TITLE: In the Past, In the Future
AUTHOR: Danielle
E-MAIL: eternally218yahoo.com DISCLAIMER: All Joss Whedon's
SUMMARY: AU Buffy and Angel are forced to marry, but what happens in the future? DISTRIBUTION: Take it. Just tell me first.
FEEDBACK: Please, I would really like to now what you guys thought.
AN: Look what happened before has a big part in the story now; I wouldn't have done it if there was no point to it. It will be more towards the end. I wouldn't have put you through this torture in the beginning if there was no point. I hope you enjoy.
AN: No feedback no part 15. And I have to say this is really were the story begins, so if you want Part 15 got give the feedback. I live on it people. And it would suck if you had to wait at this part. hehe
AN: This part is pretty sad so I am warning you all cause I don't wanna hear fucked up complaints and I am very fuckin' stressed so sorry for the words and make me feel better so send the feedback and blame the track coach and the pulled muscle of mine cause then It would have been a happy ending.
Part 14
Angel had searched high and low for Buffy. But he couldn't find her anywhere. She was probably hiding from his parents. Not that he could blame her. They were really harsh towards her.
He found her sitting down on the bench outside the house. When she saw him she got up admittedly and looked up at him.
"Are we going?" she asked softly.
He nodded and she followed him towards his car. The whole ride back to his apartment was in silence. And not pleasant silence. Tensional, strained, horrible silence. Once they went inside his apartment, Buffy looked around.
"I think maybe I should go. Like stay at my dad's," Buffy said as she looked at the floor.
"I think maybe your right," Angel said as he felt his heart break at every word he said.
Buffy's head snapped up and she felt the tears well up in her eyes already. She couldn't believe he had just said that. She thought that once she said her sentence he would say that it didn't matter what his parents said and that he liked her no matter what they say. Maybe even loved. But obviously he didn't. Obviously he took what his parents thought about her to heart.
She quickly went in his bedroom and stuffed all her clothes into the suitcase and changed quickly into a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. And not once through this whole process had he come in and talked to her.
She walked out and saw Angel looking out his window with a drink in hand. He didn't even turn around to face her. She was about to leave when she had a burst of thought.
"Is that all you have to say?" Buffy asked calmly.
He didn't turn around, he just kept staring into the window, "Yes," he whispered.
"So that's just it, huh?" Buffy's calmness disappeared and her anger took over her. "Your parents don't like me so you decide, 'well if the don't like her I can't.' Do you even want to try and convince your parents that I am worth it? Am I just that much of nothing to you? So let's take Buffy's virginity and bang her all night long, 'cause she is a slut. So I'm not exactly made of Gucci and Versace, I don't have designer clothes or jewelry or furniture. So what?"
Buffy kept looking at Angel expecting, wishing that he would say forget his parents, he wanted her. That she was worth it even if she really did come from the dump. But he didn't. He didn't even turn around.
"Are you going to say goodbye to me?" Buffy asked quietly. He still didn't say anything. "ANGEL, on God's mother fucking green earth, will you just say a damn WORD. Like GOODBYE Buffy!" She yelled at the top of her lungs.
He finally turned around and she could see the pain raiding like radio waves of him but at this point she didn't care. She couldn't. He denied her because of his parents. Because she wasn't glamour's enough! Built enough, beautiful enough... because she wasn't rich enough.
"Buffy... please don't make this harder than it already is," Angel begged quietly.
He looked so pained. His eyes were swirling with sadness, devastation, and maybe she hoped... love. But till he admitted it she wouldn't budge.
"Harder than it already is! You think this is just hard for you! I gave you everything I had left of me. I let you touch me when I wouldn't let my old boyfriend of two years touch me. I let you in. I have you my... my heart. And you think this hard for you! Then you're a moron, a selfish pig... moron," Buffy's eyes gazed with the anger she was feeling. She didn't think she could possibly be so mad at one person.
"Buffy you don't understand. My parents are very demanding they wouldn't understand it we were together. They would do anything to break us up! And we might as well get over the heartache now before we get too attached," Angel said as he came closer to Buffy.
"Attached! Don't you think we're pretty much attached?" Buffy screeched.
Angel looked down slightly. He wasn't going to budge; fine but at least she could make his feel a bit guilty.
