AN: Well everyone, we have finally reached the end of our journey. This chapter does contain a sex scene, so if that offends you, don't read on. I want to thank everyone for the reviews. They mean so much to me.
If time went any slower, it would be going backwards. Harm and Mac prayed for the time to pass, but there was no such luck. Since it was Monday, they thought they had a lot of work to do. As luck would have it, most of the cases were pleaded out, so most of the work was done by lunch. Harm and Mac attempted to keep their distance. They tempted fate earlier in her office, and neither wanted to take that chance.
Mac sat in her office and wondered about what happened this morning. The events were totally unexpected. Harm had been giving her gifts for a while. She never thought he would do this for her. She could see the love in his eyes when he looked at her. She now knew it was love, because it was the same way she looked at him. She never thought it would be like this. Playing with the pendant on her neck, Mac thought about the changes that occurred the past couple of months. A lot of things had changed, especially Harm. He was so attentive and caring. It was a side of him she never saw before, and she immediately fell in love with it. The old Harm would never look at her the way he does now. He would never be as forthcoming with his personal feelings, and he certainly wouldn't have asked her out on a date. A date that seemed like it would never come. To help pass the time, Mac let her imagination take over, and allowed herself to dream about what changes tonight may bring.
Harm, too, was having trouble coming to grips with what he did this morning. If someone would have asked him three months ago where he would be now, he definitely wouldn't have thought of this. He couldn't believe Mac and him were as close as they are now. He couldn't believe he actually did what he did this morning! He wanted to ask her out on a special occasion. He thought the two-month anniversary of the accident seemed fitting. He, at first, thought it was a morbid idea, but it seemed right. That night changed everything, and he knew he when he would ask her out, everything would change once again.
Noticing it was lunchtime, he decided he couldn't wait any longer. He wanted to see Mac. He walked out of the closet he called an office and headed over to her office. A smile spread across his face as he saw her. She looked like she was in another world. She had been looking out the window, and fiddling with the pendant he gave her. Deciding to bring her back to reality, Harm softly knocked on the doorframe. Startled, Mac looked at the person who brought her out of her fantasy. A fantasy she hoped would come true tonight.
"Daydreaming, Mac?"
A small blush and an embarrassed smile graced her face.
"Yeah."
"I hope it was a good one."
Mac locked eyes when she spoke again.
"Don't worry. It will be a VERY good one."
Harm immediately caught onto the wording Mac used. He had to remind himself to breathe as he thought about it. Then he realized she was teasing him. Well, he would just have to return the favor.
"Don't worry. I will make it the BEST one."
"I'm holding you to it."
"You better."
"So, what can I do for you?"
"Well, what I really want would have us both brought up on charges of conduct unbecoming, and lude behavior."
"Really?"
"Oh yeah. Since that will have to wait, why don't we go grab some lunch."
"I can do that."
"Well, lets go."
Mac grabbed her cover as Harm ushered her out the office to the elevator. Once they were outside, Mac spoke.
"Is it just me, or is this day just dragging on?"
"I can assure you it's not just you. All my motions and plea bargains are done. I've just been sitting in my office for the last hour."
"You could have come visit me."
"And risk a repeat of this morning? I didn't want to take that chance. I'm having a hard enough time already."
"Why's that?"
"Because I'm about to go on a date with the most beautiful woman, and all I want to do right now is kiss her breathless."
"I see. Do I know her?"
"I think so. She's a LtCol. in the Marines, and she just so happens to be my best friend and partner."
"Really? I think I do know her."
"I thought you did."
"Well, I can tell you that you aren't the only one having trouble resisting temptation. She would want nothing more than to kiss you, too."
"Good. At least we're on the same page."
"Definitely."
Harm and Mac continued to walk and talk till they found a hotdog stand. Mac insisted she wanted a hotdog, so Harm bought her one with everything on it and a tofu one for himself. They sat at a bench and ate quietly. Once they were finished, they made their way back to the office. Harm walked her to her door. He turned to walk away when Mac pulled him into her office and shut the door. With the blinds closed, she pushed Harm against the desk and pulled his face to hers. She could tell Harm was shocked at first, but then he leaned into the kiss. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her closer. Mac wrapped her hands around his neck and sought to deepen the kiss. Her tongue traced his lips, begging for entrance. Harm gladly opened his mouth, and her tongue darted inside. Each savored the taste of the other. They were quickly losing control. Feeling Harm's reaction pressing into her hip, Mac was brought back to reality. She started to draw back, and Harm did also. With a smirk, she looked up at him. She was shocked to see what she saw in his eyes. His eyes were slate gray, and she could see the want in his eyes. All of it was for her, and she wondered what else he had for her. That thought sent chills down her spine. Gaining control once again, she spoke.
"Sorry about that."
"Don't you dare be sorry. I didn't stop you."
"I know, but we shouldn't be doing this here."
"You're right. I guess we'll have to finish this tonight."
"Promise?"
Harm looked her squarely in the eye to make sure there would be no misunderstanding.
"I promise, Sarah. There is nothing I would want more than to finish this later."
"Good. What should I wear?"
"Something formal."
"Where are we going?" "It's a surprise."
"Ok. I'll see you tonight."
"You can bet on it."
