Thanks for reading, I got a MASSIVE chapter for you! Probably the biggest
I've ever written! It has 1814 words, and that's with out author alert
stuff! (above and below the zigzag line)
Oh yea, and of course, I do NOT own what if, it belongs to kate winslet.
Chapter 2= What If?
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Spinelli arrived at Kelso's she sat next to Roxy, she had black hair and was largely overweight, was generally picked on and turned to food for comfort.
"Hey Rox" said Spinelli, her bad temper hinted in her voice. She sat down, prepared to eat a large amount of ice-cream –maybe even more than her food- loving best friend.
"Hey spin –whats up, you look major pissed" said Roxy through a mouthful of ice-cream.
"My parents are making me go to a deserted cabin at a lake, ALL summer" said Spinelli before turning to Mr Kelso, who was very healthy for his age and holding onto life very well –surprising many people who described him as 'a death waiting to happen' for years now. "can I have a triple chocolate fudge brownie sundae please?"
"The triple chocolate fudge, bad day?" asked Mr Kelso, who'd grown to know how both girls would order different ice-creams when under different emotions.
"You have no idea" muttered Spinelli handing Mr Kelso her money and putting her head into her hands.
"That sucks" said Roxy, still fully-engrossed in her cookie dough ice- cream.
"Yea" agreed Spinelli accepting her ice-cream and starting to eat.
Spinelli was half way through her ice-cream when Ashley A and Ashley Q, who'd recently entered the building, walked over to them.
"So you're still drowning your sorrows Spin-ugly?" asked Ashley A smirking
"What?" asked Spinelli, it was more of a piss off 'what' than a question. The Ashley's hadn't yet tired of making Spinelli's life a misery.
"You heard her, we all know that your totally upset coz your boyfriend dumped you" said Ashley Q, an identical smirk to Ashley A's on her over made-up face.
"I don't care about him!" snapped Spinelli truthfully. Although she was a little upset over the break up, she was over it, the reasons for the break up still hurt, but if she had to tell the truth, she wasn't happy in the relationship. Her boyfriend, Buster, had constantly treaded badly.
"Yes you are" said Ashley A "well all know he dumped you coz you wouldn't give him any!"
That was in fact the reason he'd dumped her, Spinelli didn't believe in pre- marital sex, and although at the start of the relationship he was fine with her beliefs, after a few months he began to pressure her. They ended up having an argument and he give Spinelli her choice, having sex with him –or he'd break up with her. Spinelli of course chose the break up, she was very strong willed, and after events in her life, she wanted to stick by those beliefs. Buster of course, took the credit for the break-up and thoroughly enjoyed humiliating Spinelli in front of the whole school.
"Piss off, before I make you" whispered Spinelli threateningly.
"Yea, just because Spin is more decent and doesn't fuck every Tom, Dick and Harry she come across, it means she has more class then you lot" snapped Roxy angrily
"Oh, are you jealous Roxy? Even if you wanted to give someone nobody would take you up –I mean can you say cellulite?!" retorted Ashley Q looking down her nose at Spinelli's overweight friend.
"Not to mention the stretch marks." Laughed Ashley A harshly.
"She's so huge she make's Rick Waller look thin!" said Ashley T from where she was sitting.
"I have to agree" said Ashley A "At least some fat people are relatively pretty, but your sure not.
"Girl," Ashley B called over "Your butt ugly"
"If you girls want to stay here you're going to have to stop harassing my customers." said Mr Kelso, looking at the Ashley's in disgrace "Because harassment means a permanent baring in here"
"I'm going to take you up on that offer, we don't want to sit round here getting fat anyway" said Ashley A eyeing Roxy with disgrace "come on Ashley's, lets get outa this dump"
And with that the Ashley's walked out of the building, to be greeted by their good friends –the four Megan's. (A/N remember from the dance lessons eppie?)
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Spinelli arrived home and walked up to her room, not really wanting to talk to either of her parents again. She saw a photo album on her bed turned on the radio, and picked it up.
Here i stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head i keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
She didn't bother to change the station when Kate Winslet's voice filled the room. She just lied on her bed and opened the mysterious photo album.
Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
She shied sadly, she couldn't help but notice how this song truly related to her relationship and feelings for TJ.
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
Spinelli looked at the photo's of her and the gang –many of just her and TJ. She knew her Mum had probably put the book there purposely, she really didn't want to look, but she felt drawn to it, drawn to the happy memories of her childhood.
Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change Do you think how it would have been sometimes
The two lines made her wonder if TJ felt like this –if he ever thought of her or regretted their loss of friendship.
Do you pray that I'd never left your side
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
The tears that she'd tried to chock back were now slowly falling down her cheeks. The words of the song hitting her heart-strings. She could relate to a few songs, but this was the one she related to most, it reminded her of her loss of friendship with TJ and her stupid mistakes. If she wasn't so stubborn then she'd be friend with him now, but as time drew on it got harder and harder to attempt to recapture their friendship.
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine
'cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind
She thought silently, what if her and TJ were still friends, would she have the confidence to confess her feelings? Would he return them? Would she be the depressed and relatively quiet character she was now?
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine.
As these thoughts filled her mind, and tears spilled down her cheeks, she remembered the day it all happened, the stupid reason her and TJ were no longer friends.
=============flashback=============
"I cant believe it's the last day of school" said Spinelli looking around the playground that held so many fond memories.
"Yes, it seems so strange –it'll seem stranger going to a different than you guys" said Gretchen, sad that she'd soon be losing contact with her friends, sure they could stay in contact, but it wouldn't be the same, they'd all have new friends and would soon easily grow apart.
"We'll keep in contact" said Mikey determined to prove Gretchen's statistics of friendship loss wrong, sadly he didn't know who wrong he was.
"No Mikey, its better too leave our friendship while we're happy"
"So –how are you guys changing for middle school?" asked Spinelli with interest, wandering how her friends would change their image, at third street, the reactions that would follow would be almost unbearable. Strangely, it was acceptable to change in the summer, nobody really knew why, other than the fact that it was written in the now written kids 'unwritten' code.
"Changing?" asked TJ sounding confused, he didn't want to change. What was the point? Everyone was fine already, well maybe not Randal, but he was never going to change.
"Yea, I mean we have to change one thing at least –I don't wanna be the freak who hasn't changed any!" said Spinelli referring to how the children acted if you stayed the same through the 'big move' "Anyway –I'm not sure how I'm changing yet. Plus its in the kids unwritten code of honour."
"Well I'm not full stop –come on Spin, your not insecure. Stay yourself" argued TJ, who secretly loved Spinelli and didn't want her to change one bit. What was the point? She was great as it is! Why did all the kids have this desire to change? "And I aint doin it just coz its in that stupid code"
"DON'T call me insecure!" snapped Spinelli angrily, how could TJ act like this? True he didn't say it, but it was obviously very much implied in his little speech. Why couldn't he just be happy that she was seizing a well awaited chance to finally change?
"I Wasn't, I just-" started TJ, realising the way he'd sounded and trying to reason with her, but he knew it wouldn't work.
"What ever TJ, if you cant handle that I'm changing then don't bother being my friend! Go have fun being a loser" shouted Spinelli before storming off. (A/N: Spinelli's one of those early developers, it just happens that TJ upset her at 'that time of the month' lol)
TJ watched after Spinelli, wandering why she always had such a temper, angry that she'd called him a loser.
"Well fine" he said to no one in particular "Then she doesn't have to be my friend, the temper she's developed it driving me insane anyway.
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That was the last time either of them spoke. Mikey had tried to make them make up but each wanted the other to apologise –they soon both got annoyed with Mikey and stopped talking to him. He had tired to stay friends, but as Gretchen had said, they both had new friends and didn't appear to care.
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There you go, it explains allot more onto the end of the friendship. I hope you enjoyed it, chapter 3 coming tomorrow! THIS IS 5 PAGES ON WORD!!!!!
spinelli woods esquire: yea, the legendary 'tj and spinelli' is no more 8( Yea, I mean, we always said Randal was gay, I just had 2 put it! The plan is awesome –but its sure is sneaky! lol!
Becky Lucinda a TJ protecter: I'm guessin your reviewin screwed up –and that u wanted to write more than 'k' but that for reading, and reviewing. Try and let me know what you had 2 say in this review, I like 2 know what ppl think 8)
LockDown: well the daddy of my baby should know a little more. that reminds me, where are those benefits?! lol! (what people reading this must think!) –oh and 'that's nice' is MINE! And the golden rule is the one from bambi! Such a gr8 movie *starts getting upset about the mum dying*
angel9220042004: Yea, it's a big change, but I can see her like this in her teen years, I dunno about others. I hope your enjoying this 8)
Dan: Hi, Thanks for reading, yea, some bits prob will be funny (just wait till a later chappie! A small convo tj and spin have!) keep readin and reviewin 8)
Thanks for reading, and remember my golden rule!