"So what, I was just a fling? Someone you could roll in a sack with? Was I nothing to you?" Buffy asked quietly. She felt the tears start to form in her eyes and she didn't even try to hide the fact the she was going to cry. He did do it.
"Buffy... you know that's not true. I loved this weekend with you, I just have obligations..." he said, trying to reach out for her but she flinched out of his touch and turned around.
"You have no idea what I gave up for this," Buffy said, turning around, hands on her waist. He looked confused. "My dream, Angel. My life dream. Did you know the one thing I want to do more than anything in the world is to be a designer. To be respected for my clothing. I never asked for anything else. And guess what I got that chance! And threw it away! You know why?" her eyes blazed angrily at his.
He looked quietly back at her having a very bad feeling about this, "W- Why?" She looked at him with so much hatred at that moment he didn't think he could take it.
"Because I had a choice. Choose between love and a dream. And I chose love. I chose you and you throw it back in my face," Buffy turned away and looked at the door that would decide her fate.
"Buffy, I didn't tell you to choose me. I didn't tell you to not take the job. It's not like we would end up together."
"And what about Elizabeth and Liam, they ended up together," Buffy muttered to herself.
Angel's head shot up at the mention of the people in his dream, "W- what did you say?" Angel asked.
"Nothing," Buffy snapped. "I'm gone," Buffy said as she opened the door.
"No, you said something about Elizabeth and Liam," Angel said. He could tell he caught her off guard.
"What do you know about them?" Buffy asked.
"That I had an overly long dream about them. And that we look exactly like them, "Angel replied slowly. "What do you know?"
"That there my ancestors or something. That I had a dream and that they obviously gave us a sign."
Angel looked at Buffy confused, "A sign?"
Buffy looked at him and he could see the lines of tears on her face, "Why would they both send us a dream about them?"
Angel turned around away from here and said, "Well doesn't matter now does it..."
Buffy felt like she has just been slapped in the face, "Are you dumb? Can you not see something when it is right in front of your face? This is sign. There showing us, being together is good. They want us to be together. We're meant to be together. Our souls want us to be together."
Angel looked at Buffy and asked, "So what, you think were soul mates or something?"
"Does it matter? Would it make a difference? Maybe we are and we'll never going to find out because your to much full of balls to say 'fuck my parents, I want to be with Buffy. Money our not,'"
Buffy looked down and bust into tears. This wasn't going right. They were supposed to be happily ever after not having to go through this shit.
"Your acting like this is only hard for you! It's hard for me too!"
Buffy felt her anger go up a notch, "You're doing it to yourself. You could keep me. But you choose but not have me in your life," Buffy sighed. "You know the moment I saw you, I knew you were too good to me. That you would be the one. The one that I would love. That I do love you! God, I was so wrong."
Angel was speechless. She loves me! He felt a huge wave of happiness go through him. Buffy waited patiently. For what, she didn't know. Maybe for him to say he loved her in return. For him to take her back.
"You love me?" Angel said.
Buffy looked at him like he was an idiot and shook her head, "Didn't I just yell that!" he nodded his head and she could he was in a daze, "Then yes."
She waited again. Minutes passes and she still waited for him to say something. But he didn't. He just paced the room. Like an overly sized cat.
Buffy suddenly felt her insides drench. Why wasn't he saying anything? He should have said he loved her already. He should have been down on his knees begging her to forgive him. But he didn't. He just kept pacing.
"A-Angel," Buffy whispered. His head shot up and he looked directly in her eyes but then quickly looked away as if he regretted it. "Angel, do you... Do you love me?" She asked in a hush.
He suddenly stopped and looked up but wouldn't meet her eyes. And she knew. He didn't have to tell her because it was obvious. He didn't. She felt her stomach drop like there was a volcano erupting and she felt like she was going to throw up. Her head was spinning and she couldn't stand still. She had to get away.
"I'm- I'm going to go." she took her bags and quickly sprinted to the door. Again.
"Buffy-" And said grabbing her hands.
He tried to get a hold of her but she wouldn't let him. She ran out of the apartment and into the rain. She hailed a cab and told it to take her to the train station and when she got to Sunnydale she saw Willow wasn't home. She went into her room opened the closed envelope in the drawer, reread it. She knew what she had to do.
TBC- feedback or no part 15 and I'm straight up serious its bitch to type this shit up even though I love it.
