TITLE: In the Past, In the Future

AUTHOR: Danielle

E-MAIL: eternally218yahoo.com

DISCLAIMER: All Joss Whedon's and the song is Jessica Simpson's Underneath, TIMELINE: AU

SUMMARY: What if Angel and Buffy were forced to get married but what happens when Angel royally screwed up in the future

DISTRIBUTION: Anyone who has my stuff can take it and if you want this just ask I promise not to say no.

AUTHOR'S NOTES: A lot but that would be in the end

FEEDBACK: It the end people

RATING: NC-17 or R I think R AN: This chapter came out a lot fluffier than it was supposed to be. But I still really like it. Anyways it the end and I'm I think I'm going to miss it. I'm sad to see it go ( It didn't end it the way I wanted it to end so I was thinking of writing an epilogue so if you want one just email me that you do and I'll see if I should write one.

AN: Also with the song I'm not exactly sure if it is a happy song or sad so let's pretend it's happy because it sort of fit the story.

AN: Thanks so much for everyone who wrote me feedback through this whole story and from the last chapter thanks to: Nancy, Brittannie, Cristina, Isabelle Bergeron, Bklyangel, Marchelle, Jaci, ..Nicole, Adriana, Willow92, mz.sarJe, Jennifer saffle, Angelzgurl

Part 19

Angel really didn't mind what his parents they thought. Or what they did. As long as they didn't say anything during the wedding he was okay. He remembered the day they told them that they were engaged and they started yelling so loud he was positive the whole state of California had heard them. Buffy ended up in tears at the things his mother had said to her. She had ran out of the room and this was when Angel had almost hit his mother.

"You don't know here!" Angel had yelled that day. "You don't want to just because she doesn't have as much money as us. The real freak is you!"

He had stormed out of the house then and couldn't find Buffy. He had worried. Doyle tried to calm him but nothing worked. Two days later he was still looking for her when Cordelia informed him that she was fine and was in Sunnydale.

"But you can't go there," she had said to him. "She doesn't want to see you."

He had went to his room after that and cried. He stayed there in a catatonic state and hadn't talked to anyone for week. The only thing he had eaten was the food Doyle had left by his door. And that was only when he was forced to eat. The only thing he had thought about for a whole week was Buffy and how she probably hated him now. And the only reason she did was for someone he couldn't even stand now. Doyle and Cordelia knew better than to knock on the door. They didn't even try to get to him because they knew he wouldn't listen. He was so in his own misery that nothing mattered to him. That was they didn't try until that day.

"Go away!" Angel yelled at his door. He was staring into the wall. The white, plain ceiling, with nothing on it. He was staring into nothing, just his life. Nothing. He knew he was going insane. He knew it. It just didn't matter to him anymore. Nothing did. It was just like his state when he had broken up with her the first time just worse. Because this time he knew he really had lost her.

"Angel, its Doyle. You have a visitor," Doyle said.

"Tell 'em to fuck off," Angel said though gritted teeth. Why couldn't they just leave him alone? He was in pain right now. And who the hell would visit him?

"Okay, if that's what you want," Doyle said smirking at the door. This was going to be great.

"Yeah, now fuck off!" Angel shouted at the door.

Doyle turned around at the pale girl behind him, who Doyle could tell had heard every word Angel had said.

"Buffy," Doyle said stressing her name, "Angel wants you to fu-"

But before Doyle could finish Angel had stormed out of his room looking at the blonde in wonder. He was pale and unshaven. His eyes were red with tears. His veins where popping out but when Angel saw her Doyle could tell his whole body would start to function again.

"Well, I'm going to go," Doyle said.

Doyle never heard anything they had talked about. He did hear shouting. A lot of shouting. He heard crying. And then he heard something break. Nothing like a vase or a plate. More like a table. He then heard moans. And many more moans for the rest of the day. Buffy and Angel hadn't come out of his room for a day the most of the day. And when they did come out Angel was wearing an eat smitten grin on his face, and Buffy was blushing into Angel's chest.
Then the big day had come and everyone was smiling. Expect of course the 'two most evil ones'. That was the name Buffy had given Angel's parents though Angel would hopefully never find out about it. Not that Buffy cared. Doyle laughed every time he heard it. He was sitting in Angel's groom room at the hotel. Angel was pacing like crazy. His Dad was sitting on the bed and Spike and Xander where laughing there asses of at him. They always did at him. Whenever they saw him with Buffy they always made fun of him.

