She's The Blade

by

CapnJacksBonnieLass

A/N: Just a weird idea that came out of my twisted little mind. Sirius is my favorite character, then Remus, then Fred and George (or Gred and Forge). I'm sorry, Remus fans, but his heart gets ripped out in this one...don't hate me for it!

Summary: I look at him, and I melt. I am absolutely, head over heels in love with the playboy Sirius Black...the only problem? I have a boyfriend. His name is Remus Lupin.
Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the other characters, places, ideas that are familiar to you, the reader. I also do not own the song She's the Blade by Sugarcult. I only own Josephine Trenzel.
Key: Italic: Josie's Thoughts

Chapter One:

She's The Blade and You're Just Paper

I pulled back from giving Remus a kiss on the cheek and smiled sweetly at him, trying to hide the fact that I had been drooling over his best friend mere seconds before.
He smiled back, shyly, and inwardly I rolled my eyes. It was cute, how naive he was, and how shy he was, but sometimes it got a little annoying, trying to talk to him without a blush forming on his pale cheeks. I did have to admit, though...if on a handsome scale of one to ten, ten being the best, Sirius was an eleven, then Remus definitely a 9 or ten.
His feathery caramel-colored hair fluttered in the light breeze, the fine pieces dancing into his eyes. He blew them away and smiled, more surely this time.
"Where've you been?" I asked politely, trying to keep my voice sounding caring as I glanced at Sirius out of the corner of my eye. He was talking to James and Peter about his latest acquirement in the slut department, a girl named Yvonne Vanderloup.
I had to bite the inside of my lip to keep from laughing at her name alone. I've seen her around, the tall blonde with pale, almost colorless blue eyes. The creepy thing about her eyes were that the irises were outlined with navy blue, making her look very cynical and almost blind. But all the guys saw were her long legs and big breasts.
"Are you listening?" Remus asked, cocking his head to the side in curiosity. I snapped my attention back to his slightly hoarse, but nevertheless cute, voice instead of Sirius low, smooth one that went up and down in pitch when he got excited.
"Oh! I'm sorry, Remus...I'm just a little tired," I apologized, not entirely lying; I was a little tired from studying for the N.E.W.T.s that were coming up later the next year.
All the seventh years always talk about how stressful it is, but we all laughed, saying that it couldn't be that stressful; after all, the seventh years still had time to get their studying and homework done and be caught snogging in empty classrooms. We were wrong. It was very stressful, and it wasn't even Christmas break yet.
I saw Sirius stretch his arms over his head from where I sat on the grass not far from him. The sun was below the horizon, but it wasn't at all dark out. In fact, it was quite pretty, with the gold, orange, and light pink merging into the pale blue of the rest of the sky.
Sirius said something about going into the Common Room to finish the Astronomy chart that was due the next day and left. Astronomy was one of my best subjects, but I was a procrastinator and my chart wasn't finished either. I used this excuse, as well as my being tired, to leave Remus with James and Peter, who were talking in hushed voices about something.
I was halfway across the lawn to the Entrance Hall before Remus came running up from behind me. I smiled warmly outwardly, hoping against hope that he wasn't planning on coming with me on the inside.
"Forgot to give you this," he said sweetly, leaning in and kissing me on the lips lightly. I smiled a genuine smile; he could be so...cute sometimes.
"What was that for?" I asked.
"Do I need an excuse to kiss my girlfriend?" he replied jokingly. I laughed a little at the tiny blush that had crept onto his cheeks.
"No, of course not...Bye, Remus," I said, turning away from him to go inside.
"Bye, Josie," he called back, using everyone's usual nickname for my full name of Josephine, which I loathed with a passion.
I walked back towards the large oak doors, a smile on my face as I went. I was just thinking that maybe Remus was the one for me, when I happened to look up in the direction of the Gryffindor Tower and saw a shadow at the window, staring down at me. I recognized the casual slouch immediately, and the previous though was wiped from my mind as I saw Sirius Black watching me.

(A/N: I was gonna leave it there, but...nah, it's not long enough yet! You are spared today, my little guppies! Don't ask why I called you guppies.)

