When He Was Mine
By: Maggz
Disclaimer: I own nothing
Chapter 40
The next morning we slept in very late... and yes, we only slept.
It was nearly lunchtime before I dared open my eyes against the glare of sunlight that was peeking thru the window blinds at me. InuYasha was still pressed firmly to my back and I tried to move inch by inch out of his arms and away from him. I should've known better.
As soon as he felt the absence of body warmth, he moaned and reached for me, pulling me back against him and snuggling down with me. I sighed and smiled. I realized I'd better enjoy this time with InuYasha; it wouldn't be very long before he was on the road again and I'd not have the pleasure of snuggling down in my very own bed with him.
"You're trying to get away from me this morning?", he growled in my ear and flung a leg across my hip.
"Nope, just ready to get up and it's not morning, InuYasha... it's after twelve!", I said and pushed my bum against him.
"If you're wanting to get up, then you just made your very first mistake", he chuckled and stuck his hands immediately between my legs. "See? I told you... you can't fight me, not when you want it so bad too!", he challenged.
"Sorry, I was teasing you, InuYasha. It won't happen again, now let me up.", I said and wriggled against him.
"There you go again. Nope, you can't get up 'til I have some morning love and I don't care if it IS twelve noon. It's still morning in my book and I'm wanting something fierce, can't you feel it?", he asked me and to emphasize his point, rubbed himself firmly against my backside.
"Ohhhh, InuYasha Hara... What am I gonna do with you? You know I can't ever refuse you!", I moaned and turned over toward him, putting my arms around his neck and smiling at him.
"Good to see that you keep that attitude. Now let me have some!", he said and pushed me back on the bed, situating himself between my legs and entering me smoothly. It wasn't long before we both were breathless and finished, holding each other tightly.
Getting up, we showered, ate a big late breakfast and relaxed around the TV once more until it was time to get ready for the party.
Have I forgotten to say that the video to be released - the reason for this party, was the one my sister, Kikyo, had been in... The one where she met InuYasha for the first time?
I knew she would more than likely be there and this I wasn't looking forward to at all. I hadn't seen her since I'd moved away from home and I didn't want to see her now. But I felt I owed it to InuYasha to go and try to be as confident in "US" as I could be.
We showered once more and I went into the bedroom to dress for the party. Picking out a royal blue thong, I pulled it on and walked to the closet to grab the dress InuYasha had picked out and bought for me.
"Oh My God!", I heard him exclaim from the door and I turned and smiled at him. "You look brilliant... Absolutely FIT, Kagome.", he grinned and walked toward me. He wore only a towel, wrapped around his waist and droplets of water still clung to the skin of his upper body. HE was the one who looked fit!
"InuYasha, you know if you come over here and touch me we'll be late, and you don't want to be late, ok? So let's just get dressed and go. We've got all evening to be together, ok?", I started to laugh as I backed toward the closet away from him.
"Kagome, you know it won't take long. Not if we just have a quickie. I promise I'll make it all up to you when we get back here. Please, sweetheart... darling, my Love!", he cajoled but I held firm and shook my head.
"No, InuYasha. It'll take a bit for me to get ready. I want to look nice for you tonight, so be a good boy and get dressed yourself. Your things are in the other bedroom. I already laid out your clothes on the bed.", I said and smiled.
"Oh, you did then? Ok, off I go to get dressed. Shall I close the door to give you your privacy?", he teased.
"That wouldn't be such a bad idea. Yeah, just close it on your way out. I'll see you when I'm dressed.", I said and blew him a kiss.
"Tease.", he growled again and I laughed.
Truth be told, I was nervous as hell. Never had I been to an 'official' Wild Silver party and I wasn't sure how I would do. But it seemed to mean a lot to InuYasha that I go, so I swallowed my self-doubt and tried to psych myself up for it. I carefully applied my makeup, paying special attention to my eyes, playing them up with sapphire blue liner and two coats of mascara. When I had finished, I smiled at myself... dramatic was the effect I was going for and I looked totally different.
I piled my hair up and clipped it with a pearl comb, letting it cascade down my back a bit from the upsweep. Then I sprayed my favorite perfume on and walked over to the bed to get the dress and put it on. First, I grabbed sheer silk stockings and slid them up my legs, then pulled on the dress. It fit like a glove and it felt good as I pulled it on. Walking back over to my closet, I pulled out a pair of black strappy high heels and slid my feet into them, buckling the tiny silver buckles.
