When He Was Mine

By: Maggz

Disclaimer: I'm poor and I own nothing (grumbles) stupid computer! (glares at comp). InuYasha © Rumiko Takahasi.

Chapter 44

Now when I think back to Hawaii with InuYasha, it seems just as magical now as it did then. Those three days were probably the best we'd ever had and I smile even now when I think of being there with him.

We spent most of our time at our "love shack", as he continued to call it and I suppose that it was the most correct term for the place, for we loved there more than anything; it seemed we ate, drank, slept, and breathed each other. The pace was slow and unhurried for us time flowed like honey and we both thoroughly enjoyed each other's company. I think it was a healing time for the two of us and I'm so happy that InuYasha and I got to have that, something we could always remember... so sweet...

Soon... too soon it was time for me to head back to Japan and I woke with a dreaded feeling in the pit of my stomach the morning of my departure. I groaned and reached behind me for my pillow, putting it over my head to block the sunlight, wanting to regress back into Friday, not today. The time now seemed to have flown and I didn't want to leave InuYasha, not at all.

"Up, up, up!", he sang and I felt him land hard on the bed as he grabbed my pillow and pulled it from my face. "I KNOW you're not up yet, you can't be. You NEVER are first and you're NEVER this cheerful when you ARE finally drug from the bed kicking and screaming!", I said as my eyes widened. He had gotten up, had his shower, and was dressed in a pair of light grey baggy combat trousers and a snug red t-shirt.

"I didn't want to waste a bit of today so get UP!", he said and grabbed me , hugged me to him, popped a kiss on top of my very messy bed hair and pulled the covers off me, pulling me up and propelling me to the bathroom. "INUYASHA!!!!", I complained as he kept his arm around me whilst turning the water taps on full blast. "In with you!", he laughed and pushed me into the steaming shower. "GET OUT!", I shouted and grabbed the shower curtain, jerking it closed on his smiling face.

I burst into silent tears at once and grabbed the washcloth that hung from the metal bar beside of me, stuffing it quickly into my mouth so he wouldn't hear me. It wouldn't do for him to see me so upset about leaving. I wanted, needed to be his strong support, he needed to see me cheerful and upbeat.

Thankfully, he HAD gone back into the main bit of the cottage so he didn't risk a peek into my shower to catch my overflowing tears. I took a deep breath and stuck my head fully into the warm spray of water, washing away my sleepiness and my upset. Climbing out of the shower, I smiled... InuYasha must've come back into the bathroom because my clothes, his choice of what he wished for me to wear for him that day, was folded neatly into a pile and placed on the shelf over the toilet.

I dressed in a pair of jeans, a brand new pair he had insisted we buy while shopping the previous day, and a short peasant top that was a swirl of tiny pastel flowers. It came to just above my belly button and I smiled and winced a bit when I touched the belly button ring that now adorned me there... also a gift from my sweetheart. InuYasha had insisted I get the piercing since, in his words "you have a brilliant belly button...". So he had stood right by my side as I had nearly cried with the pain of getting it, holding my hand and trying to keep my mind off it. It was gold with a tiny emerald in it that even now caught the light.

"It's beautiful.", I heard InuYasha say from the doorway of the bathroom. I hadn't even heard him come back and open the door as I had been so into my memories of yesterday. "Is it still sore?", he asked me and stepped forward into the small room with me. "A bit, but not bad.", I said and went into his arms for a hug. "It looks deadly!", he said and I smiled. Everything looked deadly this weekend to him!

We ate breakfast, a simple fare of fruit and cereal with milk and grabbed our huge mugs of tea, making our way down to the beach to walk along it. "I want to thank you for coming, Kagome. It's been amazing, just brilliant. I'll never forget this.", he said and pulled an arm around my shoulders, hugging me into him. "Yeah, I know. Thank YOU for asking me here.", I said.

We talked and walked for over an hour then made our way back to the cottage. I had to get ready to leave, to pack what I'd brought as well as what InuYasha had bought for me. I was certainly going back with more luggage than what I'd brought.

He had several phone calls to make so while I packed, he went onto the porch outside and did his business. I made sure I kept him within my sights while packing. I wanted to look at him as much as possible. He'd bought several pairs of panties in beautiful colors for me, he'd even picked them all out! A cute little sundress in bright blue with matching sandals, two shorts outfits - one in pale, creamy yellow, the other in baby blue and of course, the jeans and blouse I now wore. I smiled to myself as I tucked the last of the clothing into a new piece of luggage, taking a moment to look at a snapshot that one of the island children had taken of us the day before as we had shopped. It was a beautiful picture of InuYasha. He'd said the same in regards to me, but we were wrapped in each other's arms with the sparkle of the sun off the ocean behind us as well as a peek at the brilliant sugar white beach. I tucked the picture into the bag and zipped it up. I would buy a special frame for it when I got back home. InuYasha had another picture of us in much the same pose, he'd asked for two so we both could have something to hang onto.

