When He Was Mine

By: Maggz

Disclaimer: InuYasha and Co. © Rumiko Takahashi

Chapter 26

"No. Not now. We don't have time to get into this here and I won't do it here. But we DO obviously need to talk, InuYasha... And for many reasons...", I said and looked up at him, lifting my chin. He wasn't going to use his temper on me without hearing something from me first but I could see he wasn't going to back down on me. His hand was still gripping my elbow and he was squeezing it hard. "You have a really bad habit of DOING that!", I said as I glared down at his hand and he looked down and back up at me, not moving an inch. "You have a really bad habit of letting Shimura get into your pants!", he spat and I jerked on my arm, pulling myself to get away from him. "Fuck off, InuYasha...", I said and swung away from him, moving out into the hallway.

I walked quickly down the hall toward the doors. I knew I couldn't very well get home from here but I could get to a phone and call any friend of mine to pick me up. I wasn't surprised to feel his arm grip me around my waist and swing me back toward him, taking my breath. "I told you not to fucking walk away from me again, Kagome. You don't listen very well... Damn you!", he growled as he held on tight. Miroku happened to walk by at the end of the hallway at that minute and his eyes swung quickly back to us. Me trying to get out of InuYasha's hold and InuYasha holding me prisoner.

"S'okay, man... Be there in a bit..", InuYasha said between clenched teeth as I dug my feet into his and pushed my bum against his front, trying to maneuver myself out of his arms. "You keep moving like that, I'll take your ass in the next room and fuck you 'til you can't see straight. You got that, Kagome?", he whispered loudly into my ear. "Fuck if you will. I'm through with this, InuYasha, all of it. I'm calling Sango to pick me up and I'm leaving here. I'll pick my car up before you're even half done here..", I said lowly and continued to fight him.

"Stop it, Kagome... now!", he said into my ear and I could feel him reaching behind him, opening a door I had not seen and pushing he and I into it in the darkness. He shut the door firmly standing against it and pulled me up against him. From what I could tell, it was a small utility closet. It smelled of cleaners and dust and I had seen the mops and brooms lining the walls as we had quickly came in. "Let me go, InuYasha..", I said lowly and he grabbed my chin with one hand and brought it toward him, squeezing it hard. "No..", he said simply and pushed on the back of my head bringing my mouth to his. I wanted to bite his mouth, wanted to pull away, but as soon as that mouth touched my own I was hopelessly lost again. His other arm held me firmly about my waist still and I soon melted against him, all my fire gone.

His tongue was snaking in and around my mouth and he stopped long enough to say something. I couldn't see him. It was totally dark but I could feel his breath on my face. "Don't you even think of biting me, you hear me? You kiss me and let me kiss you. You're mine, Kagome... No matter how hard you fight it, you are mine!", he said and grabbed my hand pushing it to the crotch of his trousers. "See what the fuck you do to me?", he groaned and I let my hand gently squeeze his length, so obvious in his trousers. "Ah... God help me, Kagome...", he moaned as his mouth found mine again and he kissed me harder.

"Inu, no. Not here... You need to get back out there...", I said. "Hell, I know that but you're not going anywhere! How do I make sure you stay where I put you?", he said and his mouth went to my neck and sucked hard causing me to cry out and hold to him. "I won't go anywhere, I promise. We need to talk and you're leaving tomorrow. I'll stay. I'll wait for you, ok?", I whispered against him. "You have to...", he said and pushed his hips against me. "I know, we need to talk. Now go...", I said and pushed myself out of his embrace. "Tell me you love me, Kagome..", he said as his hand touched the door knob. "InuYasha, you know I do...", I said, helpless not to because no matter what, I did love him. "Say it to me..", he said and turned the knob. "I love you, InuYasha..." I said softly.

He opened the door and boldly went out into the hallway while I hung back in the dark closet, a bit more modest than he, waiting. I heard him as he apparently reached the end of the hallway and I had to smile even though part of me despised him at that moment. "Coast is clear, baby. You can come out of your hiding place!", he yelled. I counted to ten and waited, then eased open the door and peeked out, looked right then left, then pushed the door closed behind me.

I quickly found the bathroom and went in, realizing I was shaking. Was it anger? Or sexual need that had me shaking? I didn't know, probably a combination of both. I went to the mirror and washed my face looking at myself as I grabbed a fistful of paper towels to blot my face with. It was flushed, my eyes bright, my lips dark red and swollen where he had kissed me, and I silently cursed him, even as my heart thundered in my chest. I took a few deep breaths and walked out of the bathroom back toward the area where he had shown me I could sit, and finding it, took a seat with a few other people that had come in as well as five or six that I had already met. I leaned back in my seat and closed my eyes, willing my heart to slow down, calm to overtake me.