Oh yea, and of course, I do NOT own what if, it belongs to kate winslet.
Chapter 2= What If?
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Spinelli arrived at Kelso's she sat next to Roxy, she had black hair and was largely overweight, was generally picked on and turned to food for comfort.
"Hey Rox" said Spinelli, her bad temper hinted in her voice. She sat down, prepared to eat a large amount of ice-cream –maybe even more than her food- loving best friend.
"Hey spin –whats up, you look major pissed" said Roxy through a mouthful of ice-cream.
"My parents are making me go to a deserted cabin at a lake, ALL summer" said Spinelli before turning to Mr Kelso, who was very healthy for his age and holding onto life very well –surprising many people who described him as 'a death waiting to happen' for years now. "can I have a triple chocolate fudge brownie sundae please?"
"The triple chocolate fudge, bad day?" asked Mr Kelso, who'd grown to know how both girls would order different ice-creams when under different emotions.
"You have no idea" muttered Spinelli handing Mr Kelso her money and putting her head into her hands.
"That sucks" said Roxy, still fully-engrossed in her cookie dough ice- cream.
"Yea" agreed Spinelli accepting her ice-cream and starting to eat.
Spinelli was half way through her ice-cream when Ashley A and Ashley Q, who'd recently entered the building, walked over to them.
"So you're still drowning your sorrows Spin-ugly?" asked Ashley A smirking
"What?" asked Spinelli, it was more of a piss off 'what' than a question. The Ashley's hadn't yet tired of making Spinelli's life a misery.
"You heard her, we all know that your totally upset coz your boyfriend dumped you" said Ashley Q, an identical smirk to Ashley A's on her over made-up face.
"I don't care about him!" snapped Spinelli truthfully. Although she was a little upset over the break up, she was over it, the reasons for the break up still hurt, but if she had to tell the truth, she wasn't happy in the relationship. Her boyfriend, Buster, had constantly treaded badly.
"Yes you are" said Ashley A "well all know he dumped you coz you wouldn't give him any!"
That was in fact the reason he'd dumped her, Spinelli didn't believe in pre- marital sex, and although at the start of the relationship he was fine with her beliefs, after a few months he began to pressure her. They ended up having an argument and he give Spinelli her choice, having sex with him –or he'd break up with her. Spinelli of course chose the break up, she was very strong willed, and after events in her life, she wanted to stick by those beliefs. Buster of course, took the credit for the break-up and thoroughly enjoyed humiliating Spinelli in front of the whole school.
"Piss off, before I make you" whispered Spinelli threateningly.
"Yea, just because Spin is more decent and doesn't fuck every Tom, Dick and Harry she come across, it means she has more class then you lot" snapped Roxy angrily
"Oh, are you jealous Roxy? Even if you wanted to give someone nobody would take you up –I mean can you say cellulite?!" retorted Ashley Q looking down her nose at Spinelli's overweight friend.
"Not to mention the stretch marks." Laughed Ashley A harshly.
"She's so huge she make's Rick Waller look thin!" said Ashley T from where she was sitting.
"I have to agree" said Ashley A "At least some fat people are relatively pretty, but your sure not.
"Girl," Ashley B called over "Your butt ugly"
"If you girls want to stay here you're going to have to stop harassing my customers." said Mr Kelso, looking at the Ashley's in disgrace "Because harassment means a permanent baring in here"
"I'm going to take you up on that offer, we don't want to sit round here getting fat anyway" said Ashley A eyeing Roxy with disgrace "come on Ashley's, lets get outa this dump"
And with that the Ashley's walked out of the building, to be greeted by their good friends –the four Megan's. (A/N remember from the dance lessons eppie?)
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Spinelli arrived home and walked up to her room, not really wanting to talk to either of her parents again. She saw a photo album on her bed turned on the radio, and picked it up.
Here i stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head i keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change
She didn't bother to change the station when Kate Winslet's voice filled the room. She just lied on her bed and opened the mysterious photo album.
Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind
She shied sadly, she couldn't help but notice how this song truly related to her relationship and feelings for TJ.
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
Spinelli looked at the photo's of her and the gang –many of just her and TJ. She knew her Mum had probably put the book there purposely, she really didn't want to look, but she felt drawn to it, drawn to the happy memories of her childhood.
Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change Do you think how it would have been sometimes
The two lines made her wonder if TJ felt like this –if he ever thought of her or regretted their loss of friendship.
