How hard could it be?
Not so innocent bystander: um… I think before… someone told me… well information could be misleading sometimes. Anyway, thanks for the review. Sorry about the mistakes… Oh yeah, she is not empathic. I am, but not her. She is… ah… better save it for you to guess… hehehehehe! ^_^
Warning: (Yoshi! Please don't kill me.) Tsuzuki and Hisoka X scenes still not available at this time. Please be patient. My 14-yr.-old mind is still trying to juggle homework, fanfic, and time. Adding sleep deprivation, my creativity is not that good. ^_^* Please don't expect much. And kill me.
Disclaimer: The girl is definitely not a girl, not even a woman, but a (psychopathic) bitch. He he he he he. ^_^
Girl: (Pinches Aki for stating her that way.) "I am definitely going to reveal your secrets---"
Aki: Ah… I mean, she's a wonderful gifted child… And… girl, I think you are giving away a clue…
Girl: Oh really? How about you? Change that statement. (Holding up a knife near Aki's throat, eyes glistening with morbidity and evil…) Or else.
Aki: Enough! Okay! Just don't--- Yikes! Hisoka! Help!
Disclaimer: The girl is still a bitch.
Girl: AKI!!!
Aki: (Running as fast as she can, hiding behind Tsuzuki… To be continued at the end of this chapter…) Nah nah nah nah nah nah!
Chapter 2: Stranded
Tsuzuli's POV
Okay. I just got away from the hotel. God, he makes me nervous. These past days, my feelings became more complicated. More inexplicable than before. I don't know if I just admire Hisoka but… Heck.
I wasn't at the sweets shop. I was just roaming around. I didn't want to get in Hisoka's way or something, so I left. I wanted to think also. I have a lot of things in mind too… And it all gets confusing. I don't know what to do. I know how I feel, but I can't feel this way. I want to let him know. I want him to understand… But if I let him, he might shove me away, and begin to ignore me, and I'll be ruining our friendship!!! SO… I try to think it all over, and find out what I TRULY feel for him. Am I serious? I don't know…
I look up in the sky and think. Hard. There was something lingering in the atmosphere… Memories of our first day back. I remembered a feeling of gladness that swept over me when I first saw him, and when I knew him more than he is. He became the most important person of my life. My dead life, to be exact; my living days were… horrible. He came into my life and made me love again. Yes. This feeling is final. I have decided. I love Hisoka. I love him with all that I am, I'd give away everything just to be with him forever… I would do anything, just to hold him, hear, see, taste him… Again and again, I do not care.
But all I want, now, is for him to love me back.
That'll be the day.
My chest can't take it anymore. Sometimes, I really want to let it out, but can't, which made it very hard for me. I don't want to lose him because of that. That's why I ran. I ran from that hotel room, trying to hold back my tongue and avoid confessing. I might give him a heart attack to when I suddenly explode. It'll just be worse. I don't want to hurt him.
Besides, I've got work to do. I still have to fix up a dorm room for him. Because if I don't, Kachou might switch me to a new partner. Maybe it'll keep my mind off of him for a while.
And maybe, I'll get a few rounds of sake… To make myself forget about Hisoka… Hisoka… Hisoka… I remember Hisoka can't tolerate alcohol… Makes me smile all the time. He looked so beautiful back then… He looks so young when he sleeps… Sigh.
I wish I could just tell him. Maybe someday. Maybe.
Hisoka's POV
Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. 645 tick-tocks and counting. The clock droned mercilessly. I stared at the clock beside the lamp. 11:30 pm, it said, and still no Tsuzuki. Where is he? What's taking him so long? I couldn't help but worry for that man… Because, if he gets in trouble again, I'll be questioned on why I let him out of my sight. I already had dinner brought up here, ate, took a shower, plugged the equipment, read one of the magazines, wait, scratch that, tried reading one of the magazines Tsuzuki had brought up here, tried listening to one of the CDs and now I'm lying in bed, staring at the stupid clock that kept ticking. I've been counting the tick-tocks and now I've lost count.
Tsuzuki is such a headache. I tried to close my eyes but it's no use. I can't sleep… I sat up and opened the TV. There's nothing good on. I closed it and let myself fall on the pillow and pulled a blanket over my head. I started counting the tick-tocks again. Maybe it'll help me go to sleep. Nope. There's still no use.
The minutes kept ticking by. I stopped counting. When I looked at the clock, I couldn't believe it. This time it read: 11:55 and still no Tsuzuki came! I started where I left off… 1456… 1457… 1458… 1459… 1460… 61… 62… 63… 64… 1465… 1466… Still. No. Tsuzuki. He is nowhere in sight. I looked outside. The weather was good. Now why is he still not here? I'm going to kill him when he comes.
