[Asteric] I'm cuddling close
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.
I'm reading your note over again
there is not a word that I comprehend,
except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."
Another day: gone. Another person: changed, and yet Jamie still has to go on everyday exactly the same. Its kind of like, when the world is sleeping and finished for the day, your still going and everyone's watching your every move, so that when you mess up, they have something to ridicule you about.
Jamie presses her back against the walk while she's putting on her shoes and making sure they're nice and tight on her foot. She grabs the car keys and shouts to her father that she's going to the store. He shouts back that it's ok. She walks out the door, closing it behind her silently. She walks next to her car and opens the door and sits down. She turns the key, checks the mirror, places two hands on the wheel and gradually accelerates.
"Carrots... [Sigh]... umm, oh bananas and lettuce." Jamie sighs to herself about the list. "Excuse me ma'am can I help you?" Landon says with a silly smile on his face. "Hey Jamie! Wow, its so funny how we keep seeing each other everywhere." "Oh hey Landon, you work here?" Jamie asks casually.
[Flashback] Jamie and her mom are walking hand in hand on the beach. "Mommy, when I'm older, am I going to get married like you and daddy?" a 5- year-old Jamie, asks her mom wonderingly. Looking up at her mom with big blue eyes and a gentle smile. "Not until your much, much older." Her mother replied, as all mothers would to that question. "Your too young to fall in love hunny. Guys are mean, there evil, they don't turn into gentlemen until your much, much older. Guys will make you fall in love then crush you. I know that you have no idea what I'm talking about, but someday you'll understand. Your going to be heartbroken and mommy loves you and doesn't want to see you hurt. So don't fall in love until you know that its love, and you know he wont hurt you." Her mother said reassuringly with a graceful, magical smile, while touching the top of Jamie's head softly. "Now lets sit here and look at the sun set" and she sat in the sand and placed Jamie in her lap.
Snapping out of her flashback, she heard someone, "Jamie? Jamie? Hello?" Landon said concerned. "Oh sorry" she said blushing. "What did you say?" "All I said is, yes, I work here." Landon said laughing a little, attempting to make Jamie feel not-so-embarrassed. "Right, sorry, I was just thinking about something that I need to get."
-Remember Jamie. Don't fall in love. Your not of them, your of us.
"SHUT UP!" Jamie shouted, becoming more and more frustrated and more and more angry with herself for appearing weirder then everyone thought she was already. The last thing they needed to think was that she was crazy. Of course she didn't love him. She was much smarter then that. Like he even liked her, even as a friend. She would never fit in with his crowd. "Are you ok?" Landon asked with a concerned look on his face. "No, I need to leave, I'm sorry" and she rushed over to pay for her food items, and drove off to her house. Landon stood there worried and scared.
(Later that day, at Landon's house) Landon clicked at his mouse furiously on a search site. Typing fast, scanning sites, and then looking at the screen with a look of being beat, because he couldn't figure it out. "H-e-a-r-i-n-g- -v-o-i-c-e-s" he typed into the search. And suddenly a word came up on the screen: schizophrenia. He grabbed a dictionary and flipped furiously through the pages, as egger as ever to find out what happened to Jamie today. He never heard anything and yet he knew she wasn't talking to him because he had not said anything. He found the definition for schizophrenia. Schizophrenia- Any of a group of psychotic disorders usually characterized by withdrawal from reality, illogical patterns of thinking, delusions, and hallucinations, and accompanied in varying degrees by other emotional, behavioral, or intellectual disturbances. Schizophrenia is associated with dopamine imbalances in the brain and defects of the frontal lobe and is caused by genetic, other biological, and psychosocial factors. "Holy shit, what the hell?" He looked up from the dictionary and clicked the link for schizophrenia. He continued reading about the disease into the late hours and fell asleep in his computer chair.
[Asteric] Dashboard Confessional- "Screaming Infidelities"
To blankets and sheets
But you're not alone, and you're not discreet
Make sure I know who's taking you home.