Do you pray that I'd never left your side
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
The tears that she'd tried to chock back were now slowly falling down her cheeks. The words of the song hitting her heart-strings. She could relate to a few songs, but this was the one she related to most, it reminded her of her loss of friendship with TJ and her stupid mistakes. If she wasn't so stubborn then she'd be friend with him now, but as time drew on it got harder and harder to attempt to recapture their friendship.
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine
'cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind
She thought silently, what if her and TJ were still friends, would she have the confidence to confess her feelings? Would he return them? Would she be the depressed and relatively quiet character she was now?
What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
What if I had never walked away
'cos I still love you more than I can say
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know
We'll never know
If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine.
As these thoughts filled her mind, and tears spilled down her cheeks, she remembered the day it all happened, the stupid reason her and TJ were no longer friends.
=============flashback=============
"I cant believe it's the last day of school" said Spinelli looking around the playground that held so many fond memories.
"Yes, it seems so strange –it'll seem stranger going to a different than you guys" said Gretchen, sad that she'd soon be losing contact with her friends, sure they could stay in contact, but it wouldn't be the same, they'd all have new friends and would soon easily grow apart.
"We'll keep in contact" said Mikey determined to prove Gretchen's statistics of friendship loss wrong, sadly he didn't know who wrong he was.
"No Mikey, its better too leave our friendship while we're happy"
"So –how are you guys changing for middle school?" asked Spinelli with interest, wandering how her friends would change their image, at third street, the reactions that would follow would be almost unbearable. Strangely, it was acceptable to change in the summer, nobody really knew why, other than the fact that it was written in the now written kids 'unwritten' code.
"Changing?" asked TJ sounding confused, he didn't want to change. What was the point? Everyone was fine already, well maybe not Randal, but he was never going to change.
"Yea, I mean we have to change one thing at least –I don't wanna be the freak who hasn't changed any!" said Spinelli referring to how the children acted if you stayed the same through the 'big move' "Anyway –I'm not sure how I'm changing yet. Plus its in the kids unwritten code of honour."
"Well I'm not full stop –come on Spin, your not insecure. Stay yourself" argued TJ, who secretly loved Spinelli and didn't want her to change one bit. What was the point? She was great as it is! Why did all the kids have this desire to change? "And I aint doin it just coz its in that stupid code"
"DON'T call me insecure!" snapped Spinelli angrily, how could TJ act like this? True he didn't say it, but it was obviously very much implied in his little speech. Why couldn't he just be happy that she was seizing a well awaited chance to finally change?
"I Wasn't, I just-" started TJ, realising the way he'd sounded and trying to reason with her, but he knew it wouldn't work.
"What ever TJ, if you cant handle that I'm changing then don't bother being my friend! Go have fun being a loser" shouted Spinelli before storming off. (A/N: Spinelli's one of those early developers, it just happens that TJ upset her at 'that time of the month' lol)
TJ watched after Spinelli, wandering why she always had such a temper, angry that she'd called him a loser.
"Well fine" he said to no one in particular "Then she doesn't have to be my friend, the temper she's developed it driving me insane anyway.
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That was the last time either of them spoke. Mikey had tried to make them make up but each wanted the other to apologise –they soon both got annoyed with Mikey and stopped talking to him. He had tired to stay friends, but as Gretchen had said, they both had new friends and didn't appear to care.
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There you go, it explains allot more onto the end of the friendship. I hope you enjoyed it, chapter 3 coming tomorrow! THIS IS 5 PAGES ON WORD!!!!!
spinelli woods esquire: yea, the legendary 'tj and spinelli' is no more 8( Yea, I mean, we always said Randal was gay, I just had 2 put it! The plan is awesome –but its sure is sneaky! lol!
Becky Lucinda a TJ protecter: I'm guessin your reviewin screwed up –and that u wanted to write more than 'k' but that for reading, and reviewing. Try and let me know what you had 2 say in this review, I like 2 know what ppl think 8)
LockDown: well the daddy of my baby should know a little more. that reminds me, where are those benefits?! lol! (what people reading this must think!) –oh and 'that's nice' is MINE! And the golden rule is the one from bambi! Such a gr8 movie *starts getting upset about the mum dying*
angel9220042004: Yea, it's a big change, but I can see her like this in her teen years, I dunno about others. I hope your enjoying this 8)
Dan: Hi, Thanks for reading, yea, some bits prob will be funny (just wait till a later chappie! A small convo tj and spin have!) keep readin and reviewin 8)
Thanks for reading, and remember my golden rule!