AN: Hey all you readers out there in reader land! (Forgive me, this whole thing if gonna sound a bit goofy as I am extremely hyper for some un known reason *coughstrongcoffeecough *) You all are going to want to kill me after I say this, but here goes anyway. I left this REALLY awesome chappy at school. 'Member how I said that I didn't have mucho time to write, well, I didn't and I wrote during extra class time. I put all of this writing in my lit notebook, being that it was a lit notebook and this was/is a story. Well, well, well, it was Friday, I had an hour and an half before I was outo f school for 9 days and I put my lit notebook up in my locker without retrieving the half completed chapter from inside. You can kill me now. But wait! The Becca knows what to do! She is taking this whole thing as a sign. I/she was worried that jumping forward into what would be the next chapter (aforementioned one in locker) and she wasn't sure that she should do so. It would be jumping a month or so ahead. So now I write what is to happen in between that. Can you wait? Neither can I. I would just like to say an short apology to the last chapter. I was mistaken on how exactly one person does HTML on ff.net and it didn't work. Read on!

Life According To Me

Chapter 22

CH-CH-CH-CHANGES!

James looked up at his friends, "Spring Break sound good to you guys?" Remus laughed at the irony. They were speaking of turning into animagi forms for the first time, and the next full moon happened to be two days after spring break started. Shaking his head, "Yeah sure, it works for me. So long as Lily will distract Cayte, she still wants to become one with us," Sirius said towards James.

"What's the big deal? Why don't you want her to come?" James asked, puzzled that his friend who could barely stand to be away from his girlfriend for five minutes didn't want her to join in on the fun. Sirius sat in silence for a moment, debating what to do, 'Why? WHY? I don't want her to come because it's so freaking unsafe for ANYONE to do, and I wouldn't be able to stand it if she were to get hurt. But do I tell this to them? Nah, just bypass the question, tell James later…' "I just don't want her to, that's all. Do I have to have a freaking reason for everything?"

They all dismissed it, James figured he'd get it out of him sooner or later and he preferred sooner than later. They all agreed that as soon as spring break started they would start their first transformation. Shortly after this (to Sirius' satisfaction) Cayte came down from taking a nap in her dorm.

"I love Saturdays! You get to sleep late, wake up eat, and then sleep some more!" the Gryffindor said while braiding her long brown hair behind her. Glancing around, Cayte noticed that there were no more seats around the group, she turned around and saw a chair that was not being used by anyone. Much to Sirius' disappointment, Cayte drew out her wand and pointed at the chair, "Accio chair" and the chair scooted over towards her. Sitting down with her feet hanging over one arm and her head leaning against the other side she looked over at Sirius, "Why so ungablusm Siri Babe?" Sirius looked at her with is head cocked to the side.

"Wow, he will make a good dog!" Peter remarked as Lily drew his attention, "Ungablusm, it means blue, unhappy, glum, down in the dumps etc. in Yiddish." Cayte juts nodded her head, glad that Lily could answer that one for her boyfriend.

It was now James' turn to look puzzled, "Um…Lily, how did you know that?" Lily smiled, "Ask Cayte, she's the one who told me." All heads turned towards Cayte, "Ah, well you see, my grandmother is fluent in Yiddish, as half of my family is Jewish, and I've grown up hearing stuff like that! It kinda rubs off on you after a while, and thus I use it, also explaining Lily's understanding. But, Siri you still have yet to answer my question."

They all laughed at Sirius as he voided off the answer, 'maybe because I wanted you to sit with me…or well…on my lap. Maybe because I'm worried about this whole animagi thing, and maybe because I'm just worried about you,' but instead of voicing his true feelings he just said, "No reason, just tired I guess." After awhile they all headed down for lunch, then Sirius and Cayte headed over to the tree to talk- yes actually talk- for awhile.

"Cayte? What's up with you lately? You seem so…I don't know… distant?" Sirius asked pulling her down to sit on the grass with him. And it was true, she had been a bit distant since the week or so before. It was small things that only he really noticed, stuff no one else would think about. Cayte knew what he was talking about, but was afraid to tell him why. "What do you mean? Distant? How?"

Sirius didn't really know what to say from there, "Well, I mean, you go up to bed real early and sleep until there's five minutes left of breakfast before class. But even with all that sleep, you still have circles under your eyes. And in class, you drift off not paying attention, which is something that I know you wouldn't normally do. So are you going to tell me or," a grin appeared on his face, "will I have to tickle it out of you, cause I will you know!"

At first Cayte was a bit confused, it was like he was flirting with her while trying to be serious, then it hit her, he knew her too well, "Well, tickle away, I'm not saying a thing…" she said staring down at the grass. Sirius turned to face her and put his hand gently under her chin, picking up her head so that she could see how serious he was really being about this. Cayte started to squirm, lifting her hand to pull his away she looked at him, "Dammit Siri, how did you know my weakness? Right under my chin is the WORST place in the way of being ticklish for me." With an amazed look on his face he looked at where Cayte was taking his hand away, and he noticed that half of it had rested right underneath her chin.

