Nightmare.
Chapter 2: Breaking Down! Falling Down!
It was five days after dad had died. The day of his funeral. Adam and Jay his best friend sat talking in Jay's living room. Adam and I had been staying there as neither of us could face going home just yet.
"How's she doing Ad?" Jay asked concerned that I was still upstairs.
"She's got worse Jay and I can't help her."
"I'm sorry man. If there's anything I can do?"
"We can't ask any more of you Jay. You've let us stop here. I just wish there was something I could do or say to make her smile. She just sits there crying." He leaned forwards covering his face with his hands.
"I know how you feel she's not the same. But maybe today will be some sort of closer for her and she can move on then?"
"I hope so I really do."
Jay looked out of the window seeing the car that was taking then to the funeral pull up outside. "It's time to go now Ad the cars outside. Do you want me to get Sarah-Lou?"
"I better go she's in a state."
Jay said nothing as his best friend got up drained of his usual Copeland energy and stagger up the stairs to get his sister.
Adam knocked on the door of the room I had been staying in while at Jay's. He came in without waiting for an answer seeing me lying on the bed crying with my face hidden in a pillow. He walked over sitting down at my side rubbing my back with a gentle hand. I looked up at him with red puffy eyes.
"It's time to go." He said standing helping me up with him.
I straightened out my skirt and pulled on my boots before following him downstairs into Jay's open arms. He had been so good to me through all of this. He was my rock.
The church was full of friends and family all there to pat their respects and to say goodbye to our dad.
I sat in the front row between Jay and Adam both holding one of my hands tightly. My eye's remained fixed on my dad's closed casket. I was aware that the vicar was talking but made nothing of the words until he said one line.
"No his daughter Sarah-Lou would like to say a few words."
I got up standing in front of the congregation taking each individual face full of pity before beginning. I took a deep breath.
"As time flies by and the hour on the clock tick past, A moment shared is a moment lost, As the sands of time slip away and life is shortened with every breath, A moment shared is a moment lost, We are nothing but a space in time."
Tears began to roll down my face as I continued to talk.
"I have lived eighteen years of my life not knowing this. And it took one second of seeing my dad lying there to realise that the time we have together is limited and grows scarcer with each day. I loved this man with all of my heart and was proud to call him dad as Adam was. I have shared the best of memories with him and will always be his princess no matter what. However these memories are all I have left now. He is no longer here with us. He left us. But why?"
I dropped the card I was reading from running out of the church. Blurred eyes leading the way.
Adam went to follow me but Jay stopped him and stood up. "I'll go. You need to be here."
Outside I was huddled up in a ball crying my heart out.
"Bubbles please don't cry." Jay asked sitting down besides me and talking me in his arms.
I looked up at him shocked. He hadn't called me Bubbles since I was about ten.
"See I never forgot about that. Just like you'll never forget you dad."
"Jay just leave me alone please." I wiped my tears with the tips of my fingers.
"Sarah-Lou you need to be with friends now and more importantly your brother Ad. His falling apart because of you. He can't stand to see you like this and neither can I." He pulled me closer to his warm body. "Your not the same any more. Not since all this. I know your dads dead but you still have your life to live and he would want you to live it."
I stood up abruptly taking a few steps away from him. "JAT MY DAD DIDN'T DIE HE KILLED HIMSELF. HE TOOK A KNIFE AND CUT HIS WRISTS." I screamed. Backing away I continued to talk. "There was blood everywhere. It had seeped from his body from his wrists. It was.It was all over the floor over the sides." My voice was shaky. "He was staring at me. Right at me Jay. His eyes where wide open looking at me. And I freaked. I didn't know what to do. Maybe everyone would be better with.with out meeeeee!"
I fell back into a black hole. Hitting a hard surface with a thud. My head bounced off the floor like a basketball. The darkness engulfed me. I saw Jay's face leaning over from a distance and heard him call out my name.
"Sarah-Lou"
And my eyes finally closed.
A/N Thanks to everyone who reviewed on the first chapter I'm glad you like it. I'm sorry it took so long to get the next chapter up but my computer has been playing up. Hope you like this chapter as much as the last. Please review again and tell me what you think. I love reading reviews. Hopefully the next chapter will be up in the next few days to a week. Jo (
Chapter 2: Breaking Down! Falling Down!