E-MAIL: eternally218yahoo.com DISCLAIMER: All Joss Whedon's
SUMMARY: AU Buffy and Angel are forced to marry, but what happens in the future? DISTRIBUTION: Take it. Just tell me first.
FEEDBACK: Please, I would really like to now what you guys thought.
AN: Look what happened before has a big part in the story now; I wouldn't have done it if there was no point to it. It will be more towards the end. I wouldn't have put you through this torture in the beginning if there was no point. I hope you enjoy.
AN: No feedback no part 15. And I have to say this is really were the story begins, so if you want Part 15 got give the feedback. I live on it people. And it would suck if you had to wait at this part. hehe
AN: This part is pretty sad so I am warning you all cause I don't wanna hear fucked up complaints and I am very fuckin' stressed so sorry for the words and make me feel better so send the feedback and blame the track coach and the pulled muscle of mine cause then It would have been a happy ending.
Part 14
Angel had searched high and low for Buffy. But he couldn't find her anywhere. She was probably hiding from his parents. Not that he could blame her. They were really harsh towards her.
He found her sitting down on the bench outside the house. When she saw him she got up admittedly and looked up at him.
"Are we going?" she asked softly.
He nodded and she followed him towards his car. The whole ride back to his apartment was in silence. And not pleasant silence. Tensional, strained, horrible silence. Once they went inside his apartment, Buffy looked around.
"I think maybe I should go. Like stay at my dad's," Buffy said as she looked at the floor.
"I think maybe your right," Angel said as he felt his heart break at every word he said.
Buffy's head snapped up and she felt the tears well up in her eyes already. She couldn't believe he had just said that. She thought that once she said her sentence he would say that it didn't matter what his parents said and that he liked her no matter what they say. Maybe even loved. But obviously he didn't. Obviously he took what his parents thought about her to heart.
She quickly went in his bedroom and stuffed all her clothes into the suitcase and changed quickly into a pair of jeans and a t-shirt. And not once through this whole process had he come in and talked to her.
She walked out and saw Angel looking out his window with a drink in hand. He didn't even turn around to face her. She was about to leave when she had a burst of thought.
"Is that all you have to say?" Buffy asked calmly.
He didn't turn around, he just kept staring into the window, "Yes," he whispered.
"So that's just it, huh?" Buffy's calmness disappeared and her anger took over her. "Your parents don't like me so you decide, 'well if the don't like her I can't.' Do you even want to try and convince your parents that I am worth it? Am I just that much of nothing to you? So let's take Buffy's virginity and bang her all night long, 'cause she is a slut. So I'm not exactly made of Gucci and Versace, I don't have designer clothes or jewelry or furniture. So what?"
Buffy kept looking at Angel expecting, wishing that he would say forget his parents, he wanted her. That she was worth it even if she really did come from the dump. But he didn't. He didn't even turn around.
"Are you going to say goodbye to me?" Buffy asked quietly. He still didn't say anything. "ANGEL, on God's mother fucking green earth, will you just say a damn WORD. Like GOODBYE Buffy!" She yelled at the top of her lungs.
He finally turned around and she could see the pain raiding like radio waves of him but at this point she didn't care. She couldn't. He denied her because of his parents. Because she wasn't glamour's enough! Built enough, beautiful enough... because she wasn't rich enough.
"Buffy... please don't make this harder than it already is," Angel begged quietly.
He looked so pained. His eyes were swirling with sadness, devastation, and maybe she hoped... love. But till he admitted it she wouldn't budge.
"Harder than it already is! You think this is just hard for you! I gave you everything I had left of me. I let you touch me when I wouldn't let my old boyfriend of two years touch me. I let you in. I have you my... my heart. And you think this hard for you! Then you're a moron, a selfish pig... moron," Buffy's eyes gazed with the anger she was feeling. She didn't think she could possibly be so mad at one person.
"Buffy you don't understand. My parents are very demanding they wouldn't understand it we were together. They would do anything to break us up! And we might as well get over the heartache now before we get too attached," Angel said as he came closer to Buffy.
"Attached! Don't you think we're pretty much attached?" Buffy screeched.
Angel looked down slightly. He wasn't going to budge; fine but at least she could make his feel a bit guilty.