It was only moments before I saw the stage lights come on and I sat up straighter as the popular, well known host came out and introduced the show. It was one I was very familiar with and I smiled. This was really cool! Wild Silver were introduced as the first guests of the show and were going to sing first before any interviewing would be done. I watched as they all walked onto the stage, amid shrill but well controlled screams, and took their seats, as a familiar new song began in the background. My eyes took them all in but InuYasha... Oh my! My InuYasha... MINE!.

He was beautiful and so sexy. How could anybody NOT let their eyes go to him first and then stay there?? When he opened his mouth to sing, I felt my heart surge forward and placed my hands over my mouth. I 'd never seen him really perform, hadn't ever been to a Wild Silver concert. I had only maybe seen them on the TV a handful of times, heard them mainly on the radio but now. And InuYasha... Oh, InuYasha...

His eyes never strayed to me during the program but once commercial break was called he immediately looked over toward where he had shown me to sit and his eyes found mine. And he smiled, his InuYasha-smile. I smiled back and sat back waiting for more. I had loved the song, had loved it the first time I heard it on the radio, and now, as the program came back to live I sat and watched the four of them answer questions with confidence and grace. InuYasha, I saw at once, was the main spokesperson for the group. If he didn't automatically speak up once a question was asked, three pairs of eyes would swing to him and he'd smile and answer it then. I saw his charisma on the stage that day, saw his intelligence and his love for what he did shine through and I was so very proud of him. All thoughts of what had happened earlier between us gone, at least for now.

The show ended much too soon for me and I stood and stretched, going to stand by a doorway to wait for him. Shippo came out first and startled me, reaching around me to plant a kiss on my cheek. "Kagome, I'm glad you could make it. Please say it ain't so, tell me you are not with InuYasha now!", he smiled and then pulled a playful pout. "Whoever would have told you that lie?", I asked him, all innocence and he grinned and slapped my bum before winking. "I can see it in InuYasha's eyes and in yours...", he said. We stood there a few minutes more and talked about the show and his new baby girl; he, pulling out scads of pictures to show me and me, ooohing and ahhhing over every one.

Miroku came out next and looked at me, eyes curious. "Does InuYasha always pin you up like that, Kagome?", he asked and then broke into a grin. I blushed and shook my head and he laughed and hugged me. "Don't worry, he'll be calming down soon, trust me. He's just wild in love right now. I see the signs.", he said. I blushed deeper and turned away as I heard Kouga come back behind me. All looked fine and Kouga smiled. I breathed a sigh of relief. I didn't want anything to happen between he and InuYasha, not because of me, so I hoped they had talked or at least smoothed things over.

They all said goodbye and I leaned back against the wall, waiting for InuYasha. Soon I heard his footsteps from behind me and I stayed the way I was, not turning to him, my head resting against the wall. "Ready?", he asked as he walked up behind me and pressed himself deeply against me, his arms going around my waist. "I suppose, yeah. I'm ready. You guys were great out there, InuYasha. Thanks for letting me sneak in...", I said and he turned me back against the wall and kissed me.

"You didn't leave...", he said and I shook my head, my eyes never leaving his. "No. I promised you that. I wouldn't break a promise to you...", I said. "Nor would I... never...", he said. "Kagome... I don't want to lose you, in any way. And I'm getting ready to leave you tomorrow for a month. I just get so crazy with it. This is new, you and I... I lost my head, please?", he whispered as he took my hands and held them. "InuYasha, I know. I know it's all so new, and maybe we both have to adjust. But you... you take over everything. And you just can't DO that!", I said softly. "But Kouga. He was... he KISSED you, Kagome. You were kissing. And the last time you were together you were kissing... I just... Fuck! Why in hell WERE you kissing?", he asked.

Why had we kissed? Kouga and I? What could I say to InuYasha to make him understand, when I really didn't. I didn't even understand InuYasha and myself yet. "Answer me, Kagome. Because I know you're not playing both of us. I know you that well. And I know Kouga wouldn't do anything to hurt you or me..", he added. "He was just saying 'good-bye' to me, InuYasha, in a way. We DID go out quite a few times. I DID promise him more time. I TOLD you that I was going to talk to Kouga, and then he tells me that YOU came to him and told him, "hands off", as far as I was concerned. I was supposed to do that, InuYasha. Not you! It was MY place to do that!", I said and frowned. His hands had stayed around my waist as we talked and he pulled me tighter against him.

"I'm sorry, Kagome. I just... hell, I don't know...", he said and looked down. "I guess at the time I was afraid you'd change your mind and I didn't want Kouga coming in and taking you from me... WE hadn't even properly talked yet about US, but I had to do it and you're right, baby. I always seem to have to be in control. It's just this thing with me, and in regards to YOU… Well, like I said before, you're new to me, wild and sweet and almost an unbelievable thing. I've NEVER been with anyone like you, ever. And we've only got to spend a couple, maybe three weeks together. Now I'm leaving you and you'll go to school... Guys will be all over you. I won't be here and your family is a strong influence in your life, they'll be there too. And what if... well, what if you decide while I'm gone that it's just not worth it all... It makes me MAD, crazy MAD!", he said.