With a sigh, I stood in front of the mirror and finally had a look at myself and I had to grin. I didn't even look like me, not like the 'me' I was used to. My heart fluttered in my chest as I wondered what InuYasha would think, what he'd say, if he'd really be proud to have me on his arm.
Slowly, I reached for my fancy purse and opened the door of my room. InuYasha was in the kitchen, pouring himself a glass of water with his back to me. I stood silently for a moment and looked at him. From behind, he looked divine. He wore dark dress pants and a black button down shirt. I grinned as I let my eyes wander to his cute ass and giggled. Hearing me, he turned at once and started to say something then stopped.
"InuYasha?", I said softly.
"My God, look at you...", he whispered and set the glass down on the counter top, walking toward me, a small smile on his lips. "You are a vision, so pretty. Look at your hair!", he whispered as his fingers stole gently up and touched an errant lock. "Ohhh, you smell so nice too, and this dress... God, it's lovely!", he said.
"So do I pass the inspection?", I grinned and unable to help myself, I turned in a circle for him and gave him a chance to gaze at me.
"Ohhhhhhh baby!", he said softly and grabbed my hands when I at last turned to face him again. "That dress does wonderful things for you. And your body does wonderful things for this dress. I won't be able to keep my eyes or my hands off you the whole evening...", he said.
"Really, InuYasha... Do you really like it? Do I look Ok?", I asked. I knew he was used to being with beautiful people. HE was beautiful himself, so beautiful... and I breathed in and smiled.
"You have to ask me that?", he asked and cocked his head sideways. "Yeah, I suppose you do. But if you don't believe me just wait 'til you get to the party. I'm gonna have to knock the guys away with all my force!", he laughed.
"You look stunning, InuYasha. Dark colors are good for you...", I said as I let my hand reach up and my index finger stroke the tiny silver chain around his neck. He grabbed my hand and kissed it, making me smile.
"Thank you. You really like me in black?", he asked.
"Yeah, I do. You look extra sexy in black. Are you gonna wear that leather jacket tonight?", I asked.
"Why?", he grinned at me. "Does it turn you on?", he asked.
"Ohhh, InuYasha, you know it does! Now go get it and I suppose we'll be ready to go, right?', I asked and he nodded and smiled, going into the bedroom to grab his jacket.
I picked up my wrap from the back of the sofa and got myself into it. Grabbed my purse once more and waited for InuYasha.
"Ready, Kagome?", he asked and I nodded. I supposed I was as ready as I'd ever be. How was I supposed to be prepared for this anyway? But I bit the bullet and took his hand, accepted a light kiss to my cheek and a not so light pat to my bum from him, and with a laugh walked out the door and into the cold night air towards the car.
What would happen tonight, I wondered. What would Kikyo be like. How would InuYasha react to her... to me?
We pulled up at the entrance to a nice club and I saw loads of cars already there, lots of people. InuYasha grabbed my hand and gave it a squeeze, making me look at him.
"Kagome, I can't wait to get you inside, to show you off!", he said and smiled at me. I smiled back and drew in a breath.
'You can do this, you can do this.', I chanted to myself as he got out of the car and made his way around to open my door for me. He reached in and grabbed my hands, pulling me out and against him into the cold night air. I let him hug me and looked at him, my eyes almost level with his own, since I wore my heels.
"I owe you a big kiss and a gigantic fuck when we get home.", he said and I burst out laughing. Nobody could say things like InuYasha and get away with it!
"So you do. Now let's get going. You don't want to be the last one to arrive, do you? Or maybe you do. I can see you liking to make an entrance real bad!", I said and kissed his cheek.
He laughed and tugged on my hand, pulling me forward and we went inside where it was warm, where there were loads of people and lots of food and drink. InuYasha looked around and tucked my hand inside his arm, close to his body as we made our way to the coat room to shuck our outerwear. He smiled at me as I handed over my wrap and his eyes trailed down to take in the generous display of cleavage the dress offered him of me. "Lovely. You are an angel... C'mon, let's go party.", he said and pulled me with him back into the main room.
I saw Miroku standing with Koharu in the middle of the room and they both waved us over. I noticed Shippo had come in alone as he walked over to join our little group and asked him about Anna. It turned out baby Mari was having a bad evening and Anna had urged him to go on alone…
Kouga was the only one yet to arrive; I noticed as we found a table and sat down. InuYasha walked over to get drinks for us and Shippo asked if I wanted to dance. "Sure.", I said and walked with him out on the crowded floor. He pulled me into his arms for a slow number and I looked up at him. He grinned at me and I smiled again. I'd always thought Shippo to have the loveliest smile!
