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-Lia

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She woke up some hours later, hearing the thunder crashing further. For a moment she lay still, knowing that leaving the bed would mean the end, and she wasn´t ready for that. Not just yet. She felt him stirring from the sleep; his breathing changing, a gentle hand moving lazily up and down on her back.

"Morning." He murmured softly against her hair.

"Hey." She replied as softly, tears filling her eyes again.

She knew he had felt her tense, heard the sadness in her voice. Slowly she pulled away from his arms, avoiding looking at him as she slipped from the bed. She knew he watched her as she moved around the bedroom, gathering her clothes from the floor where he had tossed them the previous night.

"What´s wrong?" He sat up on the bed, grimacing as his bare feet touched the cold wooden floor. "Sam?"

She stopped in the middle of the floor, her back turned to him. "I can´t do this anymore." She whispered quietly. "I´m sorry."

"Can´t do what?" He asked and stood up, a small moan of pain escaping his lips.

"Jack, lay back down." She helped him back lay down on the bed. "We´ll talk about this later."

He grabbed her hand. "Don´t go."

She looked away, fighting against the tears that threatened to fall. "I have to." Her whisper was barely audible.

"I don´t understand." He said softly.

"I love you, Jack." She pulled her hand free from his gentle grasp. "I love you so much it hurts. But I just don´t have the strength to live like this."

"Like what?"

"God, you don´t have a clue what..." She closed her eyes, giving up to the tears. His face darkened as he watched her cry, tears obviously because of him. "I am just too tired to worry, to be afraid if I will ever see you alive anymore."

"It´s the risk we take everytime we step through the gate." He said quietly.

"I know that, and I accept that. But hearing you order me leave you behind, that I cannot"

"Sam, please stay."

"I´m sorry, I have to go." She shook her head sadly.

"Then at least come back tonight and we talk about this." He asked softly.

"I am going to see my dad for a while. I don´t know for how long I´ll be gone."

"And when did you decide this?" His words were harsh, and he hated himself for that.

"Last night." She replied quietly.

"Before or after our love making?"

"Jack stop it. I need this time alone." Her voice was shaking. "I just can´t go on like this." She leaned down to stroke his face, her palms cupping his cheeks gently. "I do love you. I always have, and I always will. Never doubt that." She whispered softly before gently brushing his lips with hers.

She walked out from the room, her heart broken because of the man she loved more than the life itself. Because of the man she knew loved her more than anything. Because she could not live with the fear of losing him. And walking out of that bedroom, she was afraid she had just done that.

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General Hammond shared a worried glance with Jacob Carter as they watched the two officers hugging tightly each other.

"You take care of yourself." Janet whispered into her best friend´s ear.

"I will." Sam replied with a soft voice. "I´m gonna miss you."

"Me too."

"Hey, we'll visit, and you'll come back in no time." Daniel said smiling from Janet´s side, brushing his hand across the doctor´s back for the silent support before wrapping his arms around Sam. "We´ll take care of him." He promised.

She hugged him little tighter, and he placed a kiss on the side of her forehead before letting her go. "I just wish he could understand." She said quietly.

"He will." Daniel said, brushing back a lock of blonde hair from her face. "Don´t you worry about him. Teal´c and I are here looking after him, aren´t we Teal´c?"

"Indeed, MajorCarter." The Jaffa said, a soft smile creeping upon his normally stoic face as Sam wrapped her arms around him, leaning against his broad chest.

"Sam." Jacob said softly. "It´s time to go."

She stepped back from Teal´c´s embrace and glanced at her father. "Let´s go."

"Major Carter." General Hammond called.

"Yes, sir?"

"I meant what I said earlier. When you return, you are still a member of SG- 1."

"Thank you, sir." She said, her love and respect for him reflecting from her eyes. Hours before she had stood in his office, asking permission to go with the Tok´ra, trusting him with her heart and telling about her fears. He had been opposed to her decision, not wanting her to run away her problems, but after seeing the desperate look on her face he had contacted Jacob.

Jacob placed his hand on the small of her back, nodding to those who were left behind, as promising he would take care of her for them. He guided her through the gate into the planet that bathed on the sunlight, and she leaned heavily against her father.

He wrapped his arms around her, and a heavy sigh escaped from her lips, but she didn´t give up to the tears. She didn´t cry. She pulled away, smiling tiredly.

"Thanks dad." She said, trying to hide the sadness in her voice, and failing miserably.

And at that moment, Jacob hated Jack O´Neill.

"Come on, we have a long flight ahead." He said taking her bags and nodding toward the ship waiting for them.

She followed him to the ship, glancing over her shoulder to the gate, the sadness reflecting from her face, and Jacob sighed.

"Sam, are you sure about this?"

She nodded, knowing her father would know she was lying. She wasn´t sure. She wasn´t sure about anything anymore. So she just nodded again.

"Sam..." Jacob started softly.

"Dad, no." She interrupted him. "Don´t say it. Can we just leave?"

He nodded and followed her inside, hoping her decision was right.

End of Part II