there and cried. I don't think I'd ever cried that much and I couldn't seem to staunch the flow of tears as they made their way down my face. I left my face buried on my knees and rocked myself back and forth, not caring where I was, not hearing anything else in my ears except her hateful words that stuck to me.
InuYasha could've been anywhere. I had no idea where he was at in the apartment and at the time, didn't have the energy to care. When I did at last lift my head, he was sitting on the carpet right by my side, his eyes on me, worried. I rubbed my hand across my eyes and made to get up off the floor by the door to go to the bathroom. I needed to get out of the apartment and away from InuYasha, that was all I knew. As soon as I pulled myself up, he was by my side, his arms going around me and I wriggled gently until I could get myself pulled away from him. "What?", he asked quietly and reached for me again.
"I... can't, InuYasha... sorry...", I said and walked around him and toward the bathroom. "You can't WHAT, Kagome?", he asked and I could hear something, something creeping into his voice, something that sounded like pain and fear. "Do this. I just can't... She's right, my mom will be a screaming ghost. If you think Kikyo was bad, you don't have any idea how my mom is. And my poor dad... what will I ever say to him?", I cried and stumbled toward the bathroom, so that I could wash my face and get myself together before I left. He grabbed my hand before I could close the door and turned me to face him, my back to the wall.
"Please... Please don't go... Please, Kagome..", he said and his hands moved to my hair to smooth it off my tear stained face. "I love you. I can't let you go like this. Are you throwing us away, is that it?", he asked as his fingers pushed strands of hair behind my ears. "I... this... you know this can't be right, InuYasha. Or none of this would've happened. Do you think she'll stop at my mom and dad? Don't you realize she'll tell everybody? She'll go to the tabloids, she'll not just hurt ME, she'll destroy YOU!", I said and started to cry again.
He pulled me into his arms and walked with me into the loo, where he pushed me gently down on the toilet seat and then wet a cool cloth to clean my face with.
"I'm not concerned about Kikyo anymore. I told her AGAIN what I've already told her before. I want nothing to DO with her at all. My only concern is that YOU are in that house... a house where something is horribly wrong, unbalanced. And if you don't get out, it's gonna fuck you up good. Is that what you want? what you need? When you're just getting ready to go back to school? is it?", he asked and picked up a hair brush off the sink to pull through my hair.
"I can't run away, InuYasha. I have to go back home. What I've done isn't wrong!", I said. "So you know that...", he said simply and continued long, slow strokes with the brush down the length of my hair. "Yes, I know that. I'm 19, I'm not a baby. Kikyo has been "doing it" for years and nothing was ever said. I know I'm not wrong but they will turn it around until it sounds like I'm just a slut.", I said and closed my eyes.
He finished with the brush and laid it back onto the counter top, then reached down and pulled my up by my hands, leading me from there and into the bedroom. He sat on the bed and held my hands in his as I stood in front of him.
"Don't let them ruin this... us...", he said and kissed my hands. "You let all that nasty talk from Kikyo color how you feel for me, feel about us being together, what we do with and for each other and Kagome..., he said and squeezed each hand now "You'll hate me, you'll hate yourself... Please, think about it..." , he said.
"InuYasha, what I feel for you can't be colored ugly, no matter how hard anybody tries. I don't feel like we're wrong at all but the circumstances of us, the fact that my sister was involved with you just until a very short time ago. She had plans to be engaged to you before the night was finished at that party, the night we...", I said and he nodded. "I know. I know, Kagome. That's what finally made me finish it, but it made her furious and she's taken that out on you now. I can't bear it...", he said.
"It's a good thing you're going away on Friday...", I said and he looked surprised and a little hurt. "NO, I don't mean that I won't miss you or want you, but I need to grab my space back to breathe in my space alone, InuYasha. I've let you invade every pore in my body and I don't know who or what I am anymore...", I said at last.
"But isn't that love, Kagome?", he asked me and his fingers moved to my button and zip and with deliberate slowness. He popped the button thru and slid the zipper down. "Love? I don't know. I've never been in love... not really, InuYasha. I feel like this has taken over everything in my life and I can't breathe...", I said as he slid my jeans down my hips and pushed them to the floor all without taking his eyes off me.
"I think about you all the time, Kagome. It drives me wild to think of not being with you. I WANT you to invade every pore of me. I feel good with you..", he said and worked his fingers into the front of my panties, sliding them down now. I stepped out of them and stood in front of him still. His hands went to my bum and he squeezed each cheek firmly and pulled me to him.