I walked into the castle, puzzled, and up to the Gryffindor Tower. I muttered the password to the Fat Lady and entered the nicely-furnished room to see Sirius sitting in the bay window, looking out thoughtfully. The room was empty except for him. He looked at me with his dark, mysterious eyes and blessed me with a gorgeous, lopsided grin.
"Hey, Jo, what do you know?" he said the usual lame line that he greeted me with. He was the only one I ever allowed to call me Jo, not that anyone else ever tried. I rolled my eyes, but couldn't suppress a slight smile.
"Aren't you supposed to be doing your Astronomy homework?" I asked, sauntering over to him. He wrinkled his nose slightly.
"I hate Astronomy. I can't tell one bloody star from another," he complained. I thanked Merlin on the inside for my luck.
"Well, you are in luck today, Mr. Black. I happen to be free from now until I fall asleep and I also haven't done my Astronomy Chart," I said in what I hoped was a casual manner, because on the inside I was so eager to help him it was almost pitiful.
"And how does that help me?" he smirked, standing up all the same. I pretended to be offended.
"I happen to have the top grade in the class," I said, crossing my arms. This was had the double purpose of making me seem fake-angry and pushing my breasts up in my low-cut black wifebeater. The trick worked. Sirius' eyes were automatically drawn to my cleavage. He blatantly stared at my boobs for a few seconds before speaking again.
"Well, okay...as long as you don't give me a bad grade."
"We have to go up to the Astronomy Tower," I stated. His eyes darted back up to my face.
"Because the point of the chart is to map out where all the stars are on parchment. We need to actually see them first. Unless you have the sky memorized in your mind?" I suggested dryly, turning my head to the side. Sirius grinned.
"Nope. But...there're no stars out."
"There's a room that has the entire sky, the night sky there all the time...it shows where the stars are all the time, in the day too."
"Won't Professor Estrella notice that there are some stars in the sky that shouldn't be there?" he questioned, still not getting up.
"Are you making excuses not to go with me?" I asked, frowning slightly and giving him slight, barely noticeable pout that guys couldn't resist. That got him on his feet with a roguish grin.
"Of course not. Lead the way, milady," he said with a gallant sweep of his arms and a ridiculously low bow. I laughed at him and he looked back up at me with a smile before straightening up.
We walked up the many stairs to the Astronomy Tower without encountering anyone else. Finally they reached the room that I knew was there. I always wondere why it was even in the Astronomy Tower; it didn't need the sky to work properly. But it was more romantic...I almost sighed.
We sat in the middle of the plain white room and set our parchments, quills, and ink wells down. The floor was soft and cushiones, and the walls and ceiling were as one, in a huge dome that covered the room. Sirius looked around at the large room, frowning slightly. I knew what he found so puzzling, and walked over to the wall beside the door. There was a switch almost like a muggle light switch. I pressed it down, as though turning off the lights that seemed to come from the pure white walls themselves, and suddenly the room was plunged into dark.
I heard Sirius gasp slightly, and smiled to myself.
The floor was plain black, but the walls and ceiling, which were basically the same thing, shone with what looked like millions of stars. There was even a half-moon, and the room's walls and ceilings were indistinguishable from the actual sky.
I stepped up beside Sirius, who was gazing at the room in shock and wonder. "It's beautiful, huh?" I asked quietly.
He nodded in response, still examining the room.
"How come we don't have astronomy in here?" he asked.
"One: Because it's way too small. And Two: They use this room fro the Advanced Astronomy students. There are only about six or seven of them. They had to take a really hard test to get in the class. Mostly Ravenclaws. One of my friends is in the class and showed me this room," I answered. Sirius finally took his eyes from the room to look at me again.
"Why didn't you take the test?"
"What makes you so sure I didn't?"
"You would have got in," he stated. I looked at him questioningly, wondering about all he had said earlier. "You have a reputation for being good in Astronomy," he explained, as if reading my thoughts.
With that said we got to work, mapping out the stars and planets and labeling them appropriately. Sirius would ask me the name of a star or to clarify which planet was which every now and then. Sometimes I almost laughed, but restrained myself.
"What constellation is that one?" he asked, pointing to the ceiling.
"The big dipper, Sirius. Ursa Major."
"Oh. What's the name of this star?"
"That would be Polaris, the North Star."
