It's my life
Chapter Two
Kristy allowed the water to cascade down her body as she stood in the shower. She closed her eyes and let the silent tears fall, the water washing them away. God, why was she doing this? She needed to be strong! She had to be strong! She was a Shark, she was relied on by hundreds of people and being weak could get her friends killed among hundreds of more innocent people. She couldn't live with herself if that happened. So many things had happened to her in her life and she wasn't ready, or willing, to allow that to be one of them.
Kristy took a deep breath and sighed. Why was her childhood lines with so many tragedies? What god would do that to such a happy, go-lucky girl like she used to be. That she was still pretending to be.
Kristy let the memories wash over her as the water was......
*****
Eleven year old Kristy ran around the soccer field, panting a little bit and keeping her eye on her defensemen. She didn't want to get too close to her own goal because then it would be more difficult to get back to the other team's. Kristy was the center in this certain soccer team and she definitely felt proud about it.
Kristy watched as Kaly Fresher went up to the other team's center and kicked the ball away from her. Kristy grinned as she started backing up and was rewarded with her ease when the ball headed straight for her and she was able to turn around and make a break for the other goal.
There was one defenseman waiting for her but it was obvious that she didn't know what she was doing. So Kristy quickly side-stepped her and raced for the goal, kicking a perfect one in, past the goal and...
SCORE!!!
Kristy beamed and was instantly surronded by the teammates that had headed up the field after her for support. They all gave a quick hug and then headed back down the field to take the ball from the center again.
The score was three all and there was about a minute left. That meant someone had to get a goal or it would go into overtime. Kristy motioned to her team mates and they all nodded, knowing that Kristy wanted to score that last goal, or least assist someone for it. The defensemen were ready to do their part and then the whistle sounded and the game was in motion again.
Kristy rushed the person with the ball, knowing that they would have no time to think and would just pass, which was usually their fumbling. And this was no exception. She ended up passing her ball to her left where there was four of Kristy's own team. Kristy smirked and shrugged at the other center and then jogged up field while her teammates fought for the ball.
It took a little bit longer than she would have liked but they got the ball to her and then Kristy ran up field. This time she had about twenty seconds to make it up the field and to score. And this team wasn't going to make it easy for her. They knew that if they just held it off for another little bit, they would have to go into overtime and that would make it easier for them to win.
Kristy wasn't about to make it easier for them to win. Not one little bit.
Kristy side-stepped a bunch of them but then ran into problems when three of them charged her. Kristy took a quick look around, saw Brenda on her right and passed it. They hadn't been expecting that since they knew that Brenda wasn't a great dribbler, or so they had been shown as they had played. But that was the trick.
Brenda was the best dribbler on their team, she had purposely led their opponent astray. Now she was making up for that by fancy dribble past everyone against her. Suddenly the crowd began to count down the remaining seconds.
FIVE
Brenda took a quick look at Kristy who shook her head, no this wasn't a good time to pass to her. Brenda was going to have to shoot it by herself without Kristy.
FOUR
Brenda went around another player and then backed her foot up a bit.
THREE
Brenda took a deep breath and shot.
TWO
The goalie went up to stop the ball.
ONE
The goalie fell short and just before the whistle blew, the ball hit the net
"YES!" Came the roar from the crowd and the whole team was around Kristy at the same time, all hugging and laughing and squealing. They had won! They were the champions! No one could think of anything else and they all grinned from ear to ear when the couch came up to them with the trophy in her hand.
"Well cougars-" The couch started with a grin. "We've won the championship trophy!" Everyone yelled and cheered. The couch waited for them all to calm down before continueing on. "I think that we all should go and head for the showers so that we can go home without smelling up the cars." Everyone laughed at that. "Pizza lunch after school on friday, alright?"
Again everyone cheered and then it was a race for the locker room so that they could all shower. Kristy was the last one in and she took her time getting out of her clothes and hanging them up in the shower room. With her eyes to the ground, she stepped under the spray and let it wash all of the game's dirt and sweat away.