With a quick kiss, Harm made his way to the door. Mac grabbed his arm and turned him around. She handed him a Kleenex.
"You might need this."
"Thanks."
Harm wiped off the lipstick and left her office. He couldn't help but notice the grin on Bud's face.
"Not a word, Bud. Not one single word."
"I wouldn't think of it, sir."
"Good."
Harm made it back to his office and put his plan into motion. He called the cleaners to make sure his suit was ready. He also called to confirm his reservations at Argia's. It normally took weeks to get a reservation. Luckily, he knew the owner. Once that was taken care of, Harm went to see the admiral and asked to secure an hour early. Harm left with the admiral's permission, and quietly snuck over to Bud. He told Bud that if Mac comes looking for him to tell her he had to go to Norfolk to drop off some papers. With that done, Harm left.
There was one last thing Harm had to do before going home to get ready. He stopped at Bath and Body Works and picked up Mac's favorite relaxation products and a little something to set the mood. He then went to Mac's apartment and set the scene. Once he was done, he finished his errands and went home. Harm couldn't believe how nervous he was. He knew tonight was the night he was going to tell Mac he lover her. After that, he really didn't care where the night would take them. Although, he hoped it wouldn't end there. He didn't just want to tell Mac he loved her. He wanted to show her. With a silent prayer, Harm began to clean up the apartment and get ready for tonight.
Mac came out about 30 minutes before closing time, and went to Harm's office. Seeing he wasn't there, Mac went to Bud.
"Have you seen, Harm?"
"Yes, ma'am. He said he had to go to Norfolk. He said he wouldn't be gone long."
"Ok. Thanks, Bud."
Mac wondered why Harm had to go to Norfolk, and why didn't her tell her about it. She figured she would ask him tonight. Once she secured for the day, Mac made her way home. When she opened the door to her apartment, Mac was assaulted by the smell of jasmine. She loved the smell of jasmine. It didn't take her long to figure out who did this.
"Norfolk my butt. He's trying to set a particular mood. What he doesn't know is that there was no need to do that. I am already in THAT mood. Well, I might as well enjoy it."
Mac walked into her bedroom and found a note taped to the bathroom door.
Here's something to help you get ready for tonight.
Harm
Mac walked in and found chamomile bath oils and lotions. She also found a CD player with a CD with Sarah written on it. She thought he was pulling out all the stops, and she loved every minute of it. Mac figured she had an hour and a half till Harm arrived, so she could take a 45-minute bath. Setting her internal clock, Mac got ready for her bath. When she got in, she felt like she was in heaven. She reached over and hit play on the CD player. Harm's voice filled the room.
"Hello, Sarah. I bet you're wondering why I did all this. I did it because I want tonight to be a night you won't forget. I want to pamper you and cater to your every need. So, sit back and relax to the music on the CD. I'll see you in an hour or so."
Next thing she heard, Harm was playing his guitar and singing to her. He had such a beautiful voice. Now she knew she was in heaven. Mac leaned back in the tub and listened to Harm play and sing as she relaxed. She almost missed her internal alarm because she was so relaxed. She got out of the tub and went into her bedroom to get ready. She couldn't believe how nervous she was. Her hands were shaking so much that she had a hard time putting her makeup on. She finished her makeup and calculated she still had 15 minutes till Harm arrived. He was always late anyway, so she probably had twenty. Mac looked in her closet and found the dress she bought . It was red with spaghetti straps. The back of the dress came down to her mid-back, and the front had a sweetheart cut that ended right above her breasts. It was a formal length and had a slit up to her mid- thigh. A pair of stiletto heels accented the dress. She also added pearl earrings and necklace to top it off. Check her clock, she figured she still had another five minutes. Just then the there was a knock at the door.
"That couldn't be him."
Mac walked to the door, and it was indeed Harm. She couldn't believe he was early. She always thought he would be late for his own funeral. She opened the door and took in the sight before her. Harm was dressed in a double-breasted charcoal gray suit with a blue silk shirt, and a charcoal gray tie. His shoes were so shiny that you could see you reflection in them. Mac could barely breathe. He looked so handsome. She couldn't wait to run her hands up that silk shirt of his. Lose in her fantasy, Mac didn't hear Harm call to her.
"Mac? Earth to Mac. Are you there?"
"Uh...yeah...Sorry. I zoned out a bit. Come on in."
Mac stepped aside and allowed Harm to get a full glimpse of her. He thought she looked so beautiful. He loved it when she wore red. He couldn't stop staring at her dress. It accentuates every curve of her body. He couldn't help but imagine running his hands over those curves. It was Mac's turn to bring him back to Earth.
"Harm?"
"Oh...I'm sorry. You look so beautiful tonight, Sarah."
"Why thank you, Harm. You look very handsome yourself."
"Thank you. You ready to go?"
"Sure let me grab my drape."
Grabbing her drape, Harm put it over her shoulders. Offering his arm, Harm escorted Mac to his car. He opened the door for her and helped her in. He got in, started the engine, and pulled into traffic.
"So, are you going to tell me where we are going."
"I guess I can't keep it a secret forever. You ever heard of Argia's?"
"It's that Italian restaurant on North Washington St."
"You got it. I got us reservations there."
"Harm, how did you manage that? It takes weeks to get into that place."
"I know the owner."
