A/N: Okay, my first songfic was fun to write, so I had to write another one! It's about Kaoru thinking about Kenshin's death. Yes, I guess I do write a lot about death. Oops! Please read it though.
I'm so tired of being here
I hate being without you.
Suppressed by all my, childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it wont leave me alone
It's been a week now, and I can't stand being away from you. Things aren't the same anymore. You promised me that you'd always be with me. I know you are still with me, but I want you here in person. Our friends don't seem to understand that I can't go on without you. They are also mourning, but it's like they are only doing it to make me feel better. I know that's stupid, but that's how I feel.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
I've lived with you for so long now, I almost can't remember life without you, and now I can't imagine doing it again. I don't want to feel this lonely all the time. They say time will heal all, but nothing can heal the emptiness I feel now. My bed feels cold at night without you next to me. I remember your dreams. I used to take care of you.
When you'd cried I'd, wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd, fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
I'd never leave you, and that remains the same in death. I can't believe you're really gone. Things aren't as happy anymore, and I don't think they ever will be. Life is a blur right now. I feel trapped, and I can't get out. No one understands me. I can't talk to anyone about how I feel. There's a cloud over our dojo right now, and it seems like it will stay there forever.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
I'm all alone now. I'm only the wife of Kenshin Himura. I have no purpose in life anymore. People from years ago come to pay their tribute, but I don't listen. They didn't know you like I did. I need you to live. You shared part of my heart, and with you gone that part died. I can't live without your part.
Your face it haunts, my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away, all the sanity in me
I dream about you every single night. They are mostly happy dreams, but they can't make up for the real thing. I miss you so much. How you always thought of people before yourself, and how you couldn't stand people being sad because of you.
These wounds wont seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
You are making me sad right now. Why did you leave me?
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
My heart is empty now, and nothing can fill the gap. I need you.
A/N: Whew! Please review, even if you hated it! It's better than nothing!