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Chapter 6 (A Real Friend)
Darien waited for Andrew outside the café for an hour before Andrew finally came out with casual clothing. Darien didn't tell Andrew he had stayed behind to talk to him, thinking that Andrew would try his best to avoid contact with him. So he waited for an hour before Andrew walked out. Darien walked casually over to him, trying to figure out what he wanted to say to him in his head. He decided first he would attempt normal conversation then get to the point. That would probably be best. "Hey, Andrew," Darien stated getting his attention.
"What are you doing here?" Andrew looked quite shocked and panic but Darien had expected this much.
"I was wonderin' if you have any free time to talk."
"I don't...know... maybe another tim-"
"ANDY, ANDY, ANDY!" A very small little girl bellowed as she ran out of the restaurant latching on to Andrew's leg tightly, tears streaming down the side of her cheeks. Andrew knelt down and embraced her tightly as he picked her off the ground, cooing her as he rocked her from side to side.
"Shhh, now baby. What happened?" Andrew asked the little girl soft. Darien stood there extremely uncomfortable and in shock. 'Who knew that... that playful person I met today actually has a kid. HEY! Don't assume that... it's probably his little sister or something. That has to be it.' Darien thought as Andrew stroked her hair completely oblivious to that fact that Darien was still standing there. "Lilly... calm down how about we go to the arcade for a little while ok," Lilly looked up from his shoulder and nodded. Andrew smiled then looked at Darien and blushed.
"Dare. MEET LILLYANN!" HE exclaimed as cheerfully as he possible could Lilly looked over at Darien. "Lilly this is a good friend of mine... His name is Darien and he will be joining us to the arcade." Andrew turned his attention back to Darien "If you want to talk we can talk over there. Is that okay with you?" Andrew still had a goofy smile. Darien smiled weakly back still in shock himself trying to figure out who this little girl was. He figured Andrew purposely left out that information in the introduction but felt it really wasn't any of his business.
As the walked to a close by arcade Darien just observed Andrews close relationship with Lilly. Andrew was acting as chipper and well clueless as he was at school. The little girl was giggling the whole way. Darien let out a small smile thinking that hey were both cute together no matter what their relation. The soon arrived to the arcade Andrew took the little girl over to the tent where that was filled with a pool of balls. Darien and Andrew sat at a table close to the pool so Andrew could keep a watch on her. "Are you hungry?" Andrew said quickly picking up a menu and covering his face with it.
"I already ate don't you remember at the café, but I wouldn't mind a coffee." Darien said thinking he should at least order something to release some tension.
"If you don't mind I am gonna get me and Lilly some dinner. She licks to eat pizza and fries but they don't serve that at the café."
"Sure... No problem at all."
"Good. OH how's Luna? Luna is the cutest thing she reminds me a lot of Lilly. They both are so cute and cuddly. Just makes me want to hug and pet her all day."
"You would pet a little girl as if it were an animal" Darien stated rather sardonically while leaning back in his seat.
"Why not... She's cute" Andrew tried to justify himself.
"And you would feed her out of a bowl... I hope she's trained to pee on a newspaper..." Andrew just laughed at all of Darien's mockery.
"You are quite the animal yourself... At least you're as horny as one." Darien nearly jumped out of his seat to Andrews words. Andrew just laughed even harder.
"That's what I wanted to talk to you about. Look... That was just... How do I explain?"
"What that you were about to get it on out side of a bathroom in a public restaurant?"
"I WAS NOT ABOUT TO GET IT ON! Serena and I well... our relationship I obviously goes past the barrier of friendship. We are like friends who enjoy kissing each other. Do you understand?"
"So you like kissing her."
"That's beyond the point," Darien spat out just wanting this conversation to end, his cheeks burning he knew he was blushing. He got angry at himself for blushing and flushed even more.
"So... what's the point?" Andrew asked rather dully.
"Weren't you listening earlier? I already made my point."
"No. I distinctly only paid attention to the word kissing. Didn't think the whole sentence would be that important," Andrew smiled sheepishly.
