Disclaimer: Rina-chan here and im back to say I dont own Inuyasha

and the gang although I wish I did pouts

A/N: okay people my other story "A forgotten Friendship" has all new

chappies I had like 3 new chapters but my computer wants to be a dirty

whore so when I fix it I shall update them all!!! I promise but I

really do hope you like this one....

SUMMARY

AU

With her mothers death what is left for kagome? thats what she

would like to know she keeps having this weird dream over and over

again with a girl dying that looks just like her a girl named Kikyou

she doesnt understand this so she is out in search for answers.

Dream or Reality?: Kagomes dream

"Slit your wrist and count to ten." She would chant to herself over

and over again. When people would ask what was wrong her best friend

would only say

"she just lets her problems get the best of her. Nothing to worry

about"

She would often spend days in her room with the blinds closed, lights

off and door locked eating nothing just sitting there planing her

death: the date, time, how she would do it and of course her note.

No one ever believed she would do it. She had been saying it for

some years now we knew she was unhappy but we didn't know -How-

unhappy she was.

I guess I started to realize something was wrong when all of a sudden

those weird slashes appeared on her arm she would always tell me "I

don't know mom maybe the cat done it." and walk out of the room. Then

she started giving all her things away but when I would ask her about

that she just said "I don't need this old junk anymore" and turn away.

I never truely thought she would do it...she came to me one night

Jan.17th I remember and gave me a hug with a kiss on the cheek "good-

night mom...I love you" abd without another word she went to her room

to go to bed.

I didn't think much of it and went to bed myself the next morning when

I went to wake her up I got no answer I tryed to open her door but it

was locked. I knew something was wrong because she never locked her

door when she went to bed.

I decided to force the door open. I took three steps back and ramed

into the door.nothing. I done that at least four times before the door

gave in.

I was shocked at what I saw my filled with tears as I scanned her

slim body...her jet black hair casting a shadow over her pale face.

At 16 she took her own life the day of her 17th birthday she was in

her bed surounded by a puddle of crimson thick liquid with her hands

folded neatly on her chest holding a piece of folded paper.

I walked over to her gently removed the paper slowly opening it

reading aloud.

"Dear mom,

By the time you get this I will already be gone

I'm really sorry but I had to do it...there was no other

way out. I'm really sorry if I hurt anyone. I just wanted my

pain to stop and no one understood that,the pressure to be perfect,

to be the best big sister and so on was just too much for me...

I love you all...I'm sorry Kagome for leaving you so soon I love you

I'll see uou all on the other side and may God bless you.

Love always,

Kikyou "

I looked down with tears pouring from my eyes only to find out that

she had cut both her wrists and a nasty cut across her slender neck

staining her favorite white shirt 'she looks like a lost angel

so pale and helpless' I thought to myself I stroked my hand on her

cheek and kissed her forehead before calling 911.

-End Dream-

Kagome awoke with a jump gasping for air "it was only a dream" she

pushed her long black hair from her pale face and got up from her bed.

"why do I keep having that awful dream?" the gray eyed girl wondered

"But most importantly...how come in the dream im always my mother?"

How do you like it? oh I really hope it's good...please R&R and tell

me your thoughts....if you dont like it please tell me and I wont

put out anymore chapters

Rina-chan signing out!