Dear Diary,
Well, it looks like Donna not only raided through my things, but she took them as well. I haven't had any pills in two days, and I haven't spoken to her or the gang in that long either. I knew she ran her big mouth and told them everything. Steven's called at least 10 times, I'll have to start keeping count and giving him a point for each call he does attempt to make. At least that way I'll know he still cares. I just hope he doesn't do something stupid like break up with me over this. But that's ridiculous, God, he smokes pot! Who is he to lecture me? I think I'm the best behaved out of the group, but it's still not right of Donna to go and blab like some girl scout.
Love,
Jackie
Closing her softly colored pink diary, with stickers of unicorms and hearts placed randomly all along the cover, Jackie looked up as she sat along the front row of the bleechers, looking out across the field as the squad practiced their cheers. She shoved her journal protectively under her jacket and went over to join them, but was cut short before she even took two steps.
Who was to walk in front of her none other than Hyde, much to her surprise. "What are you doing here?" she asked with a puzzeled look on her face, keeping her voice low-toned so that the other girls wouldn't hear them.
He stared down at her, his darkened sun glasses hiding his eyes, as they usually did. But this time, he surprised her by taking them off and looking her in the eye, out in public. "Donna told me what's been going on," he said, but she couldn't place yet whether he was angry or worried. His eyes looked into her's deeply, as if he was searching for answers, trying to help her.
Jackie didn't answer. She didn't need this right now. She felt crowded and ganged up on, but most importantly, she felt betrayed by Donna. Anger rushing through ever fiber of her body, she turned her back on Hyde, walking away and shaking her head. Hyde impusively reached out and grabbed her arm. "Jackie, stop," he said in a gruff tone, but Jackie spun around and shoved him away from her, freeing her arm and taking off for the parking lot on a dead run. She felt like some escapee, fleeing from the police before something worse happened. They had already found out her secret though, and to be honest, she wasn't sure what she was going to do once she ran, she knew she just wanted out of there.
Hyde was only one step behind her the whole way, chasing after her and making one last grab for her arm to stop her. But Jackie only smacked him away, running faster as tears flooded down her face. She hadn't expected Hyde to keep coming though, and let out a scream as she felt him come up from behind her, embracing his arms around her body as he lifted her up off her feet and pulled her back. Jackie was too stunned to do anything but yell as Hyde grabbed onto her like that, but she soon began to claw at his hands as she tried to make him put her back down, cursing every name in the book at him.
"Jackie stop it and listen!" he begged her, having never reacted like this before. He was usually so laid back with a "not a care in the world" attitude, but something in him was killing him now. He felt stabbing jolts of pain rip through him as reality hit him. He knew this was worse than he had imagined. His arms around Jackie, he could feel practically nothing there. There was nothing left of her. She barely weighed anything in his arms. The bones in her ribs rubbed against his hands as he held her, and without realizing it, tears started forming in Hyde's eyes. He was her boyfriend, he was with her every day. He should have known.
Jackie kicked him hard in the knee. Hyde yelped out from the pain and lost his grip on Jackie, as she went stumbling to the ground. Not being able to lift herself back up, and completely drained and dizzy by now, Jackie began to crawl away. Hyde sunk to pavement as well, but not before catching up with Jackie. Turning her over, he hovered over her, pinning her arms to the ground as he held himself up over top of her.
His eyes were red and glazed, and she knew he had been crying. But Jackie just turned her head and looked away from him, not even struggling against his hands. "You're coming back to Eric's with me. We told Mrs. Foreman... She said we should go get you checked out, Jackie," he said in a low tone, trying his hardest to keep his voice even as he spoke, but it just came out as a shaken mess.
Jackie didn't answer, she just laid there, feeling nothing but rage fulfill her. She knew what was going to happen. They were going to admit her, but if she could somehow talk her mom out of it, then what? They would be monitering her all the time. She would never get to live the life she was leading now, she would never have her safety net anymore. Everything had changed. Steven and Donna had just ruined her future.