She could hear the other girls leave as she continued to shower, she didn't care. She waited until they were all gone before stepping out of the shower, wrapping the towel around her and then heading for her gym locker.
"Great game Kristy!" Ashley said as she left the gym change room. She was the last one left and Kristy was glad of that, she didn't want to face anyone after the game. She didn't want anyone to realize that their star player was the only one without a ride home and yet the only one with the stubbornness to not accept one.
Kristy quickly pulled on her clothes and then brushed her hair with the ever present brush. With a last stroke, she put the brush back in her locker and closed it up. It was time to walk home...
Kristy slipped her backpack on as she looked out. It was raining, just her luck. Kristy gritted her teeth and then headed for the fence, which she jumped over and then continued down the road.
Thankfully the school was only about twenty minutes from her house, however that was still far enough away that she was going to get soaking wet by the time she got home. She could probably head back to the school and phone her mother to come and get her but she didn't feel like it. Besides it was past four o'clock, her mother was probably into her third beer by now.
Kristy despised her mother's drinking habit. It was gross and embarassing. How could she bring her friends over to her house if her entire house smelt like beer? It just didn't work. She didn't want anyone to know about that. No one needed to know. The only reason that Daniel did was because he lived right next door. He was over every day, if not more, so he knew but he had promised not to ever tell anyone.
Kristy sighed as she felt the rain water drip down her neck and down her back. She was going to have to take another shower when she got home to get rid of the cold feeling that was slowly soaking into her bones. Either that or she would have to make a fire that she could sit next to while she dried up.
She watched as cars drove past her and she wished that she could be in one of them but she knew that that wouldn't happen and so she just kept walking, ignoring the protests of her legs which knew that she was working them too hard.
Behind her she heard the sound of a bike bell and she sighed, stepping aside. She waited for the annoying person to ride past but it didn't happen. Instead, someone touched her shoulder. She turned and saw Daniel.
"Want a ride?" Daniel asked as he pointed to his two-seater bike that he always 'borrowed' from his parents. "I don't know why but it just doesn't go fast when there's only one person on it."
Kristy grinned and rolled her eyes. "Did I ever tell you that I'm going to marry you when I grow up?" Kristy said jokingly and then climbed on the back. "Ready?"
"Of course I'm ready."
"You know," Kristy said with a thought as she waited for them to right their balance. "If you keep doing stuff like this, people are going to start thinking that we're going out." Kristy said with a laugh.
Daniel said nothing but turned around and Kristy knew that his look was telling her 'so'.
"Should we go?" Kristy asked, trying to pull herself out of the embarassing moment.
Daniel nodded and they peddled, in a sync that would have made anyone watching them jealous. Kristy didn't know how they did it but they were good at it. They didn't even have to look at each other to know how fast the other wanted to go. It was perfect and it was going to get Kristy home that much sooner.
Kristy and Daniel made it to the front of their houses and both climbed off the bike. "Thanks." Kristy said with a smile.
"Your welcome." Daniel said with a quick wave though Kristy could see the blush on the twelve year old's face. Kristy grinned at that and then rushed into her house.
"Mom!" Kristy called into the empty-seeming house. She knew that both of her brothers were gone to a friend's house and that the baby was probably sleeping. "Mom!"
"I'm upstairs." Came the reply. Kristy sighed, the tone told her that her mother was drunk again, already.
"Alright." Kristy forced a happy tone in her voice.
"Make dinner."
Kristy sighed. She should have known that her mother's first priority for Kristy was for her to make dinner. There was no use telling her mother that she was soaked and really should go and change. It would just make her mother ream her out for not phoning and asking for a ride.
Kristy looked in the cupboards and wasn't surprised to find that half of them were empty. Her mother didn't like going to the grocery store and so, unless Kristy's mother had a miracle happen to her, Kristy would end up having to go to the grocery store later. And in this weather too. Kristy sighed.
Kristy made a quick batch of macaroni and cheese and rushed a plate of it to Kristy's mother and then headed for her room. By now her clothes were sticking to her and she was soaked thoroughly. Kristy changed into a pair of pj's, the warmest she could find, and sat down to do her homework.
