about a month later...
She hadn't talked to him about what happened in the apartment that night, so he took his cues from her and never mentioned it either. He figured that when she was ready, she would initiate the conversation. But it didn't happen, if anything, she threw him into a complete 180 by her reactions.
John was surprised when by 8:00 Monica still hadn't came or called in. He was even more surprised when Folmer called him into the office. If possible he was shocked to see Monica already there, acting as though she was in deep, deep trouble. Folmer started talking, but after the first sentence, John didn't hear him.
"Asked for relocation...To Texas..." ran through his mind. Hell without her, that was his envisionment. She still wouldn't look at him. But he caught a look at her face; it was red from tears. She hated it even more than he did, but if that was true, why did she ask to be relocated. To Texas of all places?!? it was as if she was going to leave the state, hell, leave the damn coast, in order to run from her feeelings.
Was it him? Something he did? He said?
He knew Folmer was still talking, and that the information he was giving would eventually be vital, but he got up and walked out. He wasn't in the right mood, or even space of mind to deal with the rationale behind this. Even if there was any rationale. He was in shock. Simply, Honestly. Shock. He heard Folmer call after him. Even Monica spoke up, her voice full of apology. He couldn't even speak. Couldn't tell them to fuck off, not really sure if he wanted to.
He went to the basement office that they shared, that had been previously shared by the two lovers before them. He had thought that it was the office that was the catalyst for their feelings. Hell, Mulder and Scully ended up together, right. It was John and Monica's turn. They were supposed to live happily ever after. Get together, have a kid. Move to Europe, or wherever the hell the two ex-agents were. Be together. Never have to wake up sweating and crying in the middle of the night about his son. About Luke.
But that obviously wasn't what Monica wanted. Or wouldn't let herself want it. She had feelings for him. And she knew it. But for some reason, sh epulled away, as though she was afraid.
"John?" She was at the doorway, timid, but even then exuding the self- confidence he had come to love. Come to depend on. But he couldn't deal with it now.
"I'm leaving tonight. I just thought that I'd say bye now. And that i'm sorry. It- It's just something I have to do. For me...For my sanity...Just- I don't- I'm sorry, John. I'm so sorry." She finished her small speech and nearly ran out of the room.
What about me, Monica? What if I'm the one who loves you? What do i do?
AN: ahahahahaha....i didn't know where i wanted to go with it, then i figured it out. I happy person...lol...if it sux, tell me, just nicely, i'm trying a new style of writing, although it's kinda what i usually do, only different. it's weierd and hard to explain, whatever. please review. I feel deeply about this story. It's pretty adn emotional for all involved...(yeah the two characters and me...lol) Okay i'm done now...really!
She hadn't talked to him about what happened in the apartment that night, so he took his cues from her and never mentioned it either. He figured that when she was ready, she would initiate the conversation. But it didn't happen, if anything, she threw him into a complete 180 by her reactions.
John was surprised when by 8:00 Monica still hadn't came or called in. He was even more surprised when Folmer called him into the office. If possible he was shocked to see Monica already there, acting as though she was in deep, deep trouble. Folmer started talking, but after the first sentence, John didn't hear him.
"Asked for relocation...To Texas..." ran through his mind. Hell without her, that was his envisionment. She still wouldn't look at him. But he caught a look at her face; it was red from tears. She hated it even more than he did, but if that was true, why did she ask to be relocated. To Texas of all places?!? it was as if she was going to leave the state, hell, leave the damn coast, in order to run from her feeelings.
Was it him? Something he did? He said?
He knew Folmer was still talking, and that the information he was giving would eventually be vital, but he got up and walked out. He wasn't in the right mood, or even space of mind to deal with the rationale behind this. Even if there was any rationale. He was in shock. Simply, Honestly. Shock. He heard Folmer call after him. Even Monica spoke up, her voice full of apology. He couldn't even speak. Couldn't tell them to fuck off, not really sure if he wanted to.
He went to the basement office that they shared, that had been previously shared by the two lovers before them. He had thought that it was the office that was the catalyst for their feelings. Hell, Mulder and Scully ended up together, right. It was John and Monica's turn. They were supposed to live happily ever after. Get together, have a kid. Move to Europe, or wherever the hell the two ex-agents were. Be together. Never have to wake up sweating and crying in the middle of the night about his son. About Luke.
But that obviously wasn't what Monica wanted. Or wouldn't let herself want it. She had feelings for him. And she knew it. But for some reason, sh epulled away, as though she was afraid.
"John?" She was at the doorway, timid, but even then exuding the self- confidence he had come to love. Come to depend on. But he couldn't deal with it now.
"I'm leaving tonight. I just thought that I'd say bye now. And that i'm sorry. It- It's just something I have to do. For me...For my sanity...Just- I don't- I'm sorry, John. I'm so sorry." She finished her small speech and nearly ran out of the room.
What about me, Monica? What if I'm the one who loves you? What do i do?
AN: ahahahahaha....i didn't know where i wanted to go with it, then i figured it out. I happy person...lol...if it sux, tell me, just nicely, i'm trying a new style of writing, although it's kinda what i usually do, only different. it's weierd and hard to explain, whatever. please review. I feel deeply about this story. It's pretty adn emotional for all involved...(yeah the two characters and me...lol) Okay i'm done now...really!