May 5, 2004
Attempt #2: July 14, 2004
Hey everyone!! I'm back!! Sorry about the inconvenience the first time I posted this fic! I must confess that I am very computer challenged and when I tried posting it, all the grammar and italics and stuff got deleted so it was very confusing to read. GOMEN!! This will be my attempt to rectify my mistake. But first review responses, I think you guys deserve them!
Raiko qotal: I'm glad you liked this! Yeah, the main theme was on friendship, best friends, and special friends. (I believe there are more levels to friendships than just friends and best friend. To me a special friend is more important. After all, they say friends are your chosen family!) Oh! And thank you for telling me that quote was from Rurouni Kenshin! I'm pretty sure I heard it somewhere else but it's just so hard to keep track of everything... Thanks for reviewing!
Sapphire Angel: I know I said this before, but thank you so much for wanting to use this as a reference! I hope these changes make everything less confusing! And thanks for the compliment! Sometimes my choice of words just make everyone more confused... -.-'' And I love your stories so I will continue to read them!!
Titangirl161: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! HAPPY BITHDAY!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! See! I told you I'd eventually start posting my stories!! I'm glad someone likes my stuff! You're the first person (before here, there's so many nice people who don't flame me for being computer challenged!) that hasn't laughed at me in my face for my writing! I really should post the next chapter on my newest story, [(The sad story of a lonely little boy) why is everything I write angst or drama?! Maybe 'cuz I'm an optomistic pessimist... -.-] but I need someone to basically kick me in the butt and yell "Post the next chapter already darn you!" for motivation...I hate being lazy... um? HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Hieisbestbuddy888: Thank you!! (runs up and squeezes Hieisbestbuddy888 almost to death before releasing from bear hug) I'm sooooooooo GLAD that you liked my story. I can't tell you how HONORED I am that you would actually print out this story and show it to others. (sobs someone liked it, they actually liked it! Bawling) I'm not all that good with words myself, (though I try and fail miserably) thank you so much for that morale booster!!
DeathglareQueen: (looks at name) ...does that mean you can beat Hiei in a glaring contest? (sorry about the bad joke! -.-'') Well this is a one-shot, unless you count the review and author's note as writing more?
Yu yu luvr: Congratulations!! You are my very first reviewer on !! I'm glad you liked it, I was really afraid that no one would like it and I would get all these bad flames from people saying "you suck! Why do you even bother posting?!" but everyone here is so nice, no one has told me off yet... Really? It's the most accurate thing you've read about Hiei? (jumps for joy!) I was trying to keep them all in character, I hoped it met up to everyone's expectations. Thank you for the compliment and for reviewing my fic!
DISCLAIMER: I do not own the rights to Yu Yu Hakusho or to any other manga/comic/or anime and never will. I do happen to own some of the manga, (huggles manga possessively) I do own this fic, the song used in this fic, and my own demented imagination! PLEASE ENJOY!!
OKAY!! Now onto the way this is supposed to be!!
"A Song For the Lonely"
It was dark. Night had fallen early, covering the sky with a
blanket of ominous dark clouds. They had hovered mischievously all
afternoon until early evening when they delivered their held back fury.
Immediately torrents of raindrops cascaded down in heavy sheets; the
outburst sent everyone scrambling to the nearest safe haven to wait
for the angry waters to relent. Lightening flashed momentarily as
thunder rolled across the sky; only heightening the ferocity of the
storm. The tempest charged through the city, never letting up on it's
assault. Lightening glared across the sky once more as thunder
sounded in retaliation. The endless downpour of rain struck homes
and trees, the little rivers continuously flowing downwards to connect
with the surged ground.
And on this night we find a group of young adolescents trapped
inside due to the storm. Lights are on within the house; the window
was emitting white-yellow rays into the inky blackness. They are
gathered in the neat living room patiently loitering around for the
storm to break. The nine mostly placed themselves around the
rectangular coffee table.
A boy with light brown hair and almond eyes sat in a folding chair
at the end of the table. He had the word Jr on his forehead and a sky
blue pacifier in his mouth. He talked softly; the pacifier interfering
slightly with his speech, and tried to act cool and nonchalant.