She finished her homework at about eight o'clock and then slid into her bed so that she could read for another hour or two. She didn't look up from her book until about nine-thirty when a light was flashed into her eye. Kristy look at the window and saw that Daniel was sitting in his room at his window.
Kristy got up and waved to Daniel. Daniel waved back and then grinned.
Kristy shook her head and then closed her window and drew the curtains. With that she headed to her bed to go to sleep.
*****
Kristy yawned as she woke up and rubbed her eyes as she looked over at the alarm clock on the side table. Kristy blinked as the numbers just appeared to be fuzzy in her vision and she shook her head. It was seven-thirty. "DAMNIT!" Kristy jumped up and ran around her room, changing her clothes and then ran into the bathroom to brush her teeth, comb her hair and etc.
Kristy ran downstairs and into the kitchen, to find her mother sitting there with her first bottle half-empty in her hand. "About time you decided to get up." Kristy's mother commented and then motioned to the dishes that lay on the counter. "Wash the dishes and then make us breakfast." With that Kristy's mother disappeared into the living room where Kristy could hear her brothers were already.
Kristy quickly filled the sink up with hot water and did the dishes. It took about fifteen minutes at her current speed and without breaking her momentum, Kristy started cooking eggs for her brothers. As the eggs began to fry, Kristy rubbed at her eyes again. She hadn't gotten to bed until really late last night since she had a science test the next day. She and Daniel had studied together until about ten when Kristy's mother sent Daniel back home. They had gone over a lot but not enough. In fact, Kristy didn't consider it enough revision until about midnight when she could no longer tell one word from another. Too much studying, she guessed. It was dumb that a teacher should just go 'oh yeah, and you're having a test tomorrow'. Giving someone like Kristy one day to study for anything was **not** good.
Kristy shook her head and sighed, she didn't even remember anything that she had studied at the moment. Hopefully that was because of her state of exhaustion right now and not because of her lack of actual knowledge. She wasn't going to fail this test, she knew that but she still wanted to do well enough that she was one of the top in her class. Kristy yawned and then turned the eggs. Today was going to be a long day. A long day indeed.
Kristy dished out the eggs quickly and then raced back upstairs to pile everything into her backpack. Then she ran out the door, yelling at her mother that she was going to go and pick up Daniel. They could both head for their tree at school and study a little bit more and that should make all the difference at the test.
Kristy went up to Daniel's door and knocked on it. There was signs of movement inside of the house but no one came to open the door. Kristy rolled her eyes and knocked again, louder this time. Again, no one came to the door. Kristy rolled her eyes and stooped down, grabbing the extra key from it's hiding place and then unlocking the door, then placing the key back. Kristy walked into the house and turned to go into the living room, only to freeze.
Daniel was there.
Daniel was kissing someone.
Daniel was in there, kissing someone and it wasn't her.
Daniel somehow figured out that someone was watching him because he allowed the mystery girl to breath and turned around. He spotted Kristy and his jaw dropped. "Kristy?"
Kristy didn't wait around for an explaination. She just took off out of Daniel's house and down the road, heading straight for school and her tree. Kristy ran past people and kept her head down so that none of the people she was passing would know that she was crying. She could hear Daniel calling her name from his house but she ignored it, she really didn't want to talk to him right now.
Kristy ran into the forest next to her school and headed straight for the tree. Kristy crawled into it's hollow opening and threw her backpack in the corner. Then Kristy began to really cry, not caring if anyone heard her.
What in the hell was going on? Kristy asked herself as she tried to get ahold of herself after awhile. Why was she so upset? She should have known that Daniel was eventually going to get a girlfriend or something. It was dumb to think that he wouldn't. But why was she so unhappy about it. Without wanting it to, an answer came to her.
Because you always wanted it to be you.
Kristy signed and continued to cry, hearing the bell go off in the distance. Oh well, she was in no mood to go to any classes now. They could all just disappear for all she cared. She wasn't going to go in there and besides, she could always make up her science test tomorrow or on monday or something. She really wasn't going to do anyone any good by going into the school right now.
