Chapter 9= Hurt feelings and big trouble
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I made it to my room before breaking down. How could TJ say those things? Is that all he sees me as? A moody idiot who cant enjoy life and is never happy, does he think I'm stupid? Is it true? Does everyone hate me? Doesn't even one guy like me? If this is true, will I ever be loved?
Tears poured down my cheeks as I thought about this. I don't know why he hurt me so much, I guess its because I have such strong feelings for him.
Really, the things I said to him where just as horrible, but at least he wasn't that hurt, well –maybe for a few moments.
Okay, I feel felt guilty about my actions and words. I know the comment about his grades were true, but TJ isn't stupid, he IS a C grade student. I know he doesn't love everyone obsessing over him, and some of the things said on my behalf were lies. I can see that I hurt him, but its nothing compared to how he hurt me, especially with the last comment. I don't care to much at this moment. As for the male slut comment, I knew TJ isn't one of those and he hasn't had long enough relationships to go that deep.
I heard the stair creak, knowing Mum was coming to talk to me, I quickly wiped my eyes.
"Ashley?" she asked knocking on my door "Can I come in?"
"Sure" I said, forcing my voice to reach a normal tone.
She opened the door, crossed the room and sat next to me.
"Ashley, are you okay?" she asked softly.
"Yea Mum, he annoyed me, that's all."
"Are you sure Pookie? I know how you feel about him. It must be hard, someone you love SO much, and have SO much history with, saying that to you, he even implied that he couldn't stand you. Oh, my poor baby, after your boyfriend dumped you, and you've loved TJ unconditionally for all these years."
I wasn't prepared for this, these heart wrenching words. Before I could stop them a few tears had slipped from my eyes.
"Oh, pookie" she started, but I interrupted as realisation set in.
"How did you know that? WAIT, You read my diary didn't you? I KNEW it was in a different place!"
"Yes, Ashley, I'm sorry" Then, if that wasn't bad enough, she went to HUG me!
"GET OFF!" I screamed, pushing her away and hurrying angrily from the room.
"Pookie?" I heard my father say, as I flew through a door, I didn't answer him, but I heard the door hit him.
I sat by the lake, staring at the still water, attempting to calm down. Every now and then I'd throw in a rock and watch the ripples until they disappeared. I don't know how long I'd been sitting here, listing to the crickets and occasional owl, but I heard somebody behind me. Calmly, expecting to see my mother, I turned around, but instead I saw Becky.
"Mind if I sit with you?" she asked.
"Sure" I said, letting her sit next to me.
"Guys can be real jerks huh? Especially TJ back there"
"Tell me about it" I said, happy to have another female, closer to my age than Mum, to talk to "I mean me and my ex broke up coz I wouldn't sleep with him. He humiliated me at school, I've managed to earn the name 'Queen of celibacy' now, that all everybody calls me. People always laugh at me, I thought, at least coming out here I'd avoid all that. True, I did, only to be hurt again."
"God, what a jerk" Muttered Becky "Remember Jimmy?"
"You mean that guy you were like, in love, with?" I asked, remembering her poetry.
"That's him" she said "Things were going great, then on our one year anniversary, he decides to ask me to have a three way with this other girl he likes!"
"What a sick twisted perve!"
"Yea, and my first boyfriend, he had me cleaning his room and making food, saying that what was what a girlfriend was meant to do" (A/N: God I swear I'd kill I guy if he said this 2 me!!!)
"So overall, guys suck." I declared, throwing a stone into the peaceful lake.
"Yes. But really, TJ is far better, sure, he can be a dick, but not always, think you could forgive him?"
"I guess I'm gunna have too, the holidays are gunna drag, but I don't think we could ever be friends again"
"Civilised is a start" said Becky before getting up and walking away from me.
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We left after Spinelli got mad, we couldn't really stay after that.
I'd entered my room and sat on my bed, the thoughts of the previous argument filling my mind. I felt disgusted at what I said. Sure, I was annoyed at her attitude, but shouldn't have made the moody comment. I felt so ashamed by saying that no one loves her, I have feelings for her and I say that. True, she has a temper, she always has, but I shouldn't care about that.
My thoughts were interrupted by Becky knocking on my door, I was wandering how much longer she'd be. She always insisted in sticking her nose in, it drives me mad.
"Hi TJ" she said, coming and sitting next to me. "What was that with Spinelli, did you see the look on her face?!"
"Yes" I muttered, and I did, I feel guilty enough without her rubbing it in.
"Well? What were you thinking? I know you like her, then you say THAT!"
"ALRIGHT!" I yelled, already reaching my tolerance level for her attitude.
"Look, she's sitting by the lake" observed Becky, looking out the window. "Go talk to her"
"No way" I snapped "I am not talking to her"
"Fine, then I'll go" she said, leaving the room.
It don't know how long she was gone, but she came back, not that I wanted her too.
"Well, you're never going to be friends with her again, that's for sure" said Becky, telling me something I really didn't want to know.
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Uh-oh! So, Spin says that she NEVER wants to be friends with him! What will happen? Will they finally become friends ---maybe more? or continue to fight?
Spinelli Woods, Esquire: Yea, they were SO mean, and both regret it! Awww, bless em. Course he loves us!
angel9220042004: thanks for reviewing, they were so mean, and now they've both really hurt each other AND both regret it!
Xo The Romantic oX: lol I tried to make the comment as bad as each others, I feel sorry for them both 2.
Becky Lucinda a TJ protecter: lol, gald u liked it
Shadw: Thanks you! 8) I'm glad you liked it, just keep the mokeys locked up.
beckhams babe: are u sure? With the way their arguing? I have to leave cliffy's, its me!
