Dom's POV
What the hells going on? Letty's sitting on my porch, playing patty cake with Hector. Giggling away, not realising that I'm watching them. But when Letty finally looks up at me, I feel funny. There's no other words for it. I just feel funny.
"There's your boyfriend."
I just freeze as I hear the words, I try not to let them affect me. Instead I focus all my attention on Letty.
Before I could think up something to say, Letty crawls past me, I watch as she goes on the sofa. I look back at Hector, who's fast asleep. So I slam the door and walk into the kitchen. I pour the tap for a while, waiting for my thoughts to clear. Before I go back in there. What do, I do? There's no manual on these things. "Turn to chapter 28, it'll explain in 50 easy ways on how to tell your ex you still love her." Yea that makes things so much better. Not.
I walk back in the living room and pass Letty a glass of water. She nods her head, and says a weak thank you. I sit on the other side of the room, away from her. I need to talk to her, and I can't get distracted.
"What's going on Let?"
'Go on answer me, how did we get like this. We were together for six years. Explain to me, how we could throw that away.' I wanted to scream these at her. But I don't, I just look at her. God she's beautiful. She's the only thing in these screwed up world, that I understand.
She comes over and sits next to me. Placing a hand on mine as she does.
"I don't know."
Letty sounds as I feel, like shit. We've spent so much time trying to run away from each other. We ended up forgetting each other. I could always tell how she felt, or what she was going to say. Before she did it. And she could always calm me down with a touch. Now, we're so wrapped up in trying to get over the other, we can't see that we're both hurting. I finally realise its not just me who feels these way. But she does as well. And with that all I wanna do, is rap my arms around her and hold on to her for dear life. But I can't. I need to know how she feels before I let her in again.
"It was when we were together. All I was known as, was Dom's girlfriend. I was no longer Letty. I was Dom's girlfriend. That was me. Dom's girlfriend. It hurt, people didn't see me. Skanks would laugh, they would tell me how easy it would be to steal you away from me."
I listen to her, and let the words sink in. As she drinks the water. She starts laughing a little, hiding the pain.
"You kept telling me .. you said I had no need to be jealous .."
"You didn't." I interrupted her. Lett didn't, I love her. Never once in my life did I cheat on her. I wouldn't be able to do it.
"You said you loved me and only me. That I had nothing to worry about," She carried on talking, it was as if she didn't hear me. Letty sounded so hurt. I guess she was just letting it out. I don't know. So I just listen.
"But you weren't there when they .. they told me, that you slept with them. I know I didn't have to believe them .. but you know, look at me. I walk and talk like a guy. I don't wear dresses. I'm not .. beautiful. They are. And I was scared ... I was so scared you were going to leave me. I couldn't bear it."
I watched as Letty pressed her face in her hands, and cried her eyes out. And with that I rap my arms around her and hold her.
What the hells going on? Letty's sitting on my porch, playing patty cake with Hector. Giggling away, not realising that I'm watching them. But when Letty finally looks up at me, I feel funny. There's no other words for it. I just feel funny.
"There's your boyfriend."
I just freeze as I hear the words, I try not to let them affect me. Instead I focus all my attention on Letty.
Before I could think up something to say, Letty crawls past me, I watch as she goes on the sofa. I look back at Hector, who's fast asleep. So I slam the door and walk into the kitchen. I pour the tap for a while, waiting for my thoughts to clear. Before I go back in there. What do, I do? There's no manual on these things. "Turn to chapter 28, it'll explain in 50 easy ways on how to tell your ex you still love her." Yea that makes things so much better. Not.
I walk back in the living room and pass Letty a glass of water. She nods her head, and says a weak thank you. I sit on the other side of the room, away from her. I need to talk to her, and I can't get distracted.
"What's going on Let?"
'Go on answer me, how did we get like this. We were together for six years. Explain to me, how we could throw that away.' I wanted to scream these at her. But I don't, I just look at her. God she's beautiful. She's the only thing in these screwed up world, that I understand.
She comes over and sits next to me. Placing a hand on mine as she does.
"I don't know."
Letty sounds as I feel, like shit. We've spent so much time trying to run away from each other. We ended up forgetting each other. I could always tell how she felt, or what she was going to say. Before she did it. And she could always calm me down with a touch. Now, we're so wrapped up in trying to get over the other, we can't see that we're both hurting. I finally realise its not just me who feels these way. But she does as well. And with that all I wanna do, is rap my arms around her and hold on to her for dear life. But I can't. I need to know how she feels before I let her in again.
"It was when we were together. All I was known as, was Dom's girlfriend. I was no longer Letty. I was Dom's girlfriend. That was me. Dom's girlfriend. It hurt, people didn't see me. Skanks would laugh, they would tell me how easy it would be to steal you away from me."
I listen to her, and let the words sink in. As she drinks the water. She starts laughing a little, hiding the pain.
"You kept telling me .. you said I had no need to be jealous .."
"You didn't." I interrupted her. Lett didn't, I love her. Never once in my life did I cheat on her. I wouldn't be able to do it.
"You said you loved me and only me. That I had nothing to worry about," She carried on talking, it was as if she didn't hear me. Letty sounded so hurt. I guess she was just letting it out. I don't know. So I just listen.
"But you weren't there when they .. they told me, that you slept with them. I know I didn't have to believe them .. but you know, look at me. I walk and talk like a guy. I don't wear dresses. I'm not .. beautiful. They are. And I was scared ... I was so scared you were going to leave me. I couldn't bear it."
I watched as Letty pressed her face in her hands, and cried her eyes out. And with that I rap my arms around her and hold her.