I forgot. He IS dead. Maybe a few tortures… Like no morning doughnuts… or after dinner cakes…
THUD!
I flung the covers in ecstasy and ran to the door. It must be Tsuzuki. It should be Tsuzuki.
Open the door.
Bingo.
I was right. There was Tsuzuki, lying on the carpeted floor, starting to snore. He was, apparently, drunk. Sigh. What can I do? Carry him to the bed? Oh such work… He's gonna get it from me when he wakes up. Tomorrow was to be the day we start our case, and this is what he do? Get drunk? Hell.
I swung his left arm over my head and dragged him inside. I kicked the door close; then, suddenly, we toppled over.
A sudden wave of emotions engulfed me and made me fall on my knees, swallowing me whole, coursing, flowing, painfully. I shivered. Tsuzuki was coughing. I crawled to a corner of the room and ran away from him, feeling as if my body weighed a ton.
"'S-s-s-soka-chan…" Tsuzuki whispered. "Gomen… I was… I had too much to drink I guess… and I… Gomen…"
He was so drunk, confused, and apologetic all at the same time. I know. I could feel it. I could feel him.
"Just stay away from me… Stay there… Even just for awhile." I spat. I can't take it.
I was shivering… Shivering as if I was thrown into a pool of ice.. I could feel his desire… Passion… I think… His emotions were emanating even from afar, I thought my heart will swallow itself and stop beating.
"'Soka-chan… I need to tell you something…"
"…?!"
He regained consciousness and I couldn't feel myself anymore. I watched him walk towards me… But it was all blurry already… Sake… I could smell sake… He helped me onto my feet and stared down at me. His barrier was up again, but was trying to keep its consistency.
His eyes pierced through me. I looked away.
"Just say what you have to say! Spit it out! What? Don't stare at me like that! It's so creepy…"
He held my chin and made me face him… Just when I thought I'll be okay, I fell again. His emotions were flared up again, but this time, I could not move. I had to get away. He was holding me in his arms… I shoved him aside. I heard him say something, but I was too weak to listen, my senses numb.
"STAY AWAY FROM ME! LEAVE ME ALONE!"
I shouted. I was on the floor coiling. Shivering.
I was in the middle of the sea of emotions from Tsuzuki.
"I'm sorry…"
That was all I heard from Tsuzuki. Then, he was gone. He ran out of the room. And then, everything was ok again.
I think I stayed like that for a few hours, trying to understand why all of a sudden, Tsuzuki's emotions burst out of his body and coursed my body as if it was it's own. AARGH. I don't understand. I looked at the door. I stood up, a bit woozy still. I should be getting some sleep. But I'm worried about Tsuzuki. What happened? But what can I do? He's gone. I'm sure he'll be somewhere safe. Or somewhere he could let himself cool down a bit. I need to get to school early…
I'll see him tomorrow anyway. I hope.
Outside, the rain poured.
Tsuzuki's POV
Shit! What a fool I was… I'm walking down the cold street. The rain poured down on me. Well, better wet than hurt Hisoka. I tried to recall everything. But all I could remember was Hisoka on the floor, hurt. All because I couldn't control my fucking emotions. All because I was fucking stupid enough not to be able to fucking control my fucking self. Fucking, fucking, fucking self.
"STAY AWAY FROM ME! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!"
Those words were engraved in my head, echoing through the empty caverns of my mind. And all I managed to say was…
Sorry.
I hate myself. I hate my fucking, fucking, fucking self.
I decided to go back to JuuOhChou… have tea with that blue-eyed shinigami who never thought twice of sharing a piece of his mind even if you don't need to or even if you do not want to know.
[Some where in the blond's lab, a certain blue-eyed man with the glasses and a strikingly sexy body sneezed, making Watari lose his concentration and… BOOM! Havoc.]
He might give me some advice. I'll be going back tomorrow afternoon. Right now, I'm angry at my fucking, fucking, fucking self.
I'm stranded in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of confusion, in the middle of nothing. I'm stranded in the middle of my own mistake. I am alone. Again.
With no Hisoka, just the rain mourning with me, I run to the nearest place I could go. Hisoka always made me feel alive, and right now, I need that feeling, but I cannot have it. Hisoka is in pain. I knock on the door of a small hotel, checked in and lied down immediately on the bed.
When will I learn? I hate myself for doing that. All because of a stupid feeling. I will stay out of his way for now.