"Well you should have paid attention because I am not going to repeat it." Darien let out a tired sigh and ran his fingers through his sleek hair. "I just wanted to tell you to forget what you saw today because it won't happen again." "Why not?"
"Because I can't let that happen again. I let my hormones get the best of me. I think it would be best if me and Serena stick to just a mild friendship. See each other from time it time... right" Darien said that more to himself then to Andrew. Andrew didn't wish to push that subject. The waiter came and the two ordered. Darien turned his attention to Lillyann curiosity was killing him. He decided to go for it. "Your little sister is beautiful." Andrew stared at Darien wide eyed for a couple of moments. The turned his gaze to the little girl.
"She not my little sister," Andrew stated all too casually for Darien's taste leaving no other assumption in his head. 'Then the little girl must be his daughter. Damn he's so young to be a father. I wonder who and wear the mother is.' Darien thought.
"May I ask what relation she is to you."
"Darien are you my friend... Could you answer me seriously? Sometimes I feel like we are friends and we could be close then I feel as if you are pulling back. You're not just doing it with me. I bet you're doing it with Serena. You have been pulling back from everyone ever since you entered school. I wonder to myself sometimes. Is it only me who thinks we are friends or am I just another person who wont stop bothering you so you just deal with my presence." Andrew didn't look at Darien when he said this.
Darien looked down at the table. He was wondering the same thing. He felt draw to Andrew's presence for some reason after the Luna experience but Andrew was right. He purposely kept everyone he had met far away from him. Although he tried to push and Andrew and Serena away he just couldn't now... Darien made a decision right then and there. Knowing that there were going to be serious consequences afterwards he decided this nonetheless.
"Andrew..." Darien beckoned his attention sternly they both eyed each other before Darien continued. "You are right I didn't want friends or anything when I first came here."
"Oh..." Andrew interrupted him his voice sounding someone what disappointed Darien knew he was holding his emotions back. He turned his attention back to the playing little girl.
"But something happened. I can't explain it. At first I thought that I could live with out friendship the remainder of my stay here, is it really that hard to be with friends I would often think to myself. You see my original home is in LA. My mom and my childhood friends live there." Andrew was now looking at Darien he was in shock. Darien was actually sharing something about his personal life with him. He was shocked and confused not know what Darien was trying to prove but kept silent and listened carefully to his story as Darien continued speaking
"My father forced me to come here, to Florida, offering to pay my entire living expenses etcetera, if I stayed here with him and learned business so I could take is company after him. I of coursed refused... then he became stubborn and blackmailed my mother. I had no choice but to leave. But my mother promised that she would find a way to get out of it, the blackmailing, and I would come home. I promised myself not to like it over here. I promised not to make friends. Never get attached because I would just be leaving in the end. I spent two years here and everything was going fine until a little kitten stumbled into my life dragging a little blonde with her.
Serena has this aura to her... I don't know how to explain it but I just could turn away and basically force her out of my life... I don't know what to do now. It has been two years of pure torture and I am truly getting sick of it. I find myself accepting the fact that I am not going back to LA. I don't know what's happening Andrew because I don't mind so much anymore if I don't go back." Darien began to chuckle for a couple of moment, his lightly laughter... Andrew just watched patiently wait for Darien to continue and he soon did. "I haven't told anyone that. I haven't talked like that to anybody in over two years. Isn't funny how it all just came out to someone I hardly know?" Darien laughed a little more and then calmed himself. "Andrew..." Darien looked straight into Andrew's eyes. His eyes that used to be filled with such coldness and disdain and pain, were so soft and gentle now. "Let's be friends, good friends okay." Andrew nodded and felt so relieved he needed a friend just as badly as Darien did and found himself relishing his life story as well. Andrew looked at Darien as if he were about to cry
"Lillyann isn't my child... She's my niece, my older sister's daughter. I guess I should start out from the beginning. My dad died when I was five. My mother didn't take it very well and she started sleeping around a lot. I didn't mind so much. I had my older sister Kate to look after me. She was twelve at the time and always took great care of me. When I turn ten my mother found herself a steady boyfriend. He would get drunk a lot. Kate didn't like it but couldn't do anything about it since she was still 17. When I was 11 that was when everything hit the fan. Kate didn't live with us anymore. He got really drunk one day and tried to beat the shit out of my mother. So defended my mother to avail he was bigger than me. If Kate didn't show up I don't even know if I would be here right now. To put a long and painful story short. The next day my mother thought that it would be best if I left the house.