"We have never seen someone as pussy whipped as you, man," they would laugh.

"You could sit, you know," Doyle said, hiding his grin.

Angel looked at him for a second, his eyes panicked, "I'll tell you to sit on your wedding day!" Angel snarled at him.

When it was time to go to the place where the ceremony would take place, he finally felt relaxed a little. Doyle rolled his eyes at him. Angel went to stand in front of Doyle who was standing next to Spike. He stood next to the Minister and waited. The music came on and he saw Dawn, Buffy's little sisters come down the aisle with the flowers. He smiled; she hated them both when they told her that she would be the flower girl.

"I'm thirteen years old, why can't I be a bridesmaid!"

She had yelled this at both of them for days at end. Then came Buffy's friend Faith, who he personally thought was nuts. Then Cordelia, Anya, who was nuttier than Faith, Willow and then his eyes swelled with tears at the sight. Buffy was coming down the aisle, with tears at on her cheeks. Giles, Buffy's adopted father, at her side. She looked beautiful. Her dress had no straps and the end came around her feet like she was a princess. There was lace around the edges, and god she looked beautiful. He remembered how she had complained about not being able to find a dress; how she couldn't afford it the one she wanted. He knew that he would be paying for most of the wedding. He didn't mind at all. He wanted to give Buffy that huge wedding she wanted. When she told him about how she couldn't find a dress in her price range but she did find this gorgeous Vera Wang dress. He smiled to himself and waited for her to ask. She never did, but she did find his VISA on her night stand the next day. She told him he didn't have to, but he hushed her and everyday after that he heard the same sentence.

"Really, Angel you're paying too much let me do something."

She remembered how she had done that. And every time she did he would shut her and carry her to his bedroom and really shut her up, but in a different sort of way. She looked up at him and smiled. He had tears tracing down his cheeks, just like her face. He looked great in his tuxedo. Just like she imagined it.
Once they reached the end, Giles opened her vial and kissed her cheek, gave her over to Angel and smiled at him. He took her hands in his and wiped some of the tears of her face. She did the same to him. Buffy didn't hear anything and neither did Angel, she just said what she was told but kept looking in her loves eyes. Once the ceremony was over and which really felt go on forever, Angel bent her down and kissed, and this was different then any other kiss. This was there wedding kiss. And when there lips touched each others and the shouts across the room filled the air, Angel and Buffy really didn't hear. When he pulled away and looked at her he pulled a stray hair and smiled slightly at her. She grinned at him and hugged him closer to her.

"I love you," she said to him.

"I love you too," Angel said.

He took her hand in his and they headed down the aisle. Everyone cheered for them and threw roses in there direction. When they entered the limo Angel pulled her towards him and she sat happily in his lap. Everything was perfect.

Sometimes it's hard when you're so deep inside

To see all you can lose in a blink of an eye

Cordelia watched from her table as Buffy and Angel were dancing on the dance floor. She had to smile. His forehead was rested against hers and she had pools of happy tears in her eyes. She saw how tight Angel held her against his chest and she saw how much he truly loved her.

Dreams could be shattered

You could be gone

It had been six really long months since they had announced there engagement. From the problem with Angel's parents and actually making the wedding happen... It was a really long six months. She remembered the day Angel told her his parents don't want to pay for the wedding, how it would shatter Buffy's dream wedding, how he wanted her to have that dream. He had cried that day and she tried to tell him that everything would be okay.

"Don't worry, Angel. If they don't pay you can always us your money," she had told him.

She remembered how he laughed at that, and she knew he did what she told him, because later that week she saw Buffy using his VISA on everything they bought. And she remembered laughing at how his veins almost popped out when he got the monthly VISA check in the mail. He to change his VISA system.

How would I survive

Cause you're where I belong

Cordelia watched as they talked quietly to each other. She wondered what they were talking about and how it would feel like to be married. She looked at Doyle across the room who was talking to Xander. She shook her head. That really wasn't happing. She heard a shriek and watched as Angel twirled Buffy around the room grinning form ear to ear, and how she hugged him tight, also grinning from ear to ear. And she wondered again how it would feel.

My soul-believer

Without you, I don't know who I would be

She once again looked across the room at Doyle but this time he wasn't talking to Xander. He was looking at her. He smiled and gave her a little wave. She laughed and waved back. He looked at Buffy and Angel and then back at her and he once again smiled.