The second bell rang and Kristy cried harder, now knowing that there was definitely no one that could hear her cry now. Everyone was now inside the school and there wasn't going to be anyone coming to look for her. Daniel probably thought that she was in the bathroom and that she would come out in the second period. He probably wouldn't notice her absentance until he wanted to walk home; the jerk.
"Kristy?" Someone called her name about fifteen minutes later. "Kristy?"
Kristy moved furthur into the hollow tree, she wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone right now. Kristy refused to admit that she was there, especially when she was crying too much to even recognize the voice that was calling her.
"Kristy!" Daniel stuck his head in the tree. "Kristy? Listen I don't know what's wrong with you but-"
Kristy pushed Daniel out of her tree and then leaped out and ran away again. She didn't know where she was running this time she just knew that she was running. Then she felt something fall on her legs and bring her to the ground, looking behind her, Kristy saw that it wasd Daniel.
"Kristy! Listen to me!" Daniel demanded and then sighed. "Sheesh, you sure can run."
"Shut up!" Kristy commanded. "Shut up and leave me alone!"
Daniel shook his head. "I'm sorry that you saw that. I didn't mean to hurt you. But I'm not your boyfriend so that's alright for me to do, right?"
Kristy didn't answer.
Daniel sighed. "Why does it matter so much that I kissed someone else?"
Kristy didn't answer.
"Kristy! Tell me!"
Kristy sighed and got up, brushing herself off. "Because I like you." Kristy said and then ran off again and this time Daniel didn't follow...
*****
Kristy sighed and let the water wash away the memories and the tears again. It was so depressing to have to go through this over and over again. Why couldn't she just let these things go? Why couldn't she just let her past be her past and stop remembering it? It wasn't relevent now. She shouldn't want it. Right? Right! So why wasn't it that simple?
Kristy heard the door opening from behind her and smiled as clothes whispered against skin. Kristy didn't turn around until she felt skin press against her. Then she looked up into the eyes of tonight's lover. "Help me forget?"
He nodded and proceeded to do so.
Even if it was only for a little while.
Chapter Two
Kristy allowed the water to cascade down her body as she stood in the shower. She closed her eyes and let the silent tears fall, the water washing them away. God, why was she doing this? She needed to be strong! She had to be strong! She was a Shark, she was relied on by hundreds of people and being weak could get her friends killed among hundreds of more innocent people. She couldn't live with herself if that happened. So many things had happened to her in her life and she wasn't ready, or willing, to allow that to be one of them.
Kristy took a deep breath and sighed. Why was her childhood lines with so many tragedies? What god would do that to such a happy, go-lucky girl like she used to be. That she was still pretending to be.
Kristy let the memories wash over her as the water was......
*****
Eleven year old Kristy ran around the soccer field, panting a little bit and keeping her eye on her defensemen. She didn't want to get too close to her own goal because then it would be more difficult to get back to the other team's. Kristy was the center in this certain soccer team and she definitely felt proud about it.
Kristy watched as Kaly Fresher went up to the other team's center and kicked the ball away from her. Kristy grinned as she started backing up and was rewarded with her ease when the ball headed straight for her and she was able to turn around and make a break for the other goal.
There was one defenseman waiting for her but it was obvious that she didn't know what she was doing. So Kristy quickly side-stepped her and raced for the goal, kicking a perfect one in, past the goal and...
SCORE!!!
Kristy beamed and was instantly surronded by the teammates that had headed up the field after her for support. They all gave a quick hug and then headed back down the field to take the ball from the center again.
The score was three all and there was about a minute left. That meant someone had to get a goal or it would go into overtime. Kristy motioned to her team mates and they all nodded, knowing that Kristy wanted to score that last goal, or least assist someone for it. The defensemen were ready to do their part and then the whistle sounded and the game was in motion again.
Kristy rushed the person with the ball, knowing that they would have no time to think and would just pass, which was usually their fumbling. And this was no exception. She ended up passing her ball to her left where there was four of Kristy's own team. Kristy smirked and shrugged at the other center and then jogged up field while her teammates fought for the ball.