"InuYasha picked out your dress, is that right?", he whispered in my ear and I looked up surprised.
"Yes, he did. How did you know?", I wondered.
"I can tell. He thinks you're lovely, talked of you non-stop on our last trip out of town. Just looking at you in that dress and seeing how he looks at you, I could tell. He's nuts about you.", he said.
"Thanks. I'm sure InuYasha appreciates you tattling on him, Shippo.", I laughed. "But thanks just the same.", I smiled.
I felt Shippo stiffen against me and turn me so that my back was to our table. He started to keep up a steady babble of conversation and had me answering all sorts of questions. We had danced through two dances before I realized something must be up and it didn't take much for me to realize that it was probably the entrance of my sister.
I put a finger to his lips to stop his babbling and he looked at me knowing, I suppose that I'd figured him out. "It's OK, Shippo. Kikyo's here, is that it?", I asked him.
"Yes, she is. Are you ok?", he asked.
I laughed. "Yes, Shippo. I'm Ok. Remember, that she IS my sister. It'll be OK.", I said. I saw a look pass over his face and wondered again what he was trying to hide me from or hide from me. Turning from him, I saw at once why he had tried to shield me from the table and what I would see there.
Kikyo was there with Kouga, but it wasn't Kouga she was clinging to. A group of men had walked over. I noticed Totousai, their manager, as one of them and had the guys in a conversation. I realized that most people would still think InuYasha and Kikyo involved since InuYasha hadn't made any public appearances with me. I saw Kikyo look my way and smile a tight little smile before grabbing InuYasha's hand and placing it around her waist. He was deep into the conversation, that I could see, and his hand stayed put.
I felt Shippo's hand on my back, pushing me forward. Maybe that was how I got my feet to move but I was at once walking up to them. "Sorry, Kagome. I know she's your damned sister but that sucks, sucks big time.", Shippo said softly in my ear. I turned my head to look at him, to try to give him a confident smile but a small sob choked me and I fought it hard. "Just keep your head up, Kagome. Don't let her do this, please. It'll be OK.", Shippo whispered and pulled his arm around my waist, leading me forward.
Kikyo looked like a million bucks. Her straight dark glossy hair gleamed under the lights, her eyes shone, her lips and nails were painted a sexy siren red. Her dress was snug and revealing, hugging her super slim body to perfection, and she was glued to my boyfriend who still hadn't noticed Shippo and I had walked up, still talking to Totousai and his group.
"Kagome...", Kikyo said lowly and fit herself more snugly against InuYasha. I felt sick inside, so sick. I had really talked myself up for this, knew what was likely to happen, or at least I thought I had. Now I realized I had only been in denial. I tried to smile, hoping it came out alright, and caught Kouga's eye from Kikyo's left side.
"I'm sorry.", he mouthed silently at me and I looked quickly away, realizing he had been the one to escort Kikyo there.
"How are you, little sister?", she smiled levelly at me and I swallowed and tried the smile again, feeling Shippo press his fingers into my side.
"I'm fine... you?", I asked. She simply smiled and pulled an arm around InuYasha, causing him to turn and look my way. At once I saw his eyes change, saw him as he tried to remove his arm from around her and to move himself out of her embrace but to no avail. He would be causing a scene in front of Totousai and his group if he did anything, and he couldn't afford to do that, not tonight.
"Oh, I'm much better, thanks.", Kikyo said and smiled at InuYasha. "InuYasha, should we dance?", she asked sweetly and I watched helplessly as his eyes went to me then to Totousai, who was smiling at the two of them, then back to me. Kikyo started to walk to the dance floor taking InuYasha's hand and pulling him with her. "Baby...", he said as he moved past me and I closed my eyes, feeling them pass me by.
"Shippo, who is your date?", Totousai asked.
"This is Kagome, Kikyo's little sister.", Shippo smiled and I saw understanding of some sort dawn in Totousai's eyes before he smiled at me. "Nice to meet you, Kagome. I'm hoping you'll be proud of Kikyo's work in the video. She did an excellent job, though after seeing you, I'm thinking we should have gotten both sisters to work in it.", he said and laughed. I nodded, smiled and looked at Kouga when Totousai turned back to continue his conversation with his group.