I'm reading your note over again
there is not a word that I comprehend,
except when you signed it
"I will love you always and forever."
Another day: gone. Another person: changed, and yet Jamie still has to go on everyday exactly the same. Its kind of like, when the world is sleeping and finished for the day, your still going and everyone's watching your every move, so that when you mess up, they have something to ridicule you about.
Jamie presses her back against the walk while she's putting on her shoes and making sure they're nice and tight on her foot. She grabs the car keys and shouts to her father that she's going to the store. He shouts back that it's ok. She walks out the door, closing it behind her silently. She walks next to her car and opens the door and sits down. She turns the key, checks the mirror, places two hands on the wheel and gradually accelerates.
"Carrots... [Sigh]... umm, oh bananas and lettuce." Jamie sighs to herself about the list. "Excuse me ma'am can I help you?" Landon says with a silly smile on his face. "Hey Jamie! Wow, its so funny how we keep seeing each other everywhere." "Oh hey Landon, you work here?" Jamie asks casually.
[Flashback] Jamie and her mom are walking hand in hand on the beach. "Mommy, when I'm older, am I going to get married like you and daddy?" a 5- year-old Jamie, asks her mom wonderingly. Looking up at her mom with big blue eyes and a gentle smile. "Not until your much, much older." Her mother replied, as all mothers would to that question. "Your too young to fall in love hunny. Guys are mean, there evil, they don't turn into gentlemen until your much, much older. Guys will make you fall in love then crush you. I know that you have no idea what I'm talking about, but someday you'll understand. Your going to be heartbroken and mommy loves you and doesn't want to see you hurt. So don't fall in love until you know that its love, and you know he wont hurt you." Her mother said reassuringly with a graceful, magical smile, while touching the top of Jamie's head softly. "Now lets sit here and look at the sun set" and she sat in the sand and placed Jamie in her lap.
Snapping out of her flashback, she heard someone, "Jamie? Jamie? Hello?" Landon said concerned. "Oh sorry" she said blushing. "What did you say?" "All I said is, yes, I work here." Landon said laughing a little, attempting to make Jamie feel not-so-embarrassed. "Right, sorry, I was just thinking about something that I need to get."
-Remember Jamie. Don't fall in love. Your not of them, your of us.
"SHUT UP!" Jamie shouted, becoming more and more frustrated and more and more angry with herself for appearing weirder then everyone thought she was already. The last thing they needed to think was that she was crazy. Of course she didn't love him. She was much smarter then that. Like he even liked her, even as a friend. She would never fit in with his crowd. "Are you ok?" Landon asked with a concerned look on his face. "No, I need to leave, I'm sorry" and she rushed over to pay for her food items, and drove off to her house. Landon stood there worried and scared.
(Later that day, at Landon's house) Landon clicked at his mouse furiously on a search site. Typing fast, scanning sites, and then looking at the screen with a look of being beat, because he couldn't figure it out. "H-e-a-r-i-n-g- -v-o-i-c-e-s" he typed into the search. And suddenly a word came up on the screen: schizophrenia. He grabbed a dictionary and flipped furiously through the pages, as egger as ever to find out what happened to Jamie today. He never heard anything and yet he knew she wasn't talking to him because he had not said anything. He found the definition for schizophrenia. Schizophrenia- Any of a group of psychotic disorders usually characterized by withdrawal from reality, illogical patterns of thinking, delusions, and hallucinations, and accompanied in varying degrees by other emotional, behavioral, or intellectual disturbances. Schizophrenia is associated with dopamine imbalances in the brain and defects of the frontal lobe and is caused by genetic, other biological, and psychosocial factors. "Holy shit, what the hell?" He looked up from the dictionary and clicked the link for schizophrenia. He continued reading about the disease into the late hours and fell asleep in his computer chair.
[Asteric] Dashboard Confessional- "Screaming Infidelities"