It took a little bit longer than she would have liked but they got the ball to her and then Kristy ran up field. This time she had about twenty seconds to make it up the field and to score. And this team wasn't going to make it easy for her. They knew that if they just held it off for another little bit, they would have to go into overtime and that would make it easier for them to win.
Kristy wasn't about to make it easier for them to win. Not one little bit.
Kristy side-stepped a bunch of them but then ran into problems when three of them charged her. Kristy took a quick look around, saw Brenda on her right and passed it. They hadn't been expecting that since they knew that Brenda wasn't a great dribbler, or so they had been shown as they had played. But that was the trick.
Brenda was the best dribbler on their team, she had purposely led their opponent astray. Now she was making up for that by fancy dribble past everyone against her. Suddenly the crowd began to count down the remaining seconds.
FIVE
Brenda took a quick look at Kristy who shook her head, no this wasn't a good time to pass to her. Brenda was going to have to shoot it by herself without Kristy.
FOUR
Brenda went around another player and then backed her foot up a bit.
THREE
Brenda took a deep breath and shot.
TWO
The goalie went up to stop the ball.
ONE
The goalie fell short and just before the whistle blew, the ball hit the net
"YES!" Came the roar from the crowd and the whole team was around Kristy at the same time, all hugging and laughing and squealing. They had won! They were the champions! No one could think of anything else and they all grinned from ear to ear when the couch came up to them with the trophy in her hand.
"Well cougars-" The couch started with a grin. "We've won the championship trophy!" Everyone yelled and cheered. The couch waited for them all to calm down before continueing on. "I think that we all should go and head for the showers so that we can go home without smelling up the cars." Everyone laughed at that. "Pizza lunch after school on friday, alright?"
Again everyone cheered and then it was a race for the locker room so that they could all shower. Kristy was the last one in and she took her time getting out of her clothes and hanging them up in the shower room. With her eyes to the ground, she stepped under the spray and let it wash all of the game's dirt and sweat away.
She could hear the other girls leave as she continued to shower, she didn't care. She waited until they were all gone before stepping out of the shower, wrapping the towel around her and then heading for her gym locker.
"Great game Kristy!" Ashley said as she left the gym change room. She was the last one left and Kristy was glad of that, she didn't want to face anyone after the game. She didn't want anyone to realize that their star player was the only one without a ride home and yet the only one with the stubbornness to not accept one.
Kristy quickly pulled on her clothes and then brushed her hair with the ever present brush. With a last stroke, she put the brush back in her locker and closed it up. It was time to walk home...
Kristy slipped her backpack on as she looked out. It was raining, just her luck. Kristy gritted her teeth and then headed for the fence, which she jumped over and then continued down the road.
Thankfully the school was only about twenty minutes from her house, however that was still far enough away that she was going to get soaking wet by the time she got home. She could probably head back to the school and phone her mother to come and get her but she didn't feel like it. Besides it was past four o'clock, her mother was probably into her third beer by now.
Kristy despised her mother's drinking habit. It was gross and embarassing. How could she bring her friends over to her house if her entire house smelt like beer? It just didn't work. She didn't want anyone to know about that. No one needed to know. The only reason that Daniel did was because he lived right next door. He was over every day, if not more, so he knew but he had promised not to ever tell anyone.
Kristy sighed as she felt the rain water drip down her neck and down her back. She was going to have to take another shower when she got home to get rid of the cold feeling that was slowly soaking into her bones. Either that or she would have to make a fire that she could sit next to while she dried up.
She watched as cars drove past her and she wished that she could be in one of them but she knew that that wouldn't happen and so she just kept walking, ignoring the protests of her legs which knew that she was working them too hard.
Behind her she heard the sound of a bike bell and she sighed, stepping aside. She waited for the annoying person to ride past but it didn't happen. Instead, someone touched her shoulder. She turned and saw Daniel.
"Want a ride?" Daniel asked as he pointed to his two-seater bike that he always 'borrowed' from his parents. "I don't know why but it just doesn't go fast when there's only one person on it."