On the couch to his left sat a peppy, overly cheerful girl with blue
hair tied up into a high ponytail. She had original brightly sparkling
amethyst eyes and was constantly smiling. She struck up a
conversation to help lighten things up.
Next to the bubbly girl was a boy with jet-black hair combed back
and secured by liberal amounts of gel. His warm chocolate eyes shone
with amusement and playfulness. Ha added his unwelcome thoughts
to the conversation, earning him a hard slap across the face by the
blue haired girl and the girl sitting on his other side.
"Geez Botan!" he addressed the blue haired girl, "That wasn't for
you! It was for Kei-"
"Yusuke you jerk!" A dark brown haired and red eyed girl in a
blue school uniform screeched, then SLAP! Yusuke now had three
handprints across his face.
"Man Keiko! You hit harder than most demons!" Yusuke
complained holding the cheek that had been smacked. Keiko only
glared.
On the loveseat next to Keiko's left sat a petite girl wearing a soft,
ice blue kimono. Her hair was the same soft blue, with maybe just a
tint if mint green, and she had bright ruby red eyes. She watched as
Botan and Keiko resumed beating Yusuke mercilessly after more
inappropriate comments while making sure he didn't escape over the
coffee table.
"Kuwabara! A little help will ya!" Yusuke called, while trying to
defend himself.
The petite girl looked over to the boy sharing the couch with her.
He was laughing stupidly as he watched Yusuke's beating.
"Kazuma?" she asked softly and naively, "Won't Yusuke need
your help?"
"Hahahaha! Urameshi's getting his butt whipped by a bunch of
girls! This is priceless!" The orange haired, horse faced (Yes, I'm
sorry, his face really reminds me of a horse's) Kazuma Kuwabara
replied until the older girl on his left started kicking the crp (Oh! Bad
language! Couldn't help myself, besides it fits nicely. I promise that's
the only one. :P) out of him.
"Like you should talk little bro. You're always getting your butt
kicked," a tall brown haired, brown-eyed teenager said semi-furiously.
"Ah! Stop! Okay! Shizuru-stop-hitting-me!" Kuwabara
whimpered. So she being the loving sister that she is (note the
sarcasm) Shizuru continued to kill him for whining.
The first boy raised his voice slightly, "Botan, Keiko, Shizuru, I
would like it if my spirit detectives were still living thank you."
"Oh, sorry Koenma sir," Botan apologized. The three stopped
from their torture and spared Yusuke and Kuwabara-for now. Shizuru
sat back in the folding chair while Kuwabara shrank away from her,
closer to the petite girl.
"Yukina my love, can you please use your healing powers to heal
all my booboos?" he asked pathetically. Yukina was about to answer
when Shizuru punched him upside the head.
In-between Shizuru and Koenma sat another boy in a folding chair.
Sitting elegantly, and quietly watching the havoc unfold in his living
room, he spoke optimistically, trying to dissolve the tension building
up, "Since the storm shows no sign of letting up, we'll be staying here
for a while. Why don't we turn this situation into something fun?
How about a party?" His voice was melodious, having a tone that
showed intelligence and maturity.
Immediately the tension evaporated as everyone became animated
and excited. "That's a great idea!" Botan chirped.
"Yeah! This'll be fun!" Kuwabara yelled.
"Hey Kurama?" Yusuke asked.
Deep emerald eyes turned to him. "Yes Yusuke?" he asked
politely.
"Do you have anything to eat?" as he said so Yusuke's stomach
growled. Putting a hand to the back of his head he laughed weakly.
Kurama smiled slightly and answered, "Of course Yusuke." He
stood up and said, "I'll get some refreshments. There are games in the
basement and you are welcome to turn on the radio if you like." He
then exited the room and went to the kitchen.
Yusuke and Kuwabara got up and bolted down to the basement
and Keiko turned on the radio. The two returned with their arms laden
with games. Instantly they started to fight over what they would play
first. More of the seven joined in and Yukina just watched as the
others squabbled. Across the room a smaller boy say on the window
ledge with one leg drawn up to his chest, held in place by his arms and
his foot resting lightly on the sill. His other leg dangled down. He
wore all black except for a white scarf around his neck and a white
bandanna. He had midnight black hair that was spiked up with a white
starburst, and deep red eyes like Yukina, but cold, and his facial
features were hardened. He looked on as the others quarreled with
one another.