Did he hear me say I love you? I hope not. He might not talk to me again. Or see me again. He might even compare me with that psychopathic maniac… hentai… criminal… Muraki.
I'll be with him tomorrow. I promised to keep him safe. And even if he hates me, I'll still love and protect him. I'd do anything. Everything.
A/N: Hello guys! I haven't figured out a name for the girl Help! DO you want Hisoka to hear those words or not? I can do two versions! Just tell me! If you want both, maybe I could fix that up.
BTW: I Hate Britney Spears. Truly. I am ashamed that I have liked her before.
'Stranded'- Plumb; Jennifer Paige
'Numb'- Linkin Park
[Last time, the girl was chasing after Aki…]
Girl: Come back here! (Holding a katana exceptionally well at her side, running after the totally genki neko author Aki…)
Aki: (Raspberry…) Yikes! Asato-kun! Help! (Hiding behind Tsuzuki, sticking out her tongue.)
Girl: I'm going to kill---
Aki: Uh-oh. If you do, no more story, no more career.
Girl: After the story then.
Aki: (Peering from behind Tsuzuki.) Are you sure you can wait? You might change your mind… Besides of the exhilarating view, you'll be having a very nice position with either of these tow beasts--- referring to Tsuzuki and Hisoka--- still not admitting that---mmmph!
Hisoka: What?
Tsuzuki: (Sweat drops. Covering Aki's mouth with his hand.) Ano… Let's get on with the next chapter… See ya guys!
Aki: Mmmph! Mmmm-mmmph-mmph-mmph-mmph-mphmp!
Girl: (Blushing furiously to the roots of her hair. Still not over the uke/seme mentioning.)
P.S. Thanks for the reviews. Please send some more. And please don't kill me.
P.S.2 Hello to kedo-chan, neko-chan, tetsu-kun/ enishii-kun, ella-chan. Dyan-chan, anthoneth-chan, mk, trisha-chan, liao, onee-sama ayeka, onii-chan czyrus, semapi Irene, aya-chan, yuki-chan, Francine, misao/umi-chan, rinoa-chan, mimi-san (SPCQ) freshmen batch 2002-03, sophies batch 2002-03 and 03-04, juniors batch 2002-03 and 03-04, seniors batch 2002-03 and 03-04!!! ^_^
Not so innocent bystander: um… I think before… someone told me… well information could be misleading sometimes. Anyway, thanks for the review. Sorry about the mistakes… Oh yeah, she is not empathic. I am, but not her. She is… ah… better save it for you to guess… hehehehehe! ^_^
Warning: (Yoshi! Please don't kill me.) Tsuzuki and Hisoka X scenes still not available at this time. Please be patient. My 14-yr.-old mind is still trying to juggle homework, fanfic, and time. Adding sleep deprivation, my creativity is not that good. ^_^* Please don't expect much. And kill me.
Disclaimer: The girl is definitely not a girl, not even a woman, but a (psychopathic) bitch. He he he he he. ^_^
Girl: (Pinches Aki for stating her that way.) "I am definitely going to reveal your secrets---"
Aki: Ah… I mean, she's a wonderful gifted child… And… girl, I think you are giving away a clue…
Girl: Oh really? How about you? Change that statement. (Holding up a knife near Aki's throat, eyes glistening with morbidity and evil…) Or else.
Aki: Enough! Okay! Just don't--- Yikes! Hisoka! Help!
Disclaimer: The girl is still a bitch.
Girl: AKI!!!
Aki: (Running as fast as she can, hiding behind Tsuzuki… To be continued at the end of this chapter…) Nah nah nah nah nah nah!
Chapter 2: Stranded
Tsuzuli's POV
Okay. I just got away from the hotel. God, he makes me nervous. These past days, my feelings became more complicated. More inexplicable than before. I don't know if I just admire Hisoka but… Heck.
I wasn't at the sweets shop. I was just roaming around. I didn't want to get in Hisoka's way or something, so I left. I wanted to think also. I have a lot of things in mind too… And it all gets confusing. I don't know what to do. I know how I feel, but I can't feel this way. I want to let him know. I want him to understand… But if I let him, he might shove me away, and begin to ignore me, and I'll be ruining our friendship!!! SO… I try to think it all over, and find out what I TRULY feel for him. Am I serious? I don't know…
I look up in the sky and think. Hard. There was something lingering in the atmosphere… Memories of our first day back. I remembered a feeling of gladness that swept over me when I first saw him, and when I knew him more than he is. He became the most important person of my life. My dead life, to be exact; my living days were… horrible. He came into my life and made me love again. Yes. This feeling is final. I have decided. I love Hisoka. I love him with all that I am, I'd give away everything just to be with him forever… I would do anything, just to hold him, hear, see, taste him… Again and again, I do not care.
