Part 4
I look at him and blink. Run away with him?
"Why?" I said in a shaky voice.
From all the people in the world he chooses to run away with someone and picks me?
"Why?" I repeat.
This time I want an answer and not that half sexy smirk that gets me wet in five seconds.
"`Cause, I love you. Because I want my life to be with you." He says laying his forehead on mine.
This time I not only blink, I have to pinch myself to make sure I am not dreaming. Trust me when I say that this is the last thing I ever expected to happen to me.
"Why?" I say again.
I think he is very pleased with my one word vocabulary. I'm pleased that I can actually say one word.
"Because you're beautiful, kind, loving and I couldn't even think of my life without you. And I just can't stop loving you," he says kissing my knuckles with a swift gentle kiss.
"Angel, ar- aren't you u- u- upset wit- th me- me?" I question with trembles in my words.
He looks at me with a funny look like he is kind of surprised. He holds me closer to him like he did last night. Though he is holding me closer I can't stop help but think why.
"Never upset with you. Scared to death when you wouldn't answer the phone. I was never so scared. Cordelia came in-," but he stopped. I don't know why. Probably he saw the look on my face when he said that so called 'blonde's' name. "Baby, I don't love Cordelia."
I snort, not because I doubt he loves Cordelia, it's because he said her name. Is see he gets annoyed, I see it in his eyes.
"I love you," he yells, shaking me slightly.
I laugh. A good healthy, beautiful laugh. He looks at me.
I whisper at him, "I love you too, my Angel."
He smiles, a loving, warm, something you just didn't see everyday, smile.
"You scared me to death. I was transfixed. When Cordelia found me she looked at me with question in her eyes and I knew what would happen. I just ran out of the hotel and came. It was thirty minutes before I got here, and I think I broke the speeding law. But I had to get to you, and I knocked down the door trying to get to you. And I saw you lying there and I was scared. I didn't know what to do. When it was happening to Kate I was `alright I can do this.' But with you I kept thinking, 'Oh God, she can't die. It's Buffy, the love of my life,'"
I shivered. Oh God. He really loves me. Really wants to be with me. Care for me. He froze when he saw me, scared of what would happen. Wait, who the hell is Kate?
I'm about to ask who this girl is and I bet you my money (not that I have any) that she is a blonde, but Angel continues his rant of how scared he is and I know its all my fault that he actually was scared, I mean Angel is never scared of anything. He is big tough vampire, but even as he keeps talking I just can't help but be. happy.
I mean I know it's selfish and horrible and a little disgusting because, hey you just tried to kill yourself. (And know that I have admitted it, it sounds so weird or a word I can't think of) But when he talks I feel like I know he was scared. Like he truly felt fear when he saw me laying there with absolutely no life our conscious in me.
"Buffy, I love you so much. Don't leave me. Ever. I can't imagine a life without you. Don't want to live in a life without you in it."
I see real tears in his eyes. Those deep, loving eyes have tears. And he loves me! He takes my hand and brings it to his cheek, and I flicker. I don't know if I flicker of sadness, happiness, angriness, anguish, or surprise. For the first time I notice his cheeks are a bit red, flushed. Then I notice his tan in the dim light of daybreak. I stare at him and let go of his hand. I get up and wipe my dress of dirt. But I notice his eyes. His pain and *I* looked at him pained. He lied to me, and has the guts to save me, to bring me back to life when he was. alive the whole time. Breathing, eating, god fucking human. I think how long he has not been telling me the truth. He gets up slowly.
"Buffy," he says.
But I step back. He was alive, and he lied to me. He lied.
TBC
I look at him and blink. Run away with him?
"Why?" I said in a shaky voice.
From all the people in the world he chooses to run away with someone and picks me?
"Why?" I repeat.
This time I want an answer and not that half sexy smirk that gets me wet in five seconds.
"`Cause, I love you. Because I want my life to be with you." He says laying his forehead on mine.
This time I not only blink, I have to pinch myself to make sure I am not dreaming. Trust me when I say that this is the last thing I ever expected to happen to me.
"Why?" I say again.
I think he is very pleased with my one word vocabulary. I'm pleased that I can actually say one word.
"Because you're beautiful, kind, loving and I couldn't even think of my life without you. And I just can't stop loving you," he says kissing my knuckles with a swift gentle kiss.
"Angel, ar- aren't you u- u- upset wit- th me- me?" I question with trembles in my words.
He looks at me with a funny look like he is kind of surprised. He holds me closer to him like he did last night. Though he is holding me closer I can't stop help but think why.
"Never upset with you. Scared to death when you wouldn't answer the phone. I was never so scared. Cordelia came in-," but he stopped. I don't know why. Probably he saw the look on my face when he said that so called 'blonde's' name. "Baby, I don't love Cordelia."
I snort, not because I doubt he loves Cordelia, it's because he said her name. Is see he gets annoyed, I see it in his eyes.
"I love you," he yells, shaking me slightly.
I laugh. A good healthy, beautiful laugh. He looks at me.
I whisper at him, "I love you too, my Angel."
He smiles, a loving, warm, something you just didn't see everyday, smile.
"You scared me to death. I was transfixed. When Cordelia found me she looked at me with question in her eyes and I knew what would happen. I just ran out of the hotel and came. It was thirty minutes before I got here, and I think I broke the speeding law. But I had to get to you, and I knocked down the door trying to get to you. And I saw you lying there and I was scared. I didn't know what to do. When it was happening to Kate I was `alright I can do this.' But with you I kept thinking, 'Oh God, she can't die. It's Buffy, the love of my life,'"
I shivered. Oh God. He really loves me. Really wants to be with me. Care for me. He froze when he saw me, scared of what would happen. Wait, who the hell is Kate?
I'm about to ask who this girl is and I bet you my money (not that I have any) that she is a blonde, but Angel continues his rant of how scared he is and I know its all my fault that he actually was scared, I mean Angel is never scared of anything. He is big tough vampire, but even as he keeps talking I just can't help but be. happy.
I mean I know it's selfish and horrible and a little disgusting because, hey you just tried to kill yourself. (And know that I have admitted it, it sounds so weird or a word I can't think of) But when he talks I feel like I know he was scared. Like he truly felt fear when he saw me laying there with absolutely no life our conscious in me.
"Buffy, I love you so much. Don't leave me. Ever. I can't imagine a life without you. Don't want to live in a life without you in it."
I see real tears in his eyes. Those deep, loving eyes have tears. And he loves me! He takes my hand and brings it to his cheek, and I flicker. I don't know if I flicker of sadness, happiness, angriness, anguish, or surprise. For the first time I notice his cheeks are a bit red, flushed. Then I notice his tan in the dim light of daybreak. I stare at him and let go of his hand. I get up and wipe my dress of dirt. But I notice his eyes. His pain and *I* looked at him pained. He lied to me, and has the guts to save me, to bring me back to life when he was. alive the whole time. Breathing, eating, god fucking human. I think how long he has not been telling me the truth. He gets up slowly.
"Buffy," he says.
But I step back. He was alive, and he lied to me. He lied.
TBC