Hn. Bakas. He thought and turned, disgusted, to look out the
window. As ever the tempest ruthlessly and maliciously continued.
He felt a connection to the storm; it was how he felt right now. Cold.
Uncaring. Unforgiving. Harsh. He only wished that it would let up so
he wouldn't have to be trapped with the idiots. (bakas! That's such a
fun word! :P)
Kurama came back in with some chips, pretzels, fruit, and just for
Yusuke, a cup of ramen. He also brought out a pitcher of iced tea and
poured for his guests.
After everyone was content, the redhead mover over to the
smaller boy sitting on the windowpane. "Hiei?" he asked softly. A
moment after he received no response Kurama tried again. "Hiei? I
brought you some iced tea?"
Hiei turned around and took the glass without a word, then
continued to scowl out the window. Kurama's eyes began to cloud
with worry. Before he could open his mouth to ask if Hiei was all
right the boy cut in,
"I'm fine, fox," Hiei said, sounding slightly irritated.
Kurama sighed inaudibly and rejoined the others, who were trying
to teach Keiko and Yukina how to play poker.
"Hey let's make this interesting," Yusuke began, "We should play
strip poker!" SLAP! WHACK! CRACK! Shizuru, Botan, and Keiko
all clobbered Yusuke while Yukina sat innocently looking confused.
The night progressed and began to slip into early morning. The
eight played various games that brought forth much laughter and
some new lumps on the head to Kuwabara and Yusuke. Hiei
continued to glare out through the glass and refused to join the others
no matter how many times they asked him.
A song then came on the radio and as it played a certain antisocial
person named Hiei found himself in deep thought.
The DJ's voice said, "All right! And now for some new music! It's
called "A Song For the Lonely." Soft slow music appeared. The
words were sung soft and slow like the music but held a sadness to it.
(Just so you know, in every 4th line the word 'song' and each syllable
in 'lonely' are held out slightly. And as for the comments in-between
the song can be seen as a narration or as Hiei's thoughts –take your
pick!)
"A look with sad eyes,
a person with no one to love,
no one to hold,
this is a song for the lonely."
Yes, that was true. No one loved him or wanted to be
around him. Not that he wanted anyone's company. Emotions are
worthless, they make you weak. He had no one and knew that he was
truly alone.
"People who are afraid,
don't know how to be happy,
always running away from their light,
this is a song for the lonely."
He was the Forbidden Child, he was never supposed to be here.
He continues to shame the word with his presence; he didn't deserve
happiness. He was cast away, into the darkness, no light shines on his
world. –He deserved his world of pain.
"Emotions locked up inside,
tries their best to hide from the world,
don't want to hurt anymore,
this is song for the lonely."
He had suffered a lot in the time that he had lived. The fierce
world in which he was raised and resided, until currently, had been
cold, dark, and cruel. There you lived in pain, you ate in pain, slept in
pain, walked in pain, everything was pain, and fear. His past was not
something he cared to think about. Raised by bandits (Really? I don't
know, evidence points that way. {plus I haven't seen all of the
manga/anime yet) and assassins (see last comment.) there was no
love. Everything he knew or felt was locked up inside. Rage, Anger,
Determination, Bloodlust, Scorn, HATE! That's all he knew and he
tried hard to keep all those negative feelings boiling inside him locked
up tight.
"Lived in a cold world of hate and pain,
had to be strong and stand tall,
show no one their weaknesses,
this is a song for the lonely."
The world was a sinister place and nothing would ever
change that. Only the strong survive and the weak perish. (I know this
is probably from something but I don't know what it is [I know now,
Rurouni Kenshin! Thank you Raiko qotal!] but I can assure you I
don't own it either.) –who cared about them? The most
cutthroat and vile of them all, alone, were allowed to survive.
Everything else didn't matter. Stronger- always getting stronger, that
was the only goal, the only rule in which to live. The strong eradicated
the week- they didn't deserve to live anyway for exposing what could
bring them down. He would never be so stupid as to show anyone his
weak po- He HAD NO weak point. That is why he has survived so
long.