"You ready?", I heard him say from the doorway and I looked up and smiled. "No but am I ever ready to be without you?", I laughed. I had tried my best to be upbeat and happy for him the whole day, and I suppose I had finally talked myself into feeling that way!

He gathered me into his arms and held me close, kissing the top of my ear. "I'm missing you already, but at least I'll be back home in a few weeks time. This made it all good for me.", he murmured and kissed down my cheek. His hands slid around my waist and I felt the warmth of his fingers against my bare skin there. "Is it possible to feel so good?", he laughed and kissed my neck, sucking the skin there. "You feel good?", I asked, breathless. "No, YOU do!", he said and placed a soft kiss on my bare shoulder.

"I've found a reason

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you"

InuYasha's soft baritone floated against my ear and I clenched my eyes shut to keep from crying. He'd never sung to me before... ever... and it was the sweetest thing I'd ever heard come from his lips. I knew the song was a Wild Silver one, I'd heard it but I'd never heard him sing it... and just to me, well, that was almost more than my poor heart could bear.

"Kagome?", he whispered as he rocked me to and fro, then gently danced me around the room and when I didn't answer him right away he stopped and pulled back from me. "Kagome?", he insisted and bent his knees so that he was the same height as me and looked into my eyes... eyes that couldn't hide their sadness any longer. "Oh, Kagome. Don't cry, it's OK.", he said and pulled me to him, holding me close.

"I… I… I'm s..s..sorry, INUYASHA!", I cried and clung to him, holding onto him. "Sorry for what?", he asked as his fingers stroked through my hair. "I...I'm a bbb..bbb...big ole baby!", I bawled now and he chuckled a little and continued to hold me. "No, it's Ok. And you can be MY big ole baby any day, but please don't cry. I want you to remember this as happy. We had a great time, didn't we?", he asked and eased back from me a little more, rubbing my tears away with his fingers.

"Oh, InuYasha. It was wonderful. I had an excellent time... Thank you so much!", I said and he smiled and kissed my forehead. "So c'mon then. This is the hardest part, going to the airport but we'll be ok. You and me. We'll be fine!", he said and hugged me again.

We made it to the airport with about 45 minutes to spare and I stood with InuYasha, not sure if I should open my mouth for fear I'd cry again, and I didn't want his last memory of me to be my tears. "Let's sit, we've time.", he said and pulled on my hand, taking me to a chair. He sat my carry-on next to us and pulled me onto his lap right there in the airport.

"I want you to be happy, Kagome. And you make me happy, so just give me a big smile when you get on that plane and promise to call me soon as you get home, ok?", he said and picked up my hand. He pulled his other hand from his pocket and opened my palm, placing a small box inside it. "What's this?", I asked as my fingers closed over the box. "A surprise.", he smiled and I grinned back. "When did you get this? I never saw you go anywhere without me!", I laughed. "Yes, when you were trying on clothes. I knew what I wanted, it wasn't that hard to run and get it!", he chuckled.

I started to open the box and he quickly grabbed it from my hand. "Wha...?", I asked as I tried to get it back. But he held it aloft and grinned at me. "No. Not until you leave, ok?", he said. "But InuYasha, I want to see it!", I said and tried to grab it once more. "No, that's the only condition. You have to wait, you can open it on the plane but not before, understand? Or I'll take it right now back with me and give it to you when I come home!", he said firmly. I stuck out my chin and frowned at him.

"You're mean, InuYasha!", I pouted and he laughed and held me close to him. "Nah, I just love you, is all. I want this to be special for you. I know you're feeling lost and this will make you feel better. I just know it!", he said.

My plane was called then and with a look at him, I almost started to cry once more. "No. No worries, it's ok. I'll be talking to you as soon as you land, got it?", he said and pulled me up. I stood on tiptoe and placed a soft kiss on his mouth, feeling his tongue slide against my lips. "I love you, InuYasha...", I said. "Me too...", he said and just as I turned he placed the small box back into my hands, closed my fingers around it and kissed the closed fist. "Be safe...", he said and I nodded, no longer able to talk around the lump in my throat.

I picked up my bag and walked backward toward the boarding area. InuYasha kissed his palm and waved at me. I did the same then turned and walked away from him...

On the plane, I took my seat and sat looking out the window. I knew I couldn't very well see him and in all probability he'd left, but I pressed my face to the window and waved at the place where I imagined him to be. As I felt the plane start to roll forward, I sat back in my seat and closed my eyes then realized I still held the box in my hand.

Curious, I slid the silver wrapping off it and lifted the lid and my heart lurched in my chest as tears rolled freely down my cheeks. "Ohhhhhh, InuYasha...", I whispered as I stared in awe at his gift to me. For inside the box, on a bed of soft white cotton was a small, pure platinum ID bracelet much the same as what I'd given to him. The only difference was the addition of two diamonds on either side of the smooth engraveable band. Almost afraid, I picked it up and turned it over in my hands, holding it close and running my fingers over the word there...

He had chosen 'FOREVER'...

Lyrics: The Reason

By: Hoobastank