A/N: I know I said no more Journey stories on this site for me but this is
also a Carlos stories and I wanted to share it with Carlos fans here. If
you do not want me to post it here, I will cont. to post it at JITLN.
A/N2: I did this in First Person POV, I hope you like it this way but if you like it better in Third Person POV, please tell me, I want to make this Story the way you want it made. If you have any ideas how to make this a better story, tell me. Idea are greatly appreciated for any of my stories.
A/N3: Like Nobody Knows It But Me this will be the sign that I am changing POVs: *~* .
Chapter Ten
"You want what!" I shout into the phone. How in the hell did she know about Courtney and more important how in the fuck did she get to make this call. What was this about, and why in gods name why would she want to do something for her kidnapper.
"Look Jason I need to know if Courtney is okay. Alcazar is worry sick and Jason I know what it feels like not to know if your child is okay, all I ask, as your best friend is to know if she is all right. Maybe even let her talk to him, I will make sure Alcazar won't ask no question where she is," she says. I see the look on Courtney face. She would love to talk to her dad. I am not sure I can not give her what she wants. I want her to be happy. Should I let her talk to him? I think about how it felt when Michael was missing, how it felt when I gave my rights to Michael to Sonny. I look at her. I know that I am falling in love with her and I can't deny her this.
"She is fine Carly, I would never hurt a woman you know that. She can talk to him, but he can not ask where she is, can not ask her anything to the effect. Understand?" I hear myself. I sound like a jerk. I look at Courtney, in the eyes and I can see the hope in them.
"Hold on, I will tell Alcazar and let him know," I hear her put the phone on the table, and I do also. I move close where Em is doing her make-up and stoop down to my hunches so I am eye level with her.
"Courtney I am going let you talk to your father, if he asks anything about where you are, and I hear you answer I will disconnect the call. I will move you to another location understand?" I look at her and I see her start to smile and tears fill her eyes I know this is what she wants. I look over and I can see Em smiling at me. The two most special girls look at me with their special smiles and I know the risk I am taking is worth it.
*~*
I walk into where Alcazar is sitting. He looks so sad, I hate when he looks this way. I hate when he doesn't give me the lopsided smile. I know I should even think about his smile like that but I can't help it. I feel myself thinking about him more then Sonny now. For some reason he is all I can think about. I go over and sit on the arm of his chair. I can feel his warmth next to me. I can feel his smile. I can feel him stare at me. "He is going to let you talk to her," I see his smile, and the next thing I know is I am in his lap. His lips on mine. His lips are so full, so soft. I can not believe he is kissing me, that I am letting him. I love the feel of his lips pressed against mine. His tongue glides across my lower lip and I moan. He takes the opportunity to deepen the kiss. His tongue sliding all over my mouth, tasting me deeply. When he pulls away we are both breathless. I can not believe I did that. I shouldn't have. I am married to Sonny, carrying his baby. Here I am kissing another man.
"I'm Sorry Carly. I shouldn't have done that. I was just so happy," so it wasn't a kiss because he found me attractive. It was a kiss because he was happy, that I got him a chance to talk to his daughter. 'Well Carly look at yourself. Why would he find you attractive,' I feel tears prick the back of my eyes but I swallow them back. It doesn't matter. I know at him I have Sonny, he will always want me.
"All he ask is that you don't ask questions about where she is or it will be over," I get off his lap and walk back into my cabin. The hurt still there but I won't let it hurt for to long. I am smarter then that.
*~*
I see Ric walk in the door and I smile. It was time for her to go, Alcazar's little bastard child will know what my wife felt like. Chained to a wall. "Sonny so you want me to treat this girl like Carly," he asks.
Yes just like Carly, or worse I say to myself but I say nothing pouring him a drink, along with myself. "Sit down and we'll talk."
*~*
I cannot believe it I am going to talk to my dad finally. Finally I will get to talk to my father. I stand up and I watch Jason rise to his full height. I hug him, I hug him tight. I am so happy. I get to talk to my daddy finally. I feel his arms pull my against him. I want to moan his body feels so good against me. I pull away and give him a smile. I run to the phone and I feel everyone eyes on me.
When I pick it up I hear a woman's voice. She sounds like my mother a little. Her deeper then normal voice, but still sweet. "Jason are you there," she asks.
"No um he is here but this is Courtney," I hear her smile as I tell her this. I think I would like her. For some reason, not even meeting her I think I would like her. I felt like I had some connection with her.
"I have heard so much about you and here is your father. He has missed you dearly," I hear her hand the phone to my father. I already have tears falling.
"Baby girl?" I hear him ask. God I miss him. I love that name he had given me after my mother died.
"Daddy, daddy it is so good to hear your voice," my tears fall harder.
"Same here baby girl same here. Are you okay? Is he treating you right?" was he treating my all right. Yes he was, he had protected me. He was going against his own boss for me. Making me fall in love with him.
"Yes daddy he is treating me well, are you treating Carly well," I ask. I turn and look at Jason as I do and I see he is smiling at me. Of course I already knew that. I can feel when he does that. I hear my father laugh.
"Yes, yes I am treating her well. I am going to save you baby, trust daddy on that. I will save you," when he says those word the first thought that pops in my mine is, do I want to be saved from Jason?
A/N4: Any good, I am sorry to any of you non-Carlos fan but I love them and wanted to put them in my story. I hope you still like it. Also I am sorry for taking so long to update. I just got so into right Nobody Know It But Me, I am sorry. Please Review. Love Always Ashley.