I didn't fight her about that because I didn't want to live there either. My sister took me in and I was happy." Andrew let out a few tears. Darien had never seen this side of Andrew before... 'I guess we all have our inner demons that we try to hide from the world, but he is exceptionally good at hiding his pain... I would never have guess' Darien thought to himself, listening as Andrew toughen up and continued. "When I was 12 my sister got married. Let me tell you he was a great guy. I told him everything. I would never hide my emotions from him like I did with the kids at school. They had a kid soon after Lillyann here, she'd turning four soon... Well anyways. I loved my life back then. It was great living with Kate and her husband. I would visit my mother more than twice a week. She had a kid as well my little brother, remember when I told you had to pick him up from school him. He's my half brother..." Andrew paused he had a lump in his throat. He couldn't speak anymore.
Tears filled his grief-stricken eyes. Andrew couldn't help himself he began to sob. Darien didn't know what to do. He didn't know how to comfort guys. He had a hard enough time comforting Serena in the library that one time. Darien sat there staring there really wasn't much he could do but watch, and it hurt him to. Andrew the cheerful boy at school should be crying like this he shouldn't be in pain... he didn't deserve yet this is what life threw at him and Darien didn't know how to help.
Andrew lifted his head and looked into Darien's eyes. Although Darien was just sitting there limp not doing anything to calm him down he could see that Darien was consoling him with his eyes. That Darien was doing everything in his power to make him feel better with his eyes it worked. Andrew let out a sigh and continued his story. "She died along with her husband in a car crash when I was 15." Darien let out a gasp, "they had no will or anything and I couldn't live alone seeing that I am a minor... social services took me and Lillyann back to my mothers place. My mother's boyfriend of course didn't want us living there and we as sure as hell didn't want to be there. My mother didn't want to see pain in my eyes anymore so she agreed to let me take care of Lillyann and live on my own. Social services don't know this.
My mother helps me support Lillyann but I still have to work for some things. She doesn't like preschool like my brother so my mother watches her during the day for me and I usually pick her up after practice. I love her Darien she what I have left of my sister... It's been tough but I have been able to keep a good façade during school. When I saw you Darien I knew that you were going through a lot like me accept you showed that you showed it better than I ever could. Don't get me wrong I do love to smile and make jokes but... sometimes I just get lonely and there is nobody really there to listen to me. Really just listen to me. All this happened and I am over it. I miss my sister but I can't change that but I love the gift that he left me. I am really happy Darien, thanks Dare. I feel a lot better now that we are friends." Andrew smiled cheerfully this was a great day...
Andrew looked down and noticed his cold pizza and fries "OH MY GOD THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I FORGOT ABOUT FOOD. LILLYANN COME AND EAT!" Andrew and the little girl gobbled down the food as if they had never eaten in their lives. Darien just looked at them sardonically feeling that he was the only civilized person here and sipped his coffee.
They both had shared their secret and yet were able to go back to normal, both trying there best to live life as normally as possible. They were really helping each other Darien could almost not believe how fast his life was changing. He smiled as Andrew and Lillyann parted ways from him. He wasn't going to hold back in his friendship anymore with Andrew feeling that they both somewhat really needed it. He had a real friend now and was content as he walked him. And then remembered Serena... WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO WITH HER! Could he really open himself up to having a more intermit relationship with her... Darien sighed as he walked into his apartment and went straight to bed. He didn't know what could be done with their relationship anymore he just liked being around her. Darien drifted off to sleep for the first time in a long time with a nice smile on his face.