"Figures. Is there anyone in this city you don't know?"
"Not many." Harm and Mac continued their playful banter till they arrived at the restaurant. He gave to keys to the valet and helped Mac to the door. Once they were inside, Harm told them his name, and was shown to their table. A waiter came by with menus and water and stated she would be back to take their orders. Mac couldn't believe how beautiful this place was. On the walls hung artwork done by a local artist whose name was Thomas Mullaney. She had heard of him and enjoyed his work. Once she had an eyeful of the beauty of the restaurant, Mac picked up the menu. What she didn't notice was that Harm was staring at her. When she caught him, he couldn't help but blush.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"You were staring at me."
"Can't a man look at a beautiful woman?"
"I guess he can."
"Well that was what I was doing."
"Oh, well in that case, I don't mind."
"Good, because I couldn't take my eyes off you if I tried."
Mac blushed for a moment before she continued.
"Have you decided what you wanted?"
"What I want isn't on the menu, Sarah."
"I know the feeling, but you will need you strength."
"I will?"
"Definitely."
"Well then I guess I better find something."
The waiter came by a few minutes later. Harm let Mac order first. Mac thought they could start off with some Caprese as an appetizer. For her main dish, Mac chose Costolette All'emiliana. Harm decided on the Salmone Alla Griglia. With their orders taken, Harm thought now would be a good time to start talking.
"Mac?"
"Yes, Harm?"
"I don't know if you want to do this hear, but I wanted to know if you wanted to start this conversation now?"
"I don't see why not, Harm. That is one of the reasons you brought me out here."
"Yeah. Well...Damn I had this all planned out in my head."
Mac placed a hand over his hand and squeezed it.
"Just start at the beginning."
"I wanted tonight to be special, Sarah. I wanted to tell you how I felt."
"You have made tonight special, Harm. You showed me before you even picked me up how special you wanted this night to be."
"I take it you like the surprise."
"I loved it. I love hearing you sing. You have a beautiful voice, Harm."
"Thank you. I guess I could start by explaining a little more why I picked tonight. You already know that today is the two-month anniversary of your crash. I already told you it changed my life forever. What I didn't tell you was how I felt that day. It took me a long time just to figure it all out, but now I think I have. If you remember, the night didn't end very well at my apartment. As usual, I couldn't get out what I wanted to say to you and we fought. You left so angry. I didn't even know you were hurt till I got to the hospital."
"How did you find out?"
"I was on my way to you when I saw my car. I guess they already towed yours. I got to the hospital to check on Sturgis when a nurse asked if I was here for you. I then saw Bud and Harriet and put two and two together. I was devastated, Mac. No one knew what was going one. No one knew if you were going to live or die, and I had no on to blame but myself."
"Why blame yourself."
"Because if I had gotten my head out of my six and told you how I felt that night, you wouldn't have been on the road."
"Harm. It was an accident. No one could have known this was going to happen. Don't you know things happen for a reason?"
"I know they do, Mac, but you almost died!"
"But I didn't die. I'm right here with you, because you saved me."
"How did I save you, Mac? I was the one who made you leave."
"We already talked about the dreams we had, and how you brought me back. What I didn't tell you was the dream I had once I came home. Webb was in it. He asked why I didn't go with him."
"What did you tell him?"
"I said I couldn't leave just yet. There's too much for me to live for. Clay coming to me finally helped me to realize what my true feelings are."
"What are your feelings, Mac?"
Mac was about to answer when the food arrived. Both were slightly annoyed by the arrival of the food.
"Harm, I think we should finish this when we get through with dinner."
"I think you're right. When we journey into those waters again, I don't want anything stopping us."
"Ok."
Harm and Mac ate as quickly as possible. Each had waited nine years to finish this conversation. Once they were done eating, Harm paid the bill and they left. Harm decided to go back to his place. There was one more surprise he had planned. He parked his car and escorted Mac to his apartment door. He asked her to give his five minutes and hurried inside. Mac didn't even have time to wonder what he was doing. He opened the door and ushered her in. What she saw inside left her breathless. Candles were everywhere and the sent of jasmine lingered in the air. There was soft jazz playing in the background. Mac smiled as she looked up at Harm.
"Trying to set the mood again, Harm."
"I just wanted everything to be right."
"It is as long as I'm with you."
"Sarah..."
"Harm..."
Harm reached for her and pulled her to him. His lips crashed onto hers. His tongue seeking entrance. A soft moan could be heard, but neither knew who it was. He tasted her again and again. He couldn't get enough of her. He was quickly losing control, but he couldn't just yet. He had to tell her. He pulled away from her and took a couple of steps back. Their breathing was ragged, and their lips were swollen from the kiss.
"Sarah, there is something I need to tell you."
Mac knew what he wanted to say, but part of her didn't care. She wanted him now.
"Can't this wait, Harm?"
"No, Sarah. This can't. I want to do this right. If I take this next step with you, I want you to know how I feel."
Taking a deep breath, Mac sat on the couch.
"I understand, Harm. I'm sorry if I sounded harsh. You really got me going there for a minute."
"I know how you feel, Sarah. I almost said to hell with it."
"What is it you wanted to tell me?"
Harm sat down on both his legs in front of Mac. He took both her hands in his. Gazing into her eyes, he spoke.