Well, it looks like Donna not only raided through my things, but she took them as well. I haven't had any pills in two days, and I haven't spoken to her or the gang in that long either. I knew she ran her big mouth and told them everything. Steven's called at least 10 times, I'll have to start keeping count and giving him a point for each call he does attempt to make. At least that way I'll know he still cares. I just hope he doesn't do something stupid like break up with me over this. But that's ridiculous, God, he smokes pot! Who is he to lecture me? I think I'm the best behaved out of the group, but it's still not right of Donna to go and blab like some girl scout.
Love,
Jackie
Closing her softly colored pink diary, with stickers of unicorms and hearts placed randomly all along the cover, Jackie looked up as she sat along the front row of the bleechers, looking out across the field as the squad practiced their cheers. She shoved her journal protectively under her jacket and went over to join them, but was cut short before she even took two steps.
Who was to walk in front of her none other than Hyde, much to her surprise. "What are you doing here?" she asked with a puzzeled look on her face, keeping her voice low-toned so that the other girls wouldn't hear them.
He stared down at her, his darkened sun glasses hiding his eyes, as they usually did. But this time, he surprised her by taking them off and looking her in the eye, out in public. "Donna told me what's been going on," he said, but she couldn't place yet whether he was angry or worried. His eyes looked into her's deeply, as if he was searching for answers, trying to help her.
Jackie didn't answer. She didn't need this right now. She felt crowded and ganged up on, but most importantly, she felt betrayed by Donna. Anger rushing through ever fiber of her body, she turned her back on Hyde, walking away and shaking her head. Hyde impusively reached out and grabbed her arm. "Jackie, stop," he said in a gruff tone, but Jackie spun around and shoved him away from her, freeing her arm and taking off for the parking lot on a dead run. She felt like some escapee, fleeing from the police before something worse happened. They had already found out her secret though, and to be honest, she wasn't sure what she was going to do once she ran, she knew she just wanted out of there.
Hyde was only one step behind her the whole way, chasing after her and making one last grab for her arm to stop her. But Jackie only smacked him away, running faster as tears flooded down her face. She hadn't expected Hyde to keep coming though, and let out a scream as she felt him come up from behind her, embracing his arms around her body as he lifted her up off her feet and pulled her back. Jackie was too stunned to do anything but yell as Hyde grabbed onto her like that, but she soon began to claw at his hands as she tried to make him put her back down, cursing every name in the book at him.
"Jackie stop it and listen!" he begged her, having never reacted like this before. He was usually so laid back with a "not a care in the world" attitude, but something in him was killing him now. He felt stabbing jolts of pain rip through him as reality hit him. He knew this was worse than he had imagined. His arms around Jackie, he could feel practically nothing there. There was nothing left of her. She barely weighed anything in his arms. The bones in her ribs rubbed against his hands as he held her, and without realizing it, tears started forming in Hyde's eyes. He was her boyfriend, he was with her every day. He should have known.
Jackie kicked him hard in the knee. Hyde yelped out from the pain and lost his grip on Jackie, as she went stumbling to the ground. Not being able to lift herself back up, and completely drained and dizzy by now, Jackie began to crawl away. Hyde sunk to pavement as well, but not before catching up with Jackie. Turning her over, he hovered over her, pinning her arms to the ground as he held himself up over top of her.
His eyes were red and glazed, and she knew he had been crying. But Jackie just turned her head and looked away from him, not even struggling against his hands. "You're coming back to Eric's with me. We told Mrs. Foreman... She said we should go get you checked out, Jackie," he said in a low tone, trying his hardest to keep his voice even as he spoke, but it just came out as a shaken mess.
Jackie didn't answer, she just laid there, feeling nothing but rage fulfill her. She knew what was going to happen. They were going to admit her, but if she could somehow talk her mom out of it, then what? They would be monitering her all the time. She would never get to live the life she was leading now, she would never have her safety net anymore. Everything had changed. Steven and Donna had just ruined her future.