Sighing, Cayte again turned to the grass and started to play, "I suppose you should know, its just one of those things. I haven't really been sleeping too well, thus the nap earlier, in which I still didn't sleep. I've tossed and turned all night, ever night since –for whatever reason this is- Lily proclaimed herself as a vegetarian. I just sit there all night thinking."

Sirius had to hold back the smart ass comment that was forming in his mind ('NO SHIT? YOU THINK?) Instead he said, "Why sweetie? What's up?" Cayte saw the look of concern on her boyfriends' face and started to look down at the grass again. "I'm still scared. I had thought I had gotten over my fear. You know the one of falling in love. It's still there. And I'm not saying in any way that I think I'm in love with you, it's just that I'm afraid. I don't know what to do. Every time we kiss or do anything else I get this feeling, like I'm falling and it won't go away."

Sirius just looked at her, seeing how hard it was to tell him all of this, he wanted to comfort her but was afraid she'd get the falling feeling again. "Baby, I don't think your afraid of falling in love," he put his thumb on her lips to stop her protests, "I think your afraid of the unknown. Afraid of what's to come, and afraid of something new, like our relationship. It's a change, and I think you are scared of it."

"I suppose your right. I mean, that would make sense," Cayte started to laugh, "I was so terrified when I first arrived here. I was so used to the routine of things. How everything ran, where everything was. All that stuff…" a smirk came across the brunettes face as she sung, "'Well I've been afraid of changing, cause I've built my life around you' Fleetwood Mac, Landslide. I guess I was afraid of the changes from my old school to Hogwarts. Especially about not waking up to see the same faces. G-d was I glad when you started talking to me, it was someone who seemed interested in what I had to say."

Sirius smiled, "Well as I recall, I didn't talk to you first. I wrote. But who cares, if your quoting songs I know you're a little better than before. Suddenly a thought popped into his head, and a smirk appeared on his face, "CH-CH-CH-CHANGES!!!" Cayte laughed and leaned over towards him, their lips met and Sirius pulled her closer towards him, but broke the connection. "Still getting that feeling?" he asked out of concern. Cayte only nodded and whispered, "Yeah, but it's not as bad, not like I'm falling to jagged rocks three miles down," then before Sirius could stop her she leaned in to kiss him again. 'He doesn't need to know that instead of rocks, it's him waiting there to catch me…and yet I'm still so scared…'

Sirius scooted to lean against the tree and pulled Cayte into his lap, so she was sitting horizontally and could face him. He took her hands in his and went to continue kissing but stopped leaning, "Bloody hell! Your hands are freezing!" he started to warm them in his own as Cayte laughed. "Welcome to my life. They're always like that," gesturing with her head towards her hands, "I get anywhere that's below body temperature and they freeze. Same with my feet." A look of understanding came over Sirius' face, "So that's why you always wear socks!"
"And if wearing a cloak, my hands are always in the pockets," she said continuing the statement. Sirius leaned over and kissed her on the cheek, "Come on, let's go inside," he said, standing up and reaching his arm down to help her.
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"10 days left!" Cayte said to the group as they walked to breakfast. "Almost time for break" she commented, looking out the window and noticing the tree by the lake. 'It's seems like it's been so long since Valentine's day. Hell it seems like it was yesterday when Sirius and I talked about the 'CH-CH-CH-CHANGES!', as he liked to put it. Hard to believe a month has passed' she thought walking into the Great Hall just as the mail was arriving. Sirius noted that there seemed to be more owls flying in and leaving as it got closer to the break, 'Humph, wish my parents wanted me home badly enough to owl for me,' he thought, sitting down next to Cayte.
Things had gotten a bit better as far as Cayte's fears. She was still afraid of the unknown, something she had always figured, but as always a change becomes the norm after awhile so she was getting used to having someone hold her when she was cold, and kiss her just because she was there.
The groups spirits were high in the days that led towards break, only Sirius was having any doubts. Cayte noticed something was amiss with her boyfriend, but decided it was just pre break stuff. In truth Sirius felt like shit for lying to her, as that was exactly what not telling her about when they were becoming animagi was. James tried to get him to tell her, just so that they would all feel better about the whole situation, but Sirius refused knowing that it could jeopardize her safety, and that was the last thing he wanted.
Lily and Cayte had fun the last few days before school, none of the teachers really expected them to work very hard, save McGonagall who gave them a test the day before. Most of the time Cayte and Lily just goofed off and wrote notes to each other. Sirius was absent from all of this as he spent the time catching up on detentions with all of his teachers, but that's not to say that James and the rest of their group were there too.
AN: Hello all! Well, here's on chapter up. I have officially decided what to do about the whole chapter-in-my-locker mishap. I already know what is to come right after that fateful chapter and thus I will be working on those the rest of my break. That way when I type up what I have, I can quite simply post a chapter every day or so, though I might space it out. This also does something that I have wanted to do for awhile, that is get ahead of where I am on ff.net. This can't be posted immediately as I am grounded from the net for the night because I got on to do something my mom had asked me to do before my laundry was done…How insane is that? I was doing something she wanted me to! Oh well, Review please! (Where are you guys, I've posted a chapter and you haven't been reviewing. I feel lost…)