"Sarah, we have known each other for so long. I can't imagine my life without you in it. I have made so many mistakes with you. I have pushed you away so many times. I made a promise to myself when you were in the accident. I promised that I wouldn't push you away anymore if you survive. And you did. You came back to me. What I'm trying to say is..."
Harm's voice died off. This was it. He was finally going to tell her. He could see the anticipation in her eyes. He couldn't put it off any longer. He raised himself fully on his knees and brought himself up to eye-level with Mac. Locking eyes with her, he spoke.
"I love you Sarah Mackenzie. I've loved you from the first day I saw you. You complete the piece in my heart that has been missing. You are a part of my heart and my soul. You are my everything. I..."
Harm never got a chance to finish what he was saying because Mac's lips came crashing down on his. The kiss was slowing pulling them down into the inferno burning in their hearts. Mac pulled away before it was too late. When she did, Harm saw the tears in her eyes.
"Oh, Harm. I love you, too. You have always been there for me, when everyone else would have given up. You are the reason I came back to life. I couldn't leave this world. I couldn't leave you. You complete me."
Having said that, Mac fused their lips once again. Harm pushed her back on the couch and towered over her. Their hands were franticly working to remove the other's clothing. This location was quickly becoming uncomfortable. Harm made a decision the remedy that. Squatting, he picked Mac up and carried her to the bedroom. His lips never left hers. Once they were at the foot of his bed, Harm let Mac slide down till her feet touched the floor. Mac then made quick work of Harm's jacket and tossed it aside. She then ran her fingernails over Harm's chest, causing a moan from Harm. Harm broke the kiss and began placing feather light kisses down Mac's neck. He found a particular sensitive spot, and Mac couldn't help but moan. Logging that into his memory for future reference, he made his way back to her lips.
Harm then snaked his hands up Mac's shoulders and pulled the straps of her dress down. He then began another journey down her neck and made sure to hit that sensitive spot. He went further this time. He started kissing her shoulder as he worked the dress down Mac's body. He loved feeling the curves of her body. Next thing Mac knew, the dress pooled at her feet. She quickly realized this was a one-sided show. Here she was in just a bra, panties and shoes, and Harm was still fully dressed. Turning so Harm was now against the bed, Mac pushed him down. With a plop, Harm landed on the bed. She then straddled his hips and began unbuttoning his shirt. With each button, Mac kissed the newly exposed flesh. Everywhere her lips touched, Harm felt like he was being burned alive. Mac made quick work of his belt as Harm toed off his shoes. She pulled his pants down, and left him clad in only his boxers. Silk boxers, in fact. Once most of his clothing was off, Mac made her way back to his mouth. She loved the taste of him. It was a taste she would never tire of.
Harm decided now was a good time to turn the tables. He reached around and unclasped the strapless bra Mac was wear, causing her breasts to be released. He couldn't believe how perfect they were. He gently took them in his hands and began massaging them. Mac was lost in the feel of Harm's touch. Just when she thought she couldn't take anymore, she felt Harm's mouth surround her breast. Harm drank from each one. He made sure neither felt neglected. It was quickly becoming too much for her. Mac had to gain some control. She pulled away just enough that it broke Harm's contact. She then started to work her way down his chest. A trail of fire burned with each kiss. She reached the rim of his boxers and pulled them off. She had to take a moment to admire the view in front of her. He was, for lack of better words, perfect.
Harm decided she had seen enough. He quickly turned her onto her back and kissed her with all the love he had. He quickly took off her panties and finding her ready, settled himself between her legs. This was the moment they both had been waiting for. Before he went any further, he took a moment to look into Mac's eyes. He had to make sure this was what she wanted. Mac knew what he was doing, and her heart burst with the love she had for him. She reached up and pulled his face to her. "Make love to me Harm. I need you."
That was all Harm needed to hear. He gentle joined them. He made sure to go slow enough so he wouldn't hurt her. It was all becoming too much. The feeling was so intense. He was positive he had no control left. He couldn't even move. He knew if he did, his control would snap. Mac, sensing what was wrong, whispered in his ear.
"It's ok to lose control, Harm. You won't hurt me. Lose yourself in me."
That was all it took. His control gone, Harm began to move. He moved till he could feel Mac's release coming. Just as she went, so did he. Each was screaming the other's name. Both were flying so high that rockets wouldn't touch them. They remained there for several minutes. Exhausted, Harm rolled onto his back and took Mac with him. She found herself in a familiar position, and she couldn't help but snuggle in. Once his breathing became normal, Harm spoke.
"That was..."
"Incredible."
"That's putting it lightly. Mac, I've never felt like that before."
"Neither have I, Harm. It was the most wonderful experience of my life."
"I love you, Sarah."
"I love you too, Harm."
Harm wrapped both his arms around Mac and pulled her closer to him. Once they were both settled, they drifted off to sleep. Their dreams filled with visions of the future.