"I need to talk to Kagome, Shippo. Just a second...", Kouga said and reached for my hand. "I'll be back in a flash, Kagome. You're ok?", Shippo asked. "I'm fine, Shippo. Go ahead...", I assured him and let Kouga guide me to a small table at the back of the room.
"Your hands are freezing, Kagome. Are you cold?", he asked me. "No, I'm fine.", I mumbled and took a seat in the chair he offered. It allowed me to see InuYasha and Kikyo on the dance floor and I closed my eyes. "I'm so sorry, Kagome, but she called and asked me to escort her. And she WAS in the video, she HAD to be here. I wasn't sure what to do. Please forgive me.", Kouga said.
"Nothing to forgive, Kouga.", I said softly and opened my eyes to look at him.
"But you're hurt, or angry... or both, and I don't want you to be.", he said.
"No, I'm fine, trust me. I have to handle this sometime or other. It will be fine.", I said.
Out on the dance floor - InuYasha and Kikyo were pressed tightly to each other and I felt myself start to get sick. Even if I knew beyond any doubt that InuYasha was mine and this was all for show, it still hurt me terribly to see the two of them together. It made me feel about two inches tall and horribly stupid... horribly.
"Kouga, I need to excuse myself a minute. I'm sorry...", I said and got up to search blindly for the restroom.
I heard him behind me but waved him off and walked toward what looked to be the toilets. Stumbling in, I shoved into a stall and sank onto the toilet shaking.
"Damn her...", I whispered as I rested my face in my hands. "Damn you, Kikyo. Damn you for ruining our last night together before InuYasha leaves.", I whispered into my hands. I held my breath and willed the tears away, hoping beyond hope that the telltale signs wouldn't show when I returned to the party.
Getting up slowly, I made my way to the sink and took my make up out of my purse, touching up my face. I heard a noise behind me and looked in the mirror to see Kikyo there silent.
"You are so stupid, Kagome. So fucking stupid. I told you I'd humiliate you. I told you I could get InuYasha back and you just wouldn't listen. You live in this fairy tale world where you think you're some kind of Cinderella and he's your Prince Charming and it doesn't work that way, Kagome. I tried to tell you that.", she said and moved toward me.
I had no idea what she was getting at but I knew it would be something I really didn't need to hear. I shoved my compact back in my purse and snapped it closed, turned and started to walk past her. She grabbed my elbow as I passed and dug her long fingernails in, holding me there.
"Just wait, you little bitch. I'm not finished with you yet. Hold on.", she sneered into my face. I stood my ground waiting, knowing I'd have to let her speak.
"He told me while we were dancing that he wants me back. He just doesn't know how to break it to you, said he'd seen the light. You were just too young and inexperienced, couldn't hold his interest, you don't have anything in common. I really don't know if I even WANT him back but he was very insistent we meet before he leaves to go out of town tomorrow. If you don't mind, I'd like to sit with him at the video screening. Almost everyone here still believes we are a couple and it would just be better press for the group, don't you think?", she asked me.
My heart thundered in my chest and I moved my arm, trying to get out of her grasp. I didn't want to hear her ugly words any longer.
"You let him ruin you, Kagome. You always told me you were going to save yourself for the man you loved, the man you would marry. Now look what you did. You went and compromised your morals, your principles. If you didn't have a lot going for you but your brain, well... you always had your principles and mom and dad admired you for that. Now just look at you, you're like a common whore. It's like he 'keeps' you as his own personal slut to just fuck when he comes home. Damn it, Kagome. I TOLD you he had a girl in every city. I TOLD you that he doesn't care about you. He only wants to keep you tied to him so he can have someone to call when he's on the road and lonely... so if he doesn't have a date or anything better to do he can come home and relieve the pressure, the stress, by fucking you.", she spat.
"Stop it, Kikyo. Just stop it!", I cried as I finally wrenched my arm from her grasp. "Aren't you ashamed, Kagome?", she said sadly and just shook her head.
I was in a blind panic as I left the restroom and thanked my lucky stars that nobody was watching as I made off to the coatroom and asked for my wrap. Looking back over my shoulder, I saw InuYasha talking to Kouga and ducked quickly back to the entrance of the club.
"Would you like me to call you a cab, miss?", the doorman/bouncer asked and I nodded and sank back against the wall. The wind whipped around me and I shivered, fighting back the tears that threatened to spill down my face.
A cab pulled up and I hopped in, told him where to take me and pulled my head into my hands and quietly cried. The cab pulled up outside my friend, Sango's house and I hopped out, paid the driver and made my way to her front door. I knocked softly, rang the bell once and waited for her to answer.