"So what, I was just a fling? Someone you could roll in a sack with? Was I nothing to you?" Buffy asked quietly. She felt the tears start to form in her eyes and she didn't even try to hide the fact the she was going to cry. He did do it.
"Buffy... you know that's not true. I loved this weekend with you, I just have obligations..." he said, trying to reach out for her but she flinched out of his touch and turned around.
"You have no idea what I gave up for this," Buffy said, turning around, hands on her waist. He looked confused. "My dream, Angel. My life dream. Did you know the one thing I want to do more than anything in the world is to be a designer. To be respected for my clothing. I never asked for anything else. And guess what I got that chance! And threw it away! You know why?" her eyes blazed angrily at his.
He looked quietly back at her having a very bad feeling about this, "W- Why?" She looked at him with so much hatred at that moment he didn't think he could take it.
"Because I had a choice. Choose between love and a dream. And I chose love. I chose you and you throw it back in my face," Buffy turned away and looked at the door that would decide her fate.
"Buffy, I didn't tell you to choose me. I didn't tell you to not take the job. It's not like we would end up together."
"And what about Elizabeth and Liam, they ended up together," Buffy muttered to herself.
Angel's head shot up at the mention of the people in his dream, "W- what did you say?" Angel asked.
"Nothing," Buffy snapped. "I'm gone," Buffy said as she opened the door.
"No, you said something about Elizabeth and Liam," Angel said. He could tell he caught her off guard.
"What do you know about them?" Buffy asked.
"That I had an overly long dream about them. And that we look exactly like them, "Angel replied slowly. "What do you know?"
"That there my ancestors or something. That I had a dream and that they obviously gave us a sign."
Angel looked at Buffy confused, "A sign?"
Buffy looked at him and he could see the lines of tears on her face, "Why would they both send us a dream about them?"
Angel turned around away from here and said, "Well doesn't matter now does it..."
Buffy felt like she has just been slapped in the face, "Are you dumb? Can you not see something when it is right in front of your face? This is sign. There showing us, being together is good. They want us to be together. We're meant to be together. Our souls want us to be together."
Angel looked at Buffy and asked, "So what, you think were soul mates or something?"
"Does it matter? Would it make a difference? Maybe we are and we'll never going to find out because your to much full of balls to say 'fuck my parents, I want to be with Buffy. Money our not,'"
Buffy looked down and bust into tears. This wasn't going right. They were supposed to be happily ever after not having to go through this shit.
"Your acting like this is only hard for you! It's hard for me too!"
Buffy felt her anger go up a notch, "You're doing it to yourself. You could keep me. But you choose but not have me in your life," Buffy sighed. "You know the moment I saw you, I knew you were too good to me. That you would be the one. The one that I would love. That I do love you! God, I was so wrong."
Angel was speechless. She loves me! He felt a huge wave of happiness go through him. Buffy waited patiently. For what, she didn't know. Maybe for him to say he loved her in return. For him to take her back.
"You love me?" Angel said.
Buffy looked at him like he was an idiot and shook her head, "Didn't I just yell that!" he nodded his head and she could he was in a daze, "Then yes."
She waited again. Minutes passes and she still waited for him to say something. But he didn't. He just paced the room. Like an overly sized cat.
Buffy suddenly felt her insides drench. Why wasn't he saying anything? He should have said he loved her already. He should have been down on his knees begging her to forgive him. But he didn't. He just kept pacing.
"A-Angel," Buffy whispered. His head shot up and he looked directly in her eyes but then quickly looked away as if he regretted it. "Angel, do you... Do you love me?" She asked in a hush.
He suddenly stopped and looked up but wouldn't meet her eyes. And she knew. He didn't have to tell her because it was obvious. He didn't. She felt her stomach drop like there was a volcano erupting and she felt like she was going to throw up. Her head was spinning and she couldn't stand still. She had to get away.
"I'm- I'm going to go." she took her bags and quickly sprinted to the door. Again.
"Buffy-" And said grabbing her hands.
He tried to get a hold of her but she wouldn't let him. She ran out of the apartment and into the rain. She hailed a cab and told it to take her to the train station and when she got to Sunnydale she saw Willow wasn't home. She went into her room opened the closed envelope in the drawer, reread it. She knew what she had to do.
TBC- feedback or no part 15 and I'm straight up serious its bitch to type this shit up even though I love it.