TITLE: Iris
AUTHOR: Ben is Glory
RATING: PG
DISCLAIMER: It's the J to the O to the S to the S. And the Goo Goo Dolls for lots of wonderfulness.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: I'm finally FINALLY getting back into this story. I do believe the hard part is over, and this chapter was the hardest of all to write, but after this it's smooth sailing. Pretty much, anyway. I think you can expect three (?) more chapters. Hope you enjoy! Lyrics in italics and thoughts in quotes.
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"Will, you need to eat something."
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Buffy pleaded with her friend, but the redhead refused to eat, drink, or do anything besides lay on her bed and stare at the ceiling.
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
Every emotion she had ever felt seemed to pale in comparison to what she was feeling right now.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
Anger.
And I don't want to go home right now
Resentment.
And all I can taste is this moment
Fear.
And all I can breathe is your life
Fear of being alone again.
'Cause sooner or later it's over
"There must be a spell," Willow thought.
I just don't want to miss you tonight
"Something, anything that will let me talk to her. To know she's all right. There's got to be something."
And I don't want the world to see me
She looked over to her friend. Buffy's face wore an expression of pure concern.
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
Flashing the blonde a weak smile she said, "It's okay. Everything is going to be fine."
When everything's made to be broken
But she didn't know.
I just want you to know who I am
She didn't know much, lately.
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
The past day had made her doubt everything she ever felt and everything she would ever feel.
Or the moment of truth in your lies
"This can't be wrong!" she screamed silently.
When everything feels like the movies
"Not when it feels so right."
And you bleed just to know you're alive
They were both quiet for a while, lost in reflection.
And I don't want the world to see me
Willow turned over onto her stomach and stared out her window.
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
The skies were gray and clouds threatened to pour down rain at any minute.
When everything's made to be broken
It fit the mood perfectly, and she nearly laughed at the irony.
I just want you to know who I am
But now is not the time for laughter.
And I don't want the world to see me
Not when everything is as broken as it already is.
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
Piece the life back together, get back together, and then there will be plenty of time for smiles, giggles, laughs.
When everything's made to be broken
Plenty of time to live and love.
I just want you to know who I am
Willow turned her head away as a single tear fell down her cheek.
And I don't want the world to see me
"Hold on, Tara," she whispered silently to herself.
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
"I'm coming for you.
When everything's made to be broken
I'll be there soon, baby. Just wait for me."
I just want you to know who I am
Rolling back over on her side to face Buffy, she repeated, "Everything is going to be fine."
I just want you to know who I am
The slayer's voice was very soft.
I just want you to know who I am
"I hope you're right."
I just want you to know who I am
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A/n: And the story unfolds… lol. Hope you liked it. Also? Review!