Kristy grinned and rolled her eyes. "Did I ever tell you that I'm going to marry you when I grow up?" Kristy said jokingly and then climbed on the back. "Ready?"
"Of course I'm ready."
"You know," Kristy said with a thought as she waited for them to right their balance. "If you keep doing stuff like this, people are going to start thinking that we're going out." Kristy said with a laugh.
Daniel said nothing but turned around and Kristy knew that his look was telling her 'so'.
"Should we go?" Kristy asked, trying to pull herself out of the embarassing moment.
Daniel nodded and they peddled, in a sync that would have made anyone watching them jealous. Kristy didn't know how they did it but they were good at it. They didn't even have to look at each other to know how fast the other wanted to go. It was perfect and it was going to get Kristy home that much sooner.
Kristy and Daniel made it to the front of their houses and both climbed off the bike. "Thanks." Kristy said with a smile.
"Your welcome." Daniel said with a quick wave though Kristy could see the blush on the twelve year old's face. Kristy grinned at that and then rushed into her house.
"Mom!" Kristy called into the empty-seeming house. She knew that both of her brothers were gone to a friend's house and that the baby was probably sleeping. "Mom!"
"I'm upstairs." Came the reply. Kristy sighed, the tone told her that her mother was drunk again, already.
"Alright." Kristy forced a happy tone in her voice.
"Make dinner."
Kristy sighed. She should have known that her mother's first priority for Kristy was for her to make dinner. There was no use telling her mother that she was soaked and really should go and change. It would just make her mother ream her out for not phoning and asking for a ride.
Kristy looked in the cupboards and wasn't surprised to find that half of them were empty. Her mother didn't like going to the grocery store and so, unless Kristy's mother had a miracle happen to her, Kristy would end up having to go to the grocery store later. And in this weather too. Kristy sighed.
Kristy made a quick batch of macaroni and cheese and rushed a plate of it to Kristy's mother and then headed for her room. By now her clothes were sticking to her and she was soaked thoroughly. Kristy changed into a pair of pj's, the warmest she could find, and sat down to do her homework.
She finished her homework at about eight o'clock and then slid into her bed so that she could read for another hour or two. She didn't look up from her book until about nine-thirty when a light was flashed into her eye. Kristy look at the window and saw that Daniel was sitting in his room at his window.
Kristy got up and waved to Daniel. Daniel waved back and then grinned.
Kristy shook her head and then closed her window and drew the curtains. With that she headed to her bed to go to sleep.
*****
Kristy yawned as she woke up and rubbed her eyes as she looked over at the alarm clock on the side table. Kristy blinked as the numbers just appeared to be fuzzy in her vision and she shook her head. It was seven-thirty. "DAMNIT!" Kristy jumped up and ran around her room, changing her clothes and then ran into the bathroom to brush her teeth, comb her hair and etc.
Kristy ran downstairs and into the kitchen, to find her mother sitting there with her first bottle half-empty in her hand. "About time you decided to get up." Kristy's mother commented and then motioned to the dishes that lay on the counter. "Wash the dishes and then make us breakfast." With that Kristy's mother disappeared into the living room where Kristy could hear her brothers were already.
Kristy quickly filled the sink up with hot water and did the dishes. It took about fifteen minutes at her current speed and without breaking her momentum, Kristy started cooking eggs for her brothers. As the eggs began to fry, Kristy rubbed at her eyes again. She hadn't gotten to bed until really late last night since she had a science test the next day. She and Daniel had studied together until about ten when Kristy's mother sent Daniel back home. They had gone over a lot but not enough. In fact, Kristy didn't consider it enough revision until about midnight when she could no longer tell one word from another. Too much studying, she guessed. It was dumb that a teacher should just go 'oh yeah, and you're having a test tomorrow'. Giving someone like Kristy one day to study for anything was **not** good.
Kristy shook her head and sighed, she didn't even remember anything that she had studied at the moment. Hopefully that was because of her state of exhaustion right now and not because of her lack of actual knowledge. She wasn't going to fail this test, she knew that but she still wanted to do well enough that she was one of the top in her class. Kristy yawned and then turned the eggs. Today was going to be a long day. A long day indeed.