Well there it is. I'm not sure if I pushed the envelop on the sex scene. I tried to keep it clean, although I have a better version in my head. If you want me to write it and send it to you, let me know. It's not that different, but it is more graphic and longer. My question to everyone is, do you want a sequal. I have an idea for the sequal to this, and yes, it does have a lot of angst. Let me know. Now all you have to do is hit the little lilac button and review. You know you want to. (evil grin)
If time went any slower, it would be going backwards. Harm and Mac prayed for the time to pass, but there was no such luck. Since it was Monday, they thought they had a lot of work to do. As luck would have it, most of the cases were pleaded out, so most of the work was done by lunch. Harm and Mac attempted to keep their distance. They tempted fate earlier in her office, and neither wanted to take that chance.
Mac sat in her office and wondered about what happened this morning. The events were totally unexpected. Harm had been giving her gifts for a while. She never thought he would do this for her. She could see the love in his eyes when he looked at her. She now knew it was love, because it was the same way she looked at him. She never thought it would be like this. Playing with the pendant on her neck, Mac thought about the changes that occurred the past couple of months. A lot of things had changed, especially Harm. He was so attentive and caring. It was a side of him she never saw before, and she immediately fell in love with it. The old Harm would never look at her the way he does now. He would never be as forthcoming with his personal feelings, and he certainly wouldn't have asked her out on a date. A date that seemed like it would never come. To help pass the time, Mac let her imagination take over, and allowed herself to dream about what changes tonight may bring.
Harm, too, was having trouble coming to grips with what he did this morning. If someone would have asked him three months ago where he would be now, he definitely wouldn't have thought of this. He couldn't believe Mac and him were as close as they are now. He couldn't believe he actually did what he did this morning! He wanted to ask her out on a special occasion. He thought the two-month anniversary of the accident seemed fitting. He, at first, thought it was a morbid idea, but it seemed right. That night changed everything, and he knew he when he would ask her out, everything would change once again.
Noticing it was lunchtime, he decided he couldn't wait any longer. He wanted to see Mac. He walked out of the closet he called an office and headed over to her office. A smile spread across his face as he saw her. She looked like she was in another world. She had been looking out the window, and fiddling with the pendant he gave her. Deciding to bring her back to reality, Harm softly knocked on the doorframe. Startled, Mac looked at the person who brought her out of her fantasy. A fantasy she hoped would come true tonight.
"Daydreaming, Mac?"
A small blush and an embarrassed smile graced her face.
"Yeah."
"I hope it was a good one."
Mac locked eyes when she spoke again.
"Don't worry. It will be a VERY good one."
Harm immediately caught onto the wording Mac used. He had to remind himself to breathe as he thought about it. Then he realized she was teasing him. Well, he would just have to return the favor.
"Don't worry. I will make it the BEST one."
"I'm holding you to it."
"You better."
"So, what can I do for you?"
"Well, what I really want would have us both brought up on charges of conduct unbecoming, and lude behavior."
"Really?"
"Oh yeah. Since that will have to wait, why don't we go grab some lunch."
"I can do that."
"Well, lets go."
Mac grabbed her cover as Harm ushered her out the office to the elevator. Once they were outside, Mac spoke.
"Is it just me, or is this day just dragging on?"
"I can assure you it's not just you. All my motions and plea bargains are done. I've just been sitting in my office for the last hour."
"You could have come visit me."
"And risk a repeat of this morning? I didn't want to take that chance. I'm having a hard enough time already."
"Why's that?"
"Because I'm about to go on a date with the most beautiful woman, and all I want to do right now is kiss her breathless."
"I see. Do I know her?"
"I think so. She's a LtCol. in the Marines, and she just so happens to be my best friend and partner."
"Really? I think I do know her."
"I thought you did."
"Well, I can tell you that you aren't the only one having trouble resisting temptation. She would want nothing more than to kiss you, too."
"Good. At least we're on the same page."
"Definitely."
Harm and Mac continued to walk and talk till they found a hotdog stand. Mac insisted she wanted a hotdog, so Harm bought her one with everything on it and a tofu one for himself. They sat at a bench and ate quietly. Once they were finished, they made their way back to the office. Harm walked her to her door. He turned to walk away when Mac pulled him into her office and shut the door. With the blinds closed, she pushed Harm against the desk and pulled his face to hers. She could tell Harm was shocked at first, but then he leaned into the kiss. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her closer. Mac wrapped her hands around his neck and sought to deepen the kiss. Her tongue traced his lips, begging for entrance. Harm gladly opened his mouth, and her tongue darted inside. Each savored the taste of the other. They were quickly losing control. Feeling Harm's reaction pressing into her hip, Mac was brought back to reality. She started to draw back, and Harm did also. With a smirk, she looked up at him. She was shocked to see what she saw in his eyes. His eyes were slate gray, and she could see the want in his eyes. All of it was for her, and she wondered what else he had for her. That thought sent chills down her spine. Gaining control once again, she spoke.
"Sorry about that."
"Don't you dare be sorry. I didn't stop you."
"I know, but we shouldn't be doing this here."
"You're right. I guess we'll have to finish this tonight."
"Promise?"
Harm looked her squarely in the eye to make sure there would be no misunderstanding.
"I promise, Sarah. There is nothing I would want more than to finish this later."
"Good. What should I wear?"
"Something formal."
"Where are we going?" "It's a surprise."
"Ok. I'll see you tonight."
"You can bet on it."
With a quick kiss, Harm made his way to the door. Mac grabbed his arm and turned him around. She handed him a Kleenex.
"You might need this."