"InuYasha, you say I have no faith or trust in YOU. Now you sound as if the reverse it true. Do you know that Kouga asked me if I loved you and I said yes? Do you?", I asked him. "I've never told anyone outside my family that I loved them, especially not a boyfriend or a lover. Not that there've been other lovers, but do you see how big a step that is for me?", I said. "I won't disappear on you. I won't change my mind. When you come back, I'll be here waiting for you and if things should ever change, as I'm sure in any relationship they do, we'll talk about it and what's best for US. But I won't ever disappear out from under you, InuYasha. All you have to do is call. I promise..", I said and stood on tiptoe to wrap my arms around his neck and pull him to me. I loved him so much, the way his golden eyes looked when he pleaded for understanding, the way he smiled at me when he was happy, the crinkling of his eyes when he was really jazzed at something, and how he unashamedly loved me and held me near. "Hungry for some lunch, Kagome?", he asked me and I nodded and smiled. We walked out of the building arm in arm and to his car on our way to find some lunch...

We picked up lunch and InuYasha drove to the park where he had picked me up in the car on the first day I had met him, where I had been jogging then. I looked at him as he pulled into a space and turned off the car. "Why here?", I asked quietly and looked out the window. The little park was deserted this time of day and I let my eyes wander it as I waited for him to answer. "Because, Kagome, this is where I first made me move on you, even if you never knew it. I picked you up here, took you to dinner, danced with you again and kissed you for the very first time.", he said. "I know that, InuYasha. I know all of that...", I whispered. "Come on. I'm starving and I'm sure you are. Let's go find a place to sit down and eat.", he smiled.

He grabbed the sacks full of food and grinned at me. We found a little concrete picnic table nestled way back nearly into the woods, close to the creek and sat down, side by side. He pulled out boxes of chicken, cartons of potatoes and gravy, biscuits and cole slaw. "Hungry are we?", I laughed and he nodded and pulled out two plates, handing one to me.

He was busy biting into a chicken leg before I had my plate fixed and I eyed him as I sipped on my Coke. "What?", he asked, his mouth chewing around a hunk of chicken. "You're absolutely cute!", I laughed and shook my head, pinching off a piece of biscuit and popping it into my mouth. "My eating is cute?", he asked and smiled at me. "Yeah... Everything about you is cute, except your being so damned bossy!", I said. "Bossy, me?", he asked, his eyes wide. "Yeah, you!", I said and nodded, picking up a chicken wing and pulling the crust off it to eat.

"Hmmpphh", he replied and continued to bite off bits of chicken and chew them, looking out over the creek. He finished his meal in no time and looked over at me. I was almost finished, so he started to clear away the refuse and dump it in the garbage bin. I watched him, it was impossible not to as he walked away from me and down to the creek, his hands stuck in his jean pockets. Finishing, I stood and threw away my things then joined him down by the water.

"What are you thinking of, InuYasha?", I asked him and he shook his head and smiled at me, then looked back at the water. "Leaving tomorrow morning...", he said softly and turned to me, pulling me into his arms. "I know but it won't be the first time you've left anybody to go on the road and it won't be the last, I'm sure.", I said. He pushed me back to arm's length and looked at me, a frown on his face. "Why do you always do that?", he asked. "Do WHAT?", I asked him. "Just put me and you down to any relationship I've had. It's not that way... Yes, it's been hard to leave sometimes but not like THIS, Kagome. This is different for me, maybe not for you... Damn, I just can't get a reading on you, not at all. It's like you want me but then... It's OK with you if you don't have me.", he said. "That's so untrue, InuYasha. I want you, trust me...", I said. "Then why do you just blow these little remarks off like we're nothing, like me being gone for over a month will not affect you. Maybe it won't..", he said. "You know me better than that, InuYasha..", I said and snuggled against him, my ear to his heart, and I could hear it beating wildly in his chest.

"I think I do, then you... then you say or you DO something that makes me think I'm all wrong about you...", he said softly. "Just do as you say I should do with you, InuYasha... TRUST ME, ok?", I mumbled and clutched the back of his shirt as I hugged him. He inclined his head and I looked up at him, his lips lowering to mine, his eyes already closed. "I love you, InuYasha...", I whispered against his mouth as he started to kiss me and I heard a soft moan escape him.

"Let's go back to the apartment and just spend the day together. Let's not go anywhere, ok?", he whispered against my hair. And that's just what we did.

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Maggz