"Ah...I see...and that one?"
"That one's you."
"Huh?"
"It's Sirius. Brightest star."
"No way, really?"
I nodded. Laughing slightly, I looked at his face and noticed that he was actually quite close to me, our faces only about fifteen centimeters away. He was smiling happily, a true smile, and I felt butterflies in my stomach.
"I never knew I was named after a star..." he said quietly.
"Your parents never told you?"
"I don't...exactly get along with my family," he said, looking away.
"Oh...I know how that feels...I absolutely hate my dad," I said. My eyes widened; I hadn't even told Remus that, jut a few of my really close friends.
"Really?" Sirius asked, sounding genuinely surprised. I was suddenly aware of how his cool, indifferent facade seemed to have come down since he entered the room and I turned the lights off...and turned the stars on.
I nodded. I was very acutely aware that the space between our faces was diminishing slowly; we were now only about ten centimeters away.
"That's refreshing," he whispered.
"What?" I asked softly.
"Someone whose family isn't perfect like James' or Remus' or even Peter's..." he said, his voice low. Our faces were really close now; six centimeters...
"Yeah..." I replied, unsure of what to say. 4 centimeters...
"Yeah," he echoed. 3 centimeters...
"W-what time is it?" I asked.
"Dunno," Sirius said, not even checking the watch on his left wrist. 2 centimeters. "Don't care..." I could feel his warm breath on my lips and it made me shiver slightly. He noticed. "Are you cold?" One centimeter....
I was about to say no when our lips met, very softly. I didn't think Sirius Black could kiss this softly. When I didn't pull away he leaned towards me more, pushing me onto my back firmly but gently. It was a good thing the floor was soft and cushioned for people to lay down and look at the stars, because Sirius' hands were to busy holding other things than the back of my head.
Our mild kissing turned feverish as Sirius' tongue explored my mouth eagerly. I moved his hands down to my waist from where they had been and he smiled slightly into the kiss at my actions. I shifted slightly so that he was lying between my legs.
He grunted slightly in approval of the position and one of his hands moved back up from my waist. I didn't protest this time, however. He moved his mouth from mine to my neck where he sucked gently in all the right places, making me moan slightly.
"Sirius," I gasped as he ran his tongue along my collarbone. He moved back up my neck until I grabbed his face gently with my hands and placed my lips back on his.
"Josie..." he growled, grinding his pelvis into mine.
That was one of the first times he had called me Josie in over a year, and it reminded me of Remus. I pulled away quickly, breathing hard from our...er-activities.
"What's wrong?" he asked, coming closer to me and leaning in to kiss me again. I jerked away, and, glancing down, noticed his-erm-very, VERY apparent want-or was it need?-for me.
"I can't," I said quietly. "Remus..."
"Shit," Sirius said, running both hands through his hair and sitting up. He apparently had just remembered that my boyfriend happened to be one of his best friends. I doubt he would have care had it been anyone slightly less.
"I can't hurt him..." said, referring to the fact that I couldn't break up with Remus; it would break his heart. Sirius nodded, but, in the midst of his understanding, he looked crestfallen. He finally looked up, and I saw the apparent pain in his eyes.
"I really like you, Jo," he said softly.
"I really like you, too, Sirius," I said, not mentioning the fact that I thought I might be in love with him. "...I have for a while....but, Remus-"
"-Doesn't have to know," Sirius said quietly. My eyes widened. Sirius leaned forward and kissed my cheek, then the place where my pulse was, then moved his lips to my ear. He whispered, and the feeling of his feather- light touch and warm breath made goosebumps raise on my skin. "Please, Jo...please..."
I nodded, unaware that I was doing so as he kissed my neck again. He moved his lips lower again to my collarbone and kissed my lips hard, then moved lower...and lower...and then he guided my hands to his pants belt, which he obviously wanted me to unfasten...his hands left mine on their own as his hands went under my shirt to unsnap my bra...His belt was off, and my hands moved back up to his face but he guided them back down to unbutton his jeans...I didn't know if I wanted to do this...but he had me under his control...

A/N: Don't get mad at her or call her a slut! Sirius can be very persuasive...not that I know...giggle giggle jk. I'm sorry, Remus fans, I love him too...but that is NOT what this fic is about! It is about deception and stuff...yeah...so if you could go ahead and review, give me some suggestions, helpful critisism, just tell me to update, whatever floats your boat. I really hate that expression. REVIEW PLEASE!!!