"Thanks."
Harm wiped off the lipstick and left her office. He couldn't help but notice the grin on Bud's face.
"Not a word, Bud. Not one single word."
"I wouldn't think of it, sir."
"Good."
Harm made it back to his office and put his plan into motion. He called the cleaners to make sure his suit was ready. He also called to confirm his reservations at Argia's. It normally took weeks to get a reservation. Luckily, he knew the owner. Once that was taken care of, Harm went to see the admiral and asked to secure an hour early. Harm left with the admiral's permission, and quietly snuck over to Bud. He told Bud that if Mac comes looking for him to tell her he had to go to Norfolk to drop off some papers. With that done, Harm left.
There was one last thing Harm had to do before going home to get ready. He stopped at Bath and Body Works and picked up Mac's favorite relaxation products and a little something to set the mood. He then went to Mac's apartment and set the scene. Once he was done, he finished his errands and went home. Harm couldn't believe how nervous he was. He knew tonight was the night he was going to tell Mac he lover her. After that, he really didn't care where the night would take them. Although, he hoped it wouldn't end there. He didn't just want to tell Mac he loved her. He wanted to show her. With a silent prayer, Harm began to clean up the apartment and get ready for tonight.
Mac came out about 30 minutes before closing time, and went to Harm's office. Seeing he wasn't there, Mac went to Bud.
"Have you seen, Harm?"
"Yes, ma'am. He said he had to go to Norfolk. He said he wouldn't be gone long."
"Ok. Thanks, Bud."
Mac wondered why Harm had to go to Norfolk, and why didn't her tell her about it. She figured she would ask him tonight. Once she secured for the day, Mac made her way home. When she opened the door to her apartment, Mac was assaulted by the smell of jasmine. She loved the smell of jasmine. It didn't take her long to figure out who did this.
"Norfolk my butt. He's trying to set a particular mood. What he doesn't know is that there was no need to do that. I am already in THAT mood. Well, I might as well enjoy it."
Mac walked into her bedroom and found a note taped to the bathroom door.
Here's something to help you get ready for tonight.
Harm
Mac walked in and found chamomile bath oils and lotions. She also found a CD player with a CD with Sarah written on it. She thought he was pulling out all the stops, and she loved every minute of it. Mac figured she had an hour and a half till Harm arrived, so she could take a 45-minute bath. Setting her internal clock, Mac got ready for her bath. When she got in, she felt like she was in heaven. She reached over and hit play on the CD player. Harm's voice filled the room.
"Hello, Sarah. I bet you're wondering why I did all this. I did it because I want tonight to be a night you won't forget. I want to pamper you and cater to your every need. So, sit back and relax to the music on the CD. I'll see you in an hour or so."
Next thing she heard, Harm was playing his guitar and singing to her. He had such a beautiful voice. Now she knew she was in heaven. Mac leaned back in the tub and listened to Harm play and sing as she relaxed. She almost missed her internal alarm because she was so relaxed. She got out of the tub and went into her bedroom to get ready. She couldn't believe how nervous she was. Her hands were shaking so much that she had a hard time putting her makeup on. She finished her makeup and calculated she still had 15 minutes till Harm arrived. He was always late anyway, so she probably had twenty. Mac looked in her closet and found the dress she bought . It was red with spaghetti straps. The back of the dress came down to her mid-back, and the front had a sweetheart cut that ended right above her breasts. It was a formal length and had a slit up to her mid- thigh. A pair of stiletto heels accented the dress. She also added pearl earrings and necklace to top it off. Check her clock, she figured she still had another five minutes. Just then the there was a knock at the door.
"That couldn't be him."
Mac walked to the door, and it was indeed Harm. She couldn't believe he was early. She always thought he would be late for his own funeral. She opened the door and took in the sight before her. Harm was dressed in a double-breasted charcoal gray suit with a blue silk shirt, and a charcoal gray tie. His shoes were so shiny that you could see you reflection in them. Mac could barely breathe. He looked so handsome. She couldn't wait to run her hands up that silk shirt of his. Lose in her fantasy, Mac didn't hear Harm call to her.
"Mac? Earth to Mac. Are you there?"
"Uh...yeah...Sorry. I zoned out a bit. Come on in."
Mac stepped aside and allowed Harm to get a full glimpse of her. He thought she looked so beautiful. He loved it when she wore red. He couldn't stop staring at her dress. It accentuates every curve of her body. He couldn't help but imagine running his hands over those curves. It was Mac's turn to bring him back to Earth.
"Harm?"
"Oh...I'm sorry. You look so beautiful tonight, Sarah."
"Why thank you, Harm. You look very handsome yourself."
"Thank you. You ready to go?"
"Sure let me grab my drape."
Grabbing her drape, Harm put it over her shoulders. Offering his arm, Harm escorted Mac to his car. He opened the door for her and helped her in. He got in, started the engine, and pulled into traffic.
"So, are you going to tell me where we are going."
"I guess I can't keep it a secret forever. You ever heard of Argia's?"
"It's that Italian restaurant on North Washington St."
"You got it. I got us reservations there."
"Harm, how did you manage that? It takes weeks to get into that place."
"I know the owner."
"Figures. Is there anyone in this city you don't know?"
