Author's Notes: Being my first attempt to do a sensible Gravi fic, I don't really know how people would react. This fic is angsty and has drama on the side which makes it… fun. The last part of this fic was inspired by the beautiful sky.

This fic is for the GBS [Gumball Society], Mayu-chan, Kimi-nee, Keax, and to all those who supported me and my fics. Thank you very much.  . I hope you'll enjoy reading this fic as much as I enjoyed writing it… somehow.

Disclaimers: Gravitation is not mine. It belongs to the great Maki Murakami.

Moonlight

By Hanabi Reeza

Happiness.

I never thought it had such a painful meaning.

We all know the word 'happiness' as a positive word, a word revealing joy. But somehow, its real meaning is contrary to the word itself.

Experiencing happiness meant being happy, joyous, cheerful. But for me, happiness only brought me tears… or pain, of sorrow…

Of loss.

But happiness is still happiness. I could not erase the meaning of the word from the dictionary.

I remember the day you came to me… no… ran to my house only to tell me that he called you by your first name. It pissed me off so much, now that I think about it. I was never really into love and the like. But what could I do? I'm your best friend.

Yup. ONLY a best friend.

Come to think of it, the word 'friend' is an ironic word too. Being friends meant companionship, sharing happiness and, at the same time, loneliness.

But what happened? Isn't it that I'm the only one who's suffering?

But what could I do? I love you. I would endure all my sufferings for you…

For YOU.

You continued talking about him, the way he talked, everything. And at the end of your story, you finally concluded.

"I love him, Tohma."

Ouch. That hurt me so much. But knowing you're happy somewhat made the pain not so painful. I was, somehow, happy when you got together. After all, you loved him so much. I was surprised when Eiri-san told me he loved you too. I turned out to be the so called 'bridge' between the two of you. It was really irritating at first, but I've grown accustomed to it.

But the problem was that with each passing day, I loved you more.

It has been three years since you and Eiri-san got married. I was the best man. I cried then. I wasn't really sure why, whether it was because I was sad because you'll be leaving me or it was because I was happy for both of you. But it doesn't matter now. What's important is you're happy with him.

Love, like many things, pass and go by. But sometimes, there is this love that won't die. And like the sun, it'll always be there to witness the joys, happiness, pains and sufferings of the one he loves.

But I couldn't be the sun of your life. Someone already occupied that slot. Then I'll be your moon. And even though I would only appear in the night, with my borrowed light from the sun, I'll guide you through the darkest hours of your night until the rays of your warm sunshine make way to the cerulean sky.

I love you, Ryuichi.

Author's Notes: I can't believe it. I finished this fic. After such a long time of thinking how I could do a nice TohRyu fic… here it is! For those who have reached the end, thank you very much for reading. Please review for my sake!

Disclaimers: Gravitation and its characters are not mine. It belongs to Maki Murakami.

7:14p

29Oct03