Chapter 6 (A Real Friend)
Darien waited for Andrew outside the café for an hour before Andrew finally came out with casual clothing. Darien didn't tell Andrew he had stayed behind to talk to him, thinking that Andrew would try his best to avoid contact with him. So he waited for an hour before Andrew walked out. Darien walked casually over to him, trying to figure out what he wanted to say to him in his head. He decided first he would attempt normal conversation then get to the point. That would probably be best. "Hey, Andrew," Darien stated getting his attention.
"What are you doing here?" Andrew looked quite shocked and panic but Darien had expected this much.
"I was wonderin' if you have any free time to talk."
"I don't...know... maybe another tim-"
"ANDY, ANDY, ANDY!" A very small little girl bellowed as she ran out of the restaurant latching on to Andrew's leg tightly, tears streaming down the side of her cheeks. Andrew knelt down and embraced her tightly as he picked her off the ground, cooing her as he rocked her from side to side.
"Shhh, now baby. What happened?" Andrew asked the little girl soft. Darien stood there extremely uncomfortable and in shock. 'Who knew that... that playful person I met today actually has a kid. HEY! Don't assume that... it's probably his little sister or something. That has to be it.' Darien thought as Andrew stroked her hair completely oblivious to that fact that Darien was still standing there. "Lilly... calm down how about we go to the arcade for a little while ok," Lilly looked up from his shoulder and nodded. Andrew smiled then looked at Darien and blushed.
"Dare. MEET LILLYANN!" HE exclaimed as cheerfully as he possible could Lilly looked over at Darien. "Lilly this is a good friend of mine... His name is Darien and he will be joining us to the arcade." Andrew turned his attention back to Darien "If you want to talk we can talk over there. Is that okay with you?" Andrew still had a goofy smile. Darien smiled weakly back still in shock himself trying to figure out who this little girl was. He figured Andrew purposely left out that information in the introduction but felt it really wasn't any of his business.
As the walked to a close by arcade Darien just observed Andrews close relationship with Lilly. Andrew was acting as chipper and well clueless as he was at school. The little girl was giggling the whole way. Darien let out a small smile thinking that hey were both cute together no matter what their relation. The soon arrived to the arcade Andrew took the little girl over to the tent where that was filled with a pool of balls. Darien and Andrew sat at a table close to the pool so Andrew could keep a watch on her. "Are you hungry?" Andrew said quickly picking up a menu and covering his face with it.
"I already ate don't you remember at the café, but I wouldn't mind a coffee." Darien said thinking he should at least order something to release some tension.
"If you don't mind I am gonna get me and Lilly some dinner. She licks to eat pizza and fries but they don't serve that at the café."
"Sure... No problem at all."
"Good. OH how's Luna? Luna is the cutest thing she reminds me a lot of Lilly. They both are so cute and cuddly. Just makes me want to hug and pet her all day."
"You would pet a little girl as if it were an animal" Darien stated rather sardonically while leaning back in his seat.
"Why not... She's cute" Andrew tried to justify himself.
"And you would feed her out of a bowl... I hope she's trained to pee on a newspaper..." Andrew just laughed at all of Darien's mockery.
"You are quite the animal yourself... At least you're as horny as one." Darien nearly jumped out of his seat to Andrews words. Andrew just laughed even harder.
"That's what I wanted to talk to you about. Look... That was just... How do I explain?"
"What that you were about to get it on out side of a bathroom in a public restaurant?"
"I WAS NOT ABOUT TO GET IT ON! Serena and I well... our relationship I obviously goes past the barrier of friendship. We are like friends who enjoy kissing each other. Do you understand?"
"So you like kissing her."
"That's beyond the point," Darien spat out just wanting this conversation to end, his cheeks burning he knew he was blushing. He got angry at himself for blushing and flushed even more.
"So... what's the point?" Andrew asked rather dully.
"Weren't you listening earlier? I already made my point."
"No. I distinctly only paid attention to the word kissing. Didn't think the whole sentence would be that important," Andrew smiled sheepishly.
