She's the Blade

by

CapnJacksBonnieLass

A/N: Just a weird idea that came out of my twisted little mind. Sirius is my favorite character, then Remus, then Fred and George (or Gred and Forge). I'm sorry, Remus fans, but his heart gets ripped out in this one...don't hate me for it!

Summary: I look at him, and I melt. I am absolutely, head over heels in love with the playboy Sirius Black...the only problem? I have a boyfriend. His name is Remus Lupin.

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the other characters, places, ideas that are familiar to you, the reader. I also do not own the song She's the Blade by Sugarcult. I only own Josephine Trenzel.

Key: Italics: Josie's Thoughts

Chapter Two:

You're Afraid Cuz She's Got You Closer

I opened my eyes lazily, and at first all I saw was black. But then my eyesight adjusted, and I saw...stars. Millions of stars. I blinked. Did I fall asleep outside? But then I felt a warm body behind to me...someone's breathing deep and slow, someone's arms wrapped around my naked waist-Oh no! It all came flying back to me!
Sirius taking off my clothes, guiding me, telling me to undress him as well, and then-the pain! It had hurt, I remembered, and then it didn't, then I just felt pleasure, and...oh no...oh no no no no no...
My breathing turned shallow; I was nearly hyperventilating. Incomplete thoughts swirled through my head.

Me...Sirius...sex...betrayal...boyfriend...Remus...morning...morning?

