(*) flashback(*)
I looked at him with her eyes sparkling, I had never felt before, well usually only when I was with Joey Wheeler. Basically, that's what I had on her mind, I didn't know exactly what I wanted but I knew I wasn't going to run back, not now. Jake could look into my sad sparkling eyes, looking at the beauty bombshell I was before I had changed herself for the better. He put his arm around me pressing her against his hard chest with a smile that gazed upon me. "Mai, don't tell me it's that Joey guy that's got you down.... Isn't it?" I had to him so much about Joey, it seemed like I never got over the fact that he was gone. Jake could only shake me intensively with such anger, grabbing my wrists painfully to snap me into reality. " Mai, listen to me! He isn't worth your time thinking about alright?! You're here now with me that's all that matters! For what I know he's probably just some jerk that isn't nothing and wouldn't be worth your time. Get over him!" Jake just threw me as I flew backwards to the ground, if he saw a sad look in his eyes he assumed it was all about Joey, but it wasn't. He had a huge drinking problem, and the one night I don't want to even remember.
Jake, never treated me with respect at all, and his drinking problem was getting out of control more than I realized. He had come home when I was sleeping, calm and relaxed until I heard the door slam and young man yelling screaming at the top of his lungs running up the stairs towards where I was sleeping. I knew Jake had drinking problems before, but never like this, this is where he had crossed the line. I sat there praying and quickly tried to lock the door, but he was already in front trying to open it. I quietly hid around the house scared that I was going to get beaten, and drinking made him rage and slash out like crazy. I didn't know what I was thinking to be going out with him.
"Mai, I know yur here. Don't try to hide feisty one.. I know what you did.." He was drunk out of his mind, and he kept hitting the walls saying he'd kill me for liking Joey, when I actually loved him. Joey was someone I couldn't let go of, but I wasn't exactly in love with him. I shook as I gasped as he walked into my bedroom with a broken beer bottle in his hand... He could hear my heavy breathing and laughed as he flung open the closet door. "There you are my pretty.. you gotta be' taut a lesson you'll never forget for loving this guy!!" I cried as he through me to the ground roughly his beer breath blowing in my face, feeling my wrists about to break under pressure. "I don't love this guy. I told you I only love you but not when your like this. Please don't Jake!!" I screamed he was completely intoxicated banging me, thrusting me against the walls with hard blows to the face. I ran for my life jumping from the top floor limping and running knowing I was almost raped, and almost killed...
I continued to run I didn't care where I would go, I would run away and leave this place. I decided to run and cry remembering what Joey said about loosening up and I did. "I'm coming back to you Joey. I wasn't met to be cut out here from New York. Maybe I should have listened to you, but I didn't!!" I changed my looks completely so my boyfriend couldn't track me down, or know who I was anymore. I cried watching me cut away my beautiful blonde hair, transforming me into the pretty punk I had become. I had to, I knew I had to run away from New York, and never come back." (* End of flashback *)
She opened my eyes scared and shaking grabbed the pillow a nervous wreck. Her dream became a realistic nightmare that she began to live again. She cleared her eyes and caught her breath to know she was awake, and knowing that nightmare brought back painful memories of him. She turned to the clock hoping she would be able to get up and go straight to the bar, to see "him" again. She enjoyed his company, and she knew she hadn't known that guy "long" but she felt like she had known him forever and he actually was immune to her feelings. She knew he wasn't the only one with this exact problem. She heard about that girl he longed for, that never seemed to care that ran away and swore that she'd never come back ever. But she was back, and found Joey but to them they were only strangers to each other, when the fact was they were right in front of each other's faces.
Joey wasn't the only thinking about the person he once loved either. He was still awake, and after he explained his problems with the pretty punk he decided to find that note that Mai had given him that he always had on the top of his night table and read late at night. "After talking to her, it makes me want to read that note again that Mai gave to me, when we had that argument. Who was I to know she was going to run off and leave me behind and including everyone else? I always told her even if she wasn't wanted by anyone else she would be wanted by someone, and she would be always wanted by me. I forgot how arrogant, and serious she took things. It was stupid of me to have tried to tell her I loved her then just before she left, but of course she was too hurt and only focused on the angered words I gave her. I thought she was going to leave and vent for abit, not everyone and leave me breathless and hurt. If I knew where she was now I'd find her, no matter what. I wanted to spend my time with her, but even if she does come back she would have moved on already, and I'd be living in the past. She would probably say it was foolish to love her..." Joey put his hand on his forehead pulling his hair back in anger and frustration. He watched the rain against the windows and looked at the frail note with the beautiful handwriting on it, remembering how many times he read it.
-Joey,
Your words meant something to me. Maybe I should loosen up just like you said. I always knew when I wasn't wanted, and you can't blame anyone else for hating me Joey. I know maybe you did care about me, but after the words you said made me realize a lot of things maybe I should be back on my own.. I knew I wasn't ready for all of this. Joey I've already booked a flight and I'm leaving and don't try to save me like you usually do. I know your always there for me Joey, because you're a good friend but this time you don't need to be a hero you've already done enough for me Joseph. I took you for granted so many times, and don't even think I didn't Joseph, because I did. I'm not going to torture you or your friends being around an arrogant women like me. I decided that I'm leaving and I'm never coming back, to hurt you ever again. You mean so much to me Joseph and you were a good friend I never gave credit to, and I feel guilty putting you through so many things and you on your own will to be there for me. So enclosing Joey, you were a great friend to me and don't think I left because what you've said. Your better off without me, am I'm better off without you.
Love, Mai Valentine.