"Well you should have paid attention because I am not going to repeat it." Darien let out a tired sigh and ran his fingers through his sleek hair. "I just wanted to tell you to forget what you saw today because it won't happen again." "Why not?"
"Because I can't let that happen again. I let my hormones get the best of me. I think it would be best if me and Serena stick to just a mild friendship. See each other from time it time... right" Darien said that more to himself then to Andrew. Andrew didn't wish to push that subject. The waiter came and the two ordered. Darien turned his attention to Lillyann curiosity was killing him. He decided to go for it. "Your little sister is beautiful." Andrew stared at Darien wide eyed for a couple of moments. The turned his gaze to the little girl.
"She not my little sister," Andrew stated all too casually for Darien's taste leaving no other assumption in his head. 'Then the little girl must be his daughter. Damn he's so young to be a father. I wonder who and wear the mother is.' Darien thought.
"May I ask what relation she is to you."
"Darien are you my friend... Could you answer me seriously? Sometimes I feel like we are friends and we could be close then I feel as if you are pulling back. You're not just doing it with me. I bet you're doing it with Serena. You have been pulling back from everyone ever since you entered school. I wonder to myself sometimes. Is it only me who thinks we are friends or am I just another person who wont stop bothering you so you just deal with my presence." Andrew didn't look at Darien when he said this.
Darien looked down at the table. He was wondering the same thing. He felt draw to Andrew's presence for some reason after the Luna experience but Andrew was right. He purposely kept everyone he had met far away from him. Although he tried to push and Andrew and Serena away he just couldn't now... Darien made a decision right then and there. Knowing that there were going to be serious consequences afterwards he decided this nonetheless.
"Andrew..." Darien beckoned his attention sternly they both eyed each other before Darien continued. "You are right I didn't want friends or anything when I first came here."
"Oh..." Andrew interrupted him his voice sounding someone what disappointed Darien knew he was holding his emotions back. He turned his attention back to the playing little girl.
"But something happened. I can't explain it. At first I thought that I could live with out friendship the remainder of my stay here, is it really that hard to be with friends I would often think to myself. You see my original home is in LA. My mom and my childhood friends live there." Andrew was now looking at Darien he was in shock. Darien was actually sharing something about his personal life with him. He was shocked and confused not know what Darien was trying to prove but kept silent and listened carefully to his story as Darien continued speaking
"My father forced me to come here, to Florida, offering to pay my entire living expenses etcetera, if I stayed here with him and learned business so I could take is company after him. I of coursed refused... then he became stubborn and blackmailed my mother. I had no choice but to leave. But my mother promised that she would find a way to get out of it, the blackmailing, and I would come home. I promised myself not to like it over here. I promised not to make friends. Never get attached because I would just be leaving in the end. I spent two years here and everything was going fine until a little kitten stumbled into my life dragging a little blonde with her.
Serena has this aura to her... I don't know how to explain it but I just could turn away and basically force her out of my life... I don't know what to do now. It has been two years of pure torture and I am truly getting sick of it. I find myself accepting the fact that I am not going back to LA. I don't know what's happening Andrew because I don't mind so much anymore if I don't go back." Darien began to chuckle for a couple of moment, his lightly laughter... Andrew just watched patiently wait for Darien to continue and he soon did. "I haven't told anyone that. I haven't talked like that to anybody in over two years. Isn't funny how it all just came out to someone I hardly know?" Darien laughed a little more and then calmed himself. "Andrew..." Darien looked straight into Andrew's eyes. His eyes that used to be filled with such coldness and disdain and pain, were so soft and gentle now. "Let's be friends, good friends okay." Andrew nodded and felt so relieved he needed a friend just as badly as Darien did and found himself relishing his life story as well. Andrew looked at Darien as if he were about to cry
"Lillyann isn't my child... She's my niece, my older sister's daughter. I guess I should start out from the beginning. My dad died when I was five. My mother didn't take it very well and she started sleeping around a lot. I didn't mind so much. I had my older sister Kate to look after me. She was twelve at the time and always took great care of me. When I turn ten my mother found herself a steady boyfriend. He would get drunk a lot. Kate didn't like it but couldn't do anything about it since she was still 17. When I was 11 that was when everything hit the fan. Kate didn't live with us anymore. He got really drunk one day and tried to beat the shit out of my mother. So defended my mother to avail he was bigger than me. If Kate didn't show up I don't even know if I would be here right now. To put a long and painful story short. The next day my mother thought that it would be best if I left the house.