Kristy dished out the eggs quickly and then raced back upstairs to pile everything into her backpack. Then she ran out the door, yelling at her mother that she was going to go and pick up Daniel. They could both head for their tree at school and study a little bit more and that should make all the difference at the test.
Kristy went up to Daniel's door and knocked on it. There was signs of movement inside of the house but no one came to open the door. Kristy rolled her eyes and knocked again, louder this time. Again, no one came to the door. Kristy rolled her eyes and stooped down, grabbing the extra key from it's hiding place and then unlocking the door, then placing the key back. Kristy walked into the house and turned to go into the living room, only to freeze.
Daniel was there.
Daniel was kissing someone.
Daniel was in there, kissing someone and it wasn't her.
Daniel somehow figured out that someone was watching him because he allowed the mystery girl to breath and turned around. He spotted Kristy and his jaw dropped. "Kristy?"
Kristy didn't wait around for an explaination. She just took off out of Daniel's house and down the road, heading straight for school and her tree. Kristy ran past people and kept her head down so that none of the people she was passing would know that she was crying. She could hear Daniel calling her name from his house but she ignored it, she really didn't want to talk to him right now.
Kristy ran into the forest next to her school and headed straight for the tree. Kristy crawled into it's hollow opening and threw her backpack in the corner. Then Kristy began to really cry, not caring if anyone heard her.
What in the hell was going on? Kristy asked herself as she tried to get ahold of herself after awhile. Why was she so upset? She should have known that Daniel was eventually going to get a girlfriend or something. It was dumb to think that he wouldn't. But why was she so unhappy about it. Without wanting it to, an answer came to her.
Because you always wanted it to be you.
Kristy signed and continued to cry, hearing the bell go off in the distance. Oh well, she was in no mood to go to any classes now. They could all just disappear for all she cared. She wasn't going to go in there and besides, she could always make up her science test tomorrow or on monday or something. She really wasn't going to do anyone any good by going into the school right now.
The second bell rang and Kristy cried harder, now knowing that there was definitely no one that could hear her cry now. Everyone was now inside the school and there wasn't going to be anyone coming to look for her. Daniel probably thought that she was in the bathroom and that she would come out in the second period. He probably wouldn't notice her absentance until he wanted to walk home; the jerk.
"Kristy?" Someone called her name about fifteen minutes later. "Kristy?"
Kristy moved furthur into the hollow tree, she wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone right now. Kristy refused to admit that she was there, especially when she was crying too much to even recognize the voice that was calling her.
"Kristy!" Daniel stuck his head in the tree. "Kristy? Listen I don't know what's wrong with you but-"
Kristy pushed Daniel out of her tree and then leaped out and ran away again. She didn't know where she was running this time she just knew that she was running. Then she felt something fall on her legs and bring her to the ground, looking behind her, Kristy saw that it wasd Daniel.
"Kristy! Listen to me!" Daniel demanded and then sighed. "Sheesh, you sure can run."
"Shut up!" Kristy commanded. "Shut up and leave me alone!"
Daniel shook his head. "I'm sorry that you saw that. I didn't mean to hurt you. But I'm not your boyfriend so that's alright for me to do, right?"
Kristy didn't answer.
Daniel sighed. "Why does it matter so much that I kissed someone else?"
Kristy didn't answer.
"Kristy! Tell me!"
Kristy sighed and got up, brushing herself off. "Because I like you." Kristy said and then ran off again and this time Daniel didn't follow...
*****
Kristy sighed and let the water wash away the memories and the tears again. It was so depressing to have to go through this over and over again. Why couldn't she just let these things go? Why couldn't she just let her past be her past and stop remembering it? It wasn't relevent now. She shouldn't want it. Right? Right! So why wasn't it that simple?
Kristy heard the door opening from behind her and smiled as clothes whispered against skin. Kristy didn't turn around until she felt skin press against her. Then she looked up into the eyes of tonight's lover. "Help me forget?"
He nodded and proceeded to do so.
Even if it was only for a little while.