"Not many." Harm and Mac continued their playful banter till they arrived at the restaurant. He gave to keys to the valet and helped Mac to the door. Once they were inside, Harm told them his name, and was shown to their table. A waiter came by with menus and water and stated she would be back to take their orders. Mac couldn't believe how beautiful this place was. On the walls hung artwork done by a local artist whose name was Thomas Mullaney. She had heard of him and enjoyed his work. Once she had an eyeful of the beauty of the restaurant, Mac picked up the menu. What she didn't notice was that Harm was staring at her. When she caught him, he couldn't help but blush.
"What?"
"Nothing."
"You were staring at me."
"Can't a man look at a beautiful woman?"
"I guess he can."
"Well that was what I was doing."
"Oh, well in that case, I don't mind."
"Good, because I couldn't take my eyes off you if I tried."
Mac blushed for a moment before she continued.
"Have you decided what you wanted?"
"What I want isn't on the menu, Sarah."
"I know the feeling, but you will need you strength."
"I will?"
"Definitely."
"Well then I guess I better find something."
The waiter came by a few minutes later. Harm let Mac order first. Mac thought they could start off with some Caprese as an appetizer. For her main dish, Mac chose Costolette All'emiliana. Harm decided on the Salmone Alla Griglia. With their orders taken, Harm thought now would be a good time to start talking.
"Mac?"
"Yes, Harm?"
"I don't know if you want to do this hear, but I wanted to know if you wanted to start this conversation now?"
"I don't see why not, Harm. That is one of the reasons you brought me out here."
"Yeah. Well...Damn I had this all planned out in my head."
Mac placed a hand over his hand and squeezed it.
"Just start at the beginning."
"I wanted tonight to be special, Sarah. I wanted to tell you how I felt."
"You have made tonight special, Harm. You showed me before you even picked me up how special you wanted this night to be."
"I take it you like the surprise."
"I loved it. I love hearing you sing. You have a beautiful voice, Harm."
"Thank you. I guess I could start by explaining a little more why I picked tonight. You already know that today is the two-month anniversary of your crash. I already told you it changed my life forever. What I didn't tell you was how I felt that day. It took me a long time just to figure it all out, but now I think I have. If you remember, the night didn't end very well at my apartment. As usual, I couldn't get out what I wanted to say to you and we fought. You left so angry. I didn't even know you were hurt till I got to the hospital."
"How did you find out?"
"I was on my way to you when I saw my car. I guess they already towed yours. I got to the hospital to check on Sturgis when a nurse asked if I was here for you. I then saw Bud and Harriet and put two and two together. I was devastated, Mac. No one knew what was going one. No one knew if you were going to live or die, and I had no on to blame but myself."
"Why blame yourself."
"Because if I had gotten my head out of my six and told you how I felt that night, you wouldn't have been on the road."
"Harm. It was an accident. No one could have known this was going to happen. Don't you know things happen for a reason?"
"I know they do, Mac, but you almost died!"
"But I didn't die. I'm right here with you, because you saved me."
"How did I save you, Mac? I was the one who made you leave."
"We already talked about the dreams we had, and how you brought me back. What I didn't tell you was the dream I had once I came home. Webb was in it. He asked why I didn't go with him."
"What did you tell him?"
"I said I couldn't leave just yet. There's too much for me to live for. Clay coming to me finally helped me to realize what my true feelings are."
"What are your feelings, Mac?"
Mac was about to answer when the food arrived. Both were slightly annoyed by the arrival of the food.
"Harm, I think we should finish this when we get through with dinner."
"I think you're right. When we journey into those waters again, I don't want anything stopping us."
"Ok."
Harm and Mac ate as quickly as possible. Each had waited nine years to finish this conversation. Once they were done eating, Harm paid the bill and they left. Harm decided to go back to his place. There was one more surprise he had planned. He parked his car and escorted Mac to his apartment door. He asked her to give his five minutes and hurried inside. Mac didn't even have time to wonder what he was doing. He opened the door and ushered her in. What she saw inside left her breathless. Candles were everywhere and the sent of jasmine lingered in the air. There was soft jazz playing in the background. Mac smiled as she looked up at Harm.
"Trying to set the mood again, Harm."
"I just wanted everything to be right."
"It is as long as I'm with you."
"Sarah..."
"Harm..."
Harm reached for her and pulled her to him. His lips crashed onto hers. His tongue seeking entrance. A soft moan could be heard, but neither knew who it was. He tasted her again and again. He couldn't get enough of her. He was quickly losing control, but he couldn't just yet. He had to tell her. He pulled away from her and took a couple of steps back. Their breathing was ragged, and their lips were swollen from the kiss.
"Sarah, there is something I need to tell you."
Mac knew what he wanted to say, but part of her didn't care. She wanted him now.
"Can't this wait, Harm?"
"No, Sarah. This can't. I want to do this right. If I take this next step with you, I want you to know how I feel."
Taking a deep breath, Mac sat on the couch.
"I understand, Harm. I'm sorry if I sounded harsh. You really got me going there for a minute."
"I know how you feel, Sarah. I almost said to hell with it."
"What is it you wanted to tell me?"
Harm sat down on both his legs in front of Mac. He took both her hands in his. Gazing into her eyes, he spoke.