But all I want, now, is for him to love me back.
That'll be the day.
My chest can't take it anymore. Sometimes, I really want to let it out, but can't, which made it very hard for me. I don't want to lose him because of that. That's why I ran. I ran from that hotel room, trying to hold back my tongue and avoid confessing. I might give him a heart attack to when I suddenly explode. It'll just be worse. I don't want to hurt him.
Besides, I've got work to do. I still have to fix up a dorm room for him. Because if I don't, Kachou might switch me to a new partner. Maybe it'll keep my mind off of him for a while.
And maybe, I'll get a few rounds of sake… To make myself forget about Hisoka… Hisoka… Hisoka… I remember Hisoka can't tolerate alcohol… Makes me smile all the time. He looked so beautiful back then… He looks so young when he sleeps… Sigh.
I wish I could just tell him. Maybe someday. Maybe.
Hisoka's POV
Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock. 645 tick-tocks and counting. The clock droned mercilessly. I stared at the clock beside the lamp. 11:30 pm, it said, and still no Tsuzuki. Where is he? What's taking him so long? I couldn't help but worry for that man… Because, if he gets in trouble again, I'll be questioned on why I let him out of my sight. I already had dinner brought up here, ate, took a shower, plugged the equipment, read one of the magazines, wait, scratch that, tried reading one of the magazines Tsuzuki had brought up here, tried listening to one of the CDs and now I'm lying in bed, staring at the stupid clock that kept ticking. I've been counting the tick-tocks and now I've lost count.
Tsuzuki is such a headache. I tried to close my eyes but it's no use. I can't sleep… I sat up and opened the TV. There's nothing good on. I closed it and let myself fall on the pillow and pulled a blanket over my head. I started counting the tick-tocks again. Maybe it'll help me go to sleep. Nope. There's still no use.
The minutes kept ticking by. I stopped counting. When I looked at the clock, I couldn't believe it. This time it read: 11:55 and still no Tsuzuki came! I started where I left off… 1456… 1457… 1458… 1459… 1460… 61… 62… 63… 64… 1465… 1466… Still. No. Tsuzuki. He is nowhere in sight. I looked outside. The weather was good. Now why is he still not here? I'm going to kill him when he comes.
I forgot. He IS dead. Maybe a few tortures… Like no morning doughnuts… or after dinner cakes…
THUD!
I flung the covers in ecstasy and ran to the door. It must be Tsuzuki. It should be Tsuzuki.
Open the door.
Bingo.
I was right. There was Tsuzuki, lying on the carpeted floor, starting to snore. He was, apparently, drunk. Sigh. What can I do? Carry him to the bed? Oh such work… He's gonna get it from me when he wakes up. Tomorrow was to be the day we start our case, and this is what he do? Get drunk? Hell.
I swung his left arm over my head and dragged him inside. I kicked the door close; then, suddenly, we toppled over.
A sudden wave of emotions engulfed me and made me fall on my knees, swallowing me whole, coursing, flowing, painfully. I shivered. Tsuzuki was coughing. I crawled to a corner of the room and ran away from him, feeling as if my body weighed a ton.
"'S-s-s-soka-chan…" Tsuzuki whispered. "Gomen… I was… I had too much to drink I guess… and I… Gomen…"
He was so drunk, confused, and apologetic all at the same time. I know. I could feel it. I could feel him.
"Just stay away from me… Stay there… Even just for awhile." I spat. I can't take it.
I was shivering… Shivering as if I was thrown into a pool of ice.. I could feel his desire… Passion… I think… His emotions were emanating even from afar, I thought my heart will swallow itself and stop beating.
"'Soka-chan… I need to tell you something…"
"…?!"
He regained consciousness and I couldn't feel myself anymore. I watched him walk towards me… But it was all blurry already… Sake… I could smell sake… He helped me onto my feet and stared down at me. His barrier was up again, but was trying to keep its consistency.
His eyes pierced through me. I looked away.
"Just say what you have to say! Spit it out! What? Don't stare at me like that! It's so creepy…"
He held my chin and made me face him… Just when I thought I'll be okay, I fell again. His emotions were flared up again, but this time, I could not move. I had to get away. He was holding me in his arms… I shoved him aside. I heard him say something, but I was too weak to listen, my senses numb.
"STAY AWAY FROM ME! LEAVE ME ALONE!"