Soon enough she opened the door dressed in her pajamas, and her look of delight soon changed to a look of curiosity, then worry.
"Kagome? Honey, what's wrong?', she asked me as I fell into her arms and sobbed.
She took me inside and held me as I cried, unable to stop the tears from falling. When I had calmed down, she took my face in her hands and made me look at her.
"Look, I'm going to run you a bubble bath then you're gonna get into a soft warm pair of pajamas, and we're gonna drink hot cocoa and have a talk... You're gonna tell me what's going on and it'll make you feel better.", she said.
I nodded and followed her into the bathroom as she ran a strawberry scented bath for me. She helped me out of my fancy dress and heels and I sank gratefully into the tub as she walked out and closed the door.
"Sango, don't leave. Sit, talk to me.", I said and she opened the door back and came to sit on the toilet.
"Kagome, is it that guy... the one you've been seeing in secret?", she asked and I nodded and wiped my tears away once more.
"Did he hurt you?", she asked and I looked up. I suppose she thought he had physically hurt me but InuYasha would've never done that.
"No, not like that... no...", I said and sank lower in the tub.
"Then what?", she asked.
"Sango, remember how we always talked about saving ourselves for our one true love, the man we would marry?", I asked her and looked back down into the swirl of bubbles.
"Yes, I remember. You were always the one with the strongest opinion on that... so what has that got to do with this guy?", she asked. "Oh, no... Oh, Kagome. You did it with him. I mean, you had sex with this guy, is that it? Are you pregnant, sweetheart?", she asked fearfully.
"No... no, Sango. Not that, not pregnant.", I said. Maybe there were some things to be happy about after all. Being pregnant with InuYasha's child at this point would've been a disaster.
"But you slept with him...", she asked and I nodded. "Oh, but Kagome... that's not horrible, honey. You really must love him if you slept with him. I know you that well.", she said and sank down to her knees beside the tub, putting an arm around me.
"I do… did...", I corrected myself. "Look, maybe I just need to get some sleep. I'll look at everything different in the morning, I'm sure. You don't mind, do you?", I asked her.
"No, of course not. It'll be like old times, a sleepover.", she smiled and got up to grab a towel and robe for me. She left me alone to get out of the tub and get dried off. I got into the robe and pulled the pearl comb out of my hair, then brushed it.
Sango came to the door of the bathroom and knocked on it as she handed in a pair of her pajamas for me to sleep in.
"Kagome, erm...", she said softly and I looked up. She sounded different to me.
"What is it, Sango?", I asked.
"Your mobile was ringing. I picked it up. I didn't even think it might be your guy but it was... and he's frantic, Kagome.", she said.
"You didn't tell him where I was, did you?", I asked her, grabbing her arm. "Sango, please tell me! Say you didn't.", I begged.
"No, I didn't. But he sounded so worried. I HAD to tell him you were fine. I'm sorry, Kagome", she said.
"It's OK, Sango. As long as he doesn't know you, he won't know where to find me.", I said softly and took my phone from her, noticing two unanswered messages blinking at me.
I took it into her bedroom and punched in the code to hear the messages, wishing I had just deleted them. Both were from InuYasha, both broke my heart...
"Kagome, it's me. Where are you? Why in fuck did you leave like that? Kouga said he saw you go through the entrance, but the bastard gave you enough time to leave before telling me he saw you do it. Honey, I know you're not home, I've been there. I know you wouldn't go back to your dad's. Please, Kagome. I have to see you before I leave tomorrow. Please, call me..", he said.
Then the second one, which he must've made after he'd spoken to Sango.
"Kagome, baby. I don't know what else to do. I can only hope you get this message before I leave. At least I know you're OK and I know that bitch sister of yours had to have said something to you to make you leave me the way you did. Please, baby. I can't stand the thought of leaving you for over three months without knowing what's in your mind about us. Don't DO this to me, please. Let me make it alright again. Kagome, I love you... you know that. I need you. Please, answer me. Please, I'm going back to your apartment to wait for you tonight. Please, call me.", he said softly.
I curled up on the bed and cried... cried because I had no idea what to do. Cried because in a million years I never wanted to think I could make InuYasha hurt the way he sounded as if he was hurting right now. Cried because I did love him. I had let him get under my skin and I didn't know which way to turn now.
A/N: Review! Reviews make me happy
Maggz