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::::::::::::::::::::::::Spinelli's POV::::::::::::::::::::::::
I made it to my room before breaking down. How could TJ say those things? Is that all he sees me as? A moody idiot who cant enjoy life and is never happy, does he think I'm stupid? Is it true? Does everyone hate me? Doesn't even one guy like me? If this is true, will I ever be loved?
Tears poured down my cheeks as I thought about this. I don't know why he hurt me so much, I guess its because I have such strong feelings for him.
Really, the things I said to him where just as horrible, but at least he wasn't that hurt, well –maybe for a few moments.
Okay, I feel felt guilty about my actions and words. I know the comment about his grades were true, but TJ isn't stupid, he IS a C grade student. I know he doesn't love everyone obsessing over him, and some of the things said on my behalf were lies. I can see that I hurt him, but its nothing compared to how he hurt me, especially with the last comment. I don't care to much at this moment. As for the male slut comment, I knew TJ isn't one of those and he hasn't had long enough relationships to go that deep.
I heard the stair creak, knowing Mum was coming to talk to me, I quickly wiped my eyes.
"Ashley?" she asked knocking on my door "Can I come in?"
"Sure" I said, forcing my voice to reach a normal tone.
She opened the door, crossed the room and sat next to me.
"Ashley, are you okay?" she asked softly.
"Yea Mum, he annoyed me, that's all."
"Are you sure Pookie? I know how you feel about him. It must be hard, someone you love SO much, and have SO much history with, saying that to you, he even implied that he couldn't stand you. Oh, my poor baby, after your boyfriend dumped you, and you've loved TJ unconditionally for all these years."
I wasn't prepared for this, these heart wrenching words. Before I could stop them a few tears had slipped from my eyes.
"Oh, pookie" she started, but I interrupted as realisation set in.
"How did you know that? WAIT, You read my diary didn't you? I KNEW it was in a different place!"
"Yes, Ashley, I'm sorry" Then, if that wasn't bad enough, she went to HUG me!
"GET OFF!" I screamed, pushing her away and hurrying angrily from the room.
"Pookie?" I heard my father say, as I flew through a door, I didn't answer him, but I heard the door hit him.
I sat by the lake, staring at the still water, attempting to calm down. Every now and then I'd throw in a rock and watch the ripples until they disappeared. I don't know how long I'd been sitting here, listing to the crickets and occasional owl, but I heard somebody behind me. Calmly, expecting to see my mother, I turned around, but instead I saw Becky.
"Mind if I sit with you?" she asked.
"Sure" I said, letting her sit next to me.
"Guys can be real jerks huh? Especially TJ back there"
"Tell me about it" I said, happy to have another female, closer to my age than Mum, to talk to "I mean me and my ex broke up coz I wouldn't sleep with him. He humiliated me at school, I've managed to earn the name 'Queen of celibacy' now, that all everybody calls me. People always laugh at me, I thought, at least coming out here I'd avoid all that. True, I did, only to be hurt again."
"God, what a jerk" Muttered Becky "Remember Jimmy?"
"You mean that guy you were like, in love, with?" I asked, remembering her poetry.
"That's him" she said "Things were going great, then on our one year anniversary, he decides to ask me to have a three way with this other girl he likes!"
"What a sick twisted perve!"
"Yea, and my first boyfriend, he had me cleaning his room and making food, saying that what was what a girlfriend was meant to do" (A/N: God I swear I'd kill I guy if he said this 2 me!!!)
"So overall, guys suck." I declared, throwing a stone into the peaceful lake.
"Yes. But really, TJ is far better, sure, he can be a dick, but not always, think you could forgive him?"
"I guess I'm gunna have too, the holidays are gunna drag, but I don't think we could ever be friends again"
"Civilised is a start" said Becky before getting up and walking away from me.
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We left after Spinelli got mad, we couldn't really stay after that.
I'd entered my room and sat on my bed, the thoughts of the previous argument filling my mind. I felt disgusted at what I said. Sure, I was annoyed at her attitude, but shouldn't have made the moody comment. I felt so ashamed by saying that no one loves her, I have feelings for her and I say that. True, she has a temper, she always has, but I shouldn't care about that.
My thoughts were interrupted by Becky knocking on my door, I was wandering how much longer she'd be. She always insisted in sticking her nose in, it drives me mad.
"Hi TJ" she said, coming and sitting next to me. "What was that with Spinelli, did you see the look on her face?!"
"Yes" I muttered, and I did, I feel guilty enough without her rubbing it in.
"Well? What were you thinking? I know you like her, then you say THAT!"
"ALRIGHT!" I yelled, already reaching my tolerance level for her attitude.
"Look, she's sitting by the lake" observed Becky, looking out the window. "Go talk to her"
"No way" I snapped "I am not talking to her"
"Fine, then I'll go" she said, leaving the room.
It don't know how long she was gone, but she came back, not that I wanted her too.
"Well, you're never going to be friends with her again, that's for sure" said Becky, telling me something I really didn't want to know.
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Uh-oh! So, Spin says that she NEVER wants to be friends with him! What will happen? Will they finally become friends ---maybe more? or continue to fight?
Spinelli Woods, Esquire: Yea, they were SO mean, and both regret it! Awww, bless em. Course he loves us!
angel9220042004: thanks for reviewing, they were so mean, and now they've both really hurt each other AND both regret it!
Xo The Romantic oX: lol I tried to make the comment as bad as each others, I feel sorry for them both 2.
Becky Lucinda a TJ protecter: lol, gald u liked it
Shadw: Thanks you! 8) I'm glad you liked it, just keep the mokeys locked up.
beckhams babe: are u sure? With the way their arguing? I have to leave cliffy's, its me!