I shouted. I was on the floor coiling. Shivering.
I was in the middle of the sea of emotions from Tsuzuki.
"I'm sorry…"
That was all I heard from Tsuzuki. Then, he was gone. He ran out of the room. And then, everything was ok again.
I think I stayed like that for a few hours, trying to understand why all of a sudden, Tsuzuki's emotions burst out of his body and coursed my body as if it was it's own. AARGH. I don't understand. I looked at the door. I stood up, a bit woozy still. I should be getting some sleep. But I'm worried about Tsuzuki. What happened? But what can I do? He's gone. I'm sure he'll be somewhere safe. Or somewhere he could let himself cool down a bit. I need to get to school early…
I'll see him tomorrow anyway. I hope.
Outside, the rain poured.
Tsuzuki's POV
Shit! What a fool I was… I'm walking down the cold street. The rain poured down on me. Well, better wet than hurt Hisoka. I tried to recall everything. But all I could remember was Hisoka on the floor, hurt. All because I couldn't control my fucking emotions. All because I was fucking stupid enough not to be able to fucking control my fucking self. Fucking, fucking, fucking self.
"STAY AWAY FROM ME! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!"
Those words were engraved in my head, echoing through the empty caverns of my mind. And all I managed to say was…
Sorry.
I hate myself. I hate my fucking, fucking, fucking self.
I decided to go back to JuuOhChou… have tea with that blue-eyed shinigami who never thought twice of sharing a piece of his mind even if you don't need to or even if you do not want to know.
[Some where in the blond's lab, a certain blue-eyed man with the glasses and a strikingly sexy body sneezed, making Watari lose his concentration and… BOOM! Havoc.]
He might give me some advice. I'll be going back tomorrow afternoon. Right now, I'm angry at my fucking, fucking, fucking self.
I'm stranded in the middle of nowhere, in the middle of confusion, in the middle of nothing. I'm stranded in the middle of my own mistake. I am alone. Again.
With no Hisoka, just the rain mourning with me, I run to the nearest place I could go. Hisoka always made me feel alive, and right now, I need that feeling, but I cannot have it. Hisoka is in pain. I knock on the door of a small hotel, checked in and lied down immediately on the bed.
When will I learn? I hate myself for doing that. All because of a stupid feeling. I will stay out of his way for now.
Did he hear me say I love you? I hope not. He might not talk to me again. Or see me again. He might even compare me with that psychopathic maniac… hentai… criminal… Muraki.
I'll be with him tomorrow. I promised to keep him safe. And even if he hates me, I'll still love and protect him. I'd do anything. Everything.
A/N: Hello guys! I haven't figured out a name for the girl Help! DO you want Hisoka to hear those words or not? I can do two versions! Just tell me! If you want both, maybe I could fix that up.
BTW: I Hate Britney Spears. Truly. I am ashamed that I have liked her before.
'Stranded'- Plumb; Jennifer Paige
'Numb'- Linkin Park
[Last time, the girl was chasing after Aki…]
Girl: Come back here! (Holding a katana exceptionally well at her side, running after the totally genki neko author Aki…)
Aki: (Raspberry…) Yikes! Asato-kun! Help! (Hiding behind Tsuzuki, sticking out her tongue.)
Girl: I'm going to kill---
Aki: Uh-oh. If you do, no more story, no more career.
Girl: After the story then.
Aki: (Peering from behind Tsuzuki.) Are you sure you can wait? You might change your mind… Besides of the exhilarating view, you'll be having a very nice position with either of these tow beasts--- referring to Tsuzuki and Hisoka--- still not admitting that---mmmph!
Hisoka: What?
Tsuzuki: (Sweat drops. Covering Aki's mouth with his hand.) Ano… Let's get on with the next chapter… See ya guys!
Aki: Mmmph! Mmmm-mmmph-mmph-mmph-mmph-mphmp!
Girl: (Blushing furiously to the roots of her hair. Still not over the uke/seme mentioning.)
P.S. Thanks for the reviews. Please send some more. And please don't kill me.
P.S.2 Hello to kedo-chan, neko-chan, tetsu-kun/ enishii-kun, ella-chan. Dyan-chan, anthoneth-chan, mk, trisha-chan, liao, onee-sama ayeka, onii-chan czyrus, semapi Irene, aya-chan, yuki-chan, Francine, misao/umi-chan, rinoa-chan, mimi-san (SPCQ) freshmen batch 2002-03, sophies batch 2002-03 and 03-04, juniors batch 2002-03 and 03-04, seniors batch 2002-03 and 03-04!!! ^_^