A/N: Heh, I guess this fic is doing better than my other RK fic. ::shudders:: Let's just say things got a little toasty! But that's okay, I'm continuing this one and hopefully, it won't get scorched! Writing in italics is a conversation in someone's head.
Disclaimer: Rurouni Kenshin isn't mine, never has been, never will be...I've learned to deal.
Kaoru was to scared to cry, for now, the tears would come later. She couldn't lose Kenshin. He had just started opening up to her. If he goes to war, he might shut himself out of the world, or maybe even...no! She pushed the thought away from her. She had to talk to Kenshin about it, but she knew he would say no. Secretly, she wanted that to be the answer. It seemed like everything would be okay as long as he was there. She walked out of her room to find Kenshin. He was outside with Megumi, Sano and Yahiko. They were all waiting for her. She watched Kenshin for awhile. He was smiling. How could he be so happy?
'Because his fate, along with Japan's aren't his decision,' a voice inside her head said.
'I can't let him go.'
'You're being selfish. You're risking the fate of the fate of the country for him. Do you want hundreds of people to die?'
'I...love...him.'
'How do you know he loves you,' the evil voice sneered. 'He sees you as a child'
'Stop,' she almost shouted out loud. She was lost in her thoughts and didn't notice Kenshin approach her.
"Kaoru-dono? Are you okay," he asked gently.
"Uh, I-"
"If you aren't feeling well, we can stay home, that we can," he reassured her.
"No, you guys have been waiting to do this all week. Please go."
"And you?"
"I'll stay, I think I'm coming down with something."
Kenshin knew she was lying, but he couldn't figure out why. Had he said something to offend her? No, he couldn't read anger in her eyes, only pain.
"I'll stay home with you then, I didn't want to go shopping anyway."
With that, he turned to tell the others the new plan.
'Perfect, now I can talk to him without people interrupting,' she thought.
The other's all left. Sano told her to feel better, and Yahiko commented on the fact that Kenshin was staying home with Kaoru. Megumi was glaring at Kaoru thinking she just wanted to be alone with him. Kaoru wished she was in Megumi's body right now. Walking away as she had to decide Kenshin's fate. She quickly snapped out of her thoughts when Kenshin came up to her and put a hand on her shoulder.
"Why did you really want to stay home?"
She couldn't take it anymore. The stress was to much for her. She whirled around and buried her face in his shirt. His eyes grew wide for a second, then he embraced her. He knew it was a good time to just let her cry.
Soon she was done and Kenshin tried again.
"Kaoru-dono, do you want to tell me about something?" He was trying to be gentle.
She looked into his eyes and saw that he really did care about her feelings. She wasn't sure on how he would respond when she told him.
"Well, Kenshin, that man that was here a little while ago, he-"
"He didn't hurt you did he?"
"No, no! It's just that...why don't you want to go to war?" She was having a hard time fighting back the tears. They threatened to begin flowing again, so she bit her lower lip to try to stop.
He sort of laughed at first. It was a forced laugh. "I've already told you, I've seen enough of the war, I can't do it again."
"But Kenshin!" Her tears stopped. "Japan is in trouble! You can't risk all that! Please!"
"Do you want me to go?"
Her tears flowed freely (a/n, yes I know she cries a lot.) as she threw herself into Kenshin's arms again. She just wanted to stay like that forever. His embrace was so comforting and to think that she might lose that, she began to cry even harder. Kenshin didn't know what to do. He was trying his best to figure out where Kaoru was going with this. It seemed like she wanted him to stay...but she was convincing him to go? She was right though. He was being selfish. Just because he didn't want to fight, he was putting many other people in danger, according to that man. (a/n: btw, I realize I never mentioned his name. It might come later.) He had to fight again. He let go of Kaoru.
"Kaoru-dono, I think that I have to fight. Like you said, Japan needs me, and I can't be selfish."
"Yes you can! Don't go! Don't leave me again!" She was still hugging him, but her face wasn't buried in his shirt. "I can't lose you again!"
"I promise that I'll come back to you." Guilt over swept him as he realized that Tomoe's fiancé, probably said the same thing, but he never made it back. He wouldn't do that to Kaoru though, he couldn't. "I promise I'll come back Kaoru." Kaoru looked up at him when she heard him say her name without the honorific at the end.
