CHLOE'S POV
I'm watching him, watch the door. His waiting for his "precious" Letty to come home. I can't believe I'm doing this. I tap him on the arm, he turns to look at me and he looks shocked to see me. I can't believe this. Then as I was about to open my mouth again, his back to watching the door.
I grab one of the bottles of corona off the table, and have a quick drink.Trying to calm my nerves . And as I do, I keep picturing that bitch in my head. Laughing at me. Dammit.
I need to know if he still wants me. And before I could stop myself.
"Why are you with me?"
I ask him. And as he looks at me, I know I won't like the answer.
"Your different," He says, as if talking to himself. "Your not like her. After me and Letty finished. Every woman and skank in the eight mile radius was trying to get with me. But the thing was, they were all a poor copy of her. And then you came along. And .. and you were different. You weren't like here. And I needed someone like that."
I was absorbing the words, as he was talking. And the only thing positioned in my mind, was what about what I need. He didn't care. Actually he did but it was about Letty. I can feel the anger boil inside me , as the words keep echoing in my head. "He loves her, he doesn't love me." The words keep repeating over and over again. And I snap. I end up throwing the bottle against the wall. And as I watch the glass slide down the wall, I feel weak.
"Why don't you want me?" I ask in a little voice. "What did I do? I love you so much. And you treat me so badly."
I can feel the tears come. I feel like a wasted two years of my life, on nothing. Why I'm I still with him?
"I tried ....I really did. I wanted to love you so much. But I can't ... My heart just won't open to ..."
"What about LETTY?" I scream at him. " YOU can love her. What about me... Why can't you love me?"
My voice lowered the more upset I got. "Why can't you love me?"
Its barely a whisper. And I can feel my heart break with every word.
Dom stands up and walks towards the window. his head bowed as he moves the curtain.
"She knows me. Inside, out. She knows when I'm angry. She knows everything. Its as if ... as if she's my other half. I feel so lost .... when she's not around."
He sounds the same way I do. Which makes it even worse. He can't love me. And I want him so much. Why can't he love me? Just a little.
"I think its best, Chloe if we break up. I can't do this to you. It's not fair."
What? His breaking up with me. He can't do this. Its not right. Why is he doing this to me?
"Please ... No .. I love you. Please give us another try. please."
I'm practically begging now. I just don't want to lose him. But it looks like, he wants to lose me. He nods his head, no.
I grab another bottle off the table and run out the door. I feel the tears blur my sight, as I run. I don't know where I'm going. But I had to find somewhere I could breath. I needed to breath. I reached the park. And I sat on the floor, as I cradled the bottle in my arms. The pain was unbearable. Why does it feel so bad? The tears wouldnt even slide down my face, as the pain pounded against my heart.
Why does everything have to feel so bad, I just want to be happy. I thought, as I pressed the drink against my lips with shakey hands. I looked at the sky, as I did. I couldnt see the moon properly, the tears were glazing over my sight. I tried to wipe them away but I couldnt ... they wouldn't go away.
I thought my hand tightened on the bottle, as my mind went to Letty. I hate her so much. Why does she get Dom to love her?.. "She knows me inside out." His words threw themselves into my mind. And as they did, I felt the bottle smash in my hand. And as I felt the blood trickle down my arm, I lifted my head up and screamed.
I'm watching him, watch the door. His waiting for his "precious" Letty to come home. I can't believe I'm doing this. I tap him on the arm, he turns to look at me and he looks shocked to see me. I can't believe this. Then as I was about to open my mouth again, his back to watching the door.
I grab one of the bottles of corona off the table, and have a quick drink.Trying to calm my nerves . And as I do, I keep picturing that bitch in my head. Laughing at me. Dammit.
I need to know if he still wants me. And before I could stop myself.
"Why are you with me?"
I ask him. And as he looks at me, I know I won't like the answer.
"Your different," He says, as if talking to himself. "Your not like her. After me and Letty finished. Every woman and skank in the eight mile radius was trying to get with me. But the thing was, they were all a poor copy of her. And then you came along. And .. and you were different. You weren't like here. And I needed someone like that."
I was absorbing the words, as he was talking. And the only thing positioned in my mind, was what about what I need. He didn't care. Actually he did but it was about Letty. I can feel the anger boil inside me , as the words keep echoing in my head. "He loves her, he doesn't love me." The words keep repeating over and over again. And I snap. I end up throwing the bottle against the wall. And as I watch the glass slide down the wall, I feel weak.
"Why don't you want me?" I ask in a little voice. "What did I do? I love you so much. And you treat me so badly."
I can feel the tears come. I feel like a wasted two years of my life, on nothing. Why I'm I still with him?
"I tried ....I really did. I wanted to love you so much. But I can't ... My heart just won't open to ..."
"What about LETTY?" I scream at him. " YOU can love her. What about me... Why can't you love me?"
My voice lowered the more upset I got. "Why can't you love me?"
Its barely a whisper. And I can feel my heart break with every word.
Dom stands up and walks towards the window. his head bowed as he moves the curtain.
"She knows me. Inside, out. She knows when I'm angry. She knows everything. Its as if ... as if she's my other half. I feel so lost .... when she's not around."
He sounds the same way I do. Which makes it even worse. He can't love me. And I want him so much. Why can't he love me? Just a little.
"I think its best, Chloe if we break up. I can't do this to you. It's not fair."
What? His breaking up with me. He can't do this. Its not right. Why is he doing this to me?
"Please ... No .. I love you. Please give us another try. please."
I'm practically begging now. I just don't want to lose him. But it looks like, he wants to lose me. He nods his head, no.
I grab another bottle off the table and run out the door. I feel the tears blur my sight, as I run. I don't know where I'm going. But I had to find somewhere I could breath. I needed to breath. I reached the park. And I sat on the floor, as I cradled the bottle in my arms. The pain was unbearable. Why does it feel so bad? The tears wouldnt even slide down my face, as the pain pounded against my heart.
Why does everything have to feel so bad, I just want to be happy. I thought, as I pressed the drink against my lips with shakey hands. I looked at the sky, as I did. I couldnt see the moon properly, the tears were glazing over my sight. I tried to wipe them away but I couldnt ... they wouldn't go away.
I thought my hand tightened on the bottle, as my mind went to Letty. I hate her so much. Why does she get Dom to love her?.. "She knows me inside out." His words threw themselves into my mind. And as they did, I felt the bottle smash in my hand. And as I felt the blood trickle down my arm, I lifted my head up and screamed.