It was five days after dad had died. The day of his funeral. Adam and Jay his best friend sat talking in Jay's living room. Adam and I had been staying there as neither of us could face going home just yet.
"How's she doing Ad?" Jay asked concerned that I was still upstairs.
"She's got worse Jay and I can't help her."
"I'm sorry man. If there's anything I can do?"
"We can't ask any more of you Jay. You've let us stop here. I just wish there was something I could do or say to make her smile. She just sits there crying." He leaned forwards covering his face with his hands.
"I know how you feel she's not the same. But maybe today will be some sort of closer for her and she can move on then?"
"I hope so I really do."
Jay looked out of the window seeing the car that was taking then to the funeral pull up outside. "It's time to go now Ad the cars outside. Do you want me to get Sarah-Lou?"
"I better go she's in a state."
Jay said nothing as his best friend got up drained of his usual Copeland energy and stagger up the stairs to get his sister.
Adam knocked on the door of the room I had been staying in while at Jay's. He came in without waiting for an answer seeing me lying on the bed crying with my face hidden in a pillow. He walked over sitting down at my side rubbing my back with a gentle hand. I looked up at him with red puffy eyes.
"It's time to go." He said standing helping me up with him.
I straightened out my skirt and pulled on my boots before following him downstairs into Jay's open arms. He had been so good to me through all of this. He was my rock.
The church was full of friends and family all there to pat their respects and to say goodbye to our dad.
I sat in the front row between Jay and Adam both holding one of my hands tightly. My eye's remained fixed on my dad's closed casket. I was aware that the vicar was talking but made nothing of the words until he said one line.
"No his daughter Sarah-Lou would like to say a few words."
I got up standing in front of the congregation taking each individual face full of pity before beginning. I took a deep breath.
"As time flies by and the hour on the clock tick past, A moment shared is a moment lost, As the sands of time slip away and life is shortened with every breath, A moment shared is a moment lost, We are nothing but a space in time."
Tears began to roll down my face as I continued to talk.
"I have lived eighteen years of my life not knowing this. And it took one second of seeing my dad lying there to realise that the time we have together is limited and grows scarcer with each day. I loved this man with all of my heart and was proud to call him dad as Adam was. I have shared the best of memories with him and will always be his princess no matter what. However these memories are all I have left now. He is no longer here with us. He left us. But why?"
I dropped the card I was reading from running out of the church. Blurred eyes leading the way.
Adam went to follow me but Jay stopped him and stood up. "I'll go. You need to be here."
Outside I was huddled up in a ball crying my heart out.
"Bubbles please don't cry." Jay asked sitting down besides me and talking me in his arms.
I looked up at him shocked. He hadn't called me Bubbles since I was about ten.
"See I never forgot about that. Just like you'll never forget you dad."
"Jay just leave me alone please." I wiped my tears with the tips of my fingers.
"Sarah-Lou you need to be with friends now and more importantly your brother Ad. His falling apart because of you. He can't stand to see you like this and neither can I." He pulled me closer to his warm body. "Your not the same any more. Not since all this. I know your dads dead but you still have your life to live and he would want you to live it."
I stood up abruptly taking a few steps away from him. "JAT MY DAD DIDN'T DIE HE KILLED HIMSELF. HE TOOK A KNIFE AND CUT HIS WRISTS." I screamed. Backing away I continued to talk. "There was blood everywhere. It had seeped from his body from his wrists. It was.It was all over the floor over the sides." My voice was shaky. "He was staring at me. Right at me Jay. His eyes where wide open looking at me. And I freaked. I didn't know what to do. Maybe everyone would be better with.with out meeeeee!"
I fell back into a black hole. Hitting a hard surface with a thud. My head bounced off the floor like a basketball. The darkness engulfed me. I saw Jay's face leaning over from a distance and heard him call out my name.
"Sarah-Lou"
And my eyes finally closed.
A/N Thanks to everyone who reviewed on the first chapter I'm glad you like it. I'm sorry it took so long to get the next chapter up but my computer has been playing up. Hope you like this chapter as much as the last. Please review again and tell me what you think. I love reading reviews. Hopefully the next chapter will be up in the next few days to a week. Jo (