"Sarah, we have known each other for so long. I can't imagine my life without you in it. I have made so many mistakes with you. I have pushed you away so many times. I made a promise to myself when you were in the accident. I promised that I wouldn't push you away anymore if you survive. And you did. You came back to me. What I'm trying to say is..."
Harm's voice died off. This was it. He was finally going to tell her. He could see the anticipation in her eyes. He couldn't put it off any longer. He raised himself fully on his knees and brought himself up to eye-level with Mac. Locking eyes with her, he spoke.
"I love you Sarah Mackenzie. I've loved you from the first day I saw you. You complete the piece in my heart that has been missing. You are a part of my heart and my soul. You are my everything. I..."
Harm never got a chance to finish what he was saying because Mac's lips came crashing down on his. The kiss was slowing pulling them down into the inferno burning in their hearts. Mac pulled away before it was too late. When she did, Harm saw the tears in her eyes.
"Oh, Harm. I love you, too. You have always been there for me, when everyone else would have given up. You are the reason I came back to life. I couldn't leave this world. I couldn't leave you. You complete me."
Having said that, Mac fused their lips once again. Harm pushed her back on the couch and towered over her. Their hands were franticly working to remove the other's clothing. This location was quickly becoming uncomfortable. Harm made a decision the remedy that. Squatting, he picked Mac up and carried her to the bedroom. His lips never left hers. Once they were at the foot of his bed, Harm let Mac slide down till her feet touched the floor. Mac then made quick work of Harm's jacket and tossed it aside. She then ran her fingernails over Harm's chest, causing a moan from Harm. Harm broke the kiss and began placing feather light kisses down Mac's neck. He found a particular sensitive spot, and Mac couldn't help but moan. Logging that into his memory for future reference, he made his way back to her lips.
Harm then snaked his hands up Mac's shoulders and pulled the straps of her dress down. He then began another journey down her neck and made sure to hit that sensitive spot. He went further this time. He started kissing her shoulder as he worked the dress down Mac's body. He loved feeling the curves of her body. Next thing Mac knew, the dress pooled at her feet. She quickly realized this was a one-sided show. Here she was in just a bra, panties and shoes, and Harm was still fully dressed. Turning so Harm was now against the bed, Mac pushed him down. With a plop, Harm landed on the bed. She then straddled his hips and began unbuttoning his shirt. With each button, Mac kissed the newly exposed flesh. Everywhere her lips touched, Harm felt like he was being burned alive. Mac made quick work of his belt as Harm toed off his shoes. She pulled his pants down, and left him clad in only his boxers. Silk boxers, in fact. Once most of his clothing was off, Mac made her way back to his mouth. She loved the taste of him. It was a taste she would never tire of.
Harm decided now was a good time to turn the tables. He reached around and unclasped the strapless bra Mac was wear, causing her breasts to be released. He couldn't believe how perfect they were. He gently took them in his hands and began massaging them. Mac was lost in the feel of Harm's touch. Just when she thought she couldn't take anymore, she felt Harm's mouth surround her breast. Harm drank from each one. He made sure neither felt neglected. It was quickly becoming too much for her. Mac had to gain some control. She pulled away just enough that it broke Harm's contact. She then started to work her way down his chest. A trail of fire burned with each kiss. She reached the rim of his boxers and pulled them off. She had to take a moment to admire the view in front of her. He was, for lack of better words, perfect.
Harm decided she had seen enough. He quickly turned her onto her back and kissed her with all the love he had. He quickly took off her panties and finding her ready, settled himself between her legs. This was the moment they both had been waiting for. Before he went any further, he took a moment to look into Mac's eyes. He had to make sure this was what she wanted. Mac knew what he was doing, and her heart burst with the love she had for him. She reached up and pulled his face to her. "Make love to me Harm. I need you."
That was all Harm needed to hear. He gentle joined them. He made sure to go slow enough so he wouldn't hurt her. It was all becoming too much. The feeling was so intense. He was positive he had no control left. He couldn't even move. He knew if he did, his control would snap. Mac, sensing what was wrong, whispered in his ear.
"It's ok to lose control, Harm. You won't hurt me. Lose yourself in me."
That was all it took. His control gone, Harm began to move. He moved till he could feel Mac's release coming. Just as she went, so did he. Each was screaming the other's name. Both were flying so high that rockets wouldn't touch them. They remained there for several minutes. Exhausted, Harm rolled onto his back and took Mac with him. She found herself in a familiar position, and she couldn't help but snuggle in. Once his breathing became normal, Harm spoke.
"That was..."
"Incredible."
"That's putting it lightly. Mac, I've never felt like that before."
"Neither have I, Harm. It was the most wonderful experience of my life."
"I love you, Sarah."
"I love you too, Harm."
Harm wrapped both his arms around Mac and pulled her closer to him. Once they were both settled, they drifted off to sleep. Their dreams filled with visions of the future.
Well there it is. I'm not sure if I pushed the envelop on the sex scene. I tried to keep it clean, although I have a better version in my head. If you want me to write it and send it to you, let me know. It's not that different, but it is more graphic and longer. My question to everyone is, do you want a sequal. I have an idea for the sequal to this, and yes, it does have a lot of angst. Let me know. Now all you have to do is hit the little lilac button and review. You know you want to. (evil grin)