I Won't Be Like Them
Song Fic using "Silhouettes" by Smile Empty Soul
This is a song fic using Tuck Everlasting. It's Jesse's thoughts as he and his family are on the run. It is shortly after he had to leave Whinnie, so he's angry and depressed.
Jesse Tuck was cursed. Cursed for a long time. Forever in fact. Jesse Tuck couldn't die. He never would. His whole family was this way. They all hated it. But it had started with the spring. The spring that they all drank from. And soon it became easy to see: the spring had magic powers, and now they would never die. They could never be hurt. And leaving the one he loved hadn't helped Jesse at all. It was only three days ago that his parents forced him to leave. People knew too much.
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Silhouettes above the cradle hold me down
they won't let me go the wrong way
my mother taught me all the fables, told me how
in the end all the sinners have to pay
but...
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His mother had always told him to be strong that he would be fine. But Jesse felt restricted. He felt like someone was holding him down and not letting him go. He knew who they were: his parents.
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i don't wanna live like my mother
i don't wanna let fear rule my life
and i don't wanna live like my father
i don't wanna give up before i die
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His parents were so paranoid it seemed. And now anger raged in him. He didn't want to grow up afraid like them now. He didn't want to be always running like them. No when he was older, he'd stand strong.
Then it hit him. He wouldn't be older. He never would. He didn't die. Jesse cursed and ran his fingers through his hair.
No matter what, he wouldn't be like his parents. He wouldn't give up and run each time.
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he worked so hard his bones are breaking
he wore them down but long ago he lost the feeling
his good intentions leave me shaking, show me how
i don't ever want to end up like he did
and...
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Jesse thought of his Dad. Tuck was always working. He never stopped. But he had lost the feeling of being tired long ago. Now the Tucks seemed automatic. Jesse slapped himself to have thought poorly of father, who was such a good parent. His good intentions............Jesse shivered in the cold outside the tent in the woods.
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when i have kids
i won't put any chains on their wrists, i won't
i'll tell them this
there's nothing in this world that you can't be if you want it enough
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Jesse remembered Whinnie. We wanted to see her again. He wanted to see her eyes, her hair. Everything about her was perfect. When they had children, Jesse promised that he wouldn't keep them from doing anything. He wouldn't. He would give his kids the world.
But what could he do?
The spring............would his children drink from it too? And if they did, at what age? Nothing seemed right. What if he just left his children alone and let them live a life? But it would break him to see them die before him.
Jesse didn't know anything. He knew none of the solutions were right for the children. He knew putting himself was anyone was wrong for the other person. So he just went back into the tent to sleep. He should have never loved her.
i don't wanna let fear rule my life