I looked at him with her eyes sparkling, I had never felt before, well usually only when I was with Joey Wheeler. Basically, that's what I had on her mind, I didn't know exactly what I wanted but I knew I wasn't going to run back, not now. Jake could look into my sad sparkling eyes, looking at the beauty bombshell I was before I had changed herself for the better. He put his arm around me pressing her against his hard chest with a smile that gazed upon me. "Mai, don't tell me it's that Joey guy that's got you down.... Isn't it?" I had to him so much about Joey, it seemed like I never got over the fact that he was gone. Jake could only shake me intensively with such anger, grabbing my wrists painfully to snap me into reality. " Mai, listen to me! He isn't worth your time thinking about alright?! You're here now with me that's all that matters! For what I know he's probably just some jerk that isn't nothing and wouldn't be worth your time. Get over him!" Jake just threw me as I flew backwards to the ground, if he saw a sad look in his eyes he assumed it was all about Joey, but it wasn't. He had a huge drinking problem, and the one night I don't want to even remember.
Jake, never treated me with respect at all, and his drinking problem was getting out of control more than I realized. He had come home when I was sleeping, calm and relaxed until I heard the door slam and young man yelling screaming at the top of his lungs running up the stairs towards where I was sleeping. I knew Jake had drinking problems before, but never like this, this is where he had crossed the line. I sat there praying and quickly tried to lock the door, but he was already in front trying to open it. I quietly hid around the house scared that I was going to get beaten, and drinking made him rage and slash out like crazy. I didn't know what I was thinking to be going out with him.
"Mai, I know yur here. Don't try to hide feisty one.. I know what you did.." He was drunk out of his mind, and he kept hitting the walls saying he'd kill me for liking Joey, when I actually loved him. Joey was someone I couldn't let go of, but I wasn't exactly in love with him. I shook as I gasped as he walked into my bedroom with a broken beer bottle in his hand... He could hear my heavy breathing and laughed as he flung open the closet door. "There you are my pretty.. you gotta be' taut a lesson you'll never forget for loving this guy!!" I cried as he through me to the ground roughly his beer breath blowing in my face, feeling my wrists about to break under pressure. "I don't love this guy. I told you I only love you but not when your like this. Please don't Jake!!" I screamed he was completely intoxicated banging me, thrusting me against the walls with hard blows to the face. I ran for my life jumping from the top floor limping and running knowing I was almost raped, and almost killed...
I continued to run I didn't care where I would go, I would run away and leave this place. I decided to run and cry remembering what Joey said about loosening up and I did. "I'm coming back to you Joey. I wasn't met to be cut out here from New York. Maybe I should have listened to you, but I didn't!!" I changed my looks completely so my boyfriend couldn't track me down, or know who I was anymore. I cried watching me cut away my beautiful blonde hair, transforming me into the pretty punk I had become. I had to, I knew I had to run away from New York, and never come back." (* End of flashback *)
She opened my eyes scared and shaking grabbed the pillow a nervous wreck. Her dream became a realistic nightmare that she began to live again. She cleared her eyes and caught her breath to know she was awake, and knowing that nightmare brought back painful memories of him. She turned to the clock hoping she would be able to get up and go straight to the bar, to see "him" again. She enjoyed his company, and she knew she hadn't known that guy "long" but she felt like she had known him forever and he actually was immune to her feelings. She knew he wasn't the only one with this exact problem. She heard about that girl he longed for, that never seemed to care that ran away and swore that she'd never come back ever. But she was back, and found Joey but to them they were only strangers to each other, when the fact was they were right in front of each other's faces.
Joey wasn't the only thinking about the person he once loved either. He was still awake, and after he explained his problems with the pretty punk he decided to find that note that Mai had given him that he always had on the top of his night table and read late at night. "After talking to her, it makes me want to read that note again that Mai gave to me, when we had that argument. Who was I to know she was going to run off and leave me behind and including everyone else? I always told her even if she wasn't wanted by anyone else she would be wanted by someone, and she would be always wanted by me. I forgot how arrogant, and serious she took things. It was stupid of me to have tried to tell her I loved her then just before she left, but of course she was too hurt and only focused on the angered words I gave her. I thought she was going to leave and vent for abit, not everyone and leave me breathless and hurt. If I knew where she was now I'd find her, no matter what. I wanted to spend my time with her, but even if she does come back she would have moved on already, and I'd be living in the past. She would probably say it was foolish to love her..." Joey put his hand on his forehead pulling his hair back in anger and frustration. He watched the rain against the windows and looked at the frail note with the beautiful handwriting on it, remembering how many times he read it.
-Joey,
Your words meant something to me. Maybe I should loosen up just like you said. I always knew when I wasn't wanted, and you can't blame anyone else for hating me Joey. I know maybe you did care about me, but after the words you said made me realize a lot of things maybe I should be back on my own.. I knew I wasn't ready for all of this. Joey I've already booked a flight and I'm leaving and don't try to save me like you usually do. I know your always there for me Joey, because you're a good friend but this time you don't need to be a hero you've already done enough for me Joseph. I took you for granted so many times, and don't even think I didn't Joseph, because I did. I'm not going to torture you or your friends being around an arrogant women like me. I decided that I'm leaving and I'm never coming back, to hurt you ever again. You mean so much to me Joseph and you were a good friend I never gave credit to, and I feel guilty putting you through so many things and you on your own will to be there for me. So enclosing Joey, you were a great friend to me and don't think I left because what you've said. Your better off without me, am I'm better off without you.
Love, Mai Valentine.