"I can't get enough of you... ever. You're so beautiful, so sweet and sexy. And I'm not gonna have you with me for over a month. I need you. Please, don't go away. Not now, not like this..", he said and his hands moved back to my waist and grabbed the hem of the his black T-shirt that I now wore, pulling on it and he stood and pulled it over my head, kissing me as he threw the shirt down on the floor. His fingers brushed thru my hair, soft and easy, trailed down my back and finally unfastened the sheer black bra that he had refused earlier to remove. Taking it off, he threw it down and moved his mouth down my throat to my chest and I felt soft kisses trail down until he was at my nipple and sucking on it furiously as he sat himself back down on the bed in front of me.
I loved him so much and my body already knew what it wanted. It wanted HIM. Every single time and every single way it could have him. He had one hand wrapped around my waist keeping me close; the other hand had moved between my legs and was stroking me gently there, making me weak. I pulled away from him and he looked up at me, his big, amber eyes wide. "I can't love you properly if you don't take off your clothes too, InuYasha..", I said softly and his face lit up with a wide 'InuYasha-smile'. He stood and shucked his jeans and boxers in one quick move and flung them to the corner then pulled me down to straddle his lap.
His lips sought mine and his kisses were hungry and intense as he found me. His hands plunged back into my hair and as he kissed me, he turned sideways and lay me back on his bed. He had climbed in between my legs now and planted himself there as he moved his mouth down me to my breasts once more. "InuYasha....", I said softly as my hands brushed thru his beautiful hair. "Mmmmmm?", he answered me, unwilling to look up at me now. He was busy and had no intentions of more distracting conversation from me. "Love me up good, sweetheart... Please...", I whispered and he moaned low and soft, moving to the other nipple and sucking on it hard until I felt I would explode.
He had worked his hand down between us and was busy trying to rub there now so he edged off me a bit and let his fingers work their magic on me as his mouth continued to comfort him. He had me squirming underneath him, his fingers had found 'home' and he was busy sliding a slow hand over my little pearly bead of desire. I arched my hips up as soon as his fingers found it and he smiled against my breast. I could actually FEEL his smile as he drove me quietly insane.
"InuYasha... love me... love me...", I moaned as I stretched over him like a cat. My legs, my arms were everywhere, my hips dancing on their own. He grabbed me, captured me, putting his arm around my waist to hold me steady to him and then he looked down into my face. "Love ME, Kagome... sweet angel, love me....", he murmured and turned me over so that I was on top of him now. I was wild for him by this point. I knew no self control existed in me and I was nearly crying as I raised up on him and searched for his member. My hand closed around it at once and I closed my eyes. His hands held to my nipples and he rubbed them, pulled at them all the while I was finding my way with him. I sank down on top of him, feeling him fill me and he moved his hands down to my hips and pushed me furiously back and forth when I did not move as quickly as he wanted. "Harder, Kagome... faster...", he moaned and I felt his hips start to grind against me.
I looked down and found his eyes on me, sparkling and happy. "So good with you....", he groaned and bit his lower lip, closing his eyes as the feeling swept him away. I felt him grow larger in me, push up off the bed and then fill me with his hot fluid. His arms had wrapped around me now and held me prisoner as he continued to buck up against me, letting me get a feel of him as the hotness poured out of me and made me wetter. It felt good, his cock rubbing against me, rubbing into his own semen, and I cried out as I felt myself spinning toward him... "Ahhhhh... Inu... good!", I cried out and he pushed my head to his, found my lips once more and kissed me hard as I came.
Lots of times since we had started to make love, one or the other of us was quick to jump up and grab a warm cloth to clean up with when the lovemaking had finished. Now we didn't. We lay there totally exhausted, spent in each others arms, drifting toward a deep sleep that we both needed more than we knew. We both lay on our backs spread across the bed, the air cooling our sweat, cooling our bodies. The last thing I remember before I drifted into blissful sleep with InuYasha beside of me, was his whisper soft and low. " I love you, Kagome...", and then his fingers laced through mine and he was snoring softly beside of me.
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A/N: Hey guys! Still remember me??? Hope u do… Sorry for not having updated sooner, it's just that I've spent the whole week ill… Ya, I even had fever for two days… so I suppose I'm forgiven, right??? RIGHT???? *ahem* Thanx for the bunch of reviews! Now it's a fact: 99,9 % of the reviewers are truly Kikyo haters (I'm proud of u, kids *lol*) Actually it gave me some cool ideas… I didn't know there were so many ways to kill a undead bitch made of clay *LMAO*
Now for this one, don't forget to review! Reviews make me happy! ^_^
Maggz