A/N: How was that? Is it to slow or boring? To much dialog? Please tell me in a review! I also realize that Kaoru doesn't usually have conversations in her head, but she's stressed out, so it seemed appropriate!
Disclaimer: Rurouni Kenshin isn't mine, never has been, never will be...I've learned to deal.
Kaoru was to scared to cry, for now, the tears would come later. She couldn't lose Kenshin. He had just started opening up to her. If he goes to war, he might shut himself out of the world, or maybe even...no! She pushed the thought away from her. She had to talk to Kenshin about it, but she knew he would say no. Secretly, she wanted that to be the answer. It seemed like everything would be okay as long as he was there. She walked out of her room to find Kenshin. He was outside with Megumi, Sano and Yahiko. They were all waiting for her. She watched Kenshin for awhile. He was smiling. How could he be so happy?
'Because his fate, along with Japan's aren't his decision,' a voice inside her head said.
'I can't let him go.'
'You're being selfish. You're risking the fate of the fate of the country for him. Do you want hundreds of people to die?'
'I...love...him.'
'How do you know he loves you,' the evil voice sneered. 'He sees you as a child'
'Stop,' she almost shouted out loud. She was lost in her thoughts and didn't notice Kenshin approach her.
"Kaoru-dono? Are you okay," he asked gently.
"Uh, I-"
"If you aren't feeling well, we can stay home, that we can," he reassured her.
"No, you guys have been waiting to do this all week. Please go."
"And you?"
"I'll stay, I think I'm coming down with something."
Kenshin knew she was lying, but he couldn't figure out why. Had he said something to offend her? No, he couldn't read anger in her eyes, only pain.
"I'll stay home with you then, I didn't want to go shopping anyway."
With that, he turned to tell the others the new plan.
'Perfect, now I can talk to him without people interrupting,' she thought.
The other's all left. Sano told her to feel better, and Yahiko commented on the fact that Kenshin was staying home with Kaoru. Megumi was glaring at Kaoru thinking she just wanted to be alone with him. Kaoru wished she was in Megumi's body right now. Walking away as she had to decide Kenshin's fate. She quickly snapped out of her thoughts when Kenshin came up to her and put a hand on her shoulder.
"Why did you really want to stay home?"
She couldn't take it anymore. The stress was to much for her. She whirled around and buried her face in his shirt. His eyes grew wide for a second, then he embraced her. He knew it was a good time to just let her cry.
Soon she was done and Kenshin tried again.
"Kaoru-dono, do you want to tell me about something?" He was trying to be gentle.
She looked into his eyes and saw that he really did care about her feelings. She wasn't sure on how he would respond when she told him.
"Well, Kenshin, that man that was here a little while ago, he-"
"He didn't hurt you did he?"
"No, no! It's just that...why don't you want to go to war?" She was having a hard time fighting back the tears. They threatened to begin flowing again, so she bit her lower lip to try to stop.
He sort of laughed at first. It was a forced laugh. "I've already told you, I've seen enough of the war, I can't do it again."
"But Kenshin!" Her tears stopped. "Japan is in trouble! You can't risk all that! Please!"
"Do you want me to go?"
Her tears flowed freely (a/n, yes I know she cries a lot.) as she threw herself into Kenshin's arms again. She just wanted to stay like that forever. His embrace was so comforting and to think that she might lose that, she began to cry even harder. Kenshin didn't know what to do. He was trying his best to figure out where Kaoru was going with this. It seemed like she wanted him to stay...but she was convincing him to go? She was right though. He was being selfish. Just because he didn't want to fight, he was putting many other people in danger, according to that man. (a/n: btw, I realize I never mentioned his name. It might come later.) He had to fight again. He let go of Kaoru.
"Kaoru-dono, I think that I have to fight. Like you said, Japan needs me, and I can't be selfish."
"Yes you can! Don't go! Don't leave me again!" She was still hugging him, but her face wasn't buried in his shirt. "I can't lose you again!"
"I promise that I'll come back to you." Guilt over swept him as he realized that Tomoe's fiancé, probably said the same thing, but he never made it back. He wouldn't do that to Kaoru though, he couldn't. "I promise I'll come back Kaoru." Kaoru looked up at him when she heard him say her name without the honorific at the end.
A/N: How was that? Is it to slow or boring? To much dialog? Please tell me in a review! I also realize that Kaoru doesn't usually have conversations in her head, but she's stressed out, so it seemed appropriate!