Paul's Poetry
Paul: Coward

Welcome to my life
A life of loneliness fear and dread
I dread the day yet fear it more
That I'm told Dr Jackson is dead
I've known him for years now
For me it was love at first sight
But I've never told him
Kept him in the dark, away from the light
I live a secret life
All inside of my head
Where I am the happiest man alive
Because I wake up everyday with Daniel sharing my bed
I don't know if he likes me that way
I haven't got the guts to ask
I can't tear him away from his beloved books
So instead: My love I mask
I want to tell him
I know he would never abandon me
He'd stay my friend, but I want more
I want to be his lover see
If only I could tell him
I will tell him some day soon
And when he says he feels the same
We will both be over the moon
We'll ride off into the sunset
As happy as can be
Together forever, loving and caring
Forever: just him and me
We'd have the perfect life
I just want to be there for him
I love him with all my heart
Surely that's no sin
But what if I tell?
And his heart fills with hate
He turns from me. I'm all alone
I couldn't life with that fate
Or if he remains my friend
And I can only look, not touch
To see his handsome face each time
It's getting all too much
But if I didn't see him
I would go insane
I need to see him
He brings color to my world so plain
I can't tell him, it's for the best
Even if it makes me cry
He doesn't know that I'm thinking
We'd make a great couple: him and I

But I'm a coward
So I won't tell him