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Chapter 4: All She Wanted
Well so much for them talking. Not that she really expected much. But it pissed her off so much, that he was going to do this again. The same thing he did when Gamma died and they were having problems. He ran, and he was going to do it again.
Now Abby was the one standing outside thinking. Not even realizing the cold, because she was mad. She was mad that he was going to do the same thing to himself again.
She had no right to be mad, she knew that. But Abby couldn't help it, she knew why he wanted to leave. But she knew that it wouldn't help, it would just make things worse if and when he came back. She wished she knew what she could do to make him see this.
But standing out in the cold wasn't going to help her, so she turned to head inside. But half way to the door, she stopped. To her left, the place. A place she could never forget. She had only been up here once since then. It was with Neela the last time, and the time before that.... she didn't want to remember. It was too much to remember. Why did she have to be so stupid then. Why didn't she just run into his arms when he said that. Why didn't she tell him that she loved him and that she wanted to marry him. Then none of this would have happened.
Why had she done all those stupid things. Why had she been so stubborn, never able to say what she felt. She hated remembering things like this, things that she would do anything to do over. She felt a tear run down her cheek, but quickly wiped it away.
It was too long ago, she thought. It shouldn't still affect her like this. She couldn't stay here, so Abby turned around and headed back inside.
When she got back down to the busy ER, she realized she still had to brief Carter on the patients. But she didn't really want to talk to him. It would be a little awkward. Maybe if Luka was on she could give it to him.
Abby looked at the board. No, Carter and Luka had switched shifts so that now it was Carter who worked nights. Luka had wanted to spend more time with Sam and Alex, now that they were living together. She would just ask Morris to pass things on to him. Morris was still there, he had to clean up, a 5 year old had throw up on him earlier. Not that he didn't deserve it, he had been a real jerk to the kid, so the kid purposely threw up on him.
Abby left 20 minutes later. Walking out into the Ambulance bay she didn't know what to do. She was tired, she just wanted to talk to someone though. She would just go home. Neela had been staying with her. Since Neela couldn't get another job, she was staying with Abby until she could get back into a residency program at County.
Neela didn't actually know anything though. She didn't know a thing about them, their history.
But she wasn't looking for pity, and the more she thought about it, she didn't want to talk about it. She just wanted company, someone to talk with. A friend, but yet she wanted more than that. She wanted someone to hold her while she cried, she wanted someone to hug, to kiss, to love, she hated to admit it, but all she wanted was Carter.
Chapter 4: All She Wanted
Well so much for them talking. Not that she really expected much. But it pissed her off so much, that he was going to do this again. The same thing he did when Gamma died and they were having problems. He ran, and he was going to do it again.
Now Abby was the one standing outside thinking. Not even realizing the cold, because she was mad. She was mad that he was going to do the same thing to himself again.
She had no right to be mad, she knew that. But Abby couldn't help it, she knew why he wanted to leave. But she knew that it wouldn't help, it would just make things worse if and when he came back. She wished she knew what she could do to make him see this.
But standing out in the cold wasn't going to help her, so she turned to head inside. But half way to the door, she stopped. To her left, the place. A place she could never forget. She had only been up here once since then. It was with Neela the last time, and the time before that.... she didn't want to remember. It was too much to remember. Why did she have to be so stupid then. Why didn't she just run into his arms when he said that. Why didn't she tell him that she loved him and that she wanted to marry him. Then none of this would have happened.
Why had she done all those stupid things. Why had she been so stubborn, never able to say what she felt. She hated remembering things like this, things that she would do anything to do over. She felt a tear run down her cheek, but quickly wiped it away.
It was too long ago, she thought. It shouldn't still affect her like this. She couldn't stay here, so Abby turned around and headed back inside.
When she got back down to the busy ER, she realized she still had to brief Carter on the patients. But she didn't really want to talk to him. It would be a little awkward. Maybe if Luka was on she could give it to him.
Abby looked at the board. No, Carter and Luka had switched shifts so that now it was Carter who worked nights. Luka had wanted to spend more time with Sam and Alex, now that they were living together. She would just ask Morris to pass things on to him. Morris was still there, he had to clean up, a 5 year old had throw up on him earlier. Not that he didn't deserve it, he had been a real jerk to the kid, so the kid purposely threw up on him.
Abby left 20 minutes later. Walking out into the Ambulance bay she didn't know what to do. She was tired, she just wanted to talk to someone though. She would just go home. Neela had been staying with her. Since Neela couldn't get another job, she was staying with Abby until she could get back into a residency program at County.
Neela didn't actually know anything though. She didn't know a thing about them, their history.
But she wasn't looking for pity, and the more she thought about it, she didn't want to talk about it. She just wanted company, someone to talk with. A friend, but yet she wanted more than that. She wanted someone to hold her while she cried, she wanted someone to hug, to kiss, to love, she hated to admit it, but all she wanted was Carter.