Underneath, I can feel you move through me

Inside out, you surround me

Buffy smiled as Angel pulled her through the crowd and towards to the limo. People were once again throwing roses at them and she smiled. He pulled her into the car with him and sat on his lap. She laughed at his eagerness and just cuddled into him.

I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath

Oh, you're everything I know

So how could I let you go

He carried her fireman style through the door to the house he bought for them. The house he surprised her with five weeks ago, how he had made all the arrangements done so they could have it before the wedding. And how she loved him for that. He let her choose all the furniture expects the bed, which he thought was his resistibility.

Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine

I disconnect from everything inside

He carried her to there room and gently put her on the bed. He slid up next to her and kissed her gently. He hugged her to him before once again kissing her.

"I love you, Buffy. More than anything in the world." He stated.

She wiped tears from her eyes and pulled him towards her and kissed him. "I love you too."

And I have made choices

And wasted all the days

He came to the end of the bed and slowly took her shoes off. Angel came up the bed and looked at his wife. He gently pulled at the zipper of her dress and pulled it down softly. He saw the lingerie she wore and smiled to himself.

"You look gorgeous," he said to her.

I could have been with you

Where my heart stayed

She blushed at his words and pulled him towards her. She started to unbutton the buttons on his shirt and looked up at him. She loved him. She loved him so much. He shrugged the rest of his shirt off and took off his pants and shoes in the process. He came back and lay near her as he took her lingerie off of her. He had to tell himself to breathe again, because he had the most beautiful person alive in his bed. He had her married to him.

I know you've waited faithfully

Blessing our love even stronger

She never understood why he would stay still after he had rid her of her clothes. He would do it every time, and she didn't mind really but even when they would be having a quickie in the bathroom of a restaurant he would take a second to look at her and she would always blush.

Underneath, I can feel you move through me

Inside out, you surround me

She took his boxers off and he rolled on top of her and looked at her and she looked back. This time was different she knew that. But as she looked at him and noticed that they hadn't had any teasing before they reached this point, she saw his raw and deep love for her as he moved a stray of hair from her face. She let a tear drop and saw him kiss it away.

I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath

Oh, you're everything I know

So how could I let you go

He felt the tears well up in his eyes as she hers came out. He couldn't believe it that she was his. She wiped his tears this time and smiled at him. He laughed a little and felt the how intense everything was around the room. It was different from there first time in the want section in the love section. He loved her so much, he felt himself bursting with it. He couldn't imagine his life without her. He knew he needed her for the rest of his life, for the rest of eternity.

And I've been blessed

For every kiss

He lowered himself in her and felt her gasp of breath. He slowly came out and whispered his love for her in her ear. He lowered him self again and waited a second before he came out and then started again. Feeling her small breathless moans in his ear he felt him self burst with happiness.

For every breath

(How could I let you down)

She pulled him closer to her and she felt his intake of breath in being inside of her. He pulled out and went inside her more forcefully then before. She felt herself come in the exact same moment as him. She looked at his eyes and as she came in small panting moans.

And I've been touched,

By hands I trust

My love is risen

If he didn't know better, which he really didn't, he felt like there was light all around him and Buffy? He felt himself shudder at being so deep inside his love. He looked at her and she smiled at him. He looked up and saw small sparks of light holding them up in mid air. He gasped and looked at his love that laughed and threw her arms around him.

"It's a celebration, you know," she whispered in his ear.

"For what, love?" he said stroking her cheek.

"For us, for being together. For being together, forever," she said with tears once again in her eyes.

He looked down at her, "Forever isn't nearly long enough," he whispered in her ear.

"In the end, will be together, till the end of eternity," she said. He pulled her closer to him.

"I've been told," he said into ear.

"I love you," she whispered.

"I can't even think of words to say how much I love you," Angel said.

"Just say it. That's all I need."

"I love you. More than you'll ever know. Cause God knows how much I love you."

The tears in her eyes tonight were nothing new and as they were lowered to there bed he pulled her towards him and whispered his utmost love for her.

Underneath, I can feel you move through me

Inside out, you surround me

I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath

Oh, you're everything I know

So how could I let you

How could I let you go

THE END (I think) - Send the feedback for an Epilogue cause I'm not sure if I should write one.