A/N2: I did this in First Person POV, I hope you like it this way but if you like it better in Third Person POV, please tell me, I want to make this Story the way you want it made. If you have any ideas how to make this a better story, tell me. Idea are greatly appreciated for any of my stories.
A/N3: Like Nobody Knows It But Me this will be the sign that I am changing POVs: *~* .
Chapter Ten
"You want what!" I shout into the phone. How in the hell did she know about Courtney and more important how in the fuck did she get to make this call. What was this about, and why in gods name why would she want to do something for her kidnapper.
"Look Jason I need to know if Courtney is okay. Alcazar is worry sick and Jason I know what it feels like not to know if your child is okay, all I ask, as your best friend is to know if she is all right. Maybe even let her talk to him, I will make sure Alcazar won't ask no question where she is," she says. I see the look on Courtney face. She would love to talk to her dad. I am not sure I can not give her what she wants. I want her to be happy. Should I let her talk to him? I think about how it felt when Michael was missing, how it felt when I gave my rights to Michael to Sonny. I look at her. I know that I am falling in love with her and I can't deny her this.
"She is fine Carly, I would never hurt a woman you know that. She can talk to him, but he can not ask where she is, can not ask her anything to the effect. Understand?" I hear myself. I sound like a jerk. I look at Courtney, in the eyes and I can see the hope in them.
"Hold on, I will tell Alcazar and let him know," I hear her put the phone on the table, and I do also. I move close where Em is doing her make-up and stoop down to my hunches so I am eye level with her.
"Courtney I am going let you talk to your father, if he asks anything about where you are, and I hear you answer I will disconnect the call. I will move you to another location understand?" I look at her and I see her start to smile and tears fill her eyes I know this is what she wants. I look over and I can see Em smiling at me. The two most special girls look at me with their special smiles and I know the risk I am taking is worth it.
*~*
I walk into where Alcazar is sitting. He looks so sad, I hate when he looks this way. I hate when he doesn't give me the lopsided smile. I know I should even think about his smile like that but I can't help it. I feel myself thinking about him more then Sonny now. For some reason he is all I can think about. I go over and sit on the arm of his chair. I can feel his warmth next to me. I can feel his smile. I can feel him stare at me. "He is going to let you talk to her," I see his smile, and the next thing I know is I am in his lap. His lips on mine. His lips are so full, so soft. I can not believe he is kissing me, that I am letting him. I love the feel of his lips pressed against mine. His tongue glides across my lower lip and I moan. He takes the opportunity to deepen the kiss. His tongue sliding all over my mouth, tasting me deeply. When he pulls away we are both breathless. I can not believe I did that. I shouldn't have. I am married to Sonny, carrying his baby. Here I am kissing another man.
"I'm Sorry Carly. I shouldn't have done that. I was just so happy," so it wasn't a kiss because he found me attractive. It was a kiss because he was happy, that I got him a chance to talk to his daughter. 'Well Carly look at yourself. Why would he find you attractive,' I feel tears prick the back of my eyes but I swallow them back. It doesn't matter. I know at him I have Sonny, he will always want me.
"All he ask is that you don't ask questions about where she is or it will be over," I get off his lap and walk back into my cabin. The hurt still there but I won't let it hurt for to long. I am smarter then that.
*~*
I see Ric walk in the door and I smile. It was time for her to go, Alcazar's little bastard child will know what my wife felt like. Chained to a wall. "Sonny so you want me to treat this girl like Carly," he asks.
Yes just like Carly, or worse I say to myself but I say nothing pouring him a drink, along with myself. "Sit down and we'll talk."
*~*
I cannot believe it I am going to talk to my dad finally. Finally I will get to talk to my father. I stand up and I watch Jason rise to his full height. I hug him, I hug him tight. I am so happy. I get to talk to my daddy finally. I feel his arms pull my against him. I want to moan his body feels so good against me. I pull away and give him a smile. I run to the phone and I feel everyone eyes on me.
When I pick it up I hear a woman's voice. She sounds like my mother a little. Her deeper then normal voice, but still sweet. "Jason are you there," she asks.
"No um he is here but this is Courtney," I hear her smile as I tell her this. I think I would like her. For some reason, not even meeting her I think I would like her. I felt like I had some connection with her.
"I have heard so much about you and here is your father. He has missed you dearly," I hear her hand the phone to my father. I already have tears falling.
"Baby girl?" I hear him ask. God I miss him. I love that name he had given me after my mother died.
"Daddy, daddy it is so good to hear your voice," my tears fall harder.
"Same here baby girl same here. Are you okay? Is he treating you right?" was he treating my all right. Yes he was, he had protected me. He was going against his own boss for me. Making me fall in love with him.
"Yes daddy he is treating me well, are you treating Carly well," I ask. I turn and look at Jason as I do and I see he is smiling at me. Of course I already knew that. I can feel when he does that. I hear my father laugh.
"Yes, yes I am treating her well. I am going to save you baby, trust daddy on that. I will save you," when he says those word the first thought that pops in my mine is, do I want to be saved from Jason?
A/N4: Any good, I am sorry to any of you non-Carlos fan but I love them and wanted to put them in my story. I hope you still like it. Also I am sorry for taking so long to update. I just got so into right Nobody Know It But Me, I am sorry. Please Review. Love Always Ashley.