I didn't fight her about that because I didn't want to live there either. My sister took me in and I was happy." Andrew let out a few tears. Darien had never seen this side of Andrew before... 'I guess we all have our inner demons that we try to hide from the world, but he is exceptionally good at hiding his pain... I would never have guess' Darien thought to himself, listening as Andrew toughen up and continued. "When I was 12 my sister got married. Let me tell you he was a great guy. I told him everything. I would never hide my emotions from him like I did with the kids at school. They had a kid soon after Lillyann here, she'd turning four soon... Well anyways. I loved my life back then. It was great living with Kate and her husband. I would visit my mother more than twice a week. She had a kid as well my little brother, remember when I told you had to pick him up from school him. He's my half brother..." Andrew paused he had a lump in his throat. He couldn't speak anymore.
Tears filled his grief-stricken eyes. Andrew couldn't help himself he began to sob. Darien didn't know what to do. He didn't know how to comfort guys. He had a hard enough time comforting Serena in the library that one time. Darien sat there staring there really wasn't much he could do but watch, and it hurt him to. Andrew the cheerful boy at school should be crying like this he shouldn't be in pain... he didn't deserve yet this is what life threw at him and Darien didn't know how to help.
Andrew lifted his head and looked into Darien's eyes. Although Darien was just sitting there limp not doing anything to calm him down he could see that Darien was consoling him with his eyes. That Darien was doing everything in his power to make him feel better with his eyes it worked. Andrew let out a sigh and continued his story. "She died along with her husband in a car crash when I was 15." Darien let out a gasp, "they had no will or anything and I couldn't live alone seeing that I am a minor... social services took me and Lillyann back to my mothers place. My mother's boyfriend of course didn't want us living there and we as sure as hell didn't want to be there. My mother didn't want to see pain in my eyes anymore so she agreed to let me take care of Lillyann and live on my own. Social services don't know this.
My mother helps me support Lillyann but I still have to work for some things. She doesn't like preschool like my brother so my mother watches her during the day for me and I usually pick her up after practice. I love her Darien she what I have left of my sister... It's been tough but I have been able to keep a good façade during school. When I saw you Darien I knew that you were going through a lot like me accept you showed that you showed it better than I ever could. Don't get me wrong I do love to smile and make jokes but... sometimes I just get lonely and there is nobody really there to listen to me. Really just listen to me. All this happened and I am over it. I miss my sister but I can't change that but I love the gift that he left me. I am really happy Darien, thanks Dare. I feel a lot better now that we are friends." Andrew smiled cheerfully this was a great day...
Andrew looked down and noticed his cold pizza and fries "OH MY GOD THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I FORGOT ABOUT FOOD. LILLYANN COME AND EAT!" Andrew and the little girl gobbled down the food as if they had never eaten in their lives. Darien just looked at them sardonically feeling that he was the only civilized person here and sipped his coffee.
They both had shared their secret and yet were able to go back to normal, both trying there best to live life as normally as possible. They were really helping each other Darien could almost not believe how fast his life was changing. He smiled as Andrew and Lillyann parted ways from him. He wasn't going to hold back in his friendship anymore with Andrew feeling that they both somewhat really needed it. He had a real friend now and was content as he walked him. And then remembered Serena... WHAT THE HELL AM I GOING TO DO WITH HER! Could he really open himself up to having a more intermit relationship with her... Darien sighed as he walked into his apartment and went straight to bed. He didn't know what could be done with their relationship anymore he just liked being around her. Darien drifted off to sleep for the first time in a long time with a nice smile on his face.