I went to the wall where a small window, barely able to be seen because of the star-covered flap that matched the wall, and lifted the flap. A stream of golden sunlight shone through brightly.
"Shit," I muttered. I turned back to see a completely naked Sirius lying, sleeping peacefully, on the cushioned floor. Not that it was a bad sight, but-no! I betrayed Remus! How could I do something like that? But Sirius is such a good kisser, and he could be so enticing-but Remus! My BOYFRIEND! Sirius, then again...was I in love with him? He slept with girls for sport, as I just one of the many? And-oh no! We didn't use protection! What if I was-no, I couldn't even think it.
As I thought this I was gathering up my clothes, wondering how they had become so scattered. I pulled my bra and panties on, then my shirt, and just then I heard a stirring from across the room.
I picked up Sirius' clothes too, just as I heard a mumbled "Hey," followed by a yawn. Good, Sirius was awake. I pulled on the rest of my clothes hurriedly and tossed him his. Suddenly, I felt his arms wrap around my waist and his chin rest on the top of my head. He was wearing only his boxers.
"Good morning," he said lazily, kissing me on the cheek. I pulled away, stepping out of his reach and turning to him.
"The sun's up. We have to go," I said, avoiding his gaze. He stepped forward, trying to put his arms around me once more, but I backed away. "Sirius, are you listening to me?"
"Yeah, sun's up. We gotta go. I get it," he said off-handedly. He stepped forward and pulled me to him, to his chest. He leaned in and kissed my neck gently, sucking lightly. I pulled back, but I couldn't release myself from his strong grip.
"Then why aren't we leaving?" I whispered. Sirius chuckled lightly into my neck.
"Do you really want to leave?" he asked. I thought about it. Truthfully? No, I didn't want to leave. But...
"Sirius," I reprimanded. "Remus will wonder where I am...then he'll wonder where you are...then he'll put two and two together and-"
"Shit."
"Yeah. Exactly. Let's go," I said, with a note of finality. I tried to pull away, but again Sirius held on tightly. I looked up into his grey eyes and saw that he was completely serious (A/N: Yay puns!) now. "What?"
"What...exactly are we?" he asked quietly. I stared at him, trying to decipher his feelings, but his dark eyes were unreadable. "I mean, are we- ?"
"I don't know, Sirius," I said. "I don't want to hurt Remus but-"
"I really like you," we both said in unison. He smiled slightly.
"Okay, so then we're...yeah," I said awkwardly.
"Yeah," he agreed. This was so uncharacteristic of him, to seem so unsure of himself, it was almost...cute. I smiled at the idea. "What?"
"Nothing," I said. "I was just thinking how cute you look when you're not and conceited as you usually are."
"Sirius Black," he scoffed. "is NOT cute! Devishly handsome, yes, extraordinarily talented, yes, and even wonderfully popular...but NOT cute."
I giggled , shaking my head at his arrogance. He tilted his head, egotistical grin changing to a genuine, little smile.
"I like that," he said. I looked at him curiously, and asked what. "Your laugh...you have a very pretty laugh." I smiled at him. He really was handsome. But then I remembered.
"We have to go."
We left, nearly running to the Gryffindor Common Room, which was mercifully nearly empty, and each jumped into the shower-separately, of course.
After dressing in clean clothes and doing my hair and makeup in record time, I sped out of my empty dormitory and just managed to catch Lily Evans just as she was speeding down the hall towards the Great Hall.
"Hey," I said breathlessly. I winced slightly as I walked; I was still a little sore from the night before. Lily looked at me strangely.
"Hi," she said slowly. "Where were you last night? ALL last night?"
"Um...with...Remus?" I said, cursing myself for having forgotten to come up with a reasonable explanation. "Well, I did my astronomy homework and then I was with Remus..."
"Ah," Lily said slyly. I ignored her and we continued into the Great Hall, where our friends and the Marauders waved us over. Sirius was already sitting next to James, who appeared to be saving a seat for Lily. In fact, the entire seating arrangement looked as though James had set it up entirely around sitting by Lily.
I saw that there was a space next to Remus empty...unfortunately, it was right across from Sirius. I sat next to my boyfriend, trying to mask any feelings I felt inside. He smiled and kissed my cheek in greeting, and I smiled in what I hoped was a happy, innocent way. He bought it. Either I was a good actress or Remus was gullible. I couldn't decide which was more probable.
James started a discussion on something or other, I don't even remember what it was, but it made me laugh. I looked up to see Sirius looking straight at me, studying me. I blushed slightly and smiled platonically at him. He gave me a lopsided grin back, and was about to say something when his current girlfriend, Yvonne. She sidled over to him and sat directly on his lap. A tiny flash of anger sparked in his eyes, but it was gone in a second and he replaced his lopsided smile with a seductive one.
"Hello," he said sexily. I wanted to take him right there. But my boyfriend and his girlfriend were right in the vicinity so...yeah.
I somehow got through the rest of the day without raping Sirius every time he did that cute thing with his eyebrows when he was confused or every time his dimples showed when he flashed a genuine smile or every time he made eye contact with me...or every time I felt his dark, stormy slate-grey eyes on me as I talked to Lily or laughed at James or kissed Remus...that was the worst. Whenever he kissed Yvonne (which was approximately every five seconds), I felt a jolt of hurt, sadness, and jealousy, not to mention anger, shoot through me. However, it was a bit of a relief to think that he felt the same way every time I kissed Remus, which he hopefully did.
My suspicions of his jealousy were confirmed when I heard James say something funny and Sirius and Remus both laughed, and Remus looked so cute that I had to lean in and capture his soft lips in mine. We pulled apart slowly, smiling slightly, and staring into each others eyes, when I glanced behind Remus at Sirius, who was glaring at us angrily. His jaw was clenched and his eyes had turned steely cold and hard. I raised my eyebrows at him slightly and he changed his expression so as not to draw attention.
The first day is the hardest, I kept telling myself. I continued this mantra when Sirius pulled Yvonne onto his lap in the common room, and made out with her for almost an hour. Finally our friends started up to bed, as it was nearly midnight and we had a test in Defense Against the Dark Arts the next day.
I was finishing my long-delayed potions homework, and didn't notice when Sirius came right up behind me and sat on the couch. I was sitting on the floor cross-legged, at the coffee table. I did notice, however, when he leaned forward and wrapped his arms around my shoulders, pulling me back to lean against the couch.
"What are you doing?" I asked as he sat back onto the back of the couch lazily. I was sitting between his legs, facing away from him as I tried to finish my homework.
"Everyone's to bed, and you're still up, doing your homework...you procrastinate too much, you naughty girl," he said seductively in my ear. I smiled to myself.
"You were getting a little bit jealous today, weren't you?" I asked, turning and sitting on my knees so I could see him better. I rested my elbows on the couch cushions between his legs, which were set wide enough to accommodate me. I crossed my arms on the couch and rested my head on them, tilting it to the side to look at him.
"Sirius Black does not get jealous," he said haughtily. "Sirius Black is not cute, does not get jealous, and is as subtle as possible when it comes to checking out girls. Sirius Black-"
"Needs to stop referring to himself in the third person," I finished for him, sitting up and leaning forward to kiss him. He smiled and captured my lips in his, pulling me to him. I smiled into our kiss but he suddenly broke away.
"I thought I heard something," he said quickly, looking at the stairs. When no one came down, he turned back to me. "You wanna...go somewhere...?"
I knew what he meant. But I didn't really want to...I was tired, I had homework, and I was sore. I told him so.
"Are you okay? Did I hurt you?" he asked worriedly. I felt my heart melt. He was so cute...
"Yeah, it's just...y'know, first time-and...stuff..."
"Oh."
"Yeah."
"K...sorry."
"It's alright..." I tried to stifle a yawn, to no avail. I gestured to my homework. "I have to get this done..."
"I'll help-"
"Sirius, I do not, on any circumstances, want you to help me with potions."
"No, actually, I'm good at potions, the teacher just hates me."
"He'll know the difference between my handwriting and yours."
"There's a spell for that."
He seemed so eager to help me that I let him. He really was good in potions. I guessed the teacher was just prejudice against boys...and really ugly girls. Pervert. I thanked Sirius for helping me by alternating between doing the homework and making out with him. Eventually I trudged up the stairs to go to sleep, exhausted.
It was about three a.m. I flopped down on my bed and was about to go to sleep when a flash of red hair caught my attention...just as the owner of the hair yanked open my curtains.
"With Remus, huh?"

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