MIA:
We went back to his apartment after the show. We left separately though so that no pictures would be taken of us together at his place. Lars led me to an unmarked car that took me to the back entrance of his building.
I got there before he did because he had been walking with his guitar and with Denis's as well. I luckily had the key he had given me months ago. I walked into the darkened apartment and went into his bedroom.We hadn't made love since that first time. I'll admit this much, I was kind of scared of it. It made me feel...I dunno, different. Grown up almost. And he hadn't pressured me to do it again either, which kind of makes me nervous. I mean, was I that bad?
I looked out his window at the people walking by. I looked for him. He was no where to be seen. He must have taken a scenic route.
"Who you looking for?" he asked coming up behind me, placing his hands on my waist.
I jumped in surprise, "Oh, hey. Didn't hear you come in," I replied.
"I'm veddy veddy sneaky," he said, mimicking the character from Mr. Deeds (the butler dude).
"You know I can't resist a man with an accent!" I joked.
He used his remote to turn on the stereo. One of our songs (we have a ton of them), Forever Came Today (by his closet favorite, Jackson Five), came out of his speakers:
Ever, forever, ever, and ever and ever
(Ever, forever, ever, and ever and ever)
There you are standing there reaching out for me
Something warm in your eyes touched my heart
And all the love I never knew I found in you
Suddenly, my world, my life was standing still
And you touched my hand I knew that we had laid a plain
For everlasting love I'm forever dreaming of
At last, at last
My forever came today
When you walked into my life (Made my lonely life a paradise)
(It came today, forever came today) Ooh, look into my eyes and see how much I want you
Feel my touch, you know how much I need you
I may be young, but I'm old enough to know
Look at me, I will never let it go Let this moment thrill me a lifetime
Make it last, make it last Make it last forever (Ever, forever)
Make it last forever (ever and ever and ever) (Ever, forever, ever , and ever and ever)
Darling, ooh, my darling make me yours
As I touch your face
Tell me love has led me (Led me)
To this place and your warm embrace
Thanks to you, thanks to you my search has ended
And I want the world to see how gently love has shined on me (Shined on me)
With everlasting love (Everlasting love)
That I been forever dreaming of
At last, at last My forever came today
When you walked into my life (Walked, walked into my life) (My my lonely life a paradise (It came today, forever came today)
(It came today, forever came today)
Ooh, you give me love by the hour
Ooh, you're my precious little flower
Girl, you give me so much sweetness
Ooh, you give my life completeness Make it last for more than just a day
Make it last for more than just an hour Make it last forever
"Oh Michael Moscovitz, you know what Michael Jackson does to me," I said with a giggle.
"He better not do anything to do," he said, starting to dance with me. "I liked having you closer to me while I played tonight."
"I liked being closer to you," I said with a smile. "And being your water bitch," I teased.
"You didn't need to get my water for me. I'm sooo sure Sheila would have," he joked.
"What was with her anyways?"
"She's kind of weird. I met her the first day of class and she's kind of...well, she isn't in that Lydia girls league, let's say that much about her. But she's like a lost puppy dog following me around. Can I help it if I am a computer God and she adores me?" he teased.
"Michael. You are very attractive rock god, and the girls-"
He stopped my words with a kiss. He pulled back, "The other girls don't matter. Only you do, babe."
We danced in place for a little while longer, and then we laid in his bed.
We laid face to face. "Mia, we don't have to do anything," he said, reading my mind.
"Are you sure?" I asked.
"Mia, we can wait to do that again as long as you like. Keep in mind that the condoms do expire in 2007."
I giggled, "I'm sure we can get comfortable with all of this by then, don't you?"
He kissed my cheek, "I already am..."
MICHAEL:
I stood up a little while later and put on my coat. "Put yours on too," I said, throwing it at her.
"A boyfriend asking the girl to put MORE clothes on?" she asked with a laugh.
"I am not the average boyfriend."
After she put on her coat I took her hand and brought her to the elevator. "Where are we going?" she asked.
"You'll see," I replied. "Come on, we're going upstairs."
I brought her up to my building's roof. Snow had started to fall softly. I thought about last years first snow and our almost kiss. Her face exploded in a smile, "Michael, you can see everywhere from here!"
She walked to the edge of the building and I came up behind her. I lifted a box out of my pocket. I had been feeling terrible about the lack of time I was able to make it to her apartment lately so I bought her a small present. I took it out of it's box silently and placed it around her neck. "Michael? WHat is this for?"
"For being you," I replied. "For dealing with all my crap."
She fingered the charm at the end of the necklace, a snowflake to represent the moment that we both realized our feelings for one another. It was almost a year ago.
"You didn't have to," she whispered. "I mean, I know you don't have a lot of money-"
"I don't pay rent," I reminded her, "And I'm always working. It's fine, I promise."
SHe smiled, "I don't have a thing for you," she said carefully.
"I have you and that's all I want," I said huggin her tightly. A few minutes of silence go by as we watch the city going by below us. "Mia, you know what I worry about sometimes?"
She turned and looked surprised. "You worry? Boy wonder worries?" she teased.
"Mia..."
"Okay, what?"
"I worry that this is all just a dream. Or just a tiny part of our lives. I want to know that this is going to be just the beginning..."
"Michael," she said softly, her expression softening. "Of course it is only the beginning," she started. She held up her left hand and stuck out her ring finger. "Remember this? You are stuck with me!"
I smiled, "I know...but what if your grandmother-"
"Oh please! She has NO say in who I date or marry. And in both cases that will only be you."
"I sound pathetic now, don't I?"
"No. I worry about those things too...like you'll realize that I'm a stupid sixteen year old princess who can bring you no happi-"
"Mia, that has got to be the stupidest thing I have ever heard of in my entire life. You are what brings happiness into my life. Do you have any idea how nice it is to come home after a shitty day and to find a card with a goofy picture on it from the one person you completely love and adore?"
She put her forehead on my chest, "I love you so much, Michael. I don't want something to happen to us..."
"Not on my watch," I whispered.