"Shut out every concerned voice,
refused every helping hand,
looked away from all worried eyes,
this is a song for the lonely."
He allowed no one to be near him. No one? NO ONE.
Companionship –pheh! No one would ever care about someone like
him, but then why do they look at him like that? Why do they act that-
that way? He never understood and chose to look away, to ignore,
block them out. Even through all that they still wanted to hel- NO! He
didn't need any help; he needed nothing from no one. But they seemed
to give him –something- anyway, what was it? He didn't know. He
only needed to be alone, but did he want to?
"Can't admit that feeling's nice,
that strange feeling that comes when they smile,
but will never make it known,
this is a song for the lonely."
They had been together all night, playing games, laughing, even
singing in merriment. I t was more pleasant to the ear to hear their
laughter hang joyfully light upon the air instead of the usual screams
that filled everything with fear and dread. And what was it that
happened to him when he saw them happy? Every time they so much
as smiled a tiny little pull in his heart shifted upwards. Heart? He
didn't have a heart. But even if he did –which he constantly told
himself he didn't- he certainly wouldn't let them see that they had an
effect on him.
"This is the only way he knows,
to protect these people that are friends,
what are friends?
This is a song for the lonely."
He distanced himself from everyone, he didn't need them, so why
would he protect them? Friends? He didn't know the meaning of the
word, it held no worth for anyone like him. Hm. Friend.
flashback: Kurama is explaining what a friend is
Afriend is always by your side, through whatever circumstances
they will always support you, guide you, and just be there to help
you even if you don't even realize it. Nothing can break the special
bond that friends have and it lasts forever. I remember a quote I
heard once. 'A friend is a person who knows the song to your soul,
and sings it back to you when you have forgotten the words.' Does
that answer your question?" he finished with a slight chuckle.
(That's my senior quote in the yearbook so I own that at least.)
"Hn, friendship, what a pitiful and worthless idea."
end flashback
or was it? He didn't know anymore, but confused as he may have
become he remained impassive.
"Head and heart are filled with pain,
filled with confusion and cold exteriors,
what was happening?
this is a song for the lonely."
His thinking all led in one direction. Pain, loneliness, confusion,
and how to cover it all up. (I think this is getting kinda redundant. I
might have lost where I was going with this b/c I kept on getting
interrupted. Grr.) But something -odd- was happening. And it wasn't
just now but it had started a long time ago and gradually grew. What
was going on?
"Time has passed,
he might understand,
even though he acts the same,
this is a song for the lonely."
Yes. Much timehas passed since everything had started, started
without him –or anyone else- even noticing. They all had changed and
now he could understand.
"Now that the song is sung,
"Hiei?" a melodious voice called softly.
know that,
He turned to look at who had called his name.
you are not alone,
"Hiei? You look so lonely over there by yourself, please, come join us."
Hiei continued to look at Kurama and remembered: "A friend is
always by your side, through whatever circumstances they will
always support you, guide you, and just be there to help you even if
you don't even realize it. Nothing can break the special bond that
friends have and it lasts forever." So these were his friends? The
word seemed so strange but it just felt so right. Another pull on his
heart and it didn't feel strange. The storm, too, had changed, instantly
stopping and the clouds cleared away to let sunshine through.
He answered with his trademark 'Hn' but came over and sat with the
rest anyway. He truly wasn't alone-
-not anymore."
OKAY!! Well, since you're already down here...PLEASE REVIEW!! I MEAN YOU ARE ALREADY AT THE END AND THE 'GO' BUTTON IS PRACTICALLY SLAPPING YOU IN THE FACE! So hopefully this will make it less confusing for all and I apologize for the bad upload the first time (sure, blame it on being computer challenged :P) For anyone who didn't review the first time or didn't know this even existed please leave a review! Whether it's a simple smiley face or "This absolutely sucks!" will make this authoress very happy for ANY feedback. Ugh...it sounds like I'm begging.... Also anyone who reviewed the first time is welcome to tell me if this is less confusing! Again, GOMEN for all the confusion, and PLEASE REVIEW!!!!!!!!